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Since I was 15 I have only dated women. I have always been the dominant one in these relationships and submissive women turned me on. I met one woman who was the more dominant one and introduced me to S&M. I loved being used and abused in every way. It is not only the physical, but mental aspect that continues to play in my head. The things is... I don't want a woman to control me. I want a man to be the one controlling me. In every way and aspect of life. Physically, mentally, emotionally... It turns me on to think of a man being in complete control of me and my life. One who completely alienates me from everyone in my life and makes me completely dependent on him. One who knows he can do anything to me and I will never leave him. I think about someone who will hurt me, abuse me, use me, force me on my knees and make me do whatever he wants, but at the same time support me, turn me into his trophy wife and provide me with an amazing life. I want it all. I haven't been with a man since I was like 20 years old. So it's been a long time. I find myself craving a man who is in complete control of every part of me. I am so confused by the fact that I love to dominate women and have never had a man like this, but find it such a turn on.
I have so much more in my head to share. I can give specific examples of thoughts I have, but I need more time to do that... Will try and update as soon as I can.
== Results from http://bdsmtest.org/ ==
100% Submissive
100% Degradation receiver
98% Bondage receiver
94% Slave
91% Masochist
80% girl/boy
76% Experimentalist
70% Brat
64% Exhibitionist
63% Ageplayer
60% Non-monogamist
56% Primal (Prey)
39% Pet
10% Voyeur
3% Sadist
0% Dominant
0% Master/Mistress
0% Bondage giver
0% Degradation giver
0% Brat tamer
0% Primal (Hunter)
0% Daddy/Mommy
0% Owner
0% Switch
0% Vanilla
0% All-Rounder
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