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Tonight was awesome Daddy had a friend over the house Sir Joe and i love showing off. so i decieded to practice my blow job skills on Him (Daddy) that is it was yummie. i want to also thank Daddy for the new game for the wii that he bought me lol. |
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well wed was interesting i was punished i broke a major rule well its more so a requirment. see one of my jobs is to get up with Daddy and pick his clothes out and iron them in the morning. among other chores. any way one morning last week i was so tired i slept through an alarm. needless to say Daddy was pissed so i was punished at home then he surpriesed me with anther punishment that was to be given by my trainer. which was the worst of the two i recieved five lashes with the whip. still have goosebumps from that lol |
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I'ts been a while since i wrote in my journal because i didnt have anything to say. but as of yesterday ive had the best session in the world and its only going to get better from here. yesterday i had my first taste of the cane. i'm still scared of it but i can say i can face it with out crying. i felt like the little train i think i can i think i can. lol |
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good evening im just getting in from bible study but i have to get this off my chess. i was online earlier today and came across a profile i thought about this can you be magneticly attracked to a person just by looking at there picture? ive seen it so many times i just would like to get to know this person |
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Good morning all
this morning i wake up deep in thought just when i think i have being a live in slave down i am wrong. still after nine years of being with the same Daddy i still dont know what makes him happy am i a careless slave? or am i lazy man i could use some help. |
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happy thanksgiving all well Daddy is away at a anime convention untill tomorrow and im trying to figure out a way to surprise him when he gets back saturday keeping in mind we live with parents any suggestions? |
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Good morning all i wanted to say im only responding to emails in the washington dc and metro va area. right now i am just trying to replace my former trainer ugh! i didnt think it would be that hard oh and female subs are welcome as well |
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Good morning or is it? i had a restless night and a over all bad week. i had been refusing to bow before Daddy all week. And today i think Daddy lost it after breakfast i was upstairs in His room where all punishments take place. i laid and His bed and it began, first came the rape then came the whipping. it was just one lash but it was enough to make me scream. i know most of you are thinking i deserved more and how the hell one lash is enough? well it was a striking blow from a leather belt as if a baseball bat hitting a homerun with a ball. the snap was heard through out the quiet house and his dick? His Dick pounded me over and over again untill i could take no more then his juices covered my swallen backside and as my tears escaped i was left to think on what i had done. Now which each passing punishment i must make a document on here so all could share in my humilation. Enjoy |
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i have to come up with 20 poses for a photo session with Master before he gets home tonight any suggestions?
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well today i said good bye to my loving aunt i will miss her but i will keep going i want to be the best and in order to be the best i have to do the best
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hey all i was thinking after my last trainer i have a problem getting along with other slaves females any way i was wondering how i can get over this
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this has been a interesting week Master has been tougher than normal more raping and tieing me up i like the rapes most of all espacily when im covered in his come
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well new updates i sakura star just got her first tattoo and i feel great about it its on my right shoulder blade and its of winnie the pooh holding red and pink roses. i chose winnie the pooh because its a representation of my childhood and he is my favorite disney character. the day it happened Master nor Mistress knew it was going to happen i took a risk and im proud of myself
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Dear journal
why is it so hard to beleive you can be a slave at a young age i mean in kidergarden your asked what do you want to be when you grow up? and dont you have some type of idea? |
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if you wish to see my pics they are on myspace i dont keep them on here |
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HELLO ALL MYSPACE USERS CHECK OUT MY SLAVE PROFILE IM LISTED AS www.myspace.com/slavegirlsakura aol sakura41284@aol.com |
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The perfect Dom,
Tall about 6 feet buisness man loaded with toys and cages long whips and his own house to put it in. he would come kidnap me from home take care of me but torture me at the same time. He would be a family man sociable a bodyguard against unwanted people. He would scold me for my wrong doings and challenge me every day nothing would be hidden from him. he would surprise me with phone calls visits and sessions and advantures his beatings would be enough for me to take him seriously and my tears and gratitude would get him to smile |
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HAPPY MOTHERS DAY MISTRESS MO
FROM YOUR SLAVE DOREI |
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Dear Journal
lately ive been doing a lot of training ive had a session almost every day this week but it still does feel this empty void i have. thursday session was awsome i made my Mistress a proud mommy. any way why is it a slave is always craving the on thing she is frighten of? i want to be beaten so bad |
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Dear journal
well im training again i am now under the instruction of my old trainer of course i wont put his name out there untill i get permission.
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WHAT THE FUCK HOW THE HELL AM I SUPOSE TO OWN MY SELF?! I JUST RECIEVED A EMAIL TELLING ME TO OWN MY SELF HOW THE HELL?!!!! PEOPLE PLEASE THINK BEFORE YOU TYPE |
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hello all its me again,
if you email me wanting pics or chat on yahoo even though my id is listed i must have permission to chat and send pics so please understand.
ugh how hard is it to find a trainer and some slave friends on this site? all i want is a trainer who will stay with in the confindes of what my Master is teaching me must have exsperience not in your 50's and be local i also can talk to st.Marys county residants waldorf and metro dc Doms i am in need of some one who is into punishing whippings displine and protocol and can work with another Dom to be specific my Master! if this is you get at me note if your profile says your out of state you will be automaticly deleted! |
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Dear Journal
change they say its a good thing but these days im not so sure. i grew a year older and still my confidents as a slave isnt all that great what can i do to change that?
p.s if you are a female slave unowned and interested in joining a poly family and dont mind serving a strict non bull shit master email me requirments must be metro acceable live in md va area and live alone or at least have a place to host. |
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I AM IN DESPRATE NEED OF A BEATING I DONT KNOW WHY BUT I JUST WANT ONE SOON BEFORE I BUST ANY WAY IF YOU ARE AVAILABLE TOMORROW AND LIVE ALONE IN THE PG COUNTY AREA AND DRIVE EMAIL ME MY YAHOO IS LOVESTOSING06 |
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Though i was told today is my day as well as the rest of the weekend is it still wierd to want to follow rules and serve? |
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!! Tomorrow i'll be 24 years old. |
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what do you do when you screw up and a owner stops telling you what to do what do you say when a owner tells you they will just watch from a distance? i didnt think going over my drink limit would bring on all of this |
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IN THE BEGINING ON THIS DAY MARCH 17,1985 WAS BORN MY MASTER MY DADDY BIG C
HAPPY BIRTH DAY DADDY!!!!!!! |
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QUICK NOTE
please be in the us and in the dc st.mary county waldorf area when you contact me |
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Dear Journal
hopfully tonight i'll have a post up that will explain what i am looking for in a trainer hopfuly |
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Dear Journal
man there are some children on this site beacause i decied i dont want to train under a switch i get a email like that my mommy and daddy will here about this i am so pissed at this person for calling me a lyer. she should look at her self bitching for saying that she is upset because he is sending her away and she is pregnant slut no one told you to fuck him! |
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Dear Journal
wow whew new training can be fun and yes mom and i am falling for him fast. any way this weekend is specail my Daddy's bday is this weekend and i am spending time with his mom to help prepare for it scary i know i am trying to remain calm with all that He has given me to do before he returns home from work. (sigh) i dont see how you live in slaves do this my heart is constanly racing trying to make things perferct. oh did i mention daddy will have a nice surprise waiting for him when he gets to work!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!!!! |
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Dear journal
these past couple of days i have learnt something all trainers cant be trusted! im upset but should have known this evenually would happen i feel pushed to the side i feel like damn i thought he cared of course daddy will be furiouse and mommy well mommy is well hmm i, i could say she is ready to drop him and quiet frankly so am i |
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Happy VALENTINES DAY
i had a wonderfull week of training under my uncle strict thank you for taking the time out of your busy schedule to let me study and train under you. i look forward to are next training session oh and btw thanks for the bed time story and hot coco.
Daddy says i need more friends that are slaves and less friends that are dominate but i cant help if im drawn to doms more so than fellow slaves as friends what can i do to honor my daddy's request to make more slave friends?
if your a slave in need of someone to talk with and you live in maryland dc or st.marys county area please feel free to write! male and female slaves only |
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Dear Journal
Tears or no Tears
should there be tears in a session and if so when should they be allowed? some say tears are important some say that tears make you weak well im determined to have a session with my trainer and have no tears at all wish me luck! |
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 Dear journal
In the past two days i was in heaven with my trainer strictblackdom he wow blew my mind as usual he pulls things out of me that i didnt know i had. He makes me want to improve as a slave. I am so thankful that my daddy is letting me train under him i learnt so much in these past couple of days and i hope Monday i could get my 200 that i owe him and wow the waxing had to be my favorite part of the session next to the blades and the swords. oh and i have a assignement thats due on why protocols are important.
So thanks again uncle Strict for the best two days of my life!!!
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Giants win Giants win! i escape a beating that is so horrible thanks to my wonderful playing Giants!
This entery is dedicated to the super bowl! notice the red print! any way enough braging things are finally flowing the right way for me im messing up slightly but im hoping that i can learn from my Mistakes. for instance since the new protocols have been put in place i only messed up once and that was in walmart tonight with Daddy i was touching merchandise with out permission so i was beaten for it badly. it tore me up inside to know i messed up like that normaly im more careful unless im being a brat any way all was forgiven and im moving on hopfully to a good week and no mistakes oh one more thing GO GIANTS GO!
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ok normaly i dont do two journal entries in a day but tonight as i watch the game and think things over i relalized i need some excitement in my life i need to exsperience something new something that will leave me in a cold sweat wanting more is that normal?
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Dear Journal
my slave life is going well i love my uncle Strict and my Daddy Master Saiai i am learning alot and hope i can improve on my serving. Today is super Bowl Sunday Go Giants i made a bet with my Master that they would win i dont want to get whipped lol
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Dear journal
for those who wish to chat with me must contact my trainer strictblackdom he will be seeing all emails and i really dont want to get punished for disobeying |
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Dear journal
i am so upset and disapointed tonight and its like im trying to be sympathetic its hard because i was really looking forward to this session and it was cancled due to an emergancy.
so im pissed but sad any way i have no jucy tales to share with Mistress that will make her smile and laugh while she is at work. oh well end to a bad weekend and week.
one more thing thats bothering me is that alot of you send me email judging my training situation please stop!!! im tired of people having problems with how many owners i have so im going to explain my situation only once more: My Master is working and going to school so there for he doesnt always have the time to train or play so i have a head Mistress and a trainer who specailizes in sertain area's i need help with so having said that please stop judging me!!!!! if you dont like what you read just dont message me but keep your negativaty to yourself!!
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Dear Journal
well i just got through reading a book called the frog by carolin thompson. it's about a girl who is kidnapped and is forced into slavery. im excited because the book really changed the way i look at my slave life the girl went throught so much with little to know rest from her captives she was caged and beaten and totured daily with food and water as her only reward wow i have it easy compared to her maybe to easy.
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Dear Journal
after tonight all of my wrong doings have been forgiven. as i lay in tears under my master's dick i confessed all my wrong doings to him and as he entered me and satified himself i was forgiven thank you daddy for forgiving all my wrong doings |
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hi all i know i just posted but i have been asked by Master to write this advertisment. Master is 22 years old he needs another slave to have and own requirments are obedience live close by dc va are metro acceable. live alone or have a place to play. so if you like to be spanked or treated like a little school girl contact me i have the perfect master for you
Sincerly
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Dear Journal
in this entry i have to do something that im not to proud of i have to aplogize to my Master Saiai and to my Mistress Mommy and to my trainer strictblackdom for my recent behavor i do aplogize and it wont happen again please forgive me i love you all and well i guess im sorry cant fix everything but it was worth a try |
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Dear journal
what is a little girl to do when she finds out her master of 8 years is tired of the lifestyle? should she give him a chance or start searching for a new owner luckly i have a wonderful stable Mistress who i love dearly and a wonderful trainer but damn is that hard to find a owner who knows what he is doing who isnt all about the sex part of it but can organize a girl and take good care of her how hard is that?! |
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Dear journal
have you ever just been so much in love with a person that you want to make everything you do and say be about that person? it's like there all you think about and care about they are the only person that can calm a nerve or tell you what they think is right and you wont get offended? well thats how i feel about my Mistress and trainer i dont know who i love the most though i admit when on a confrence call with all both males Master and Trainer they drive me nuts thats why i am glad to have a wonderful Mistress/Mom who blances everything out and has a wonderfull mind about her (and know i am not sucking up). on a another interesting note i just learned that some one close to me in my family discovered that she wants to be a domme she thinks that she has what it takes and is ready to put her self out there. i dont know if she is or isnt ready its not for me to decied so i hope that my trainer and mommy and daddy make the right choice in what they want her to do. |
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Dear Journal
well the move went well and my slave life is picking up i am having loads of fun with my trainer and master my mistress is as beautiful as ever! though i still have a lot i want to learn thanks to my trainer i have exsperienced my first waxing and it was great.
now if i can just get organized and get to the point where my God mother can stop calling me my full name i'll be ok |
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Happy new years every one!
i have a major announcement i have moved to the st.mary county area in Maryland. Slaves i am always looking for friends. Doms you must contact my owner and or trainer for play or use of any kind!!!!!!! it will be with there permission i am aloud to do anything!
Sincerly Dorei |
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question is any one a prince fan? if so have you heard his song that came out in 1995 called "Pussy Controll"? if so what do you think of it? |
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DEAR JOURNAL
YESTERDAY WAS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE! I HAD THE BEST SESSION WITH MY NEW TRAINER WHO IS FULL OF WISDOM I LEARNED SO MUCH JUST IN ONE SESSION AND CANT WAIT TO SEE WHAT IS TO COME THANK YOU SIR STRICT |
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Hello all hope every one had a wonderfull holiday i sure didnt any way i feel i need to grow more as a slave but i dont know how i feel i have so much more to learn even after 8 years of exsperience. my other thought is what is your opinion of what makes a good slave and what makes a good Dom? |
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Dear Journal
so total control we as slaves here that alot on this site but do Doms realy know what total control means to a hard core slave? does it mean only here from a Dom once a week? does mean leave a slave with no instructions or rituals to look forward to? i think my s/m relationship is dead because it lacks ritual and total controll. |
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DAMN IS IT THAT HARD TO FIND WHAT I AM LOOKING FOR IN MY AREA ALL I AM GETTING IS FLORIDA OR OUT OF STATE PEOPLE IF YOU DONT LIVE IN MARYLAND VIRGINA(METRO) AREA OR D.C ( METRO) DONT CONTACT ME!!!! |
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ok im in trouble and need some help i didnt call a dom today that im training under at the assigned time i was supose to call and now i dont know weather im supose to call now and aplogize or just take my punishment in the morning what should i do |
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Dear collarme
need a slave for a day but dont want to own one?
need to take out your fusterations on a slave by whip belt or hand?
do you drive live on your own and need a slave for a nights enjoyment then i may be the slave for you if you live in the maryland dc area and then i might be the slave for you if intrested send me a email letting me know your needs I GARUNTEE YOU WONT USE ME JUST ONCE |
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Dear Journal
the pic that i had up here the site took it down so i am in the mist of taking new photo's to put up if you have any suggestions on what you would like to see feel free to email me and if you are a photographer email me as well i have need of you
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HELLO ALL
I'm head off to work but i just wanted to let every one know that my daddy is looking for other slaves a sister sub for me and a servant for him daddy is a wonderfull master and kind at heart just dont piss him off. any way he is looking for girls preferably in there 20's or 30's at the oldest and who knows you just may have the time of your life.
so if you like to be tied and beaten on a regular bases email me on here or yahoo lovestosing06 and we'll chat Master is also doing gorean training and Military and puppy play if your interested his screen name on here is CHAOS TAMER |
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Dear journal
it seems like im not finding what im looking for on here and i dont know what to do... more to come |
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Dear journal
i am so sick and tired of being called a fake espacilly by people who have never met me!! i have a Daddy who knows im real and a Mistress and Co owner who knows im real thats all that matters so think before you speak it helps just cuz my ways are different doesnt mean im fake it means im unique. i'm seriously thinking of deleting my profile!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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Dear Journal
ok i dont know where to beging with this, ok see what had happen was i was playing around on myspace and i decied to change my name. i was horny so i changed my name to Mrs.Horny07 and my head line read im horny can you help you will be blessed if you do lol i thought it was funny. little did i know that my Daddy/Master was about to walk through my door. he arrived and was told everything by a reliable sorce he then led me out to the car and drove me to a private closed in area. once there he began to yell at me about the myspace page. he rapped and beat me in the nights air and threaten me and told me i had to change it before he got home i changed it all right but not to what he thinks i changed it to. lol |
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dear journal
tonight i saw a side of daddy that i have never seen before. he was strict and did some things even i wouldnt have exspected. it changes the way i look at him as a Master and i think i will take him a little more seriously. |
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if you are a educator and you live near pg county md email me i would love to here from you. |
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I am no longer searching for a new Mistress |
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Dear journal
wow today was the best day of my life! i had the best play time a sub could ask for it was such a humbling exsperience because i felt honored that someone wants to take time out to know me and teach me things i am so gratfull to her for this. |
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Dear Journal
It's done finally my renewed contract is complete i hope when Daddy reads it he likes what he see's i did the best i could i hope my best was enough |
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dear journal
i have a question does any one have any exspereince in orgasim controll. my Master just started to work with it and i would like to know more about it my self so i can improve before he gets back from vaction this week.
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DEAR JOURNAL
im so excited about this week i feel really good and hope that fridays session goes well but i cant help but think im going to mess up between now and then. i'm trying my best to improve my self and my self esteeem so far so good. i guess. |
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Dear journal
i figured out part of my problem but i dont know if this is right or not. do you think that a slave should be rewarded for his /her's good works? or should they be viewed as just her normal slave duties to her Master/Mistress? |
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dear journal
have u ever felt left behind or that your not giving it your all when indeed you are? do you feel like just giving up being a slave all together when deep in your heart you know quiting is not you? ive been feeling this way alot latley i feel like im not good enough and that i should be thrown to the side. what should i do? |
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Dear Journal
Happy Easter! i know that this is not a religous site but when i think of the meaning behind this specail day i cant help but feel excited and blessed. So if you log on today take some time out to wish some one a Happy Easter! |
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Dear journal
i had a tough day today i had been using words that a six year old should not be using. i had been cussing i didnt mean to do it on purpose and i had upset my Mommy and Daddy i am truly sorry i used those words and that lanuage i know its disrespectful and will try my best to do better. |
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Dear journal thanks to everyone who has emailed me again im only looking for friends and nothing more. i live in the md dc area so for long term relationships you must live near there if you wish to meet me note I AM OWNED BY MASTER SAIAI AND MY MISTRESS SXYMDGIRL. SO any intentions other than friendship you email will be deleted and if your out of state your email will be deleted.
In her service Sakura/diamond. |
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