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Rebellious SchoolGirl - Looking for local School Mistress or Master

Local only, please

This SchoolGirl is a backtalking, mouthy BRAT, deserves a smack to remind her of her place...

Interests: Bondage & Discipline
Submissive to dominant
(not into much pain)

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3/28/2005 5:09:10 PM
?My mind just doesn't stop these days.? All I seem to ever think about is to submit.? Recently, I even started to work on some of the correct ways to bind myself.? Just to see how they would work.

So often I have discovered that there is a lack of discipline.? Like if I mouth off or something, nothing happens.? I need to be humilitated and disciplined that really is all there is to it.? I am very aware that I will push the limits.? There is a strong desire to know how strong a person is, and how much I can get away with.? For the most part it isn't because I crave the punishment.? This is mainly to see that there is one, it soothes the rebel in me to know that I am in a controlled environment.

Not to say that I never get rebellious at all.? As I think that is a part of my genetic makeup....? just as my submissive nature is solely and completely a part of me.

3/20/2005 3:00:18 AM
Some days I wonder what I am doing and where am I going. 

Finally reconcilling the past with the present and being able to "sorta" step out in to the world as myself for the first time in a long time.  Wishing some things had never been.

Such is life... C'est la vie...

And as this life goes on...

I played darts with my exboyfriend tonight... I did great for the first 2 hours.  Then after that I just wanted to be in his arms....   I know that he won't come back... but damn after watching him after all that time I just wanted to rip every thread off of his body... 

I really do miss him.  God it is just about 3 months since he left (yeah, merry mother f.....' xmas...  And just being around him brings me to tears.

Hey what the heck is that... TEARS!!!!!  How long a it been.  I had to leave.. What good would it be for him to know...  when there is no chance....

All in all though... Time for me to close my eyes.... and drift off into the nothing ness knowning is half the battle right?

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sassylilone
 
 Age: 40
 Alameda, California