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Well I’m back after some real sole searching (plus surgery) and after more than 25 years as a slave I have come to the conclusion that it is time to move up in the world and be a sub, bottom or a switch unless the universe shows me another way. The BDSM, S/m worlds have changed over the years and so have I. What I found is that there are very few Tops/Masters that truly know the value of having a Trans woman. We are one of the unique creatures walking the earth; we are the unicorns of today. Imagine have such a creature to play with and show off, pushing to the limits. But knowing that you can never own her…well

To bad to those Masters who see only in black and white.
Remember every one has a girl or a boy but very few have a Trans woman or Trans man for that matter, especially as cute as me.

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6/22/2009 6:21:23 PM
Well I guess all good things must come to an end including life. Last year I was diagnosed with Stage 3 b melanoma, i had surgery and I thought the worst was over not so said the fat lady. I was diagnosed with Metastatic Melanoma in March in my sternum and liver. I went thru chemo for two months and was retested 2 weeks ago and to my surprise it did not work, not only did not work but it had spread to my brain, spleen and lung as well as much greater in the liver. I have radiation brain surgery in the next few days for the 2 tumors there and then intense in-patient chemo for the next 6 months and maybe just maybe I will be able to play some time in December...I hope. 

12/14/2008 5:11:45 PM

What a holiday party last night! One that I will remember till the day I die.
All was fun and games till about midnight when I found myself in a comfy chair, in a corner sound a sleep (I worked all day and was super tired). I was woken by a request to use the chair for a spanking scene. At that point I decided to go home and get much needed sleep. As I was gathering my belongings I was asked to help in the kitchen making some yummy snacks.

 

Well, I got my second wind and when finished I decided to see what trouble I could get into. It did not take long I must say. I was in one of the rooms watching such wonderful debauchery when all of a sudden a very attractive muscular man asked if he could check the temperature of my breasts. Being one not not able to turn down such a request I allowed this hunk of a man to basically have his way with the girls.

 

Before I knew it, I was led further into the house to find a quite spot for him to really give me a complete exam. We found a nice spot in a room that I have history with already and he proceeded to do what I needed to stay awake at least for the next 2 ½ hours. I whispered in his ear that I had a secret spot, caused I think by the hormones I have been on for nearly ten years. If interested, you will have to find out for your self. Anyway, what he did well let’s just say I was moaning, purring and screaming with in a short time having rolling orgasms one after another, just thinking about them gives me another…

 

This wonderful experience lasted, not long enough but who’s a pig, all I know the room had a few spectators who were quite impressed and wanted to get in on the act after the hunk was threw making me a puddle, ready to be told what to do. Let me tell you I was wide awake, horny, drained and ready to have more fun. There were 3 men and a slave still in the room after the hunk left, leaving me to there wild desires.

 

The closest gentleman pulled out his cock and told me to come hither and suck it which I gladly did burring it as deep as it would go. At one point when coming up for air I told him that I would like to fulfill a fantasy. One where I was giving head, being fucked in the ass and having my clit sucked on. Obvious there were interested parties in the room and before I knew it I had my face sucking another cock on all fours, the person who I just was giving head to mounted me from the rear and the third gentleman lying on his back between my legs sucking on my clit. I was in HEAVEN!  More later…     

 

 

 


8/3/2008 10:44:37 PM

Enough with the drama! I had a boy friend for the past 5 months (never dated a man before, was owned yes but never dated)  now he dumped me because I am always busy, oh well his loss. It gives me more time to get back in the swing of things, look out kinksters i'm back with renewed energy. Enough with the men i got one notch in my offical lesbian ID card 2 left so it's back with women, where i belong. And besides theres nothing better than taking care of Ma'ams needs.  


7/15/2008 5:54:44 PM

Well I have made my decision today not to go forward with the Interferon treatment. I am taking a leap in faith that if I loose I am dead but if I win, my life will be better for it. So be it. Therefore, because this win or loose gamble I am going to be more adventurous than ever before so look out world here I come!

 

 

 


7/14/2008 10:09:33 PM

Now I know the gods and Goddesses have a sense humor. They know that do not like needles, so you know what do they do? They gave me cancer and the treatment? For one-year Interferon treatment where I have to give myself injections in the abdomen three times a week. That is 144 times after the initial one month intense Monday thru Friday intravenous injections. I know I am an edge player but that is to wild for even me. Any one for needles?      


6/9/2008 9:18:38 PM
The universe really knows how to make my life interesting. After the last couple of weeks, last weekend I enjoyed one of the wildest events I have ever attended. Desire 2008! 150 wild and crazy women doing what ever their hearts Desire. From a contest with 3 contestants fighting to be number 1 in their own right to a underwater adventure that was totally erotic. I am totally bushed!

6/3/2008 8:27:33 PM
Well I got the word today that the cancer did not go any further than the lymph nodes but I still have to have another surgery on the 23rd and maybe another in 6 months. As long as it did not go any further that is a good thing. The Dr. did say that I will most likly go on Interferon for at least a year and depending on my reaction I might be sick, depressed or a number of other issues, hey it is better than being dead I guess. This weekend I will be attending a womens S/M event in Palm Springs to celibrate and have much fun.  

5/20/2008 8:13:29 PM
Ya know today life is good. Yesterday I was told that my biopsy came back positive for cancer and that the Dr. gave me a 40% chance of full recovery. I was very upset yesterday but today not so much. I realized that it's just another adventure in the life I was given. 
I need to have fun so I will be at the Palm Spring Desire event in June and who knows maybe another life adventure. Till then I will go through the medicals steps that the Dr. recommends to make the odds tip in my favor.

5/13/2008 1:23:31 PM
Right now I am not be much fun to be with I have been continually ill since late January. Last month I was told that I have stage 3 Melanoma and I had emergency surgery last Tuesday over my rt. breast and rt. underarm to remove tissue. I am still sore and the biopsy report still has not come back making me a very frightened person. But it is part of life so today it was a good to wake up and breath the fresh air.

3/4/2008 10:22:18 AM
I find that life has a strange way of making things right. Life is Chaos and in the end comes order. Well I have been a Bi-sexual woman for as long as can remember leaning more towards the female gender for relationships and LTR. But now alongs comes this man, this wonderful male creature that I have fallen for and I am totally happy. The funny thing is that I have never dated a man before only women so I feel like this 18 yo having her first relation and I am all a twitter. Go figure and my age too...  So with that being said I will no longer be intersted in being with male partners until for what ever reason things change.  

2/25/2008 8:07:01 AM

Feeling much better, thank you for all the well wishings, hopefully I will go back to work and play on the 3rd of March. I got the bill for my 6 days in the hospital $67,000. $11,000 for a Cat scan and $45,000 for 5 medication infussions. Think of what I could have done with that money if it was put towards my transition.
Currently I am working on a new outfit that will show off my new assets and personallity and will post pics as soon as it is finished. 


2/4/2008 7:08:54 PM
I have been in the hospital since the 30th for something called "Guillain-Barrie" almost died. But to my happiness I am going home tomorrow.Yea! A few weeks of recovery and I shoud be back to normal, I hope. 

1/26/2008 2:13:46 PM

Darn these girls they keep getting in the way! They sure make my clothes look better but they keep catching crumbs and other items like staining liquids. All I want to do is play with them but for now I have to do what the good Doc says and just message them the way he say's. However, for me a nice pair of cold Clovis clips with a bungi cord attached would due quite nicely right now.


1/24/2008 2:44:45 PM

I am back and my world is good. I just had breast surgery and now sway a lovely pair of 38D's. My long leave of absence from the community ended with me being at South West Leather last weekend. It is good to be back, I could not play because of the new D's but it was fantastic to see many old friends and new ones. It also renewed my efforts to get back in the fun of things.


7/15/2007 9:10:57 PM
To those who have I have not contacted please be understanding that I have not blown you off, I am getting ready for my big adventure of going thru my surgery's in Thailand and have been busy planning 3 surgery's over a one month period When I come back I will be complete and I will play catch up then sorry for the delay...

12/17/2006 3:27:25 PM
I found a new TOY! I got to use it on a bottom last night and each time I gave him a swat I got what I wanted a loud YELP! Boy was it worth it, can any one guess what it is? A hint it's long and black, let me know what it is and if your lucky I just may use it on you... 

7/2/2005 7:41:50 PM
To all men who have written and who are gentelmen i thank you for writing. But after a recent male encounter not from collarme. i wish no longer to date or be involved with men. Please in the future do not write as i will not answer. Sorry 

4/10/2005 10:28:56 PM
Very interesting last few weeks. 3 weeks ago 3/21/05 i was asked to do a demo for our local BDSM org. i usually do, but this time i was not told what i was going to demo. To my surprise it was something i have had no desire to do, Sounds. SS rods that are inserted inside your urethra and then manipulated. Well being a good gyrl and one that can never say no i swallowed hard and took of my clothes climbed on the table and proceeded to stress over what was about to happen.  The person doing the demo was someone that has always wanted to play with me but over the years it never happened. Well this was it in front of 40 people, him me and all those eyes. After some reasurance and a slow massage he started to insert a sound . At first it was a strange feeling but then it started to feel really good! Once it was all the way in, about 8 inches he moved it around and massaged the area. With in 5 mins. i was flying! Again i was wrong for fearing something i did not try. And again i loved it and will do it again. 

4/10/05  This weekend i was at The Leather Leadership Conference 9 here in Phx. Arizona, which ended today. What a powerful experience! Two and a half days of fellowship, family, education, and 2 play parties. I came away with new friends, community inspiration, motivation, and bruises. 
After Friday's functions ended i was invited to play with 2 people i have always wanted to play with, separate would have been nice but they decided to tag team me. The girl was beautiful and dangerous and the guy was a 200lb plus body builder that just over powered me and had his way with me even though i fought him ever minute we played. His lovely associate sat on my chest a tormented me as the gentleman served up some of the most intense pain i have ever experienced!!! He is into pressure points and used a pointy steel prod that he stuck into any pressure point he could find, and he found many. After a couple of these intrusions into my flesh i could not stop the screams. And boy did i SCREAM! In all my years i have never felt anything like what i was experiencing, it was torture. After an hour and a half all 3 of us settled down to recover our breaths for they too were tired because i fought them ever minute. My tormentor went to open the hotel room patio door to cool down only to relies that it was open the whole time. The funny thing is that the patio was on the 3rd floor and opened into the interior of the hotel. The next day we did some inquiring but found that nobody heard us, thank god. 

3/15/2005 8:03:55 PM

Had a real interesting Saturday night of playing as a bottom. The day was filled with taking care of my sinus headach with painkillers and other meds. Also i took a 1cc hormone shot around 5pm. When i got to the play space i sat for a while till a girl friend of mine asked if i would show how a particular peice of eq is used and of course a friend/Master said he would help me demo the proper use of it. Well it was a large chain spider web and my girl friend has never seen anyone play on it. My Master friend tied my hands and feet spread wide and proceeded to play. After 20mins. or so i started to go sub and that was when out i went. 4 people had to help me down and even though i could here what was going on around me my body would not fuction, not even breathing. The first time i came out i came up gasping for air as though i was under water for a long period and then out again i went. It was like a computer lock up. All i could do is shut down and reboot and that is what happened 4 times! A friend of mine took my pulse and said it was very fast and light. Anyway it took me an hour or so till feel better and then i drove home and feel asleep. Went to the Doctor today and he said that the playing might have set off a chemical inbalance. I will be back this Saturday to try again but with out the dramatics.


3/8/2005 8:55:12 PM
Well i did it again. Last night at our weekly meeting at APEX i smashed another fear. i was asked to be the demo subject for sounds. Now having a stainless steel rod shoved up your eurethera may to some people sound like fun. To me due to a unpleasent medical experiance it is not the kind of thing that i would do. But as usual i like to do things that push my limits, so after droping my  slacks and my panties i crawled up on the table and wished i was someplace else. Well, with a little support from my friend i relaxed enough for the fun to begin. And you know what? It was most enjoyable and i'd do it again. It just goes to show ya, you never know what you like until you try it.   

3/6/2005 1:01:41 AM
Had a very long week with work and working on my hobby a 1973 Z-28 Camaro. I put in a rebuilt motor in this morning after rebuilding it and hurried to install it before a rain storm hit. And by 5:00pm it was ready to start and when i turned the key nothing but a back fire...SHIT! i need to be beaten! 
Well after being greasy all day i got cleaned up a put on a cute short leather item and went to our play house looking for what i need. And i found it! 2 friends that i have not played with before decided to tag team me...  

3/4/2005 10:35:32 PM
i find life is very interesting, just when i think i might have the answer i have been shearching for as long as i can remember , i'm just about to touch it and poof! That's not it... i thought that the most natural thing to do after so many years as a slave that i should try to Top, own my own pets and toys. Well it came quick; first a pet, then a male toy and then a sissy all within 3 weeks. It all seemed to feel right except for something that I could not put my finger on.And then after 5 weeks I lost my pet then a week later the sissy was nolonger interested i was not what he was looking for and then my boy toy forgets who he belongs to. (to be continued)

2/22/2005 9:52:33 PM
2/1 9/05 had a wonderful time at the Glitz Ball this weekend held in beautiful rainy Phoenix.  During the day we had classes and lectures dealing with transsexual issues.  My favorite was transsexual out a in the BDSM lifestyle which went over quite well I think.  At the ball itself I met many girls old friends and new ones.  The entertainment was fantastic, was all gay choir from Arizona that kept us all laughing and singing to their songs.  The keynote speaker Ms. Boyd was a sheer delight to listen to.  The words she spoke hit a note of familiarity.  The food was good, the service was good, a DJ was decent and the dancing was marvelous!  It was the best Glitz Ball ever!

2/1/2005 10:55:50 PM
I had an outstanding weekend in LA.  On Saturday we got settled in and went out to a night club called 7969, it's where all the Tgirl's hangout.  And boy were they gorgeous!  One of the editors from Transformation magazine was there doing a photo shoot and hopefully Mistress Van Doren and I will be in the next issue .  We ended up at a diner for breakfast with most of the girls that work at the club till 4:30 a.m. and by the time Mistress Van Doren I got to sleep it was past 7 a.m..   Went to a dungeon called Threshold around 2 p.m. for a trans-art show.  Mistress Van Doren  and I did a live transformation onstage I pretended to be her husband who came home from a hard day's work out on a ranch, and she had the intentions of changing me into a feminine feline.  Victor called at all on tape and hopefully we'll have it on DVD and less a month for sale.  We left that 1 p.m. Sunday afternoon and yet home at 9 p.m..  Mistress Van Doren and I were asked to do a transformation at DomCon being held in April in LA at a fancy hotel.  That should be a lot of fun!  One

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 Age: 23
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