slutsMask

Alone. 
Every Holiday. 
Most Weekends. 

No matter how many men there are in my life,
the slut, the sub, the "slave" they love to role play Master with,
is always left behind, hidden, unacknowledged. 

Family takes precedence and should.  But being unacknowledged sends clear messages to the girl that she is of no importance to these role playing kinksters who call thenselves Dom or Master. 

And then they ahve the nerve to wonder why they cannot earn my loyalty or devotion or serious consideration.  Why can't they be a priority on my list?  Why do they not get first crack at my time?  BECAUSE I AM CLEARLY NOT A PRIORITY TO THEM. 

"I want an intelligent slave" he says.  "Buddy, are You sure about that?, says I, "Cause us smart ones know when the relationship has no future, no value, no potential to enrich our lives and allow us to live in the manner we crave, as a VALUED, USEFUL slave to a MASTER .... not as a wet hole to a horny role playing vanilla dude." 

I need a serious ass whipping. 
There is is much energy stored up inside me right now,
I need that cathartic release that only service to a Sadist Master can bring. 
It has been so long, but I can imagine in my mind,
can virtually feel what I need. 

I need a Master's touch,
need that intimacy everyday in my life. 

This is what I created this profile for;
for when I need to whine, cry and be negative. 

I lost a dominant FRIEND to a 'nilla girl this week, years of friendship, pissed away so he could keep acdess to her pussy.  He bottomed.  and he wnders why I never relinquished power to him.  He is not really a Dominant, just a kinky alpha, but he has been my firiend for year and I am going ot miss him sorely.  And the rejection really hurts.  And I need to face other rejections, and just cannot.

The only Master that I want to serve, I have not even met yet.  A year and a half ago we started talking online, he is very distant. It has drug out and he has lost interest.  A hotter chick showed up.  I'm devastated and do not want to give up hope, but he contacts me maybe once a week and it is very casual now.  Her pictures are all over his profile. 
What sucks is that no one else compares to him.  I know becuase in this last year and a half, I have tried ot find him, LOCAL to me and cannot. 

I'm ready to give up my dream.  I really do not believe anymore that I can find a Master, now that I have lost his attention. 

And that is why I have created this profile.  He cannot know that I have given up.  He hates negativity.  It was mostly to hide from him, my need now and again to complain and whine about how hard it is to find a good Master, that led me to create this profile.

The fickleness of the male animal and it's need for variety vexes women entirely. 
His need to fuck as many different pussies as possible, is natural, is part of why the human race still exists and evolves. 
Fully understanding this does not make it any easier for a woman in this world, where the internet has shortened a man's attention span to mere weeks.

race play has ZERO appeal for me.  ZERO.  almost as gross as girl on girl or scat would be. 
how could I respect and trust a racist?  get real!

slut seeks a Master who is dedicated to creating a harmonious relationship structure for His home, a well trained slave there to make it more than a house .... A well trained slave who will grow and change with Masters needs, and continue to learn his new protocols and how to fill his needs. 

slut seeks a Master that truly understands the value of training His slave, for Him and for her.  slut seeks a male who understands the value of ritual and protocol in a well structured relationship that gives his slave the security to be free and uninhibited.  

Training is not an excuse for sadistic play, sadistic play is a perfectly good reason itself to engage in sadistic play!  If you are one of those creep-a-zoids who have to mask your need for sadistic play as "training and discipline", Yuck! stay away.  If you are ashamed of your needs, why should I not be ashamed to be your slave?

The value in training is to produce a well trained slave who knows what is expected of her, and then has every oppurtunity to please you; the value of training is the shared trial of it is very bonding for Master and slave.  Training does not necessarily involve sadistic or sexual play, though it sure makes it more enjoyable!  Real training, not roleplaying, has a goal other than squirting body fluids.

So called "training dominants" and "training collars" are a shameful twisted sick way to get your rocks off and are nothing more than roleplayers.  These artificial constructs fuck up newbie slaves over and over again.  newbie slaves are frequently women with trust issues.  "training creepazoid dominants" who prey on them just make the situation worse.

CollarMe is not a site for slaves seeking Masters. 
It is a site for vanilla swingers and bottoms looking to hook-up with other vanilla swingers and tops. 
The "Masters" on here for the most part of jokish cartoon characters,
playacting and roleplaying using language lifted from the porn insustry and
gothic romances. 
but since they are probably overweight married pussi-whipped jerks, sitting in front of a laptop with one hand on their cock wanking it while fantasizing about being a man and owning a slave, and oh maybe getting some payback from the shrew they married ......
I get the feeling most of the slaves and subs are just women who cant otherwise get laid unless they advertise as bottoms (all females are bottoms, duh!), then they expect to be able to bottom from the top with a long list of whiny limits and the expectation of exclusivity. 
Or they are sex workers of some ilk using the site to troll for clients.  Everyone's gotta eat.

Are you Old School? 
If so, why do you label yourself as such ?

slut knows there is a distinct difference between
Owner, Master, Dominant, Top
BUT slut also knows everybody defines everything differently.

Because they do not really have a collar to offer,
being neither intelligent nor responsible enough to master a slave,
slut wishes the kinky vanilla guys and the tops
who are here looking for kinky sex or chat,
would stick to the hook up sites and the fetish sites.
Kinky sex, fetish driven sex, by itself,
is not BDSM; it is not M/s,
has little or nothing to do with
A RELATIONSHIP STRUCTURE
where a collar symbolizes
devotion, loyalty and status.
this slut (and most sluts) know this, Do You?

slut does not fuck or serve fat men, that's gross.
slut is straight
and does not believe in female supremacy in any way shape or form,
serving a woman or a couple is abhorrent to slut.
slut considers switch men to be submissives in reality,
fun for an evening of play,
but slut would never call a switch Master.
slut certainly would not be interested in serving bi-sexuals, male or female.
slut is just not attracted to men who are any race other than caucasian.

slut believes slaves have only thier Master's limits.
slaves need NOT enjoy every act they perform for Master however!
slut lists hard limits here as a statement of activities slut honestly HATES,
or has contempt for;
but slut already knows in the hands of an experienced Master,
a slave can be compelled to do
any depraved thing He wills her to do.

slut does not believe submission is a gift,
what bullshit!

I really wish cm had an email filter for
race
and
ht and weight.
I would never serve anybody who was not caucasian,
and I will never serve anybody obese and unhealthy.  
 

AVAILABLE. 
I seek a Master that is AVAILABLE. 
Available does not mean living a few hundred or a few thousand miles away.
Available does not mean married or already in possession of a primary live in slave. 
Available does not mean attached to a vanilla girlfriend that he must hide his slave from -- [which makes Him owned and controlled by the vanilla girlfriend, and that is just creepy, cant submit to a submissive or switchy guy, no way, no how.]
Available means able to give a slave time, attention and care. 
Available means more than just having a hard on ready when she shows up.

I have to know. 
How many slaves that claim to be bisexual really are?
or are just claiming that because they think it will up their odds of getting laid? 

Have the D types had experiences with self labeled bisexual girls who were not,
when push came to shove? 

When I see a girl who is 50 lbs overweight claiming to be a
bisexual switch
I very meanly think
"Yeah that's probably what is takes to get your lumpy mashed potato ass laid"
bet they're neither, but horny and desperate.  

The role players and daytrippers need thier own site. 
A website where everybody is admittedly just looking for a cyber object to wank off to. 
Their fantasies of being "real" could remain intact, but since everybody really knows their is no pressure, no intent for a real meeting, relationship or play neither wanker on either end of the dirty chat gets hurt or has thier time wasted.  they are getting thier openly declared needs met. Wish the wankers and wannabe's would all just pool in that one place, that I could avoid as a time suck. 

All of this takes time.  I dont have time to waste.  Don't get me wrong,
It's wonderful when I meet a Master here, who although we are geographically distant and can never meet, we become friends and He teaches me.  That is not the same as some silly role playing wanker (probably vanilla and married to a heifer) sitting in the dark with his cock in his hand trying to get me to say "fuck me harder daddy", but claiming to be a Dominant or Master. 

The good news is, from the forums I have read, and folk I have talked with, the slaves seems to catch on pretty quickly.  Some of us think we have a buit in sort of radar for Masters.  I do.  It even works thru cyber, but not as effectively as in person.  In person it is instant.  I know.  Your DNA hums out to mine or it does not.  On cyber we dont have all the clues, but trust me, your language and re-actions still reveal what you are, or are not, to a slavegirl.

slut seeks Masters with emotional courage for many reasons. 
One of those reasons is simply that Men without emotional courage tend to abandon sluts without having the balls to be upfront about why. 
The why is usually as simple as having an attention span only about the length of their cock.  Understandable.  god made you that way for a reason, however ..... 

When you are done with her, TELL HER! 
and TELL HER why. 
If she must deal with the emotional pain of abandonement,
at least give her the chance to feel that pain for the CORRECT reasons. 
If there was a fault in her, grow a pair you f'ing punk and TELL HER! 
If your cock just found a different pretty pussy to fuck,
TELL HER! 

We skirt around the issue of slaves and submissives having trust and abandonement issues from fucked up abusive childhoods on these sites all the times.  Why? 
Acknowledging the fact that one's parents fucked up and/or abused them does
NOT VALIDATE those actions, it simply acknowledges them. 
Even when we learn why we are the way we are, it does not make dealing with further abandonement an easy thing. 

The most cruel, selfish, irresponsible thing a "domly" worm can do is
abandon a slave without informing her, or not informing her why, honestly. 

Being a Master is not for the lazy or unintelligent,
nor is it for the chicken hearted punk.  Be a man.   
if you have ever just stopped emailing, texting, calling without explaining why,
you have caused emotional pain. 
f it was not warranted, that makes You a
spineless wormy punk!

#1 Rule = Take Care of the Property. 
So how are fat, flabby slaves who are overweight and gross,
not becuase they have medical issues, but because they have no-self discipline,
taking care of the property? 
Men are visual.  Masters deserve sexy inspiring visuals. 

M/s requires trust.  Trust comes from respect. 
How is slut supposed to trust and respect a fat, flabby overweight Master,
who obviously does not have the self discipline to delay his own gratification? 
How would such a man lead me and enable me to stay fit and healthy enough to serve Him well and with vigor? 

Again, this slut is not bisexual.  Period. 
No, not even in Your Masterfully domly hands
will slut learn to put her hands or mouth anywhere on a woman. 
Nor will slut serve a woman non-sexually, what a fucking farce.  
slut is an alpha.  slut doesn't serve women. 
and no that does not mean slut is a switch either -- that's truly a perverted thought.

damn, I hate the way the cravings come up, out of nowhere.

9 months wasted!  
This is why slut hates dealing with ldr's. 
9 months, most of my attention, most of my time,
chatting with one suitor,
who unceremoniously just removed Himself from that list. 
Becuase of some writing He saw on the other profile. 

I have got to learn a little MORE discretion. 
It was a poem, a creative piece, He took it personal like. 

Ah, well, its for the best. 
But I lost a friend. 
I will miss His attention and care very much. 

I haven't made any new friends really since meeting Him,
it always happend this way. 
Every fucking time I take a risk,
I get my knuckles rapped. 

shit, I cant think about this now.  Got things to do.

todays truth, really, Is that Im fighting back the tears. 
im trying so hard to not be bothered by that fact that I'm alone today. 
No one is taking me out to dinner then using me hard tonight. 
I haven't even kept any vanilla guys around to at least get me out. 
I'm so tired of being alone. 
Everyone is a 1000 miles away. 
Everyone close, treats me like the slut I am, and not in a good way. 
For the last 2 years, excluding one Valentines Day,
I have been alone, every holiday, every birthday,
though there were guys in my life who were fucking me. 

It's so wrong, and its the reason why I have pretty much
just shut down and quit, though it kills me to be alone. 

I'm going to waste.  I have so much ability already, and so much potential. 

but I'm suffering from depression.  as if that's not obvious. 
which makes me unsuitable for a relationship or a collar,
though a Master can do more for me the depression than anything else. 
Ironic, No?  I'm not healthy enough for the cure. 
I never admit to it.  This is the first time I have. 

Happy mother fucking Valentines Day Y'all

I cannot, will not, have no desire to put
my mouth
or
my hands
anywhere
on
any woman. 
Period. 
Yes, I am sure of that. 
No, not even for a collar or the Master of my Dreams. 
That is my boundary. 
And No, I will not apologize and am tired of attempts to guilt trip me into believing less of myself becuase of it. 

I am STRAIGHT. 
I worship cock. 
Get the point? 
good. 
Lets Dance!

touche Sir(s)! 

Valentines's Day HAH! 

beat me
bite me
fuck me
collar me

all those little adverteasements ------------>>>>>

im tired of watching other girls get their asses beat! 
Me! Me! It's my turn!

slut is not a second choice. 
slut is not a dirty secret to be hidden from your kids. 
slut is not your piece of ass on the side. 
slut is not your bait
slut is not you cyber wank object for the night 

slut is a slave
warm blooded
alive
reactive
intelligent
worth serious effort
born to serve a worthy alpha 

sometimes needs daddy
sometimes needs sensual Dom
sometimes needs mentor
always needs Master

slut is coming to terms, slowly but surely, with the lack of interest shown by the one Master in all of cyberdom, that she is interested in. 

It's tough.  He has become the example and the gauge slut uses to measure all others by. 
It keeps slut from giving herself fully I think. 

slut wants a Master;
intelligent,
dilligent,
self-disciplined,
sadistic,
emotionally strong enough to administer consequences consistently,
energetic,
solvent,
good-humored,
fit enough to fuck,
experienced enough to understand sluts needs,
open, open, open, 
available in every way,
here,
now.

No reason why we cant be friends and share thoughts and laughs about the lifestyle.  But, No, I dont have time to endlessly send you naked photos or
engage in dirty chat,
if that is what you are after,
which is the case 999 times out 1000
when someone contacts slut from across the country. 
LDR and cyber sex relationships are a laughable, stupid waste of time.
slut needs a real time master,
this is not a time killing fantasy for slut. It is a need unmet.

slut apologizes for all the whining as of late,
but the truth is,
slut created this journal to be able to keep all of the whining out of her
real profile. 
Negativity draws negativity. 
You are what you think.
Perception is reality.

My advice to most slubs and slaves: 
do not do as I am doing in this journal. 

Discretion. 
Do not put yourself out here like this. 

You make yourslef seem emotionally unstable by your hearts outpourings. 
Tell your girlfriends, tell yourself, but dont air it for Master and Dominants to see. 

they do read.  If you have something to say to one of them, say it. 
If not, dont whine. 
Whining is very unnattractive,
even if you have big tits, a great ass and will lick pussy for him, whining is not attractive.

slut always looks for a silver lining,
something good that comes out of something bad. 
The silver lining to slut losing her slave's mindset for those brief moments,
is that slut knows that her slave mind is her Right Mind. 
Being out of the slave's mindset, even for that brief period of time,
was uncomfortable, wrong, scary, disorienting and shameful. 
slut never wants to go there again,
and slut values her slave heart even more so than before.   

slut experienced losing her slave's mindset,
for the first time since her awakening. 
briefly, during play,
I was pissed, I did not want to be there anymore,
I was disappointed, I was all the negative emotions I should not be. 

I did not even know this could happen.  

I've never had a doubt, a break in my mindset, or a second 
when I did not desire to be a slave in a Masters hands,
since my awakening 2 years ago,
until this, then I had only the desire to be disobedient and scream
"get the fuck off of me". 

It did not last long, but it devastated me emotionally for a few days. 
Shame of course.  But shock also.  I must guard against this ever happening again. 

Is it triggered by anger? 
I mean, I've read in forums slaves talking about
turning around and cursing at Master and getting pissed during their "scenes",
but I figured this was casual play between a masochist or one of those "bottom" girls who are desperate to get laid so they feign submission and slavery.   

I just dont understand it really. 
Does it happen often?

Body, Behavior, Attitude, these are the three powers that a slave relinguishes to her Master.
Attitude is the hardest.
Body and behavior are relatively easy for a slut, unless your attitude is not there at all.
Attitude is what holds us back or pushes us forward.
slut experienced a hard lesson last night about attitude.
slut is not a slave. slut is a bedroom submissive. 

slut was tasked by a Master slut respects and trusts to do something very hard,
to overcome a limit slut has, that He and few others have.
It goes without saying that all slut wants to do is please Him, I call Him Master.
It goes without saying that failing to please Him is very painful for slut. 
But for all of the intelligence that slut has garnered about the M/s relationships,
slut has a long way to go before slut is selfless enough to call herself slave. 

slut could not do this thing slut was asked. slut half-assed went through a few of the motions as best slut could, but slut could not hide sluts distaste and how much slut was not enjoying myself.
Dont get slut wrong, slut fully understands that a slave is NOT always going to enjoy what she is doing, however, sluts attitude needs to reflect her pleasure in serving Master, NOT her displeasure at the task at hand. 

slut could not get into that mindset at all last night. Could not get myself to go blank and think only of pleasing and serving, not about what sluts body was doing.
slut was totally selfish, totally aware of only herself, totally self-centered, totally vanilla. 

The scene slut witnessed was beautiful however. A submissive woman and her husband exchanging energy. Her orgasms were many and her pleasure was apparent. slut was happy for her, but so miserable for herself that slut cheated herself of feeling her energy as strongly as slut could, and cheated Master by not generating more energy for Him -- succubus that Master is. 
slut is highly empathetic. No, really, slut knows women are in general empathetic.
But slut is overly empathetic, it's usually a problem, but sometimes it's amplifying effect is beneficial.
My attitude, my selfishnesss and inability to become a humble slave robbed Master, myself and possibly these nice people of a more pleasurable experience without the overhead drama of my attitude.

slut is so excited! 
slut is also so terriefied! 
slut is spending Weds evening - Fri PM with Master. 
not in the dungeon, so I have to check my screams :-(,
but in a hotel. 
My nervousness, fear is all around the visitors we will have. 
Couples. 
slut is not going to be able to avoid the inevitable
eating pussy

this is going to be so hard, so gross, I dont wanna! 

I want to please Master, want to be the blank slate that is the hallmark of a valuable piece of property,
but I just dont think I can do this. 

It's not just the act itself, which is just disgusting,
but it's the shame afterward.  dealing with that is going to be harder. 

I will trust Master to guide me through this. 

But I'm so nervous about freaking out and embarassing Him!

Truth of the matter is,
when slut gets USED
on a regular basis,
slut is at peace and does not need
to journal out her
pain, fear, jitters and cravings. 
USED, mind you,
not just fucked and diddled. 
USED by a sadist till tears flow
and her pussy gushes,
thats all slut really wants.

slut has a crush,
big time
one One who is quite distant from slut.
slut and He have been corresponding for about 9 or 10 months,
slut knows Him well,
and frequently says to herself out loud,
in response to his emails,
*oh my god I want to be His now*.
slut is sure they will meet for coffee one day,
many months from now,
due to circumstances in His life
and sluts life,
any sooner will not happen.
slut holds out,
really does hold back from others,
because of sluts lust for this
Responsible Master
who has taught slut so much.
Mostly he has taught slut that slut
is indeed hearing a slave's heart beat,
and that all that she dreams can occur between Male and female,
is valid, very valid. 

slut also knows she is not His one.
she is not positive enough,
emotionally mature enough,
just not good enough
to be his collared 24X7 property.
Yes, there will be play.
They will be friends forever, slut knows. 

but slut knows slut has found Master,
but sluts karma is such that
sluts behavior in this life
will keep slut from being
worthy of her Masters collar. 

shit happens. 

slut uses the desire to be worthy enough to drive her to
grow
get it together
and become that worthy slave.
the irony is,
she needs help to do all that,
the help of a Master
and his structure, discipline,
but cannot ask for help.
that is one of her biggest failings.

and her lust, obsession, desire,
crush ............
love for this Master
keeps her from accepting the collar of any other,
just in case. 

such is insanity, such is hope,
such is sluts love for her Master

[such is sluts need for a Mask]

Read the profile,
this is not the profile of a docile collared slave,
this is the profile of a feral ronin slave.
beware. 
slut thinks, 
slut talks, 
and slut really could care less
what total strangers on the internet
[that slut will never meet]
think about slut.

if you are rude to slut
slut will be rude right back 
if you are polite and respectful to slut
slut will be twice as respectful in return. 

and oh by the way,
most sluts feel this way. 
think about that the next time you wonder why you get no response
or a rude response. 
it could be you.  look in the mirror first before you condemn. 

or maybe the sluts just a poser.

"training in the bdsm lifestyle" what a joke.

I despise "training dominants" and "training collars".
kinky sex.
an excuse to prey on newbies cause you cant master an experienced slave. 
the low hanging fruit, the paddling and clamping is all you can learn and master. 

how many new slaves have you fucked up emotionally by "training" them
then abandoning them when the next pretty pussy popped up on the screen?  

TRAINING EXISTS BETWEEN A MASTER AND HIS SLAVE. 
specifically so that she can become HIS well trained slave. 
all other "training" is a bullshit excuse for some lame alpha guy
who calls himself domly, to get laid. period.

slut has decided to do something she has never done on this site before,
reach out to other subs and slaves. 

sluts real profile gets email from slaves expressing agreement with her profile and her journal there. 
slutsMask's writing reflects what she learns from other slaves,
and welcomes comments, feedback, venting;
good, bad or vile or mean.  It's all good really, it's all educational. 

He is much on sluts mind at the moment and slut must write to vent it out; 
slut is fortunate enough to serve an experienced Master, a Sadist, on occassion.  
He lives about 3.5 hours away from slut and he has no need OR DESIRE for a live in 24X7 slave. 
We both are Old School, and take a collaring seriously, so there has not been one officially, however, He is slut's Master. 
Some of you will understand what this means. 

slut needs much more than on occassional bit of roughing up. 
slut has a slave's heart, and a high sex drive. 

slut calls Him Master, becuase He has been given care of Her edges,
and always manages to find a new one. 
He has taught slave the difference, viscerally, not intellectually,
between a domly sort of guy who likes rough sex,
and a Master of the lifestyle. 

slave loves Him as Master, friend, lover. 
slave wants nothing more than to experience His pleasure,
his arousal, His cum, His satiation.   Regardless of what that takes,
to include anything non-sexual; His pleasure is priceless to her.  slaveheart. 

sluts original purpose in creating this profile was primarily to be able to journal her dirty thoughts, caused and fullfilled by Him. 
slut has been sidetracked from that by answering all the thought provoking email she has received. 

slut thanks every Master, every perv, every domly sort of guy who has contacted her and provoked a response, good bad or other whys.  

 

Proof that the MOST important aspect of one's profile is the
Pics is that
slutsMask's profile has been viewed approxiametly 75% fewer times since
the support staff forced removal of slutsMask's
explicit main profile pic. 

Hint: The FIRST contact attempt you make with a slave on collarme should NOT be to send a friend request. 

Hint: The FIRST contact attempt you make with a slave on collarme should NOT be to send a chat request. 

Hint: an INTRODUCTORY first email is MOST effective. 

No, not an email that says "Hey want to chat" [meaning I need a jerk off right now]
not an email that says "Hi how are you"  
not an email that says "Do you like it up the ass?" [hoping for a dirty response so you can jack off now reading it] 


Brutally honest and just trying to help,
slutsMask

Darn, someone ratted out my primary photo, had to remove it this morning. 
Well I tried to anyway as Support Directed, but it doesn't seem to working properly.  
No time for this now. 

The sight of Purple Breasts disturbs slut. 
Few Masters would be irresponsible enough to leave a slave's hands, feet
legs or arms bound if they turned a shade of purple,
Yet seem to think nothing of doing the same to female breasts. 
What?  Human anatomy and the circulatory system
magicallly follow a totally different set of physical Laws
as applied to the female breast when bound by a Sadist? 
restricted blood flow to the breasts is BAD Dangerous JuJu! 
You want her breasts damaged?  Really?  Think about it
HER TITTIES! 

SeekingSlut
Ilikeitbig
DomwantsSlut
Ineedawhore
Ilikehead
girlwantscock
ILikeCum
subfor domme

well Duh? The rest of us are here for the frozen yogurt.

slut has pissed off 4 people today with her
brutal honesty
and pissed of 1 
slut thinks for ?? heck slut doesn't know, 
slut complimented a pic and got a called a skank for her efforts. 
takes all kinds! 

sluts are voyeurs too sometimes. 
never underestimate how much your chosen moniker and profile pic influence whether or not a slut chooses to view and read your profile. 
reveal yourself cleverly, artfully,
sluts are not braindead sticks of furniture ....
oh, okay sometimes they are ORDERED to be be braindead sticks of funiture :-)

a slave has relinguished power;
body or behavior or attitude,
or in the case of TPE, all of that. 
If there is not a power exchange, 
she is a bedroom submissive. 
Females are born that way anyway,
no need for a descriptor or title really,
just a female who understands her true submissive nature. 
Which is a commendable thing,
as it entails overcoming modern societies' pervasive propaganda assault,
from the day she is born,
that her natural feelings of submission in regards to certain others are
shameful, invalid and not really her own,
[BULL-FUCKING-SHIT! slut screams back at them] 
but certainly does not make her a slave.

slaves, females, become emotionally attached to everything that
goes in or comes out of our vaginas. 
This is for good reason -- the survival of the species. 
How many ugly screaming babies would be drowned at birth is the female was not bonded, by the act of painful labor, to the child? 
How many males would be abandoned, ignored, scorned by the female for thier natural masculine behaviors and habits if not for the fact that she is bonded to him via the act of penetrating her vagina and cumming there? 

slut loves that males are masculine, females are feminine,
vive le difference! 
makes life worth living.

Regarding the previous Journal Entry inre
Masters who do not engage in intimate acts with their slaves,
in particular kissing, eating pussy, allowing slave to caress His body: 

slut was speaking of Sadistic Masters,
not so much about sensual Dominants or service Tops
(other words for submissive male in sluts opinion) 
slut has experienced those intimacies with these types of males. 
For slut those types of males will never be more than casual playmates. 

slut was also speaking not only of sluts personal experiences,
but of the experiences of many other sluts, related to slut via various means.  

slut still wishes to understand what it takes to earn those intimacies from a
Sadistic Master. 
slut encourages honest feedback

Why don't Masters kiss slaves very much?
Why don't Masters eat pussy very much? 
Why don't Masters simply use thier hands on my body to torture? 
Why cant I caress Master as much as I crave? 

Seriously, I'm looking for answers here.

the follwoing types of emails are never going to be answered in a positive manner by a slave of any quality:
Hi care to chat?
Hi "cut and pasted text that revels that the sender did read the profile"
Hi "original text that reveals the sender did not read the profile" 
Hi are you into X, Y or Z? 
Hi I want to do X, Y and Z to you. 
Hi what do want to know about me?  <--- this seems innocent enough, but always tips me to the fact the sender is just a player because:

The onus to communicate your vision of M/s, D/s
or even just a causal play session is on the Master seeking the slave. 
Your the Master!  You set the parameters, she either consents to them or not! 
Thats it, thats all she gets to do, Consent or Not! 
Your job is to communicate to her what exactly she would be consenting to.
If you have no vision of what M/s, D/s or even your casual play sessions are to be about,
how in the world do You expect slave to have something to base consent or not on? 
Dominants, Tops, kinksters, swingers all tend to wing it. 
Tend to listen to what she says, then uses her own words to feed back a line to her that she take, because that short term gratification of getting in her pants for a few weeks or a few months til they are bored of her is really all that thier vision is; a shortsighted tunnel vision that cannot see beyond the end of their cocks. 

Masters have a vision to articulate to her. 
They have conditions and parameters and views for her to consent to or not. 
They see past the initial flurry of hot sex that occurs in the first weeks of a new pairing.  Masters will say openly, "I'm looking for play sessions involving this that or the other kinky thing, I dont need a new slave to collar right now",
or "My expectations are this, your life will be like this,
the progression of the training will go like this,
MY RESPONSIBILITIES toward you will be these" 
He wants her to know exactly what she is consenting to.    

lately much of the fantasy that slut has running though her head
while masturbating, has involved watersports. 
It has been that way for some time,
the thought of being pissed on,
marked by Master excites slut. 
slut have never experienced being pissed on yet,
though slut has experienced Master pissing in her mouth once,
He did not explicitly warn slut that he was going to, it was a minor suprise,
though slut knew the day He would was coming, and probably soon. 
The taste and smell weren't exactly enjoyable, nor unbearable either.  
slut is quite a bit orally fixated. 

slut does fantasize of Master forcing her to masturbate til she cums,
then being rewarded with His cum down her throat, then being marked with his piss.  
slut just bets that would feel good physically and emotionally.

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sluts Master has used this on slut. 
slut howled in pain and orgasmic ecstasy. 
slut is a lucky slut to serve Masters who are experienced and skilled and have incredible toys
and are unafraid to use them to use her!

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everytime slut sees the "safe, sane and consensual" catch phrase
that popped up in the dawn of the now "policitcally correct",
[but morally and sensually devoid] era we live in,
it makes slut want to puke. 
Between Master and slave, bonded Master and slave,
not casual fuck buddies,
"safe, sane and consensual" negates the power exchange relationship entirely.  

 Besides, what Sadist, what masochist wants "safe, sane and consensual" really?

canned messages are a big turn off 
try sending messages that are personalized,
that indicate you have read the sluts actual profile
and not simply responded to the fact that there is fresh meat on the site
this profile is new, but this slut is not 
this profile is not about hooking up,
so those "doms" who only prey on new meat,
because they have not learned anything about mastering a slave
beyond playing with her body for some instant and short lived gratification
will find that this slut is not going to be a good use of their time

brutally honest
slutsMask

BDSM is not how I get my rocks off. 
BDSM and M/s is the relationship structure I seek. 
I'm a slave, not a kinky swinger.

slutsMask profile isn't very hot,
or apparently stating up front that it is a phony,
was noticed by a few. 
Only about 80 emails in the first 20 hours,
sluts real profile had 0ver 300 in the first 24 hours,
and I understand that most sluts on this site experience that.
Well, maybe this will be helpful to me!  

sluts real profile wishes she could set up an email filter so that all
black men would go to bulk. 
Okay, maybe not all, but all of the
one's who emphasis that they are
Big Black Cock. 
Racism is an immeadiate trun off. 
I'm looking for a Master of the lifestyle,
not an angry racist seeking revenge. 
Why would any woman be attracted to that? 
I haven't figured it out. 
to each their own,
but in this country as soon as a woman states a preference,
then she is targeted for hatred. 

heading for the hot tub with a butt plug inserted. 
Small dildos and butt plugs make me horny as hell,
anal sex just makes me hornier,
but no orgasm without something in my pussy and stroking my clit as well.
Better yet, Masters cock in my mouth,
dildo in another hole,
Master's friends cock in the other hole. 
butt I hate anal sex without skill,
or a real hard hard on. 
then it loses all erotica, becomes torture to be endured for Master,
which is all a part of being a slave,
its not always about my sexual pleasure, sometimes its just about serving Him,
and in that, there is great pleasure.   

This profile is not really for hooking up, but as a way to speak my mind and sort out my thoughts privately.