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I thought I found the one. Turned out not to be. In a way it hurts more than when my Master died because he didn't choose to leave. This one chose to. And I can't understand. I had come to a point where the hurt wasn't so bad. I was used to being alone and after some time, it becomes your new normal. I didn't need anyone and didn't care. Then you do care because he was perfect and made me happy. Then it ends. Now I have to reach the point of numbness and not caring anymore and thats hard. But it's a lesson learned. |
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I think time did tell and it didn't take long. Worse part is I don't know if it because I couldn't believe or if it was really just not true . In any case it sucks. It felt magical for a time. |
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My Master passed away in 2021. It's been a long hard road since then. But things have been a little brighter recently because of a certain someone. Is it too good to be true? Maybe but time will tell. |
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As I adjust to my new life i have found a peace I have never known. I am still finding my way in this journey. I'm so happy to be living with my master full time. He is amazing. But today was a difficult day for me. I know I have so much to learn and my master is training me well. All I want is to please him but I continue to fail often. Not intentionally but my lack of attention to details has been my downfall thus far. I feel like I disappoint him and that is more painful than the punishment. I think maybe ill never be as good a slave as he deserves. |
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"He has changed my life" is so inadequate to express what he has done. He is my master, the very center of my world. Until recently, I couldn't have told you anything about the master and slave dynamic. I may have even argued such people even really existed. Also at the same time my life was chaotic and i struggled through most days. Anxiety and indecision made most days miserable.
Then I found him or he found me. Which ever the case may be, I have found peace. He rules my world and with just a word he can still my body and mind. With a simple touch he can set my body on fire. No more are my days filled with worry or indecision, because he keeps it simple. He says and I do, very simple. And in this I find more comfort and peace than I had ever imagined could be possible. |
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Its amazing the difference a few days can make. My master gave me the greatest gift today, I'll be living with him permanently. I have hoped for this day and I'm so grateful to him. I look forward to serving him and learning how to please him in every way. I love him and want to be the best slave I can be for him. (Happy slave dance) :-) |
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He was my best friend and I love him. I was so lost and alone before he came. It was almost instantly he make my world beautiful and happy. But now it is no more, and I dont remember how I lived before him. I dont know what to do. |
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I'm finally starting to calm down and enjoy this new era in my life. I was so overwhelmed with emotions for awhile, I was freaked out a lot of the time. Now the emotions are just as intense but I'm no longer fighting them or worry about what other people thing.
My master has helped me so much in so many ways. I can't imagine life without him. Bless him, I seem to keep him busy in one way or another. |
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I still find myself struggling at times to adjust to this new life. I've always known I was missing something and now I know that something was my master. He has been very good to me and has supported and encouraged me even when I act a little crazy. Bless him for its not any master that could manage the patience he has had with me.
He gave me something today that meant so much to me. He always knows just what I need it seems. And I think about how my friends and even i used to talk about people in the lifestyle, especially slaves. How there was no way in hell or on earth we would ever be a slave to anyone. But now I find myself exactly that, his slave. And I couldn't be happier, or more at peace. I still have struggles with the changes and the emotions. But the minute I enter his house, I feel at home and where I belong. And when I sit at his feet, all is well.
Unless my friend Sam says something before I can stop her. :-)
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I've missed my master today. He has been very busy. I so appreciate the time he spends with me and crave his touch. Which had me thinking about how difficult it is to be in his position. A lot of people think a master just gives orders to his slave and thats all he has to do. Poof no work involved, the slave is automated and requires nothing more than masters every command. I thought it was kinda if like that before I learned better. Its my opinion since I met my master, that its much harder than one may imagine. He has to always be thinking, he has to engage the slaves mind, body, an emotions often simultaneously. She doesn't come made to order. My master has spent much time training me to be a good slave, the perfect slave for him. It never ends for him, he must insure my needs are met, that I remain disciplined and never let errors or bad behaviors slip by. And there is so much more even. I am grateful to belong to my master, he is teaching me well. I try to make him proud. I love my master so much and I hope I can become the slave he deserves. |
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I spent the night with my master last night and all was well with the world. With him the world makes sense, no stress, no struggles, no debating what I should do. With him there is no doubts, he gives direction to my life and sets my mind free. I am still learning to please him as he wishes. I strive to be a good slave, his slave. I only hope I please him to the best of my ability at all times. But the times I have to be away from him are so hard. I feel lost in a world that I no longer belong. And its often then that those doubts arise and fill my mind with fear and anxiety that were nowhere to be found as I sat at his feet. |
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I received my first punishment today from my master. I have a bad habit of forgetting to address him properly at all times. He had warned me. And I knew I had continued to forget and that is unacceptable on my part. And I knew I would be punished for it today but I didn't know when. I think the not knowing when and it being the first time made the waiting worse. I really didn't expect it as soon as I got to my masters. But it was sudden, swift and I'll remember it. I think the pain of knowing I had caused this was worse than the punishment itself. |
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I am new here and to the lifestyle. I had thought my occasional play with a couple dominant men made me a submissive. I had no clue what it really meant to be truly submissive until recently. I met my master and nothing has been the same. I have struggled to put into words how I feel and have failed. The moment I met him, he has been my world. I've learned so much about myself and understand now what I have been missing. I'm hoping to talk to other slaves that have been where I am. Someone that understands the intense and often conflicting feelings. I am looking forward to this journey with my master. I love him and hope I can make him proud to own me. |
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