SimplySub78

Training: From my research and learning of submissives in this lifestyle, I most identify with the category of natural submissive. I have an automatic inclination to please, accommodate, avoid conflict and I am happy when others are happy (most happy when others are pleased with me). Of course, there is more to it than that, but those are some basic, general points. Only throughout the past year have I linked my natural inclination to the BDSM lifestyle. As with many natural (wild or untamed) things in this world, they must be refined to be truly enjoyed. My true essence can only be brought forth through learning and training, which needs to be managed under the hand of a knowledgeable Master and through an experienced Master’s… Attention: I tend to thrive on praise. It motivates me to continue the behavior that elicited the praise. I do best with positive reinforcement. If I do not know that I’ve done well, I will feel lost. Similarly, if I do not know that I have displeased I will not know how to correct myself. Either way, the attention is way for me to know that what I do matters to another if even as their slave, submissive or possession. Indifference is the worst non-attention that could be directed towards me. It leads to the un-doing or unraveling of many parts me and can be the way to destructive or negative acting out due to lack of…Discipline: Honestly, I lack complete discipline in all aspects of my life. I do enough to be good enough and to get by. Yet, I know that I am just below the surface obtaining self-actualization. The only thing I believe is holding me back from achieving my goals and becoming the best me possible is discipline. For some reason, I don’t feel I can obtain the level of discipline I need by myself. In the lifestyle, as a submissive, I think the lessons learned can positively affect other aspects of one’s life and give it a…Purpose: Why do I do what I do? Because I have to. I have no choice. This is in my everyday, vanilla life. Most of my tasks are thankless and the rewards are intangible, if any. Yet to have an underlying motivation for doing what I do is very pleasing and satisfying. I have felt it before. Going about my normal daily chores and tasks can prove to be extremely satisfying with the knowledge that someone will be pleased of a job well done. More thought and care is placed into those tasks with that underlying purpose. I need to have a reason for my every action. It is the direct feedback that makes it worth it, the…Surrender: Ultimately, I need to feel complete surrender from all of the weight on my shoulders and surrender to the urgings in my soul. The whirlwind that is my vanilla life is seemingly unending. Constantly thinking and doing. I need respite. I know that I cannot change what are the facts of my life. I cannot give it all up and submit to a 24/7 total power exchange. But this part of me needs release. It needs to submit. It needs surrender. And I need help to do that. I need one to take my outstretched hand, for they can see what I am reaching for. I need one to place the collar and leash around my neck to lead me, for they know the way. I need one to place the blindfold over my eyes, for they are sure of the path. I need one to strip away the load I carry so that my hands may serve them.