spoiledbrat87

Well my lil guy is doing much better than could have ever been anticipated and I am absolutely grateful for that.  I also now have a great Daddy by my side to help me not get so stressed out when life goes a touch on the crazy side...... No if I can only get back into dancing I will be one amazingly happy lil girl.

Day are counting down to kiddo's surgery and I'm surprised I'm not so scared about it.  I am a bit stressed from it and since I'm not working I can actually handle it.  If only I could work from home again... any suggestions?

Ok so it's been a bit since I've actually written, but my life has officially gone back to crazy and twisted instead of stable as it was.  Laid off with impecible timing.  My son's disabilities are getting worse and he's getting major surgery so cross fingers and hope it's all going to be ok.  We went from seeing 4 doctors and a therapist to 9 different providers now...... I have a very very long road with him and now it seems I'm probably going to be alone forever minus play..... someone please change that.

Correct me if I'm wrong guys and gals, but we fill out these profiles for people to get a sense of who/what we are and what we are like to see if we'd be a good fit for each other for play or relationship or whatever it is we are looking for..... So tell me why is it so many people get blinded by images and waste each others time finding out that we are completely not even close to a match when you could've simply read for 2 whole extra min to find out.

IT"S MY BIRTHDAY YAY.....

Ahhh life..... my bittersweet friend..... has yet again sent me troubles and hurdles to get though..... by the end of my ordeals in the last 3 years I would have to say I would qualify to jump hurdles in the olympics....... lil guy is doing great and that is the one thing I couldn't be happier about regardless of what troubles I face....being a mom is an amazing thing that I would not trade for riches and jewels or anything for that matter...... but as for me.... I just have to hold things together and cross my fingers that this treatment for my health works..... cross your fingers for me

Thank you to those of you with your condolences..... i really have finally snapped out of everything and am getting back to normal...... the only issue is i still feel like i'm missing 1/2 of myself now that he's gone...... but i'm sure that will heal in time too

Well never in my life did I think I would have to be doing this until my parents left, but I was wrong.  Life has yet again slapped me in the face with some new depressing adventure that as I finally see things getting better to knock me back down to size.  I feel like 1/2 of me has been ripped away for no good reason..... well off to cry again

HOLY CRAP!!! Landed a professional modelling gig.... lets hope it all pans out :)

Ok so a good friend of my is in town.... YAY...... so hopefully I can get some modelling pics done and see what happens :)

Extremely lonely the last few days..... and last night being my first night without meds was terrible..... i don't know how i'm going to make it a week til I see my doctor and find out what else i'm in for

Happy Halloween..... too bad i don't get to enjoy my favorite holiday in more than just watching horror movies and handing out candy 

Ok so I've been out of the hospital for a week and I don't feel any different then the day I left other than the fact that I can go other places than home if needed when i'm not dizzy.  I don't think that's a very good sign on the not needing another surgery front :(

Ok spent my first night at home back in my apartment and it was really odd for me.  I got so used to nurses and family fussing over me every few hours so it was almost unnerving not having someone here with me.  Tonight shouldn't be so bad if it gets too quiet my roommate is home tonight.  I am also getting really concerned about my relationship since both of us are hurt/sick right now we really havent been talking much.  Can't really make distance work if you don't talk :(

So I have been having some complications lately so I went back to the ER just for them to shoot me up with drugs and kicking me out after admitting that i should have been admitted to the hospital and put on a stronger pain regimen....... is it just me or is that a bit fucked up?

I would've posted sooner but was all sorts of drugged up and having trouble just staying awake.  Anyway the surgeries went fine now it's healing time to make sure everything will be working like brand new after a month or 2.  Thank you to everyone who had me in their prayers. :)

Ok so I am going to need all the good thoughts, positive energy, and prayers I can get this weekend and in the next few weeks.... For those of you who know me you know what's going on.... for those of you who don't lets just say that I have a long road of recovery to go through in the next few weeks and lets just hope all goes well.

The next dom/domme to act like they are the gift of god with me and think they know what is best for me, save your time and don't bother.  I don't want to hear it and for the next person to call me ignorant save it, I'm far far from ignorant.  Also just a note there is a difference between a sub and slave if you do not know that difference do not waste my or your time.  For those of you who do not accept sub as a preference, you are absolutely entitled to your thoughts and thank you for being upfront that that is not an option, but seriously you need to at least accept a no thank  you or not interested and find your next slave to torment elsewhere.

So I am back after a long hiatus.  Had something great and it shattered before my eyes.  Now I am stuck in my lovely shitty situation alone.  Not sure what to do right now.

So first of all..... don't assume you know what it may be like to work with me, don't assume that I am just going to roll over to your every wish without getting to know you and definitely don't assume that I will want to be yours just because you are dominant.  Look I am really open minded but the last thing I need is someone assuming I am something that they have no clue whether I am or not.  I have no problem letting my out going and domineering attitude take over in that instance.  Yes I am submissive but it doesn't mean that I do not have an opinion or a life or that I cannot take care of myself, because trust me I can.  I am a very strong woman and just having a long extended period of weakness, but once it is over do not expect me to remain as fragile.