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	I used to be known as soldatkajirus. I am no longer the slave that I once was. I consider myself a switch currently. But my dominant side tends to show through. I have MUCH experience as a Gorean Master. Many years. I also have training as a Gorean kajirus. I am still searching for my place but one thing I am sure of is that I am VERY serious about the Gorean lifestyle. This profile still shows me as soldatkajirus. Though I am no longer kajirus, I am still a soldier. It is a part of me that will never go away. I wait for someone to show me direction, one way or the other. When I find my direction... there will be no stopping me. So, regardless of your preference slave, Master, Mistress, male, female, as long as you are familiar with the Gorean, feel free to contact me. Lets see which way I sway. Lets do this. Sol.

10/20/2008 10:34:45 PM

...How do I know what to do? How do I know weather to submit to being a slave again or to follow my instinct to Dominate?

I have a lot of experience as a Master/Dom, but there is a part of my heart that will always be willing to submit.

I'm not a switch. It has to either be one way or the other.

I don't know what to do. I don't know how to act.

I don't even know why I am asking... I suppose it is in the event that someone might be able to help me figure some things out. There have been some really up front and honest Masters/Mistresses/Doms/Domms, subs/slaves that have contacted me over the past year that I trust hearing from...

I suppose that I am wanting to hear what they have to say. Every time I think I have my mind set... something within me turns and I'm not so sure. It is a horrible feeling of not being able to move on and set a course for my life.

I just don't know what to do. I never thought that the situation I was placed in would have such an effect on me...

Sol

7/3/2008 12:43:36 AM

It has been over nine months since my ex-Mistress abandoned me. A lot has happened in that time. Some things good... some things not so good.
I have lost friends and family members, and almost lost even more to accidents and natural causes. In most cases with those I have lost I have at least had the good fortune to be able to say goodbye. It has been a rough year.
I have excelled at school. I look forward to being a professional making a good living doing something that matters.
I am not sure if I am ready to pursue or be pursued... but I am coming to the conclusion that I am most likely not going to be re collared. One person was ever able to do that... and now I believe that I have lost the heart. I am too aggressively protective and dominant.
I look back on my time under the collar with fondness... it was a wonderful sensation, but I don't think it was meant for me.
I still have a lot of conflict in my heart about it but I believe that one side is winning over the other. I am not a switch, with me it has always been one or the other.
When the time comes and I am ready to move on I will know. That is one of the things about becoming older I suppose... one is less likely to get into a hurry.
Thank you to all who have stood by me, sent me reassuring emails and notes... a special thank you goes out to a very special lady who has attempted to help me figure out who and what I really am. I am out of touch with her too long. You will hear from me soon... you know who you are.
I am still here. I imagine I will be here for some time. I value all of your friendships and your insights.
I will write more later.
I wish you all well.
The Soldat

9/28/2007 10:32:32 AM

Yesterday September 27th 2007 my former Mistress abandoned me. I am now a Free Man. I am taking time to try to cope with my loss and not doing a very good job of handling the feeling of being betrayed and unwanted.

I do not know when I will be back on collarme but I would like to thank those here who I call friend and thank them for their kind words and encouragement. When I return I will make contact with you all again.

I am not currently looking for another Mistress or Master but thank you for considering me.

Soldat

9/25/2007 12:07:02 PM

tal all/All,

this boy would like it to be known that he is indeed collared and very owned. most who have contacted him have been VERY respectful of this ones Mistress and Her house, and to them this boy has been instructed to convey both his Mistress's and his deepest gratitude for the honor and friendship they/They have displayed. thank You/you all so very much for your respectful correspondence!

however, this one has come to the conclusion that some things need to be said.

this beast is indeed collared and owned as stated above and in his profile. yes, he makes good money considering his profession... but no, he is not looking for a paid Dominant session. he is not going to send tributes to anyone or take out a loan on anyones behalf. this one does not pay for his kink. he IS the kink. and he is VERY good at what he does. it is this boys job to satisfy his Mistress's every desire. to take care of Her and protect HER. so please refrain from soliciting professional Dominant sessions to this beast... his Mistress is quite proficient.

there have been select Frees that Mistress has handed Her beasts leash to, and though it is flattering to this one and his Mistress enjoys seeing the compliments and requests it is not something that She does on a regular basis. it is not something that She charges money for. this one is a sexual being and his fire burns very hot... he takes his position and his collar as serious as life or death. for Mistress this one will willingly comply to anything but it is simply not something that She does regularly.

Mistress does not currently have a collarme account but has access to this boys profile and log in information. She reads his emails when She pleases. all requests may be made though this ones collarme but Mistress is very selective of whom She allows to escort this beast and whom She will allow him to serve pleasure. thus far, only very close, trusted friends of Her house have access to him.

this boy humbly hopes that he has not offended any one with his bluntness but it is Mistress will that this be known.

this one wishes You/you all well.

Hers in submission, devotion, and the joy of serving.
~soldat kajirus

9/18/2007 11:27:23 PM

tal to all/All,

this boy has received so many emails >.< he will answer each and every one of them as quickly as humanly possible! he humbly begs pardon if he is slow in response but what with caring for his children and collage, managing time is something he is having some difficulty with thus his internet time has been shortened.

regardless, Those/those who have honored this beast with attention shall not be ignored. this one only humbly requests patience.

this one wishes You/you all well!

Hers in submission, devotion, and the joy of serving.
~soldat kajirus