I’m afraid to take the first step toward finding such a relationship because I’m pretty sure all I’ll find is some guy who just wants to abuse a chick who has no self-esteem and likes to be ordered around. I want to be with someone who needs the power exchange as much as I do. I want to know that he’s human but irrationally believe that he’s not, but is instead my perfect, flawless authority figure that knows what’s best for me.
I wasn't filtering as I wrote so I'm not sure if that's just completely unrealistic. I have no real or extensive experience but feel so incredibly drawn to it that I'm going so far as putting my face up online here with the possibility that my boss/family member/etc. will stumble across it. Doubt it, though :P
I'm looking for something with substance, passion, and intensity; these are things I've lacked in previous relationships which makes me feel like there's something missing in my life. I want to experience the full range of emotions that comes with sexual intimacy. I'm not looking to "go through the motions" with some guy who thinks he can be a big bad Dom and is just trying too hard, which just makes me feel sorry for him. I want to respect my Dom as well as trust and be loyal to him. I'm naturally submissive, so I'd like to be with someone whose dominance comes naturally to them as well.