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| i aint gonna lie when i say i have a high labito! i like to get out and have a good time anytime. blue eyes average build and i love to make people smile! comedy is great. i love the outdoors. hockey is definatly in my blood but so is just about everyother sport. yes, sport nut tis me. not all women should be subjected to my kind of dominance, but there are a few who just might be able to handle it. i must admit im not the average joe people think. once you get to know me you see me for me and not some sex crazed maniac. but sex is something everyone must enjoy in there own time. but then again im reminded why i have the tendency to come on a bit strong. anyway subs, if ya want a good daddy, hit me up for some no strings kinda fun.
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strappin on my backpack,
got a lil napsack,
anything to hold my next meal,
livin on the streets dawg this shits for real.
cold as fuck,
sleepin in the backs of trucks,
wanna be drunk as fuck,
head hangin low,
sorrowful no,
just lookin for a dime but im broke and stuck. |
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here and gone just like the rest, so is this gods way of puttin me to the test? patiently i wait,standing idly by, but my lonliness makes me want to cry. no tears left only dry sad eyes, trying to find the truth but only finding lies. when will she be here? when is she coming back? Just like last year and were on a different track. be patient, she says she will come, but to wait people say im dumb. to hell with them, true love waits. no matter how long she is behind closed gates. the days go by like shedding tears, every minute without her feels like years. i see darkness in a bright mischevious place, and blindly i walk on with a blank look on my face. how much longer do i have to suffer? how long do i have to walk under this darkened cloud? i dont care for how long cuz with her i feel proud. proud to hold her and call her mine. and proud of the love we share, truly devine. so till the day comes that i get to hold her again, i think of the life we should be sharing and the way things should have been. |
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a new day today, 5am i rose, in pain i really cant lay, so wake me more with a rubber hose. i can barely move, my back is so sore, to the hospital i go, painkillers, ya i definatly need more. how many times do i have to wake like this? how many times in pain? this old man can barely walk, all i see outside is rain. my view obstructed to the outside world, but no lights an sirens, just a simple transport, but ive had it up to my wits end. How many more trips to e.r.? and how many more wrist bands? life really sux without a car, this i think while emt looks at my glands. no im not sick, just in alot of pain, the needle give a sharp lil stick, now the morphine will make me sane. but am i really ok? sure im alive, but what if i took a ride away, from someone suffering from hives. I didnt mean for this. im strong when theres pain. but this pain is unbearable, but then they say no pain no gain. what am i suppose to gain? a tolerance for torture? a reluctance to pain? or do i just want another needle in my vein? i feel the burning of the morphine flow, up and up my back it burns. doc says now its time to go, and my stomache starts to churn. so hungry for anything, but no money in my wallet, no ride to get home, and walking really sux, dont it? no more back troubles, for a few hours that is, my blood it boils and bubbles, but the paycheck is his. another cold gloomy day, another few hours alone, what was it they say? u got nothing without a home. so back on the street, walking so blindly by. i feel used torn and beat, but im just another guy. a noose, or knife, or gun, or sword, all sounds good to me, but instead i feel the need for the psych ward. so i continue to walk this daunting road, looking for a woman to bust my load. always searching for what aint there. good gods lookin out for me, so i dont really care. gday to all and please dont stare. im just and ordinary down on his luck guy, and i will hit you if you dare to glare. so let this be your warning, bums are people too. just down on our luck, unlike lucky lil you. |
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3/26/07
Today i find myself staring into nothing. Hoping and wishing that something will happen. What that is i have no freakin clue, just want something to land in my lap (litterally). The days turn to nights, warm weather to cold. Im trying to reach new heights, but i feel as im getting to old. Body pains that need a good rubbin, emotions going stir crazy, my manhood keeps on erectin and rosy's gettin lazy. To live without something too see, to blindly walk on into the darkness of life, wondering where the hell at my age i should be, lord knows i dont need any extra strife. deep down i know what i need to do, deep down i feel a sudden chill, i look in the mirror and my face is blue, maybe its just me gettin ill. doubtful to that for i am strong, but why do i feel so blah, i know it aint the drinkin or the beer bong, could be just a lil flaw. Yet to test my patients once again, to bottle up negativity to not snap, waitin for the right opportunity to release an be sane, till then ill lie down for an unprecidented nap. but there in lies the fear, afraid to close my eyes, no not a fear of death, but afraid of dreamin lil evil lies. I dream of someone blurred in the face, my lil kitten maybe, dreams go on with no disgrace, an i see love that i know just wont be. lil evil dreams, trying to say your future, bright light on me it beams, will i accept it all? sure. I dominate and take control, lift and tease and tickle and hold, maybe i deserve the sign of a bull, but i wont stop untill im cold. cold what?you may ask, cold heart or what else, give me a sec to drink my flask, then my cold torn up heart will leave your house. I walk alone with no shadow, I walk in the darkness with no end. will you take me an give me a pillow? or will you just see how far i will bend? No i dont want any of it, but at the same time i do, im falling into a bottomless pit, now i know before death what was always true. But as of now i seek certain answers, i seek this so called happiness of life, and along the road has been bumps and curves, and all ive ever wanted was a family and good wife. gnight world, maybe ill see you tomorrow, no guarentees of waking up, just cover me up and lay me low, just dont try and drag me around like a lil pup. |
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| Age: 29 |
| San Antonio,
Texas |
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