i've played around long enough, it's time to get serious about my submissive needs.

it's listed in my handle and profile info. but just in case all that is missed, i state clearly up front that i am a VERY large girl (320 lbs.) and i am not interested in wasting anyone's time who is not interested in such.

i am a submissive with around 10 years reading/studying/talking/learning online and about 1.5 years r/l "scening" without having been in a relationship.

some of those i have "played" with were no more Dominant than i am, and were just looking for a clever way to get pussy. Some were talented and skilled in what they did. in either case, at the time i was playing i was involved in an open relationship with a vanilla man that has now ended, and i am now prepared to embark upon entering a D/s relationship, which is what i seek.

i fantasize about someday becoming a true slave to one Master, but i recognize i have a lot to learn and am not going to jump into that arena overnight. but i have a NEED to be of service to a Man and to be molded into what He desires. i enjoy seeing that He is pleased by my obedience and that i have been of use and service to Him in whatever way He needs at that particular time.

i am intelligent, VERY nervous (bordering on terror) when first meeting new people but when i get to know someone i can open up and am unyieldingly honest, sincere, at times nerdy but fun :) and feel a need to rise to the (reasonable and easy at first and then gradually intensified, lol) expectations placed upon me.