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Hetero Female Submissive, 57,  Kentucky
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I am not owned right now, I have been talking with a Dom from this site for years and I feel a very strong connection with him , due to Family issues right now Im not able to go be with him. My life seems to be at a standstill at the moment.











 Submissive Female


 5' 9"

 190 lbs






Actively Seeking:

Dominant Male

Friends Only

 Lives For:

 Anal Play



 Breast Play (Expert)

 Chastity (Expert)



 Hair Pulling

 Outdoor Bondage

 Public Play

 Sensory Deprivation


 Spanking (Expert)

 Vibrators (Expert)

 Lifestyle BDSM


 Art Galleries

 Fine Dining




 Housework Service

 Massage (Getting)

 Massage (Giving)

 Romance Novels




 Seventies Music



 Amusement Parks

 Antique Shows

 Bird Watching

 Coffee Shops

 Flea Markets

 Garage Sales

 Musical Theater




 Masks (Wearing)

 Orgasm Denial (Expert)

 Comedy Shows

 Historical Shows

 True Crime

 Online Auctions

 1950s Lifestyle

 Alternative Music

 Blue Grass


 Classical Music

 Country Music

 Eighties Music



 Horse Racing

 Ice Hockey



 Canes and Crops

 Curious About:


 Going to the Opera

 Renaissance Faires

 Vacuum Stimulation


 Bar Hopping




 Pony/Puppy Roleplay


 Female Supremacy




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Journal Entries:
12/25/2015 3:26:43 AM
I've been so blessed this Christmas and I am so very lucky. My wish is that everyone has a safe and happy Holiday. And for a great 2016.

12/20/2015 7:57:21 PM
I have the greatest friend and lover he warms my heart so much with how caring and understanding and how giving he is he has the most loving heart of any man I have ever met. I have been so blessed that our path crossed in this life I'm so very lucky to have him huggs and kisses B

12/9/2015 10:40:40 AM
Sometimes I am a little needy and selfish and forget that my man loves me even if he doesn't tell me as often as I expect. Even the fact that I would make such an expectation is bad. I should learn to appreciate what I have a limit my expectations. Thank you B for loving me through my weaknesses.

9/24/2015 5:23:28 PM
I and wanted and that is the very best feeling in the world that my man wants me. I love you my Sir....

9/24/2015 5:23:27 PM
I and wanted and that is the very best feeling in the world that my man wants me

9/20/2015 9:18:02 AM
Was going over toys that I have now, mine were left in Tennessee when I left my X and moved back to Kentucky. I hated that too cause I had some nice things Here is what I have gotten so far, A pink vibrator. My butt plug which I love it's made from titanium . Then I have a black dildo And besides my butt plug I have a wand with several attachments that I really love.

8/19/2015 3:42:21 PM
Today I decided that I needed to update my profile on here it been something I didn't want to do in fear I would jinks myself and my owner but I realized just how much I really want to be with him and have him in my world. He is so caring and so loving something I have always dreamed of having he has such interest in me sometime s I just can't understand why? He has been the best thing that has happen to me ever. I got lucky this time and I prAy I don't fuck this up. Just filling in the blanks about me since I have not written on here for a while.

8/19/2015 3:42:15 PM
Today I decided that I needed to update my profile on here it been something I didn't want to do in fear I would jinks myself and my owner but I realized just how much I really want to be with him and have him in my world. He is so caring and so loving something I have always dreamed of having he has such interest in me sometime s I just can't understand why? He has been the best thing that has happen to me ever. I got lucky this time and I prAy I don't fuck this up. Just filling in the blanks about me since I have written for a while.

7/19/2015 3:07:51 PM
Hello friends today I've tried to stay cool was a terribly hot day.and the humidity was 105 and then it thunders and my electric went out forever it seemed ugh!!!! But it's back on now so I'm in heaven I got a special gift today a pair of 6 inch spike heels black ones I'm calling Them my fuck me heels they are so sexy I feel so wonderful when I got them on I also got a beautiful red mask to wear when.taking pictures now that's what I call a great gift for a day like today. Can't wait to dress up and wear them. Well stAy cool everyone and play safe.

6/26/2015 8:17:26 AM
My world has been very nice no complaints and ive been happier then I've ever been My business is legAl now got my permit and Licence and that makes me so very proud hey I got one thing accomplished on my Bucket List.Enjoy your day I send my friends big smiles and.much happiness today and always .

5/27/2015 8:18:54 PM
Beautiful day today my nephew turn 20 today so family got together tonight for dinner and to celebrate it was a nice evening. Hope everyone has a good night.

5/25/2015 7:01:27 PM
Geat.weekend had so much fun and got fucked and feeling great life can this.good.I.hope you all.had a.weekend that I.had smiles.Here's to being happy!!!!

5/21/2015 2:13:52 AM
Good Morning World everyone.of you out there.have a Sexy.ThursdAy.Enjoy each other !!!!!

5/20/2015 5:29:39 PM
Long day and today everythimg I needed to do was tough, I hope tomorrow goes smoother.I want to craw into bed right now and sleep weather is making me feel this way it's damp and cold yuk.well hoping for a nicer weekend.Tomorrow planting my birthday presents beautiful pink roses.can't wait to see those when they bloom.. Night everyone

5/17/2015 8:39:08 PM
Wow being another year older has been great I was wined and din today and afterward a wonderful desert I was played with and I was made to feel womderful I love being used and feeling loved and desired and an important Lady in his life. What a lucky Sub I am. This feeling makes that hole that was in me feel full.For now I am where I want to be and I am a very lucky women, one thing I do know is that I don't take how I'm feeling right now for granted. I thank you Dave from the bottom of my heart for caring about me.

5/13/2015 4:27:35 AM
Wow May 13,2015 today I turn 58 and I.cant believe I'm still around and that old but I am and I am very lucky.with.all.the people I have in encluding the ones on here. Everyday I talk to people on here that make me feel so young and exciting and I thank you everyone of you for that. And a special thanks go out to people who when I needed help you were there to lend a hand thank thank you thank you. One day I hope I can return the favor. I'm not wishing you any bad luck but if I can ever help you out I will. No big plans today except my younger sister invited me to lunch and ive got a doctor appointment at 1:45 the best gift I've gotten was the fact that my Dad still with me and seems to be.feeling better and the oldest of my.dogs Delila turn 14 this month and she seems to be.doing pretty good she's been thru some good times and really rough.times she my biggest supporter and I thank.God for her everyday that shes here with me. well hope your day today is going to be as good as mine.

4/26/2015 7:30:39 PM
Life is so good!!!!!! Loving it

4/18/2015 1:31:00 PM
I think everyone should have more fun you will live longer and be healthier it has been proven so have my kind of fun and it will benefit you soooo much and put a hugh smile on your face .....

4/16/2015 6:40:53 PM
I'm ready.for.some fun the weather better and I'm ready to go out and have some real fun I desearve it. I have someone in mind I can't wait to go out with you so if you are reading this right now You know who you are hurry up and get your ass here already.

4/3/2015 9:44:17 PM
I want to wish all my collarspace friends a wonderful Happy Easter ....

3/30/2015 3:56:49 PM
Great news my Dad was released this afternoon and is now home.Thank you Lord!!!! I'm so happy. I'm getting more.customers for my dog grooming business just schedule four dogs for this Wednesday.Life is looking so much better today.Been watching everything I'm eatting and been drinking lots well what I can drink of water.Been taking therapy twice a week in a pool and I love it.Here's to a great start to the beginning of the week...

3/28/2015 4:11:01 PM
Another Saturday missing my last weekend would so love to relive it again.They admitted my Dad back into the hospital this afternoon he is being tested every hour blood work there are enzymes leaking from his kidneys or heart they have to find out which one.Prayers please for him. Hope everyone having a good day enjoy your Sunday too.

3/26/2015 5:02:58 PM
Well got greAt news sort of from my Doctor today I was told by my foot doctor to go to my family doctor to find out why my feet are all bruised on top and underneath my toes he said he thought it was from a blood clot that ruptured and it was serious well it wasn't that after xrays and lab work they found out that the plate and pins in both my feet are causing the bruising they have moved some inside my foot probably happen when I tried to get my truck unstuck from the snow I found myself in and ice a month if it keeps bothering me and starts hurting like hell I have to have two surgeries and have them removed. I'm not doing that so now I'm on a search.for a really good pair of shoes anybody know a great made shoe that looks decent.Let me know of you have any suggestions.Thanks

3/25/2015 3:43:50 PM
Today I groomed a cat, never did that before and I think I'll just stick with grooming dogs. Enjoy the beautiful weather and met someone for lunch. I'm reminding by someone that I been on here forever and for me to stop whining with what I post on here well excuse me but I write whAt Im feeling at the time and I write on here for me not for anyone else so if you read my journal and think I'm a Winer stop reading I'm not being mean but why aggravate yourself anymore cause I'm not going to stop writing what I'm feeling. It's time you stop reading my post. Believe this I have friends that read this and care.

3/24/2015 6:18:17 PM
I've had a pretty strange day was in a pretty good mood all day then this afternoon for no reason my mood went down I just wanted to scream and cry God I don't know whAt and why I am feeling so low I had a fantastic weekend spent it with someone very special and wonderful they had so much happiness and positiveness and really had such a uplifting spirit you couldn't help but to feel the energy their joy.I'm going to bed early hoping tomorrow this feeling leaves me. gone.

3/18/2015 12:12:51 PM
I went to see 50 Shades,Of Grey what a let down wasn't what I was,hoping to see. I do know you can't make someone a Submissive if there aren't one. And the,guy who plAyed Christian Grey yuk that is not a Dom. MY friend got the,tickets free for her birthday and treated me I just bought the,popcorn did,enjoy getting out. I had two Doctors,appointment today one was with my foot doctor the other for,my back. I was given a letter,to,give to the Pain Doctor and my Regular Doctor they are trying to reach cause the foot Doctor telling my I have,something called Embolic Shower I'm thinking what the hell is that ?? He told me that it's a blood clot that broke into,smaller,pieces,and travels,thru your,body usually could be serious if not treated , I'm like how do you treat it? Answer was blood thinner but when the clot,pieces travel,they leave bruses and if for,no,reason your brushing on the tip and underneath,your toes and foot it's a pretty clear assumption that,it,was a broken clot. I'm lucky at least they found,it,to,fix it with a pill. I do know,I have had no get up and go lately wondering why? Well I am looking forward,to,this,weekend so,hoping,it's beautiful outside having a surprise birthday party for my sister who is 18 months older,than me.She has,no,clue,either should be,fun we invited 60 people. Also, want,to,leave a,message,to Peter Dont do,anything crazy while your skiing try to,please do the,bunny trail, at least I,know,you wouldn't,get hurt.

3/7/2015 7:14:09 PM
Today was a great day I was ask to visit a friend,of mine with another friend,with me we went over and I got to meet the,most beautiful white all white German Shepard I have,never,seen,a white one before this dog,was,so,big he,weighed 148 pounds his name was Blade the,most sweetest,dog you ever,want to meet you never,know,it by what he,look like,I was ask to groom,him so we all came,back to my place and,while both friends,of mine talked and looked thru,some things,I'm selling I went,down,and bathed Blade the dog loved it I have,whiting shampoo and,after,he,was dried he looked so white even his owner,was shock at,how white he,was ,he,let me clip his nails trim the,hair,away from,his paws,and,even,talk to,me,as I,was,doing,it,I must say I would,loved,to,own,that,dog,my friend,got him from a rescue his previous owners had him chained,outside all the,time he,couldn't move,very far and He was starved along with 30 other,dogs and cats she showed,me,pictures of him and,I was shocked,that,it,was,the,same dog I had just,groomed Why,do,people,have,to,be,so,dam,cruel I loved just meeting him as,I was,giving him a bath,with warm,water,my shower,nozzle,has,different speeds,on it so,it,had,to,feel,good,on him and,he,had,his head,on my shoulder,and,made,the,most,precious sounds,like,don't,stop I think he,could,have,stayed,in there,all day with me my friend,told,me,he,didn't,like Water well,he,did,with me. I finished,him,and,took him,up stairs,and,my three,shih-tzu played,with him,he,was so,gental with them. She stayed,like,a hour,more,and,the,dog just,laid by my feet didn't,move,when they left,he acted,like,he,didn't want,to,go. I love,it when,I connect,with animals,that's really special makes me,feel,blessed. Just,sharing,with you all my day was terrific

3/7/2015 4:05:15 AM
Good Friday everyone hope everyone doing good I got a wonderful day ahead of me I got dogs to,groom at 11 then invited,some,ladies over for lunch with a good friend who is visiting me now and then,off to the,mall to eye shop that's where you walk around looking at,everything wishing you had lots,of,money to,buy whatever,you wanted then maybe,go,to the,movies tonight I have,yet to,see,50 Shades,of,Gray. No it's,not,snowing,here,and,should be,a lot,warmer,today can't,wait,for,warm,weather to show up. Have a great weekend and stay safe,hugs and kisses from me to you

2/28/2015 5:35:04 PM
Today I got much accomplished I been cleaning and getting rid of a bunch of things I don't need I had my dinning room so cluttered going thru everything it will be great,when it's done, Tomorrow I will tackle another room I want,my place to look really nice and uncluttered and clean. I am very exhausted back hurts and I'm in bed would so,love a massage right now. Hope everyone having a nice weekend.

2/13/2015 7:41:02 PM
New journal entry im ok my Dads sister passed and went thru that this past,week,kind,of,puts thing in perspective we are all here,a certain amount,of,time,so,we,have,to,live,our,lives,to,the,fullest we never,know,what,tomorrow,going to,bring. Im ok right now in my little,world I feel,blessed,that,I have,people,around,me,that truly,care ,and love,me,sometimes,I don't,feel,worthy,enough but I got to stop letting that kind,of,feeling enter my head. To my friends,out,there be safe,this weekend and be good,to the,people,around,you never,take anyone,you care about for,granted let them know what and how you feel for them,as much as possible,my thoughts I know you'll be a much better person if you do. Good Night Sweet Kinky Happy Dreams

1/12/2015 1:24:09 PM
Back to the doctors,with my Dad we just found out that it is too much of,a risk for them to operate on my Dad for his aneriousim they don't,think my Dad would make it thru the surgery so they will just have to,check on him every six months to see if it's growing and getting worse in any way I'm glad. He is 79 years old and has gone thru so,many surgeries already and each time it got harder for him to recover I'm leaving this at the Lord's feet and letting him take care of my Dad thank you all for your prayers and messages may I ask that you continue to pray for him God Bless all of you and thank you so so much . hugs

1/12/2015 1:24:07 PM
Back to the doctors,with my Dad we just found out that it is too much of,a Irish for them to operate on my Dad for his aneriousim they don't,think my Dad would make it thru the surgery so they will just have to,check on him every six months to see if it's growing and getting worse in a way I'm glad. He is 79 years old and has gone thru so,many sure surgeries already and each time it got harder for him to recover I'm leaving this at the Lord's feet and letting him take care of my Dad thank you all for your,prayers and messages may I ask that you continue to pray for him God Bless all of you and thank you so much . hugs

1/9/2015 12:15:50 PM
How's everyone New Year going? My has had a good start I am doing something this year I heard about I decided to do it, everything good that happens to me in 2015 I am writing it down and dating it and,putting it inside a jar I'm not opening the jar untill Dec31St I will get the jar and read everything good that happen to me this year. That will then show me how much I have to be thankful for. Sometimes I need to be reminded.

1/9/2015 12:15:47 PM
How's everyone New Year going? My has had a good start I am doing something this year I heard about I decided to do it, everything good that happens to me in 2015 I am writing it down and dating it and,putting it inside a jar I'm not opening the jar untill Dec31St I will get the jar and read everything good that happen to me this year. That will then show me how much I have to be thankful for. Sometimes I need to be reminded.

1/4/2015 12:23:35 AM
This New Year holds a lot of promise for me it's got to be much better than 2014 was I am,hoping this year I meet my forever Dom and start living my life,again happy that we found one another and allowing me to serve him love him and respect him and pleasing him every day and I know that he will love me respect me and have my back always I have much hope that he and I will find,one other and that we don't waste time starting a greAt life,together I'm not in any rush to move in with him, I like where I am and I like to be able to just have a relationship where we can be content together,and that the missing piece of our puzzle will come together and at the,right time,all will work out. Here's to the right one !!!! But for the time being I'm going to work really hard on me my flaws my insecurities that's what I need to focus on being a better person so when I do meet him we can,have,something really great together.

1/4/2015 12:23:32 AM
This New Year holds a lot of promise for me it's got to be much better than 2014 was I am,hoping this year I meet my forever Dom and start living my life,again happy that we found one another and allowing me to serve him love home respect him and pleasing him every day and I know that he will love me respect me and have my back always I have much hope that he and I will find,one other and that we don't waste time starting a greAt life,together I'm not in any rush to move in with him, I like where I am and I like to be able to just have a relationship where we can be content together,and that the missing piece of our puzzle will come together and at the,right time,all will work out. Here's to the right one !!!! But for the time now I'm going to work really hard on me my flaws my insecurities that's what I need to focus on being a better person so when I do meet him we can,have,something really great together.

1/2/2015 5:46:00 PM
I am over my flue and my Dad is doing better each day now my girlfriend that help me,when I was sick is sick I spent today taking her to get,medicine and food oh I sure hope I don't get this bug back and she gets well soon. Going to meet my sister for lunch tomorrow going to celebrate Christmas with her and her hubby tomorrow. Better late than never. Hope you all are starting your 2015 off healthy.

12/31/2014 3:32:21 PM
Here's to a better year may this 2015 be the best year ever!!!!!

12/31/2014 3:32:19 PM
Here's to a better year may this 2015 be the best year ever!!!!!

12/30/2014 7:36:33 PM
You know I feel really bad for being so down and depressed here lately,but what I found out is there are truly good people on here that give,a shit, they have really big hearts and that they cared enough to help me out for all of you I thank you from the bottom of my heart and I do promise when I am able,I will pay it forward God Bless

12/28/2014 6:02:27 PM
There are truly good,people in this world many thousand million thanks for all your help.

12/23/2014 4:11:56 PM
My nerves are shot I am waiting for something good to happen for once I've,done,everything right for,a change where has this got me. Been honest up front and that's,only got me smacked down and,no where I've feel defeated and just want to pull my covers over my head and hide. I am so not in the mood for happy people,right now .

12/21/2014 5:52:28 PM
I hate Christmas specially this year....

12/18/2014 6:28:24 PM
My father was moved to a rehab for now he doing a little better but,will be a long while before he will be home. I am struggling right now,with alot and one thing i wasn't able to do this month was work because of being at the,hospitAl with my Dad I'm short this month on rent becAuse of it and I'm a mess about it,it's funny that when someone writes me and,ask how I am and I tell them the truth they magically disappear thats just who I want in my life a fairweather Master NOT!!!!! I must be a Hugh sucker to have a caring soul and when I am able to help someone,less fortunate then me I have done it that I've help them. Merry Christmas everybody. all I want for Christmas this year is my Dad better and my bills paid specially my rent mAybe Santa will hear me.

12/18/2014 6:28:23 PM
My father was moved to a rehab for now he doing a little better but,will be a long while before he will be home. I am struggling right now,with alot and one thing i wasn't able to do this month was work because of being at the,hospitAl with my Dad I'm short this month on rent becAuse of it and I'm a mess about it,it's funny that when someone writes me and,ask how I am and I tell them the truth they magically disappear thats just who I want in my life a fairweather Master NOT!!!!! I must be a Hugh sucker to have a caring soul and when I am able to help someone,less fortunate then me I have done it that I've help them. Merry Christmas everybody. all I want for Christmas this year is my Dad better and my bills paid specially my rent mAybe Santa will hear me.

12/15/2014 6:02:11 PM
Last time I wrote I ask for prayers for my father there has been no change actually it got worse then now its back to where it was when I wrote last time I'm exhausted and now sick with a fever probably from being at the hospital where there is sick people I would appreciate it if you still,continue to pray for his health to return and that the aneresium is took care of and this infection has to leave his body asap, Thank you all for such loving support.

12/8/2014 6:58:13 PM
You know it's so hard feeling helpless I just wish I could do more to help my Dad get well. All I can do is go see him everyday and pray please please if you are a believer add my dad to your prayers. It is so hard seeing the people you love suffering that's the part of life I hate. I do know that my family got a Christmas Mircle they found the aneurysm before it was too late. And he being watch so he is right where he should be. Just sort of venting some My journal helps me to vent.

12/6/2014 5:54:39 PM
My day been ok my Dad still in the hospital can't do surgery till his infection gone then we found out today that after having a CT Scan they can go thru his leg up to the aneurysm I'm not sure what they will do to get rid of it but that's on hold until he totally has no infection from the diverticulitis.I did groom a dog today and as for payment the man took my truck and had my business name and number put on both side doors and in the back it,looks really nice I'm glad I was able to have that done. I am meeting with a women here at 1 tomorrow to sell her all my cake supplies I made cakes mostly wedding for 32 years and I'm selling everything Since I went back to school and got certified to groom dogs I am no longer,interested in doing cakes.I think if you have a dream of doing a certain job you should go for it at any age life way to short to settle for a job you hate.I decided to start over with my life and I have totally done this and for once in my life I am very proud of myself. Hope everyone is having a good weekend .

12/4/2014 6:32:09 PM
Today been rough my Dad has a anurisum and its like very scary cause they can't do anything because he has a infection that got to be gone before they can do the cat scan to find out what they are going to do its way down in his pelvis area, so we the family are so stressed out good thing we call it our Christmas Miracle that they found it and that he is being monitored need lots of prayers. IF I DON'T ANSWER YOU DON'T BE OFFENDED RIGHT NOW.

12/2/2014 1:14:07 PM
Today making Christmas Cookies and listening to Christmas Music in the Holiday Spirt right now.I DO not want ice and snow no no no please pass us by. I want to go shopping maybe next week I'll do that.

11/27/2014 1:06:00 PM
Today is a day that you look over the past year and see how blessed your life really is, I have much to be thankful for I have so much more than I had last year each day becomes a better day and I have many positive people in my life that help me to stay on the right path I have gone thru alot of good and bad this year I've been sick and recovered and lost a mate and found new friends to help me fill that hole I had in my heart. So as you sit down with your fAmily and friends make sure you do count all your blessing and say a little prayer to the big guy up there that you appreciate everything you have and everything you've gone thru to make yourself a better person that you are today don't over eat and make yourself sick today that would not be good from me to you enjoy and be safe and happy and blessed.

11/25/2014 5:57:41 AM
Had a wonderful night last night went to dinner with a friend had Chinese and it was so good the owner of the restaurant came over and sat with us telling us jokes and ordering us drinks and just hanging out with us he was so much fun a older Gentleman I even went into the men's bathroom to see a nude picture of a women that was hung up on the wall he laugh when he found out I went in there. I SO MUCH ENJOY Last Night

11/22/2014 5:06:58 PM
Yes I'm still here my sister extended her kindel to me to use till Thanksgiving so I am one happy Sub and I am in high hopes of getting my own maybe sooner than later. I am so tired of having the lack of sex it's got to start changing soon cause Its way over do. Geez I'm so fucking horny......

11/22/2014 5:06:56 PM
Yes I'm still here my sister extended her kindel to me to use till Thanksgiving so I am one happy Sub and I am in high hopes of getting my own maybe sooner than later. I am so tired of having the lack of sex it's got to start changing soon cause Its way over do. Geez I'm so ducking horny......

11/16/2014 9:22:04 AM
We are getting 3 to 5 inches of snow tonight Omg it begins HOPE everyone stays warm.... I am staying home no reason to be out tonight anyway. Stay safe everyone. Also good day to watch movies . Just wish I had a fireplace

11/10/2014 8:13:08 PM
Just letting my friends know that the only way I had to get on the internet was with my kindlefire HD that my sister gave me for my birthday I had a laptop and gave it to someone to fix he then just disappeared and so did my laptop so I broke my KINDEL and I'm using my sister's till next Wednesday then I got to give it back I'm on a very tight budget and right now the funds aren't there to get another one so I'll be back later on when I have no clue but when I'm able to buy one I'll be back just know I didn't die.Im STILL VERY MUCH ALIVE.

11/2/2014 3:35:22 PM
Wow I have to say that I got a really sick message from some sick o from Germany who gets off on beating the hell out of women this site is not for this and I hope he gets what's coming to him. We are not trash without women who would he take this out on, scary shit,

10/27/2014 4:59:35 PM
Well I had the best weekend did the painting class and had so much fun and I didn't do a bad job either. We have had beautiful weather here today and I enjoy it so much got to wear shorts and no sweater or jacket tomorrow we have rain and cooler weather shoot I got rid of my house guest Bandit went home last night these past two weeks were not bad at all he did not try to bite me once I was amazed how good he behaved. My girls are happy he is gone they were getting sort of jealous this past week my attention was mostly on him and they weren't happy . So now things back to normal and loving life. Hope your weekend was as good all is A ok here in Kentucky settling in for the night sweet dreams everybody have some good sexy dreams then tell me about them hee! Hee! Would love to hear them. LATER

10/27/2014 4:59:34 PM
Well I had the best weekend did the painting class and had so much fun and I didn't do a bad job either. We have had beautiful weather here today and I enjoy it so much got to wear shorts and no sweater or jacket tomorrow we have rain and cooler weather shoot I got rid of my house guest Bandit went home last night these past two weeks were not bad at all he did not try to bite me once I was amazed how good he behaved. My girls are happy he is gone they were getting sort of jealous this past week my attention was mostly on him and they weren't happy . So now things back to normal and loving life. Hope your weekend was as good all is A ok here in Kentucky settling in for the night sweet dreams everybody have some good sexy dreams then tell me about them hee! Hee! Would love to hear them. LATER

10/18/2014 3:44:25 PM
Well well well things are going pretty good I still have my friends dog he is doing so great this time around I groom all of mine and him yesterday and I wasn't bit at all he has reAlly shock me how good he has been but ill tell you he likes,sleeping with me he hogs my king size bed and leaves me no room my three have moved to the floor,lol oh well life,is sweet.

10/12/2014 5:17:27 PM
I had a great day now I'm like so happy now for two whole days the dog I'm watching for two weeks hasn't bitten me he has been such a little gentleman let's hope he is not bipolar and changes on me tomorrow. It's been lovely to just have peace and contentment today hope your day was just as nice.

10/10/2014 4:52:34 PM
Well got the new guest last night and it wasn't a great night the little guy kept me up all night then I left to go do some things at 7am and my God the barking that was happening inside my house thank God I don't live in a apartment. But guess what he hasn't bit me yet he actually been following me around jump up in my lap and is letting me love on him I got him a dog pillow and laid it next to my bed and right now he is sound asleep, and my three lol they are laying here with me looking at him, might be a hint of jealously there I do believe well one more day which is Saturday I have to get up early then Sunday I can sleep as long as I want to. I have to say life pretty darn good,right now. HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY ...... Have a safe weekend do something that makes you feel good and makes you smile .

10/9/2014 5:38:15 PM
Weekend almost here yep-ee going to take a painting class on Oct 25th with a friend sounds fun first time of ever doing some painting on canvas, wonder if it's going to look good be nice to have a naked man to paint ha! Well watching my friend shih-tzu mix for two weeks this should be interesting the first 3 day he a mean little thing but after we get past that it's not so bad thank goodness he gets along with my girls we are gated in my bedroom so I don't have repeated episodes like the last time that sure wasn't fun also I left the leash on him so I don't get bit to bad I think I'm a little more prepared this time . Well I got to get up early so headed to bed Good Night hope everyone has a great weekend .

9/25/2014 6:21:08 PM
What a beautiful day it was today life is good and I'm loving it hope everyone going to have a greAt weekend I for one am going to try to have a good one working on plans now. I like to take a ride and go to a new sex store I heard about in Indiana that is alwAys fun looking at everything and going oh yell that would be fun.

9/20/2014 7:19:07 PM
Hey thanks to all you that wrote me and gave me sites to go too, I loved wAtching them. I have to say the training of Lady O pretty hot. Thanks again.

9/15/2014 7:40:09 PM
Looking for a good porn site that's free with bondage please give me one.

9/14/2014 7:13:13 PM
I woke,up Saturday with a bug of some kind went from feeling a little under the weather to feeling like I was on death doorstep been sleeping all day and it was good cause feeling a little bit better tonight. While I'm here I want to ask if anyone knows where I could buy a really nice flogger I had one used on me years ago made out of some animal skin it was like a enue well At least I thought it was what they said but it was heavy and,really,soft I want one so if,anyone knows,where I can get one please,let me know. Thanks

9/11/2014 6:30:53 PM
I am alone,and,I hear his,voice telling me to touch myself in different ways,and then I hear,him tell me to cum just the mear sound of his voice excites me and I can't hold back and,I them explode craving more,and more from him. Am I the only female on here that cums from hearing a certain voice and sound ?

9/9/2014 5:52:26 AM
I was watching a show on hulu plus on subs slaves mistresses and BDSM and it was insightful I must say there is a place in New York called Pandora Box it's in Manhattan anyone ever heard of it anyone been there I'm curious to,know what their experiences were if they were there.

8/24/2014 2:45:57 AM

8/4/2014 6:05:23 PM
Need very much a vacation I am still dreaming of one by the ocean 

7/26/2014 4:56:56 PM
Wow it's Saturday another weekend hope everybody doing good Today been a pretty great day here in Kentucky it was suppose to rain today but hasn't so far got to hold some new puppies so precious and also went out to my parents farm and help feed some baby calves with a bottle their mother died. Fed some horses some carrots I miss not living on the farm it's awesome being around all those wonderful creatures . Hope Sunday is just as nice .

7/25/2014 5:03:19 PM
What a fun day spent it with a friend went shopping tried on a billion outfits some made me look like a hooker and tried on some,really eloquent evening gowns then went to the make up counter and me and my friend got our face painted wow did we look hot! Then went to the perfume counter where we walk out smelling like whores lol and the only thing we purchased were a pair of really cool ear rings from Ann Klein a mark down price of a whole $5. Wish a had a zillion dollars to spend . I been needed a day like today. We decided our next trip out we going for a pedicure.

7/24/2014 11:28:22 AM
FIFTY SHADES OF GRAY COMING OUT FEB 14,2015 I'm going I would so love to go see it and then be fucke d like crazy lol Gosh I love that book...hope the movie is going to be just as good as the book .

7/23/2014 5:22:24 PM
Better day today did some major cleaning and laundry went around to all the vets offices and left my business cards for dog grooming already got one call and doing the dog Friday. Woo-hoo!!!!! Trying to get enough for my Delilah next surgery August 6.I am very positive have to be.
Tomorrow I got to go to the foot doctor a pin in my left foot is sticking out,hope it can be fixed there please no hospital. 
Came home did some cleaning and laundry. I might not feel like doing anything tomorrow .I also got the refrige cleaned .
I also got a call about a research study which will be for one year but it only like 12 visits and pays $1000.00 I go tuesday at 9am.
Things are looking up. BTW Thanks everyone for the messages you left me about my dog it really does make me feel better.

7/22/2014 3:48:09 PM
Delilah doing so much better I went ahead and groom all of them today and was real  careful clipping Delilah she looks so much better now. It's so hot outside today would love to go swimming looks like I'm stuck here making sure she don't rip her stitches out they come out on the 31st dam that a long time to wait to do something. Thanks everyone for your well wishes for her that meant a lot to me.

7/21/2014 5:08:38 PM
Susan we might have to wait to have lunch things have changed on me and I need to work this out

7/21/2014 8:43:54 AM
Well My Delilah is healing and gets her stitches out July 31st can't wait for that to happen. I've been looking forward to meeting someone I met on here so as soon as my girl ok we are going to meet  smiling here...

7/19/2014 10:38:11 AM
Third day Delila slept all night and is sleeping now doing much better so happy for her still giving her pain pills and the antibiotics so things are looking up. I can tell she can see again that in itself is a miracle Life is great and I'm so darn lucky. 

7/18/2014 4:54:49 AM
No sleep,at all last night, my Delila cried all night pain pill didn't help much I sure hope she is better today, I gave up on keeping her in her cage that just stress her out more she wanted next to me on my bed so I lifted her up and let her lay here next to me and this morning Sat her back down on the floor which she is on another pain pill and sleeping on her big dog pillow geez keeping this dog unexcited for two weeks is going to be the death of me, wish me luck cause I'm sure going to need it.

7/17/2014 7:03:17 PM
My baby home,now they removed two tumors inside her left eye and one above the left eye good thing is she isn't going blind she is going to be able to see better now they said then they removed 7 cysts then in two weeks they will remove her stitches then at the end of August she got to have her mouth operated on probably will remove most of her teeth she has a major infection going on in her mouth and this has to be done she's,going to be on antibiotics till End of August before her surgery poor thing she looks so pitiful I'm praying she,going to heal,fast major stress on her mommy today but glad this part is over. Thank you everyone for,asking about her .. hugs from Ginger

7/16/2014 4:26:51 AM
THE  love of my life my 13 year old  Shih Tzu Delilah Maye is having surgery tomorrow to remove a large bump above her left eye I'm really nervous about this IM REALLY scared for her being put under I am praying all goes perfect and she will lose the pain she is in now and be able to come home to me and her two sisters tomorrow night please say a prayer for her that everything goes perfect and she will be ok I believe in prayers I know he hears them.

7/10/2014 9:26:46 PM

7/5/2014 9:47:14 AM
Enjoying this wonderful weather and going to grill out later ,Sat out on my deck and been watching baseball games,all morning they are playing right in the park which is at the end of my yard there a fence at the end of my yard and a wall then behind that the park behind the baseball field the Ohio River so can also watch boats floating by how lucky am I with this view everyone have a great Saturday ..n

7/2/2014 7:56:53 AM
I always dream and seems like that's all I've been doing lately.I meet someone and get excited and think maybe he is the one but it doesn't pan out. I get confused and don't understand sometimes what happen or went wrong when dates are planned and cancelled then made again and cancelled then days go by and I hear nothing from them now I'm confused some would say he isn't interested but I choose to think positively that something happen that he didn't have control of and I will hear from him again.  Oh am I a fool or am I just someone who reaching for that star that I can never touch. I am giving him a chance to let me know what's up is there still hope for us , I sure hope so but right now that's up too him.If not just be decent and call and say hey it not going to work for us. Do what's right.

6/20/2014 12:08:16 PM
You just never know about anything you just wake up begin  your day and maybe if your lucky you will meet someone kind nice safe and fun someone who will make you feel wanted and beautiful those days don't happen very often GOd I sure wish They did.

6/18/2014 9:11:24 PM
It never fails it's always something. I WISH I HAD A MAGIC WAND

6/14/2014 7:40:39 PM
Happy Fathers Day to all you DADS out there,my wish is your enjoying you Sunday with your kids.
I'm spending mine,with my Dad taking some,fried chicken out and some mashed potatoes and gravy corn Cole slaw and green beans and a chocolate cake I made and biscuits hey who's dad doesn't like chicken and some good company.
I'm glad my Dad is still here and I want to spend time with him while I can I got a great Dad I'm lucky. 

6/4/2014 11:36:23 AM

Some people love rain lighting and thunderstorms I am not one of them. I know rain is needed but still I am not a happy camper being out in it. But I do love hearing it hit a tin roof.

6/2/2014 7:04:04 PM

Ok its really sad that this happen with collarme , I feel bad for everyone involved but I sure miss my friends on here glad someone very kind email me and gave me the new name or I never would have known it was back on. Hello my friends hope you find out the new name too. 

5/20/2014 2:18:14 PM

Geez busy week for me, trying to get my front yard looking awesome and doing some xtra studies plus grooming the little fur-babies then going to my nephew thing on wednesday before his graduation on friday then off to a party saturday if i havent lost my energy. Great doing outdoor things. Cant complain cause im doing pretty good. Well one of these days im going to be able to do whatever I want anywhere at anytime wicked laugh . 

5/15/2014 4:33:43 PM

I would love to take off and go visit someone in FLORIDA, but not possible right now, i will try very hard to get someone to watch my DOGS the end of August or Sept and go  jUST WOULD LOVE TO BE LAYING ON THE BEACH TANNING SOAKING IN THE SUN AND LISTENING TO THE WAVES. RIGHT NOW. That would be heaven.....

5/13/2014 12:10:34 AM

Today is my Birthday the Big 57 Wow I made it this long  lol Happy Birthday to me I'm going to enjoy every second of today. Big Smile !!!!!

5/11/2014 6:33:55 PM

Well I got my things Saturday drove 13 hours down and back and today I was totally wiped . Out. I SLEPT most the day up now feeling 100% better. A big thank you for my friend who made it possible for me to go. MY BIRTHDAY is Tuesday and when I got home yesterday my friend who watch my dogs while I was gone brought me some flowers and some tomato plants for my birthday gift,so if weather permits going to plant them tomorrow. What a wonderful surprise to see when I got home last night. You know something's you need to do something like for me it was going back to Tennessee to my X house and retrieving my things after he passed away has help me close the door to that part of my life. This has help me put a lot of things behind me and move forward. Such a good thing to be able to do. Well a good night to all on what turned out to be such a pretty day. Dream big everyone good things are in-store for all of us.

5/9/2014 3:50:27 PM

I'm am all set headed out of Kentucky to the great State of Tennessee at 4am in the morning then Headed back to my Belove home in Kentucky all in the same day  finally I am getting to bring my stuff home it's about time. LIFE IS GREAT  MOVEN FORWARD NOT LOOKING BACK ANYMORE.

5/7/2014 6:52:31 PM

I had my girlfriend mother's come over for lunch today and to help me make that wreath for my front door we made it sort of heart shaped with dog wood blooms around it to match my tree I planted I think it's grown some BTW. Then added a bow it looks very nice and my friends mother did a awesome job with helping me make it. I am having a friend come by Thursday to help me move some furniture around so I can just bring my things in and put it where I want it then . I'm making her lunch for my gratitude.I hope the weather man wrong and we get no rain that would be great to not have to drive that van in the rain being as I've never driven it before. I'm so getting nervous geez hives I'm getting now and that just sucks .Well night everyone tomorrow a New Day and good things are going to happen I feel it ..... 

5/6/2014 4:52:47 PM

Beautiful day took a long walk with my girls today they were so wanting to be outside .They are sound asleep now.I am all set to go get my things Sat thank God I am so wanting this to be over with. I'm hoping for some great yard sales on my way not a lot to spend but I still love looking. My birthday Tuesday the 13th I  will be 57 sure goes by fast. I got a email from a man I never heard of before  it said he was sending a package gave me a tracking number I called the post office it was pick up on May 2 in Calfornia ok this is strange I hate not knowing . I also found out a Dom I've been talking to on here had a heart attack my prayers are for you to have a speedy recovery plus the Dom that was to take me to Ten fell thru a roof and he having a really rough times right now prayers for you too. I think tomorrow I'm going to work on making a door wreath need something to put on that ugly door. Have a nice evening everyone. 

5/3/2014 6:21:32 AM

I had many ask me what my dream was so here goes, I was at a party where I met many Doms all of them had Black Suits and ties on very professional men I was introduced to a Dom who I found to be gorgeous he was also a true Gentlemen by all means he had a lot of passion and love to give to the right one I could tell.He made me feel something inside that made my heart stir he also made me feel so beautiful he was so patient he took his time with me we stayed the night together no sex just talked but we did fall asleep in each other's arms .The next day he took me shopping he bought me some clothes he perfered me to wear, he took me to dinner and a play and seen me everyday for a week .We went to museum he showed me so much class and patience that week slowly stealing my heart.He had me falling in love craving him every minute wanting s o much to please him I must say I was very consumed in him we travel started doing everything together I met his friends , family I trusted him as I had no other I had not one doubt.I knew he was the Dom I so much needed.After going out one night he brought me back to his home where he made love to me like I had never experienced and presented me with a diamond Collar asking me to become his, yes his Slave/ Sub I excepted and was the happiest I had ever been in my life before leaving him he also handed me a box I open it and it was a key to my New Home I cried tears of true happiness .Even though this was my dream I know that this is possible and I can have this one day thats why I said what a beautiful sexual dream I just had. I know I will have this one day. 

5/3/2014 4:40:17 AM

I had the most beautiful sexual dream last night I would only dream of my real life having this what a wonderful Dom to have in my life I would be the luckiest women alive. What intense desires I have and need this Dom in my dream filled all of them

5/1/2014 2:33:37 PM

Another day and where our warm weather go? Dag it's cold I turn my heart back on. I groom a Black Lab and a beautiful German Shepard this afternoon their owner wanted them both shaved down to the skin between both dogs which one do you think stood still and was perfect well hard to believe but it was the German Shepard that dog was perfect he listen to everything I said and never moved. 

I really love dogs they make everyday so much better. They got a bath and neither one wanted to leave the shower I have a five speed shower massage and with the warm water they were in/ heaven, I never have a problem giving the bigger dogs baths because of the shower massager.I must say that dog made my day.

I hope your day was just as good as mine. Smile


4/29/2014 3:25:16 PM

Planted my dog wood tree today  I'm so excited I hope it grows and I get to see some blooms this summer crossing my fingers I want this tree to grow so bad,then work in my yard some Its going to storm here soon yuk but my tree needs the water. 

Got an appointment in the morning for a research study for hair shampoo easy money.


GOT ON E-Bay and order me some cool ear rings and make up. That's my downfall those two things plus perfume. I LOVE OSCAR ,one night I was sitting at a bar and I heard a man standing pretty far back from me saying where that scent coming from he move his way up trying to smell the girls as he got closer to me I heard him say the smell was giving him . A hard on I had no idea it was me he was smelling by the time he realized it was me he had pissed quite a few women off. The guy said that was the sexiest perfume he had ever smelled. 

So I love that attention so that's what I only wear plus I do love the smell.

Now it's pouring out . Good day to spend in bed. 

That's all I got for today talk later.

4/27/2014 7:37:52 PM

So so tired I ran around all day, enjoy it too then stop at Uno's for a seafood pizza yum then sat  and watch the boaters from my deck with my girlfriend. She's going to ride with me when I go to Tenn to retrieve my things really good friend.Even took my dogs out for two hours tonight I'm looking at them now they are in my bed sound asleep they got wore out to from all their running. Well Good Nite all up day my journal later.....

4/25/2014 4:00:56 PM

It is a bit NIPPY out today wanted to plant my dog wood tree but I'll wait a few days till it's a little warmer. Going out to dinner and a play tomorrow night that should be fun love dressing up and looking hot. 

Yes love playing with the eye make up too. Love my red nail polish and lip stick 

Found out that I can rent a cargo van from Enterprise a lot less than getting one from u haul .So plans are set for Ten MAY 9 th that will be a very long day driving there and back all in one day . Just can't wait till I hAve my things back.

Have a very positive out look and hoping things just work out this time but for sure it's one day at a time a major baby steps right now. 

Hope every one has a wonderful weekend  Have fun and be safe we tend to be less careful when it's nice weather out. 


4/23/2014 5:57:45 PM

So happy spring here love the smell of fresh cut grass watching flowers bloom and trees with green leaves on them and I love planting a whole bunch of brightly colored flowers in my front yard . I bought a dog wood tree I'm planting it next week. Im excited to see it when it blooms I had gas money given to me to go to Ten to retrieve my things from where I use to live cause my X died and the man taking me fell thru a roof on his job and is pretty messed up right now. I've got an extended three weeks to retrieve  my things but  I have no truck mine I don't trust . So very bummed out about that cause I was just paying the gas cause my friend had the truck.I check with U Haul hell just, renting one and the mileage no gas is a little over $300.00 that's high. I believe in miracles so I hope I get one cause I really want my armoire that's all the furniture I'm wanting plus a few small things that mean something to me. OTHER THAN THAT LIFE LOOKING PRETTY DARN GOOD .

4/19/2014 7:26:00 PM

Hope everyone has a nice Holiday tomorrow Happy Easter I always loved getting a new dress and hat and gloves when I was a young girl so I would look extra special that day

4/14/2014 7:26:48 PM

I never really believed I could be a Slave in my mind I was a Sub when I became involved with my X I became his Slave willing because of the love and devotion I had for him So I do understand what being a Slave is and for the right Master I would be his assets for him and I would please him everyday and know I had his love. But it would have to be someone very special haven't found anyone that even comes close to being special but I believe your real and your out there . I READ THE PROFILES OF ALL DOMS AND MASTERS ON HERE SOME ARE REALLY FAR FETCHED THEN SOME ARE VERY REAL AND HONEST THEN THERES THE ONES THAT JUST NEED TO PLAY WITH ANYONE IT REALLY  DOESNT MATTER WHO. MY X DIED THIS PAST Feb life to short to be treated bad , I just letting whoever interested in me know that I'm not wanting to be used for That Dom that doesn't care who it's with, I m not interested in the Dom that's far fetched I'm only wanting the real and Honest Master/Dom ....ok

4/10/2014 11:02:35 PM

I love being a Sub/Slave to a man in a Suit and tie what a turn on very HOT !!! 

4/3/2014 10:15:13 AM

Looking forward to this weekend it's going to be beautiful I'm getting out and having some fun can't wait . It's going to be so sweet being outside most the day . Going to grill out with some friends later . 

3/31/2014 7:11:47 PM

Was on E-bay today looking at sexy clothes they had some pretty nice things on there then I seen this dress that I just had to have it was priced new never worn and regular price was $90 three people bidding got it with shipping included for $27.00 . Yes yes yes happy dance ready to go out and look fantastic

I have such a exciting life ,buying a dress thrills me. 

3/30/2014 12:10:24 PM

I hung a picture over my bed and while I was in bed it fell and hit me in the head ouch dam I think it did something to me I think it made me even more goofy and horny. Lol 


3/29/2014 8:18:50 PM



MY health is getting better and I am doing everything to make sure I heal.

You know getting older is a pain the changes the body goes thru, but that's nothing conpaired to someone dealing with something  ALOT worse.



3/28/2014 4:39:36 PM

Everyday gets better and better. 

3/27/2014 6:16:09 PM

Tonight I go to bed with much peace and joy and happiness and love in my heart. 

There are truly Angels out there among us I know I met one. 

3/26/2014 6:10:10 PM

I'm lucky I am prayers and dreams do come true .....

3/25/2014 3:42:18 PM





3/6/2014 1:05:00 AM

Dreams can be wonderful then some can be bad and others sad Woke up dreaming about my X DOM he died Feb 17 last month it wasn't expected I so wish I could have had closer with him. He was in all honesty the greatest love I ever had even though we couldn't live together I think a Slave/Master relationship is such a strong bond even apart you are still very much a part of each other. I will never forget . My heart is so sad.

3/2/2014 3:10:29 PM

Well we got the ice haven't seen a speck of snow yet but have heard its on its way from my friends in Ohio. ok after this round it will be over and ready to meet some wonderful sexy charming men

We can go Dutch just wanting to enjoy someone decent company oh by the way not jumping in bed first meeting either its not happening



2/26/2014 6:29:39 PM

Had a great day today heard from a old friend I met in Ten that moved to Atlanta and also had another friend stop over and they hung out with me most of the day it was a day I very much needed so uplifting so fun I am wondering what fun I can get into we will see.

2/21/2014 1:58:23 PM

Rest in peace InCamera just know with all my heart you were loved. I am so sorry you never found happiness with anyone and your whole life was so troubled maybe your finally at peace.

2/21/2014 1:51:52 PM

been on here past few months dealing with some real health promblems My test came back great I was given new meds and had a stroke well talk about having someone protecting me up there they did I had no lasting damage and it gave me a new zest for life two days after my stroke I got a call my X Dom my lover for 6 years died omg that was terrible all I want to say to everyone don't take your life for granted anything can happen and without notice live life like it is your last day I know I will no more I wish no more maybe's I'm the lucky one I was given another chance to get living my life right. And I am going to be happy .

2/15/2014 6:37:05 AM

Getting ready to shovel snow again oh what fun looks like we might be getting warmer weather this. Coming week that would be wonderful I am ready for that I would love to be able to do something fun out side for a change.

2/14/2014 4:41:10 AM



Happy Valentines Day.


just updating I got good news back on my tests but then had a stroke from some new medicine they had me on no permanent damage but it sure scared me to death. One thing I have learned don't take your life for granted it can all be taken from u in a heartbeat live everyday happy I know I am now. I was very lucky and been given a second chance this time I am going to do it right.

1/27/2014 10:32:04 AM

I think that being sick just really sucks the only thing good that happens is you lose weight and I hate snow and freezing cold weather I need A beach with lots of Sun 

1/18/2014 4:21:44 PM
Its been nice hearing from old friends I must say that being away sure has giving me a really better attitude and look at the things surrounding my life. Ihad a man tell me that when looking for a Master look at his life see what he has if he has Master his own life he will have a nice life with nice things surrounding him but if he doesnt have anything that should tell me that he hasnt Master his own life so how could he ever be the Master of mine. I believe that but I also believe that there are men who have all the nice things and are as vain and as arrogent as anyone can be. And to be around them just put it this way I would not enjoy it at all. What I do know is we never stop learning the old saying the older the wiser yep thats truth I know that the older I become the smarter I seem to get why because I've already made so many mistakes and I know not to do them again I honestly don't think think theres many more left for me to make lol or at least I SURE HOPE NOT.....

1/17/2014 5:49:17 PM
HELLO Its been over a month now since I decided to take a break from CM it was hard I must say in the beginning guess I was having CM wthdraws but after the second week it got better. I wanted to escape from this world and see if I really needed this or if I could just let this part of my personality go. Well what do you think if you said no you were right I think once you have experience this life you either hate it or love it theres no middle ground. I have made some insane choices in my life and hopefully I have became much smarter and wiser since I do admit the past was insane. I was told recently by someone when you do the same thing the sameway over and over you always will get the same results so heres to 2014 not doing the samething the sameway....... Here to make some new friends.

12/13/2013 4:50:09 PM
It is Friday thank goodness Weekend time, and more snow on the way , I was reading some of my mail from my dream I had the other night hey even got some pictures of a girl getting used on a pool table BTW thanks for sending the visual it made me play with myself and cum so I thank you for that. I wonder just wonder what it must feel like having more than three men playing with you must be overwhelming if it was me I probably have a heart attack and die right then. I talk with a man today he was a Master my thoughts in the beginning was sure you are but after listening to him I found him to be truthful very honest strigh forward he called a spade a spade and he wasn't someone who would be snowed by another easily actually I don't think he ever could be. Sometimes hearing the truth about yourself hurts but you cant defend yourself when you know what he is saying is the truth and yes it does hurt I have met alot of so called Masters specially on here and I perfer the older ones to the younger ones because the young ones do not have a clue what a true Master is. One thing that stood out that he said to me was look at his life is he the Master of his life does he have his life together if he doesnt then how the fuck can he be the Master to anybody. THAT IS SO TRUE. OH I learn the difference between a apple and a pile of shit you can shine an apple and make it shine look good it even will taste good but a pile of shit will stink fall apart if yu pick it up and never look anybetter it will never be anything but shit. Hey this guy was good he should teach a class. This sure made me look at alot of so called DOMS on here differently they should have a class just for men to teach them what a true DOM//Master is all about have the sub/slaves get trainning why not the men. THOUGHTS?????????

12/12/2013 2:18:29 AM
UP AT 4AM This time I woke up from a dream , I have alot of sexual dreams this one was unusual I don't fair well with rejection from a man or a women in any given situation , this dream I had was with a man I met on CM who I had found very exciting after talking awhile he told me he wasn't interested in us any longer so doing what all of us have to do when we are told this I deleted him and accepted his rejection and I tried to with some class but honestly it killed me inside hey none of us likes being rejected. Iwish him the best and tried to forget him and move on. Well my dream was about him damn it. I never met him in person all I had was a picture and some messages he had writtenn to me and I had heard his voice so my dream was about actually meeting him in person . Here goes I was on a trip with a girlfriend we had been driving for awhile and decided to pull over and grab a bit to eat, we found a family dinner in a small little town and there we found a booth to sit and I began looking at the menu and thats when I heard that voice his voice Iscan the dinner looking for him nobody there look anything like his picture so I went back to the menu to try to decide what I wanted to order. I chatted with my girlfriend and the the waitress came over and took our orders. I ask her where the bathroom was and got up to go and as I was walking in the back thats when I heard that voice again I turn to see who it was coming from and this time I see abunch of men sitting at a table together laughing ,talking my heart then starting beating so fast because there he was . As I was looking I see that he has notice me as well,Iquicky hurry away and into the ladies restroom whereI TAKE COVER. Now I want to never come out but I have too Damn I put on fresh red lipstick tease my hair and fix myself before opening the door to leave. As I exit he is there standing there waiting he looks into my eyes so intensely and grabs the back of my hair and pressing up against me he shoves his tongue into my mouth his kiss makes me so fucking wet he is so pressed up against me I feel his cock getting hard up against the hood of my pussy I am now shaking ready to explode but he tells me no he pushes me away and tells me to go back to my table and wait. Ido that and I am telling my girlfriend about what just happen and two men appear who I never seen be fore and ask us to join them for a drink there was a bar down the road so we finish our food and agree to follow them there . We are drinking playing pool having a really fun time and he walks in the door he is not happy at all I try not to notice him but I can,t damn him I want him so bad he sits at the bar orders a drink then other then he gets up comes over to me and tells me to strip everythingoff which I do willing trying to convience myself its the booze that making me do this. he bends me over the pool table and takes the pool stick and starts touching my body with it gently across my breast where my nipples are now rock hard and sticking sright outhe letsit go down my belly and over my hood then he hits the inside of my thigh with it to have me spread my legs wide apart he rubs my clit with the stick and then pushes it inside my already soaking pussy fuck i want him to fuck me so bad then I WAKE UP WHAT THE FUCK I WASNT DONE YOU KNOW THIS REALLY DOES BITE CAUSE AS USUAL I DONT GET A FUCKING ENDING. This is how I started my day.

12/10/2013 3:38:03 PM

tuesday my day sure went by fast I took a sleeping pill last night and it kept me up till 4am then I could not keep my eyes open the rest of the day I will not use it again I felt out of it the whole day now it is almost 630 pm and I am finally wide awake just  great I will be up again all night just sucks I am about ready to go nuts I got to get my body working right sleep at night up durning the day Ugh need some help here and no more sleeping pills. There are                    many barges  out on the River tonight I am sitting here watching them float by those men have to be freezeing on them I got mooned by a snowman via text today that was cute got excepted into another study and now I am going to finish a booK I am reading have a nice evening bye for now

12/8/2013 1:30:35 PM

Bread is baked and done mmmm smells so good letting it cool then having a slice of it OMG it looks so yummy

12/8/2013 5:09:30 AM

Need to write this lot of time you see me on here and there is so much more to do on CM then seek a Dom or to be just trolling I have a friend that send me Erotic Stories I read I also go to the recipe forum and get great bread receipes and suggestion for other dishes meats and other things there is also a creative writting forum so much more than search for a man so before you assume things get your facts I just needed to set the record stright on why I am on here a lot Smiles

12/7/2013 8:45:37 PM

hey World u ever wanted a issue resolved and you never thought it would ever happen you know get resolved  well mine did tonight thank God now I can feel good and move on we do not have things work out the way we want them to but there is always a reason funny we will never know the reason but I believe it is always for the better sometimes I feel my life is like that rollercoaster ride all the ups and downs but I must have some inter strengh cause ii always make it back up. Now I can sleep with nothing bothering me that is a gift in itself .all I can say is thank you for the learning experience I appreciate it.. Sweet Dreams my friends

12/7/2013 2:48:18 PM

My first shoveling of Snow today it was not that bad Sun was out so lots had started melting I stay inside all day probably will again tomorrow heard we are suppose to have more of the nasty weather. Ugh!! I talk with a friend of mine we ran around together twenty years ago Bar Hoping and just living in the fast Lane we had a lot  of fun we went on Vacations and had my first three way with her me her and my boyfriend at the time we chatted for a hour I ask her to come and stay a few days with me next week I think that would be just what I need to lift my spirits  my girlfriend sharing a few fun days with. Other than that today been boaring been down maybe its because I have not been out or maybe it is because I think I upset someone enough to not want to talk to me I hate that I do not like when someone gets upset with me makes me feel horrible and sad but I can not make someone forgive me funny but I did not ever imagine what I did would set them off the way it did. I was told years ago pick and choose your battles some stuff just does not merrit any emotion while others do. To my friend I hope u can go past this and know it was a accident just that a accident if it  happens again then there is no excuse between us next time I know better. please talk to me.

12/6/2013 10:46:06 AM
1 43. It is snowing pretty good here Wow so white and Pretty

12/6/2013 8:25:26 AM
DAMN DAMN DAMN THIS WEATHER SUCKS BIG TIME All inside and warm thats cool have three SHIH-TZUS FOR COMPANY thats cool but would rather have a human in here too for company no offense girls, Today will be a good day to cook need to check my freezer out to see what I can make I know what I want to have which is Chili just dont know if I have everything to make it. Gotta check it out , I might even make some home-made bread mmmmmmmm on a day like today that would be good. ok thats what I am going to do so off I must go......................................

12/5/2013 5:05:14 PM
I had the most amazing day today I met some really interesting people today I do research studies for xtra cash and have done this for many years thru the years I have met many women and men some I have became very good friends with some just people I see ever so often then there are new people that come in as what happen today, A couple came in today and we were sitting out in the waiting room they began to chat withme they had accents so I knew they were from other country, they were telling me that they moved here three years ago from Eygpt . They told me that they both had grown up there and ask me if I knew anything about theircountry funny the only thing that came to my mind was a name that I love and call myself sometime the name is \Milonia I ask them if they ever had heard the name before and the man started to laugh he ask me if I knew anything about the name and i told him yes she was a queen in Eygpt durning the Roman \days she was very sexual and very kinky and loved ||||| what we know now as the BDSM lifestyle the way he looked at me told me that fast he was a Dom as I look at her she smiled and put her head down and then I said two words to her Sub/Slave she look up at me and said I am the same as you I am Sub. OMG how did I know that how did a little chat bring up something I am very quite about something I hide in the vanilla world I live in how on earth did I at that moment know. I was called back and told them it was nice meeting both of them and left. When my time was over I was walking out and the lady at the front desk called ME overshe handed me a paper with the couples name phone number and address what was \\\written on the paper was come anytime fill the hole you have inside you dont stay sad. Ok now I am excited,confused and wondering should I call them. ????? SHOULD I

12/4/2013 4:45:42 PM
It is suppose to be getting bad the weather this friday ice storms for this fri sat sunday had plans up in Blue Ash friday but changed them for going tomorrow. I am so boared tonight had lunch with a friend she lost her dog last week so was looking on Craigs List for one so sad people get these dogs and then decide they don't want them anymore I feel so bad for them anyway whatever dogs she picks will have a happy life being with her and her husband hell they got a heated dog house they like really big dogs. Need a trip in the mountains where I can go and take my dogs and just hang out God that would be so nice right now must haves there is one hot tub and one grill and one fireplace and music. My Gosh I forgot to add the most important thing Shit all my play ToyS .

12/3/2013 5:29:30 PM
DOCTOR 'S APPOINTMENT TODAY seems like I been there way to much these past few months, Good news but WOW the cost of medicine is unreal maybe I need to go visit some of my CM friends in Canda... Went visited my girlfriend afterwards then had to stop at Target to pick up some dog food and treats for my three spoiled little brats, it was busy already the store was packed. My girlfriends Mom is coming over tomorrow at noon since my friend moved her Mom and I have became really close every once in awhile we do the visit and lunch thing and its very nice.spending some quality time together. I found out the sex store is on 6th street downtown its called Hustlers thanks to a really nice man who wrote me thanks Doug . Had a good day so life is good everything just peachy with me hope its just as good with all my CM friends nite

12/3/2013 6:36:24 AM
I heard there is a sex store in downtown Cincinnati that sells alot of things does anyone know where it is located and the name of it? If you do please let me know would love to find someone to go with me and see what they have . Any body up for a fun shopping spree even if its just to go and look.

12/2/2013 4:59:09 PM

Had a nice day got up early went and made some money then came home and decided to go for a long walk with my dogs which they did not want a part of.  One I had to carry back home they have been on my bed in the same spot sleeping ever since. Then I decided to make fried tomatos and crab cakes with horseradish sauce must say it all turn out pretty darn good. Tonight I made some homemade chocolate Chip cookies to take with me when I  go see my nieces little one in a Christmas play Thursday night. I had eventful day and a good daY

11/30/2013 2:15:57 PM
I was suppose to be with someone this weekend who means alot to me they fell and had been bleeding internally went into the hospital so our time to spend together was cancelled I just found out they have a bruised pancreious my spelling sucks I know its spelled wrong. I am praying for you to get better and soon. So I can see you. I baked my turkey I had bought and now I got enough Turkey for months I plan on making so many different things with it, a Turkey Pasta salad , turkey wraps. turkey salad. turkey soup. open face turkey sandwiches. turkey spread for crackers. Even giving some turkey for treats to my dogs. I got my 5CD Changer connected it to my stero with help from RJ so listening to some old tones I havent heard in awhile. Nice Wanted company tonight but plans change so they could not come sad but I understand. I will say my place looks awwsome really nice and clean I love a clean house. I am going to give my three dogs baths now so write some more tomorrow. It was so pretty outside today smile

11/28/2013 5:23:26 PM
Thanksgiving Day I can not sleep thru the night I wake up at 2 or 3 then stay up for a hour or so then back to bed or sometimes I wake at 3 or 4 well then when I do stay up when I fall back asleep I reawake feeling like shit. For one night I wish I could sleep the whole night . Was suppose to be at my parents house at 10am did not make it there until 1130 yes I overslept I enjoyed my nieces children help fix the meal and spent time with family it was nice I left and came home and felt sad I had no one waiting for me when I got there excepts my dogs. I have had sex the last three nights in my dreams I was used so heavenly I came and came I remember the feeling of standing up in front of my Dom offering him me and doing what he told me to do I was happy showing him mustn't cunt my tits and I was happy when it was over and I laid next to him my head on his chest hearing the beat of his heart and knowing that I had the perfect day and I had a Master who loved me it was those times that I slept the whole night thru since we have stop being a couple thats when I can not sleep. Guess the feeling of being protected really allowed me to have such inter piece. I crave it I need it and I want that back only with the right Dom until then I will somehow have to get thru this unhappiness I am feeling.I have a really good feeling about the year2014 I think that this will be my best year ever.Dont ever give up on your dreams , dreaming helps make it possible to have what you need and want for now until the real thing comes along I am thankful for what I know I am I am Thankful for mostly for my life right now. So today this Thanksgiving I am ok. In saying this I give thanks to the one above for letting me still be here to dream have sexy nasty dream that keep me feeling very much alive.

11/26/2013 1:06:48 AM
Hey I look outside and there is snow , and it is still coming down ...........Here comes another winter ..... Hope this one is not as bad as they say it is going to be .... It would be nice to cuddle up with someone right about now mmmmmmm.

11/25/2013 1:40:56 AM
I am up wide awake ready to begin my day oh boy!!!!!!!! Lots to do Just want to say I really love all my friends here on CM you can make the grayest of days become bright for me Love hearing all your kinky stories and love being teased. There are truely some very amazing people in this big old world caring gifted and very real for you from deep down in my heart and soul I thank you.

11/24/2013 4:39:51 PM

I was thinking about something today I have met so many so called Doms on here that are Married and there wife is not a Sub or Slave not into the lifestyle at all I been thinking how can he really be a Dom if he is not in control in his marriage I do not understand that I then thought if I was with a man who was vanilla but like kinky things would I be truely happy and I thought about this most the day and tonight I came to my answer I do not think so because I need a true Dom that lights that fire in my soul makes me stir inside have that intense Hunger all the time just thinking too much today

11/23/2013 3:11:46 PM

Today was very peaceful  feeling sort of sad today so turn on the Christmas lights and put on the Music and it helplift my sadness I am listening to the rain and wind right now cuddle up in my bed with my girls next to me they shake scared of the rain so they are almost inside my clothes. Going to watch some TV then read hope everyone having a nice evening 

11/21/2013 4:10:19 PM
Ok I have had so many of you out there making fun of me for putting my tree up already and listening to Christmas Music on the radio well guess what because of my beautiful stero and my tree being up putting me in the mood to listen to Christmas Music I won a contest on Warm 98.5 In Your face my friends on CM who were makingfun of me. I won I won hey did I tell you listening to Christmas Music today let me win a prize....yep on warm 98.5 and after this contest ends I am going to be put in a drawing to win $2000.00 well I at least got a shot at winning that ..... crossing my fingers , toes hands and legs.

11/19/2013 11:31:54 AM
fa La La la I put my Christmas tree up today listening to Christmas music today it is such a happy day just feel really good . Happy Happy Joy Joy went to bed last night and had such nasty sexy dreams , hoping that happens again tonight. Going to be cold tonight below freezing thats ok cause I am ready got some warm clothes and my heating pad and O my three dogs . Going to make Italian Chicken with fried rice for dinner with Garlic bread and fresh made ice tea. Thats all I got today but thats pretty darn much

11/18/2013 3:37:44 PM
Today I am at peace with myself I decided that I am happy and content and if I have to be like this for the rest of my life i am pretty damn lucky. I have Christmas music playing and it is so nice to hear it in every room of my house. This Stero is so great, I love the different color lights the flicker with every sound and beat. I like watching that. I am so rich no not money but with this stero.....................................

11/18/2013 11:19:44 AM
Good News Good News Doctor said I am going to be just fine everything wrong with me is fix well right now it is. Still have minor things to deal with but I can handle the minor...I have a long Happy hAPPY Happy life ahead of me I am so lucky and so Blessed

11/16/2013 8:20:52 PM

I have been receiving mail from music lovers understanding about my stero it is so good to know there are so many people who are just like me music has got me thru some really tough times and now it can continue too with some kick ass speakers Big Smile 

11/16/2013 10:34:57 AM
You ever had something that you really enjoyed and loved for many years that was for me my Sony Stero Cabinet I bought it in the 80's paid 700.00 for it which was a lot back then but this has always been one of my prize posession.When I moved to Ten my X. Had me to get rid of a lot of. Things I sold many but would not sell my stero the day he moved me he told me I did not need my speakers he had better ones so I gave them away here I am 2 years later with my beloved stero with no nice speakers but not anymore I found sony Speakers on craigs list and they are actually louder and better than the ones I had that went with it I am so in heaven listening to christmas music once I clean it up and brought it upstairs from the basement and connected the speakers its a wonderful day I am so happy now best christmas gift I could have ever dreamed of music makes me feel so much better God I miss this so much

11/12/2013 6:19:20 AM
Tuesday We got snow damn and it is freezing out, My doggies don't want to get their butts cold won't go outside, like they think I do brats. I got a bug today too feeling horrible. another stay in bed day . Hate it Hate it Hate it thank God for heating pads.

11/9/2013 7:05:51 AM

Burr it is cold out there need some heat 

11/8/2013 10:59:07 AM
Ok I know it is Friday , I like writting on here which on CM is called a journal me It kind of is like a place i can go and write down my inter thoughts and I really don't think of other people out there reading them. As I am finding out many do and it surprises me the ones who write me and root me on and then theres the ones I like to punch. I perfer the negative feedback i did not get but hell I know I still will. Honestly I own my thoughts and feelings there no wrong in feeling a certain way. I only have one thing to say about the ones who write the negative and that is do not read what I am writting then you don't have to make any effort or waste your time writting me and we will both be happy specially you (Jeffery). Back off !!!! I am very much a Submissive and I am very much happy being one no one has the right to judge anyone specially when they don't know them. I so hate judgemental people. So my thoughts and feeling today I like to say please be respectful to everyone even the ones who do not think as you do we sure would have a much better world if we all did this. Another thing you get more with honey than you do vinegar.

11/7/2013 6:00:58 PM
Hello World today the sun was out and it was so beautiful, life was good today, I been on Craig's List looking for things I need for my Dog Grooming , found some really great buys I get so excited over such little things, what I really wish is that there was some place you could go to find some great buys on corsets , heels hose, clothes to play in then I would be in heaven . Sad but online even at some of the sex stores things are priced so dag on high I remember looking at a chain that was called a outfit they wanted $70 for that thing. I thought to myself its a frecken chain nothing else. Hopefully one day i can figure out how to make one of those it was sexy looking and hell I MIGHT just make a fortune .... I am working on my body need to lose some pounds and want to fly to New York and have a make Over if I reach my goal, then want to go see a broadway Play then with the man of my dark dreams i want to go to some classy hotel and be a slut all night. be his personal whatever ,,,, well I can do the body thing just gotta gotta cross my fingers for the slut part......

11/7/2013 3:16:52 AM
Got to do so much today , Staying postive , Life always throws us a curve once in awhile we just move slower but we get thru it.. Hate getting older, wish I was Peter Pan who stayed young forever and he also got to fly, I would love to be able to fly . Need a big hug!!!!!!!

11/3/2013 2:51:52 PM
add to Bucket List One all day adventure of ravage intense sex from a really Sexy Dom.......One who is beautiful on the outside but inside as well one who makes me feel Sexy as hell and very much loved and wanted.......

11/3/2013 2:47:00 PM
Great Day went shopping with my niece and bought some new clothes I love getting pretty things. Spent time with my sister and had dinner than came home now hanging out with my three mutts the other mutt went home yesterday so everything back to normal here, thank goodness . Going to visit my girlfriend before I go get my test results in the morning, she better have coffee made lol. Got a new bread machine from Mark and got two bread cookbooks so going to make some bread tomorrow yumm homemade bread I think I am going to make cin raisin bread that is good in the morning with coffee. Then I want to try to make some bacon and tomato bread then the list goes on. I am so hungry for playtime I need it so darn bad , only so much you can do to ones self I need a mans hands on me his touch . I am crossing my fingers that this comes soon.

11/1/2013 7:48:21 PM

add to my Bucket list    go to a nude beach and get a hell of a tan  go to Vegas dress  slutty and gamble with 1000 dollars. go on a cruise to Alaska screw up on top deck while listening to the whales mmmmMm

11/1/2013 2:27:51 AM
Feeling so much better yea so today will be a good day

10/31/2013 3:10:07 PM

I feel horrible today and I am really worried about you Mark I hope your doing better please let me know it sucks here weather wise too please let everything look brighter tomorrow 

10/30/2013 8:55:06 AM

I went to hospital this morning for more blood test and I have came to the concluesion that the last one they took must have been lost ok no big deal but then went to get medicine at Krogers and get home to realize they gave me the wrong medicine ok this tells me somebody out there just wants to screw up my day oh goodie now I will hope that they get it together and maybe I did not need it after all. I think I am ok I do believe u can will yourself well so I am doing that postive thinking I am all better lol I like that .

10/29/2013 12:27:54 PM
.I am wanting to say thank you for sending me stories my CM friend , also just to let anyone out there wondering if I am Bi no I am not. Hoping Mark you feel better really soon I am worried for you, Please take care of yourself. and hope your not telling everyone I gave you that black eye. Today would have been a really good day to have worn a butt plug all day, and baked . LOL I like feeling alive wearing that makes me feel sexy and alive and intouch with my body. Thanksgiving coming hoping to have a fun Holiday JUST MAYBE I WILL PLAY.....

10/24/2013 1:06:50 PM

So ready to go out and have some fun I miss doing that . Really cold and using the dogs and heating pad to stay warm Looking so Forward to the weekend maybe I!ll be a lil, Slut

10/21/2013 5:39:22 PM
Monday Oct 21st These months are sure flying by, Had a very eventful day my little guest Bandit had to go to the Vet got ear infection both ears poor little guy. My grooming business is picking up and everything been going fairly well. Sun was out today so I smiled alot.Did hear we are maybe getting some snow Wednesday ok that could be a joke but I am not laughing.I am hoping not.

10/19/2013 6:55:18 PM
Oct 19th Saturday, Rained most of my day very cold , I have a new guest in my home his name is Bandit he will be with me a few days while his owner is gone. My three girls are having a blast with him bossing him around and chasing him away from their toys what Bitches, I was craving something sweet tonight I wanted chocolate chip oatmeal cookies but settle for a turkey sandwich think tomorrow I'll bake. I don't know about all of you but I love when my home smells good I found this place on the internet that makes these really awesome tarts or what she calls them are kitchen melts I buy the bars she makes them out of her home and she got any flavor you can think of I love the cin bread pudding one and the April Fresh Laundry one and the Blueberry I had people tell me in the past they loved coming to my home because it smelled so good, Her site is nene 's kitchen melts .com I do not know her at all just buy from her so I am not advertising at all just saying the melts are good best I've smelled. Anyone know any good erotic new book or old let me know if you do. Hope tomorrow a prettier day want to take some pictures. Well good night getting off here now sweet dreams

10/17/2013 7:11:16 PM
Wed Oct17 This was a very wet cold day but thats the way it gets before the real cold get here, I am having such thoughts about where I am headed right now in my life. I need a equal amount of stright life and BDSM life when I just have the stright life I feel such a hole inside I am not complete and I am not truely happy. I miss the kink , the serving the bowing down and giving my self body and soul to my man giving all my trust my love my heart to him this is me this is my intense hunger I have inside me. I like being a team a couple a Submissive I am more alive then I've ever been. I do know that my day is going to come and soon I meet so many on CM and there are many special ones on here to me I enjoy talking teasing and sometimes playing out fantasies I am so thankful that you all came into my life I guess in a way we all help each other , then I have met some real jerks on here ones that I wish I had never met . What I have notice the most is we are all out there longing for someone and we are all lonely in this reguard we all have the same thing in common. I am lucky to have someone who is very close and special to me right now he has my back and I am very lucky. He is my best friend everyone of us needs a best friend someone who only wants the best for you, sometimes I feel that I am not good enough to have him but what I know with all my heart is I am good enough I am a rare breed I don't use people I hate ever hurting anyone feelings it bothers me alot so that shows I have a heart I give the shirt off my back if you needed one I do not lie unless it was to spare someones feeling but I try my hardest to always just be stright up I never could lie well anyway and I am very loyal and the best is I keep my word. Ok now Christian Gray did you read this my Fifty Shades please dont wait to long to present yourself to me.

10/15/2013 6:22:42 AM
Tuesday Morning Oct 15, Had to write this got up this morning and took my dogs out for a walk any who I have a total of 9frecken Groundhogs that have moved back into my back yard big ass ones who look like over sized rats God I hate them......

10/14/2013 4:02:05 PM
Monday Oct 14th, Well today was a ok day return visit to my Doctor news is being put off for another two weeks after some blood test are ran. Geez I am hoping two weeks things are good. Not going to worry about it any more no need to cant change anything what will be will be. Wanted to play so bad today looking forward to cumimg with my special man.Just might in a couple weeks. Smile Today went to lunch with a friend at Unos Love that place had a really good time wasn't expecting it to be as nice as it was. Got my cage for my grooming business from someone I love so much he makes me smile and feel wonderfull how lucky I have that I have someone that believes in me . I can't wait to show him just how much he does mean, (Naughty thinking going on here) Maybe I can bring my Wild Side out Today I really had some naughty thoughts I miss it doing it God I need to be really used by someone very special. Special the feeling of someone controling me every part ok thats enough for today

10/12/2013 7:38:27 PM
Oct12 10:24pm I am sitting here with my three dogs , ok what can I say my life is so darn exciting right now nottttttttttt I went out eariler well was gone most the day but that was to go to see my late friends daughter who is having a baby next month (Baby Shower) it was nice seeing her it has been a long while but it was very sad too she looks dead on my friend so it was like seeing her again. Now I am sort of feeling down ,I miss times like now where I have someone just hold me. Kiss me and tell me that they love me. Blau Blau Blau need to get off my pity pot. Need to get off here and go do some wash, and find something to eat since I only had dip and crackers today . I want to find some fun tomorrow, yep that would be a really good thing to find. NOW I GOT TO FIGURE OUT WHAT KIND. GOOD NIGHT WORLD SLEEP WELL I STILL HAVE MY DREAMS THANK GOD I DO......

10/11/2013 2:26:50 PM
Here is a tip to all you men who are writting I do not handle rudeness well, so the way you start off talking to me has alot to do with how I respond. I have had a great deal of Men who do write and are gentlemen thats what I am wanting the ones who take pride in their appearance and shower after being with me before they walk out the door, I love someone who is clean. Who the heck wants to fuck someone dirty God NO.... Goes with brushing the teeth how can you get that first kiss and want to jump your bones when your mouth stinks, not happening with me. Best one guys is come on trim down there I hate that hair in my mouth you like yourcock sucked then trim it up. And I should not have to tell anyone this but it looks like I do you want me to swollow that cock and lick then wash your self before offering it to me how fucking rude to expect anyone to put it in their mouth dirty and smelly I think I could throw up when that has happen. And when something said you get offended come on now give me a break. I am on a role today ... Yep some of you less than Gentlemen pissed me off. I am a lady first when I am with my Dom thats different it is what we have both agreed on that being said have some class when you first write someone if your not then there no chance none in hell. I am not a 10 but when I give myself to you I am very clean body wise and health wise my teeth are brushed and I am shaved I want the same in return do not even contact me if you are one of those rude ass men and smelly nasty uncleaned ones .

10/9/2013 12:22:03 PM
i am looking for a large dog cage like 48X30X33 thats not alot of money close to northern ky COVINGTON , NEWPORT OR ANYWHERE CLOSE TO THERE OR BY DOWNTOWN CINCINNATI LIKE dELI HIGH OR HARRISON OR PRICE HILL AROUND THAT AWAY DONT WANT TO DRIVE TO Kings Island or Lexington. Anybody know of one let me know please....

10/8/2013 5:40:00 PM
Today was a really good day, I got to help in doing something really nice for someone, My cousin has a 22 year old daughter who had brain surgery she is married to a wonderful man and is blessed with a very healthy 2 year old she the 22 year old was born with her skull not fully form correctly and had all her life suffer with severe head aches after searching for years to find out why she finally did. They her and her family don't have alot and are just making it like alot of people are now days and some people in my family did a collection for her they came up with $600.00 which I was a part of going and giving her today, we found out for the next two weeks neither her or her husband was getting a pay check so this was a major blessing for them we took 6 meals over and help clean her house little things that really helps when someone doesnt feel well. And best of all we brought her the piece of mind knowing that she had a family that loves her. you know the pay it forward theory it really does work i think everyone of us should remember that . Just saying!!!!!!

10/7/2013 3:01:51 PM
Well what I find is writting in this journal every day or other day I get to vent how I am feeling I try writting postive in here cause it makes me feel better but here lately I have had something really eatting at me, so today I decided to write it down. Here goes Number One thing that drives me crazy is some people on here don't believe that a Sub can be strong that in order for her to live her life she has to be owned she can not take care of herself or have her own view points on different things if she does she isn't a true Submissive, OK MY THOUGHTS to that is BULLSHIT I was in a relationship going on 6 years I loved my Dom more than life itself but us being together wasn't good for either of us it ended up turning very angry and bitter I started becoming someone I didn't like I took his side on everything even if I knew he was in the wrong I FELT VERY threaten that if my point of view differ from his he would throw my ass out after awhile actually a short while Ibecame angry and mad because I WAS NOT allowed to be the women I really was I am a very strong women I have my opinions on almost everything what I don't do is shove my way of thinking on the next guy. My profile name says SlaveGinger even though I don't feel I am a slave at all I always knew I was as Submissive but My X gave me that name and made up my profile I can not change it if I did that profile would be deleted and the new one would began all the people I have talk with became friends with would totally be gone no not every one but alot of them so come on guys stop telling me to change it face it finally Iam not going to for nobody but myself and myself doesn't want too Now something else if I just want friends rights now then except that if something happens with a friend along the way great but I AM NOT IN ANY RUSH TO GET OWNED ANYTIME SOON.MY CHOICE. I need to work on me more so respect that and don't be ugly with your. messages to me when you feel I not giving you a chance and tell me I AM ON CM playing games when your heart has been hurt you take time to mend it no matter how long it takes fix yourself and don't bring that promblem into another persons life to deal with. Hell life hard enough with anyone unloading there promblems on someone who has some of his own . At least I LOVE myself enough to get better so next time around we last till we are old and gray and sitting together in rocking chairs on the front pourch .talking about everything we did do together memories good ones and we still have thelove and respect for one another

10/6/2013 6:33:27 PM

today been a messed up day and it didn.t help that it pour down rain last night and today hell and  it still is and it is cold out side and  I want a fireplace with a fire going init right now  and a pretty glass in my hand with a blush color wine and I want to get a little bit buzzed and get fucked that would make today a much  better. Day I do velieve lol oh yell it would.

10/1/2013 3:09:15 PM
Hospital and Doctor Run yesterday UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate being made to stay in one, funny I get so turned on when I undress and strut around in front of someone so when I am told to take my pants and pantee's off I then become embarrous. Some time the mixing of two worlds can fuck your head up. I want a vacation want to go lay on the beach and spend all my day playing getting naked wish I could go somewhere and know noone and do anything knowing I would never see these people again in my life. Just Imagineing

9/30/2013 3:40:30 PM
Fall ok leaves are changing colors and yes its pretty but I hate that everything dying and soon it is going to be cold then colder That the part I so hate the days where it is gray out and freezing. Hoping to be hanging out with some great friends.

9/26/2013 6:25:43 AM
Getting ready with three friends to have a big yard sale to make tons of money hey I can hope can't I ... I find it odd that all of a sudden these men from foreign places write and tell me I am perfect for them when they just go by a picture and want to have something cyber or want to send me a ticket to come to them. I am not crazy , I WOULD NEVER DO THIS SO STOP WRITTING ME AND ASKING IT IS A WASTE OF YOUR TIME. I want to be with someone I need touched and kissed and made to feel beautiful and very much desired. I ALSO need some kink Any decent fun good men out here, I need someone that shouts aloud here I am and one that pulls me into him and makes me want to serve him. heart and sold.

9/23/2013 12:44:22 PM
This past weekend has been Heaven I spent time with my best friend in the whole world he made me feel loved cherish beautiful and Sexy thank you Sir Mark, I HAVE BEEN VERY BLESSED TO HAVE SUCH A MAN IN MY LIFE. I can tell him my darkest darkest hours and my personal fantasy i AM respected treated like a Lady and know that he will always have my back. From deep in my heart and soul I really do love you Sir Mark My Sir always......Thank you for my wonderful weekend I miss you so much already.

9/20/2013 11:48:06 AM

9/17/2013 12:10:55 PM

Ok Ok this has been a very weird past few days don't know why either it just the way I feel.

I am looking forward to the weekend,hoping it doesn't rain want beautiful weather. I am boared out of my witts today and I hate the fact that cold weather is approaching. 

Other than that everything good.


9/2/2013 7:52:10 AM

Wow I had the Best Weekend ever it is so nice to be with wonderful people you love so much . I have so much to be happy for I know I am loved and very Blessed - today I have such a big smile on my face thanks to all my Angels but sad that its over till next time. This is a start to a brand new Beginning of the way I think and Feel Here's to believing in Me.

8/30/2013 11:32:57 AM
getting ready for a wonderful fun weekend , just what I SO NEED,

8/29/2013 5:55:05 PM

 iI laugh I love I hope I try I hurt  I need I fear  I cry  see we really are not that different at all .

8/28/2013 7:53:17 PM
I am friends with a man on here that took the time to write me a short story filled with everything that turns me on, he has the kindest heart and I just like to let him know that I appreciated the time he spent writting it for me. I also have a special frriend that needs some special attention he needs to feel whole again, after losing his wife and feeling like he failed her he needs to finally be able to let it go and not go to the bottle anymore to forget he needs to once in for all forgive himself and finally move forward. We have all fucked up made our share of mistakes and had our failures but we will never be perfet I mean never, so I want him to know he is loved by his kids and yes me and I will be there always for him. My biggest hope is that you stop the drinking and you get that perfect Lady in public and the biggest slut in your bed at night. Now for Loser out there that wasted my time I so hope you fall head over heels for some slut and she does to you what you have done to so many, paybacks are hell and they do come back to you in time. Just wish I could be there tov see it happen And to my friend in Boston I so much admire you I find that you are a very rare breed the world needs more men like you. I am happy our path crossed and that you are a big part of my life I do know that you will have your dreams come true please don't ever stop believing this if anyone deserves devine happiness it would be you. Stay postive XXXXXXXXXX

8/22/2013 6:24:57 PM
Today I woke up and wondered what it be like to have everything I wanted and desired, would it fill the hole I have inside of me. I thought about this all day and tonight realized that without my own Master/DOM i will never be truely happy . I can not be a Sub in which I so want to be without him. SOOO now I won't wonder about that question I ask myself this morning.

8/18/2013 12:59:45 AM
Dreams I have, Hopefully one day they will all come true, I want what any true Sub or even Slave wants just to belong. The one thing I do know 100% for sure is that my dreams cannot ever be taken from me they are mine to own and keep forever

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