slavekittara

Spirit Fly Away


My mind collides like the waves against the rocky shore,
The pain Etched upon endless waters,
What more can I feel the waters caress and drown my spirit,
I call out to you to help me to find me,
Yet my words are lost upon the wind.

What more can one like me do,
The sprit seems to sore but my heart doesn’t,
Show me the way to find my spirit again,
And to hold it tight within my Palm,
Tell me what i must do to follow,
And find my spirit and watch it fly.

 The stars appear in the night sky,
  As the darkness covers the earth,
  I search within the shadows,
  I search long and hard for  a way to soar,
  Yet I am bound to this earth,
  My spirit my soul and my heart.
 
  I hear your voice upon the waters,
  As you call out my name,
  And then the wind carries it and it flows away,
  How can I reach you,
  Where are you at,
  The pain seems to keep me from You,
  And my spirit seems to run away.
 
  The darkness seems to chase me,
  The shadows seem to run,
  The pain of endless heartache,
  Seems to caress my  empty soul.
 
  As the shadows dance,
  And the moon is black,
  My spirit floats away.....
  
                       
                        December 15, 2006













             Confustion

I wander through the shadows,
My eyes full of pain,
Searching and looking,
For You to come my way.

The shadows caress my soul
Like the chill of the night caresses my silken flesh,
What more can i do the fear  and anxiety grows,
As the shadows seem to caress my soul.

You saw me yet you walked away
The pain so deep the fear so raw,
Seems to follow me through the days
Where are you i can't find you,
You call my name and i can't find you.

The shadows seem to follow me,
They seem to cover me,
Oh how i feel the shadows caressing my soul,
And drawing me near.

I run from them yet they seem to catch me,
Yes the shadows seem to follow me wherever i go,
I call for you i hear your voice,
Yet all i see are shadows.

                           
                                       January 6th 2007




                          







                                 












 Pain One

Why do you constantly  show that you have not changed,
That you are the same person through and through,
Why do i see the same patters that you said you would change,
Constantly arise in everything that you do.

You have left my heart upon a sand less beach,
Time and time again,
You want me to trust you but how can I,
You hurt me and i always cry.

Its time for me to put my foot down,
And not let you hurt me anymore,
The intimidation you make me feel,
I will shut that door.

The guilt and the sadness will fade away,
But the memories of what you did will always stay,
And now is the time i will shut the door,
And pick up my heart right off the floor.

You will never hurt me any more,
Because i am the stronger person,
And I will shut the door,
No need to say sorry,
No need to grin,
Your not going to hurt me ever again..

                  December 18, 2006




                                




















                                 Pain Two

Shadow dancing across my face,
Pain and fear showing in my eyes,
Never again letting anyone inside.

Hiding my love deep inside,
Never to understand all the lies,
Deceivers, Unbelievers, and liars all there.

Never even really giving  care,
Pain and a anxiety all wrapped into one,
Seeing you with them not understanding,
How someone can say that they care,
And then throw you away like a Tarn fair.

Do you understand the pain,
Do you see the questions in my eyes,
You say you care but do you really
Understand the true me..

You want the perfect
 kajira and throw away all the rest,
 That is not right,
 I just want to put up a fight,
 To push everyone away,
 So that they don't care any more and that I can be left alone.

The pain is so deep and i am hurting inside,
No one cares no one understands,
The feelings are strong the pain so real.
What are we to do when the shadows seem to cares the silkiness of my flesh.
What can I do to find myself again within the light within the end..

    May 13, 2007


                                  


















                     Heart Ake


I have been forgotten within a realm of darkness,
The pain etched upon the reassess of my mind,
Darkness and Uncertainty clouding my memories.

No one seems to understand,
Do they really even care,
My Life is in shambles,
My Heart is in pain,
Who will help me live again.

I have given up on myself and who I am,
I have stopped and not said anything,
My heart seems cold and dreary,
How can I stop the pain.

I am trying to face my fears,
To face the Uncertainty of every day,
But things seem to overwhelm me,
They seem to cast shadows upon my sunny day.

How can I find what I am looking for,
When there seems to be no one that cares,
When will the pain etched upon my soul,
Find happiness again.

How can  I stop the memories,
From haunting me in my dreams,
And the pain from scaring my heart,
I call out to the ones around me,
Yet they seem to push me away.


       Jan 19 2007