slavetoobeyYou

OK, more hiatus, newest update:

I recently discovered female dominant hypnotism. The piece about the submissive's sexual pleasure coming from the Dominant's pleasure eluded me, as much as I always stongly desire to please my Domme. Putting the Domme's pleasure before my own seemed an admonition, a task to master.

The need of mine my "perfect Mistress" knows better than I, She who can take control of me, train me and my sexual responses to love pleasing her, make me her slave, even before I realize it has already happened to me.

So now, perhaps because I've been hypnotized, I find a new level of helplessness to being controlled, sexually controlled, and needing my Mistress pleasure and permission to have my own. I have a new freedom and desire to find a Dominant Woman I can trust, to please and obey without thought or question.

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i'm experienced, obedient, respectful, eager to please, and appreciative.

i've been on hiatus, so this is my update.

There is an awkward part for me to express here. i'm spiritually aware and offer and need a healthy, affirming, communicative, loving context that builds self-esteem with wide latitude within that context. A relationship would be great. i have a life. Since a Domina has the ultimate power to take control, i depend on Her similar values.

Below is my pre-hiatus profile which gives some details and prior training. (i have changed a lot--more human but still it is Your control that gets me wet.)

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slave is a very obedient, intelligent, creative, ex-engineer SW male. slave is a natural slave who needs to be under the ownership, control, and rules of a Mistress to be fulfilled, and is eager to please and grow to worship and love his Mistress.

slave has been trained as a slave:

to obey always;
to refer to and think of himself as a slave;
slave is Owner's property;
all of slave is and does belongs to Owner;
to be used for sexual service;
to accept any use;
to trust Owner to set hard limits;
to only orgasm if given permission;
every orgasm for life belongs to Owner;
to only orgasm in manner prescribed;
to always lick up all ejaculate;
to wear only a collar at home;
that slave may want what slave wants but what happens is what Mistress decides;
that Mistress trains slave into the slavery She desires;
that Mistress can train slave to desire anything She wants even if slave doesn't want to desire it.

slave's service has included house cleaning, pedicures, cooking, moving, oral service, foot worship. slave has been trained in massage and is handy.

slave craves total control and ownership (TPE with the inclusion that slave has and still wants to/needs to attend to aspects of life, particularly regarding work, finances, travel, health, family of origin, spirituality). Yet slave's focus, thoughts, and desires come to center on slave's Mistress and slave becomes interested in what Mistress has as interests.