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	About slavejale Last Update 6/27/10 Learning the ropes of Motherhood. Where is the basic outline for this?! haha. Everything comes with a manual or basic outline, but i think i lost mine for this. Ha! Greetings to ALL and all. i have recently started a relationship. i must say it must have been fate that bought us together. We have so much in common, so so very much. Its kind of weird actually. lol lol. while, i adore everything Gorean, He does not consider Himself Gorean. (though, i wonder if He is interested if we could fine Him some guidance into that realm). i am glad that i found the One for me. i hope this goes far. thank you for reading and have a wonderful day. thank you! Favorite Topics: NCIS, LAW AND ORDER (REG AND SVU), CSI:MIAMI and NY! Though i really dont like discussing politics, i can have a great conversation dealing with. Im also a person that doesnt mind discussing things that i have neve done/encountered before. Basically, I can flow from subject to subject, i do not have a one track mind. I hope that you dont either. well wishes to All and all.

*blows the dust off the thing* (lots of coughing and what not)..

Greetings to the Free
greetings to properties and all others

well, its been a year and some months since i last wrote in this thing. alot of things have happened....ive grown some, learn some things about myself, and about others. Also have learned a new philosophy regarding relationships of any kind or any level.

i am now 5months and 4wks pregnant (at the time of this journal entry)...and i am so very very excited. my maternal instincts have all ready kicked in, into overdrive sometimes lol. i cant wait to see my babygirl! i just cant wait!.

This has also changed my relationship issue. For one, I guess most are thinking that i am looking for a baby father. Let me put this clear to whoever is reading this. If you are male, and i show interest in you...i am NOT looking for a baby father for my child. i am NOT looking to use you to help support me nor my child. Friendships are what i look for now. if it turns into something else well, then that is another post for another decade. PLEASE DO NOT ASSUME, that i am writing to you with my hand out. Yes, i consider myself a single mother already. i am not going to lie to myself and make myself believe that he is going to be there. Thats pointless.

Anyways, i am still modeling some...well actually i am about to start BACK to modeling some. I definitely would like some sensual pregnancy images.

Other than that, i shall be writing in this more often. Thanks for reading and talk to you soon.

Greetings

the website is back up. You will have to read through the journal to find it.

*smiles*

well wishes.

Greetings to the Free
greetings to the properties

well, in the last entry i mentioned a job i was going for, well i am STILL going for it. however there was a minor setback...but i am taking care of that now.

i am still "single"...can i use that word (giggles)...but there is another thing that i realized that i needed in my life. i wrote it in my actual profile but i will write it here as well.

STRUCTURE.

i have been asked why did i choose to live this lifestyle, i had many many reasons, but i believe the main reason is that i need STRUCTURE in my life. A Man, that can guide me and structurize(that is sooo not a word) me.

i am not speaking of micro manage as i am not a robot or anything i can think and move about on my own...however, i found that i am "all over the place" in my life. i start things, that i do not finish (sometimes) and well its just a mess. a complete utter mess.

anyways, yeah, so that is my epiphany.

well wishes to All and all.

Greetings to the Free
greetings to the properties

well, here it is almost two months after i started the app process for a new job and its still not done. lol. well, in a job such as this, it is actually going faster than expected.

on the other hand, i am speaking to a Man now...i think i can actually build up the nerve to visit...though i think i am more concerned about what to tell my family IF it works out. how do i tell them that i found someone in another state far away...what about the job, though it would be kind of easy to get into the feild again (IF i get into this time) though still a hassle. LDR's just do not cut it for me AT ALL. i need that constant face to face thing.

i think He is a nice guy, and one day im just going to have to take a deep breath get in my car and DRIVE. but i must not put it off too long or well...it would be that much harder.

or i could see how much it costs on a plane. *shrugs* anyways, we BOTH have been hurt a numerous amount of times and its gonna make it that much harder in that aspect.

oh well...time will tell.

i now i have an ugly bruise on my wrist because i burnt my self with 150 degree hot grease or i think it was hotter than that...on the job. However, i aint dyin or nothing so thats good. lol.

i havent been around these parts in a while, on this site i mean. im just so freaking busy these days its ridiculous. anyways um, i thought it was time to update this thing so yeah...here it is. UPDATED! lol.

oh and my website is temp out of service because of the job i am trying to get. sorry.

well wishes to All and all.

Greetings to the Free
greetings to the properties

Another thought for the month:

i often wonder how some girls can just up and run into a Man's arms leaving everything behind. I have beliefs that if i was to leave and go to another state for a Man that has an interest in me, and vice versa, that it would work. But how do i let go of everything i have here, and whats to say that it will not go wrong and then i am "assed out" so to speak.

How do some people get the courage to run after which they seek without the fear of loosing everything you left behind.

Or maybe you just take a little vacation to see how everything is. But still, one can always "act the part" for a while.

Anyways just a rambling thought as i go through my self reflection.

Greetings to the Free
greetings to the properties

well in this past month, i think i have learned alot about myself. it is DEEPLY in contrast to what i THOUGHT about myself and where i was in this lifestyle.

so i am changing all of the "i am's" into "i want to be" or "i am striving to be". i am not where i thought i was, and definitely not where i need to be. i have TONS and TONS of more growing to do, especially within myself.

so here goes:

i want to be a slave to a Man who is strong enough to Dominate me. i also want to be loved by this Man, deeply and wholeheartedly.

i am striving to better myself so that i am pleasing to the Man who captures me.

i am not advanced in this lifestyle as i thought i was, so i am starting as a novice and working my way up.

i am very much a work in progress. alot of work in progess lol.

It kind of feels good to realize whats going wrong in your life, especially because only then can you fix it.

well wishes to All and all

Greetings to the Free
greetings to the properties

well i finally updated my website. Now i am taking donations to buy this hot fetish gown that i want. Donations anyone? Anyone? lol.

I will have to save up alot of money for that. i am thinking of making my own fetish calender and selling them. But it is already well into the year so i will have to wait until like September or something.

just in case you are wondering the website is www.dsweetdsmith.com. It is a very nice website, no pornography but artistic nudity.

Please leave a commment in the book, letting me know that you were there.

Hope you enjoy.

Positive thought for the day:

Do not be afraid to live and do not live afraid.

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Things are going okay for me so far. Nothing much to complain about as far as i can see.

thanks for reading, speak soon.

Greetings to the Free
greetings to the properties

well here it goes again another "Sad Love Song".

i do strongly believe now, that i am cursed by the gods of love, etc. etc. i also strongly believe that there will never be a Man in my life...at least not in the near future or the far away near future.

or it could just be that i work too much these days and dont really have time. (nah i think i'll go with the cursed scenario).

am i proned to one night stands and two night stands (be it sexual or non). i've looked at myself and where i have fixed a few things, obviously something is still wrong with me.

*shrugs*

oh well.

finally got another job so i am DEFINITELY tied down these days. 15/16 hour work days off of 4 hours of sleep.

Just decided to update the journal, havent done so in a long while. oh well, good luck to all of those long lasting relationships that people have and the ones that people are in right now.

one day i will find mine, or it will find me.

as i laid on His chest, the beat of His heart brought chills down my spine, and warmth to my inner being.

God, i think i found it.

what is it? everyone's "it" is different.

but im trying to slow myself down here, i dont want to scare Him away. But my feelings are like boiling over.

*takes a step back and breathes*

well wishes to All and all.

*sits on the windowsill looking outwards*

life is beautiful. the way the wind blows swaying the trees. *closes eyes and whispers a prayer*

Lord,

give me the ability to be patient. give me the strength to let my guard down when the time is right. give me the strength to love once again.

Amen.

well wishes to All and all.

well, i think im starting things out right.

i actually got up when i was told to, and actually was productive in doing so.

and for me, it is hard because i am nocturnal so i sleep all day and work at night, so i didnt go to bed like 6am and then was told to be up at around 11am. (NOT GOOD) but i did it anyways, and ironically thinking about Him made it a little easier.

i did want to just lay in the bed and do it later but i actually freaking got up and did it.

things are changing...and i think i like it.

well wishes to All and all.

*WARNING: THIS NOTE WILL NOT BE GRAMMATICALLY CORRECT AS I AM TYPING AS I FEEL/THINK. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.

Greetings to Him
Greetings to the Free
greetings to the properties

have you ever me someone that makes your body go numb when they look at you. or have you ever been so sure of yourself and like "yeah im big and bad" but the look they give you shrinks you down tremendously.

their touch makes you think "WHERE THE F__K HAVE YOU BEEN ALL MY LIFE". when they enter you, they not only take you sexually, but they take you emotionally. they kiss you goodbye and your nails drag relunctantly across their body eyes pleading for more. yet they look at you and say "Thats enough bitch." You linger near their lips hoping and praying that somewhere deep down inside they change their mind, but you know in your heart that it is indeed the end for now.

they take your soul, a woman feels like a girl or a man made to feel like a little boy (depending on who it is happening too).

when the girl entered into the home, dark eyes looked Over Him, her heart started to pound a little bit faster never having been there before and not knowing what to expect.
(GOD THIS MAN MADE ME FEEL HEAVEN!)

*to the readers of this, please bear with me im really trying hard to explain*

Okay the type of heaven that make you call you friends and then you feel as if you are in church, you testify how good God has been, well now you testify about how this MAN made you feel a way that you havent felt in MANY MANY YEARS. made you resurrect feelings that you have forgotten were there.

okay back to the story so the girl entered and placed the food on the table and came and kneeled beside Him. they talked and talked and well, she knew that He was the one from the start. in the past, she was so impatient in relationships that she never stuck around for things to flourish. well THIS time, THIS TIME, she is staying. through all the troubles and pain, and heartaches (every relationship have these at some point). through it all she is STAYING.

TO PLEASE HIM! she will learn what needs to be done, yes, it will be hard at times. This life is not a piece of cake or a walk in the park, if it was then everyone would do it.

If you ever heard Mya's Song entitled "My First Night with You" this describes what is being felt.

"One touch from You, and the world was Mine".

God, yall just do not know. Yall just do not know.

i will stop here but this story WILL continue, so as long as it pleases Him for it to do so.

well wishes to Him

and well wishes to All and all.

Greetings!
and greetings

and Happy Belated New Year to those who read her journal.

bumps in the road SUCK. why are they there? pointless right? lol.

anyways, ari is doing okay. fairly well, though she is trying to develop in this current relationship, there is something tapping at her window.

what is it? heck, if ari knew she would tell You, but she doesnt so she cannot tell You.

what is to say of a girl who cannot settle? is it that she just cant, or she hasnt found the One to keep her self glued in one spot so to speak.

what to say of a girl who craves the darkness of things and who craves thrills and living on the edge of life. also for a girl who gravitates towards things that the majority doesnt like, or are fearful of?

what to say of a girl like me?

fiesty, firery, loving, caring, truly devoted with a submission that could scare the crap out of a weak Man.

is it good that the girl, doesnt "take over" a Man that she has the ability to do so? or is it bad for both parties in the end?

heavy journal entry? ha! no, its not that heavy. not for the strong anyways.

so, ari asks You again.

what of a girl like me?

*smiles*

well wishes.

okay so life is looking a little up for the girl. she at this present time has a r/t Man(Master) in her life.

she is also on IRC as arijaa{L}. her Master has allowed her to be protected by a wonderul Master there (that she also knows personally).

so yes, things are looking up for the girl.

*soft smiles*
well wishes to the Free
sweet serves to the slave.

at this point of time and forever until some magic sparkles in the air, or the moon falls to some crazy place and causes the ocean to rise,

she is jale again.

and will be jale until the aformentioned happens.

really...she might be done.

oh well.

thanks for those who have read, and those who care, thanks to those who care.

oh and no sorries are in order, it wasnt right from when it started. a girl is always taught to follow her heart, well it has happen and she did. nothing "bad" about that right.

she will stick to her vow now, NO ONLINE collarings. REAL TIME ONLY PLEASE.
that is what she seeks.

SERIOUSLY! unless it has the potention to go r/t NO ONLINE COLLARINGS.

jale does apologize if this seems un slave like, but that is where she is right now in life.

NO TAVERNS NO INNS NO NOTHING....unless it has a possibility of being real.

thank You and good night.

well wishes to All and all.

Greetings to the Free
greetings to the properties

well jale ventured into a room online (not collarme) and then ventured into a chatroom alone and got collared online.

so goes the fate of a girl who wanders aimlessly about the jungles. however, the one who collared her knows about her quest to find r/t and has been very receptive (hopefully that is the word) to that fact. or is it acceptive ...oh gee, jale is confused.

anyways, well guess that is as much as the girl can do for now, until she gets herself grounded. *sighs a bit*.

so if You see someone by the name of aasiyah then, it is jale.

*soft smiles*.

on the brighter side, she is still the same cute, pleasant girl ever. *nods nods*

well wishes to All and all.

Greetings to the Free
greetings to the properties

Greetings to the Free
greetings to the property

there is someone on this site that really wants jale. He is truly a wonderful Man. the thing is, i am afraid of just up and moving somewhere. from being independant in my life, to being totally "dependant" on someOne else.

i wonder how others have done it. just seems so scary to her. well not scary but well um, oh i dont know.

i really think He would be good for me, but its that relocation thing going on.

*sighs* we cant have everything in life, can we?

well wishes to All and all.

Greetings to the Free
greetings to the property

love is all the girl wants.

well wishes to All and all.

Third person, first person...whatever person!

Greetings to the Free
greetings to those who serve.

now, some may HATE third person typing, some might tolerate it, some might like it.

for jale, it is a way of bringing herself back down to where she belongs. for some reason when she types "i" this and "i" that, it just feels funny. of course she only types this way as it is VERY hard to speak that way on all occasions.

now, jale has tried to type in first person when speaking to the Free Persons be them from Gor or whatever walk of life, but it just doesnt feel right to her. Of course if it pleases the Free that she speaks first, then well she has no choice.

jale is going to stop trying to please everyone, except for those that matter (i.e. the Free Persons).

though in the forums, its her against everyone that hates it...so guess she will just "conform" to there. *sigh* oh well.

well wishes to All and all.

Greetings to the Free
greetings to the property

This post is kind off "Off Topic".

Barack and Clinton.

How are you voting race or gender? now some people say neither...while that MIGHT be true, i feel that there are alot of people pondering over this.

As for me, i definitely am. However, i just put this out here as a spaceholder. i will be back to discuss in deeper detail what i mean.

well wishes to All and all.

Greetings to the Free
greetings to the properties

well thanksgiving has come and gone....(whew).

anyway

Random thought of the day:

In true slavery, lies freedom.

Am i not free because i am not enslaved. (blinks). yes, that may sound akward, but if You have any questions, please feel free to ask. *smiles*

sleepy time..

well wishes and sweet serves

Greetings to the Free who read
and greetings to the properties that read

maybe jale is just to fiesty for this. maybe she is a sub (dies) oh heavens no!. it cannot be true. in this recent month, she just felt that she was just too outspoken.

she is not docile and something that just says Yes , No, Yes and No. yes she yearns to serve as a slave as a kajira...but sometimes, she just feels that she is too strong for that. (does that make any sense).

now BEFORE jale gets blasted by people that are assuming that a slaves/kajira's are weak....THAT IS NOT THE CASE. a kajira has to put up with ALOT of stuff. and jale means ALOT.

you know what, nevermind, it will never be understood, how jale feels. will it?

well wishes to All and all.

Greetings.

well jale had the joy of being at the feet of a real Gorean Man.

It was a very interesting experience. that was jales first ever r/t experience and it was very emotional so to speak.

it was um, lets see, different. a lot of emotions from things that happened in public (walking behind Him, waiting for Him to feed me the first bite) the stares that the girl got was kind of made her nervous.

one thing that she realized that it is just a normal relationship, just with different morals, views etc. there are no balloons or anything, no sparkles etc. just a complete understanding between two people.

well she also learned something about herself. jale would probably be most suited in a relationship where there would be no FC.

now, she is not saying that there is anything with FC's, its just that she learned that, that is a place where she could not be.

maybe it would change, who knows.

well wishes.

.............

the day of r/t is approaching quite fast.

the joy!

Greetings especially to the One that has somehow captured this crazy slut!

*smiles*

Well, jale kind of forgot what she was going to write here. so many things running through her head at more than light speed. *chuckles*

Oh, well jale is still learning about her role in life, with the help of what she thinks as a wonderful Man (of course He is Gorean).

Some saw Him as arrogant, some saw Him as just an a--hole at times....

however jale saw Him as something much more...(plus the aformentioned *giggles* j/k.). which kind of brought her in closer to Him.

jale cannot wait until the day that she can officially say that she is r/t. of course she knows, it is not going to be easy, at all. well enough of jales rambles.

if it pleases she would like to leave with a quote that she kind of made up but based off a previous experience.

"A Gorean Man understands a girls sexuality and therefore treasures it. A non-Gorean Man, does not which leads to His abuse of it".

she prays that this does not offend anyone.

~well wishes to the Free~
~sweet serves to the slaves~

Greetings to the One who has finally captured the girl.

Greetings to the Free
greetings to the slave

jale has been through many phases in this community and has had many names.

Hopefully this is the last one...she is known as jale.

The girl has also been known as kaliyaah, arijaa and kamara.

she would not be half of where she is today without the help of an online Gorean Home. she would like to thank them for Their role in her life.

well wishes to the Free
sweet serves to the slaves

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