sluthaven

crying so loud I scare the cat

damn tears of loss and heart ache splash

fucking common sense bucks in unwanted in the sorrow filled state

let's me know that this is only a moment

i'm not allowed to sink into depression

my Master is somewhere on his way to me

i must wait

damn pain is still real

my wounds raw

my heart not made of steel

i weep

damn common sense go a way for a week!

'cept time is flying and i must abide

by the laws of nature

manifestations do not wait

my face hurts from tears

not laughter

my smile gone

in the race for lost loves

and the one yet to come

joy & peace comes after doubts, fears & choices
 
I cannot teach you your lessons
I cannot be 2nd
I cannot be less than the dream you've always wanted
 
delicate webs upon your path, my heart is open
you get to choose to except the fragile strength
the alien beauty
or
you get to choose to brush the silver filigree aside
 
from the creator I am spun
placed and designed
the magic is... I am the creator too
 
from me I spin myself
to enfold, embrace
to rip and tear out
I am a choice for you, for me
eternally
 
I cannot teach you your lessons
my heart is open
when torn & swept aside
I can always spin again