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	Players need NOT apply. I am not interested in communicating with your representative' in any way. I want to meet the person you are when you think no one is paying attention. Hi there! For now I'll go by Spring's Frost. I'm a laid back individual searching to meet the right people / person for friendship and possibly much more. If you are mature, honorable, fun, financially stable and opinionated person who does not revolve around in-door life and are NOT in a relationship, and NOT about drama, maybe we have something to talk about? At this point in my life I am searching for folks that know how to enjoy life. To me its about making each minute count - often going for walks - talking and spending quality time when we can - having an outdoor patio fire and drinking a glass of wine rather than another night in front of the tele. I certainly cant take any more MONTHS AT A TIME WATCHING SOMEONE ON THE COMPUTER! I want to live my fantasies . . . why just fantasize when we could be doing something about them??? It is so hard to meet the right person but here are a few questions to consider before we do send a mail . . . Do you think of your ex often? If so then I am not for you. Can you give AND TAKE jokes? If not, then I am NOT for you. Do you think every relationship you had ended due to other peoples idiocies (or worse)? If so, then I am NOT FOR YOU! Have you expanded mentally in your relationships or do you still communicate with your significant other as if you are in high school? If so, I AM NOT FOR YOU! But most importantly, if you like Pena Coladas and getting caught in the rain (and you have half a brain ;) then maybe I am for you. ;)

7/4/2007 12:42:29 PM

Over the last few months I had to completely revamp my life. I felt as though my heart had been ripped from my chest and my guts poured out on a table for me to view. It was hard to look at, at first.

After carefully dissecting everything (blood, guts, sweat and tears) very closely and not liking a lot of what I saw, I realized last night that I have major work to do on me.

Redirecting and picking up the pieces of my life while battling depression is damned near impossible. At least for this submissive woman it is. Finally, last night, after all my months of agony, I had an epiphany! Let me tell you, it was just in the nick of time to! lol But isn’t this always how it goes? What doesn’t kill you, right?

What I did find was that I am not ready for a serious relationship right now. I know that I am not at a place in my heart and mind where I can provide to another person what they deserve. I am not here to hurt anyone. Because of this, I must be honest with myself about what my desires are. This is what I found out:

I am ready for friendship. I am ready to do the best thing for me and to look to the future, not for love (right now) but for comfort and stability found in myself. These two factors have ruled my life from a very young age – probably because I’ve never had those things as a child. I am the type of woman that needs these things in order to keep my head above air when floodwaters rise. (I have not had this luxury of late and it is killing me.)

Somewhere during the course of my last two relationships (especially in the last relationship - 3 years) I lost myself and my ability to care for me and to remember that I was important to. I forgot to provide to me what I need, hoping my Master would do it for me. Until I get these aspects back, I am not available to another.

I very strongly desire love, fiery sex and companionship. But at this point in my life, after devoting my heart to someone else for as long as I have (17years), it is time to take back my heart and use it for myself for a while.

I am open to meeting people and learning as much as I can. If you seek friendship with the possibility for more at a later time then write me. I am taking it slow and steady so I can be the best I can be for me and the person I chose to be with later.

And to you, ex-Master, I appologize for hurting you with my words. They are my feelings and I have to own them. Certian things happened between us that made me feel the way I feel. All of these issues are behind us now as we move forward with seperate lives while stuck in a lease together. LMAO! I never wrote anything to hurt you - I did it to find me in the confusion that was my life in the aftermath of us. Things happen and people move on everyday. I hope the best for you and I hope you find the submissive that has no emotional bonds to you. We all find what we need when we least expect it . . . may we both find the happiness and peace we deserve.

7/2/2007 7:48:37 PM

Tell me why people cant just be who they are???

What a rocky road this last couple of years has been! I must say considering my internet experience of last, I find it hard to believe I am even trying this again. LOL The truth is, I don't know how else to go about meeting someone. So, here I sit once more hoping this venture will turn out better than the last twirl around the dance floor. All the while I hope I wont get burned out before something 'real' comes along. I am terrified of going through this process again.

Last time I met someone I thought was THE ONE the first thing he told me was that he was a druid with a great amount of time spent out doors. This was also the first thing he lied about. lol Needless to say, it only went downhill from there. Just took me a while to see through all the mis-givings and realize the person I was in love with didn't ever really exist.

Why do people need to be or act like someone they are not??? In time, all their misleadings will fall away and the truth of who they really are will be known. If it is only a matter of time before truth is seen, why lie to begin with? I have never been false about who I am or what I want for any reason. Why? This is my life and I am not looking for just anyone or someone - I am looking for THE ONE. I guess the sad thing is when people do mislead they not only cheat those they have lied to, but they cheat themselves as well. Wouldn't they want someone that loves them for who they REALLY are? How will they ever find that person if they don't show their true self?

Here I sit, waiting for outside the norm . . .