SL100

I don't think anyone is going to serve your every need for free,not without love or actually being forced to do so in some kind of way.You may choose to believe that you are but most all here are not and are getting what they want in return whatever that may be,attention mostly.Theatrics,agreed arrangements and financial gain are mostly what I see here and maybe that is good because I get very upset when I see a person who is truly not free to make their own choices even if that choice is acting like a slave.Whether it is Dom or sub I think it is mostly about receiving attention.We all need attention even if it hurts and being alone I can tell you that is better then none.If we care about someone it can be more fun to give then receive but with that said if you refuse to ever give anything then you will not receive very much if anything at all and that is just human nature I think."can't have one without the other"

I am afraid my sexual submissive side is just topping from the bottom so I guess it is time to stop lying to myself about that.Don't misunderstand because I do tend to let people have their way and put myself second most of the time but even that is a form of dominance with me because I just want them to be happy.I still maintain control and most people that get to know me become dependent on me because I help them and do things for them and I am very good at the things I do so they also I think admire me to some degree.I will continue to label myself as a switch because I think that just maybe some day I will meet my match as they say that meaning a woman who is as dominant and submissive as I am.She will have to be smart,strong and also be aware of her weaknesses because I will be and I will do whats best for her even if she doesn't like it just like she will do for me.Call it a kinky teetering balance of power resulting in a form of equality where we each give and fulfill the others every need and desire.Oh yes,that is going to take lots of love,no doubt about that.

I find it rewarding to help someone gain more control over their life.Most times I do that by teaching them how to do things theirself and to recognize their atributes.I guess I am a dominant man wanting what is best for you but I crave attention and think that I am a mascochist.For many years now I have wanted a woman to give me a spanking but I can't seem to find one to do it,at least no one within a reasonable distance from me.I can see now that I have to find love first and the sexuall desires will follow whatever they may end up being.I think our desires are inspired by who we are with or who we are thinking about if we are alone.