slavejane

its been a long time since it has written in its journal.  for a long time Master and it have gone back and forth...it is difficult to try to be a wife and a slave.  Well, it was until He made the decision that although we're happy when we're vanilla.  Life is even better when it is His slave.  it has to agree with that.  So now its been His slave for a while now.  at first it thought how does it do this?  then after some time it realized that it doesn't have to do anything but be itself.  its happy to be of service.  its excited to have bruises and other marks.  its happy to leave the decisions to Master.  its happiest being a good girl. 

So now life is incredible.  One thing it is having some issues with is accepting the possibility of being lent out and Master has begun having sexual relationships with other women.  that is the hardest thing for it.  Sitting on the floor, eating on the floor, rules and punishments all of that comes so easily...this other part does not.  but, if it was easy...everyone would do it.  :)

To those of you who have emailed me thank you for your interest.  I'm sorry i haven't been able to respond.  i have been extremely busy of late.  But thank you so much for writing and i will reply once i can once again have more free time.