ShyOldMan

I did what I was told to do, and Goddess Susy dumped me and has blocked me now. I am so broken hearted over this. I loved her with all my heart and now she is gone and mad at me as well. I guess I am back on the market simply because I did as I was told to do. I have to have a Domme, I can't make decisions on my own, I need someone to tell me what to do.

I am a submissive male, I am capable of making my own decisions, but my owner has shown me that I usually make either the wrong decisions or decisions that just are not completely thought out. She, on the other hand almost always makes well thought out and correct decisions. That is why I defer all the decision making to her. Now some people want to consider that to being a door mat, but I just think it is wise on my part to let her because she is smarter and more well thought out in her decision making, while I usually use the wrong head to make decisions.

I am slowly beginning to realize that dominant women, which should be all women, can tell when a man is a submissive. I think we send off, unknowingly, some signals. All women should be taught from an early age that they are the dominant ones and then maybe we could finally get to a matriarchy society and men would be in the rightful subservient role to women, all women. I think our society would be a much better place to live if that were the case.

I was a very bad boy last night and should not have participated in the activity that I did, but I can't change it now. I am just hoping the cops don't end up at my door looking for me.

Women were made to control men. They control when and where we can have sex, they even control when and where we can see them naked. they control every single aspect of our lives, and that is the way it should be. Women are smarter, they are more in control and they don't have two heads doing their thinking for them. Men are pathetic little weasels who only want one thing, and women have it, and therefore they have control over our lives, as it should be. there are a lot of women who call themselves submissive, but in reality, even they have more control over their so called masters than their masters have over them.

I am helpless around her and her friends. When I am with them, I am just a slut to be used for their pleasure, even if it is not something I would particularly care to do, it turns me on to see it turn them on, I am just one old man pervert slut for them to use over and over again.

before we went out, she made me put on a pair of the satin women's panties she bought for me and looked at me and said, "you look good in them my sissy man" 

We drove the shopping center, or life center, whatever they call it now, and we were walking toward Victoria's Secret in the crowd and I reached out to hold her hand, she pulled away and said in a loud voice, "Look at me pervert" so I did, and she lifted her hand and smacked my face and said, " I told you never to try to do that in public you slimey pervert, you are old enough to be my grandfather, you think I want people to think I could love a old slimey pervert like you, you disgust me" I notice my small, very small cock getting hard.

Then she reached over and grabbed my shirt and pulled it up, and had this surprised look on her beautiful face and showed to people walking by, and said in a low voice, " I never knew you liked wearing women's panties, that is disgusting you pig." when she did that, I came in my panties.

I love her, she makes me feel important and needed.

I was asleep when I felt someone pulling my arms back and the next thing I know, my arms were in handcuffs. I heard this soft womanly voice say to me, "don't you dare look around at my face" She then proceeded to rip what clothes I had on, off and I was completely naked lying on my bed and her soft hands were reaching around and fondling my genitals and I heard her laugh and say " not a real man at all I see, you have such a small cock old man and such a dirty perverted mind" 

"I see you looking at all of us young girls and your tiny cock most likely getting hard" "well I am going to do something to you that you probably dream of doing to all those young girls you gawk at, I am going to fuck you, you pervert"

The next thing I know she is getting me in a prone position with my ass in the air and spreading some kind of lube all over my ass and I can feel her getting on the bed behind me. she says "here goes nothing, and don't resist and don't scream or you will regret it you old perv" with that she jams what I can only assume was a huge strapon into my ass and I could feel it but could feel her moving in and out of my ass and reaching around and stroking my small but erect cock, and she kept saying " you like it don't you you old cunt, tell my how much you like getting raped by a younger woman you prick"

I complied because I did not want to get hurt any further, when all of sudden she took her strapon out and smacked my ass really hard three times. "Good little cunt you are, you took that like a woman" "now turn around and don't look at me perv and eat my pussy" I did as I was told and felt her hands push my head down into her pussy and ate as I was instructed and when she finally came, she said to put my head up but close my eyes and then she kept slapping my face until it started to burn.

"Now you know how women feel when they are violated you piece of shit, now go into the corner and jack off for me you dog"

I did as instructed and before I came I heard the front door open and she was gone, I just collapsed on the floor sobbing like a baby.

It was pointed out to me today that I am helpless when it comes to young girls, they will own this pervert.

I am just an old pervert under the spell of a beautiful 21 year old woman, who owns my heart and is slowly gaining my soul.

I wonder if i will ever get to see Her without clothes on?

I know, as a sub, I am on her time, but it still is agonizing not to hear from her, cause I love Goddess so very much.

Make no mistake about it, there is nothing I believe stronger than I believe in female supremacy.

I even wake up from a dream about her to sit here and think about her. I touch myself and then remember her orders that I can't ado that again until 9 am. She has cut me down to just 3 times a day and no more doing it outside the house ever. I love her so much and can't wait for the day I can bow down before her and marvel at her superiority over me, a slowly and inferior male

I have now been put on a strict diet of jerking off by my beautiful Goddess, she is going to break me of my sexual addiction.

I am a slut, but at least I am her slut

I need to be milked

Whenever I see Goddess come on, and has read my mail to her, my heart just starts pounding and pounding, and something else just gets harder and harder. She has my heart, and I wish I lived closer so I could give her my soul and my complete subservience 

Goddess Susy is going to be very mad at Granpa.

She was young, 21, young enough to be my granddaughter, and she walked into the room and told me to strip and then pushed me on the bed, and cuffed my hands to the headboard. She then stripped and touched my cock with  her soft hands and got me hard. She then mounted me and started fucking me, telling me what a pathetic old man I was fucking such a pretty young thing as her, calling me granpa, up and down she went until I was almost ready to explode, and then she jumped off. She waited there, playing with herself, telling me how her finger was a better fuck than my small dick, and then she mounted me again, calling me all kinds of names, until I was ready to explode again, and she jumped off. this went on for hours, each time ending the same as before, no cumming on my part, I was crying begging her to let me cum inside of her beautiful mound of womanhood, but each time she jumped off before I was allowed to cum. What torture, what beauty, what an exhilirating time. I never did get to cum inside of her that night, but her calling a pathetic old granpa each time, was enough. Then a big black man walked in and came inside of her, and she turned to me with her legs spread and said "granpa, clean me up now. I love that woman so much.

it has been so long since I was inside an actual woman, I just had to do something about it last night.

Grandpa's heart belongs to Susy.

i hate that feeling i get when i realize i must not have been good enough for Her.

I was a very bad boy last night but I really could not help it. It was kind of exciting though, doing it in public for the first time. I just wish I was owned by someone who would make me stop it, and control me.

She has really gotten herself into my mind now. I think of her always and am constantly looking at her pictures just to steal a glance of her beauty. It is intoxicating and mesmerizing to me. I am, of course not worthy of her attention at all, but everytime she sends a message, my heart skips a beat from the excitement.

I am very happy today, a Domme ordered me to jerk off twice today and report back to her.

maybe I should ask the Dommes to make me jerk for them so they can make fun of my little dick. I deserve to be humilated since I was not able to please my two daughters apparently. I am just a big old loser.

back to watching the neighbor young lady and jerking off while watching her. Maybe I should grab my balls and get the courage to talk to her. I loved being owned, even if for the short time it was, but it was not to be I suppose. I loved worshipping their young female bodies and their firm breasts and servicing them to the best of my ability, and I found things out about myself I did not know, so it was not for nothing.

Maybe I should shy away from 18 and 19 year old women, but I am so drawn to them, and then they break my heart.

Lita tied me to my bed last night, teased me, pretending like she was going to blow me, pretended like she was going to fuck me, and then sat in the corner and masturbated, driving me crazy and getting me harder. Finally she came over and I got milked for the first time in my life, she scooped it up and made me eat it

She said daddy can I have a friend over tomorrow? I asked male or female, and she said female and a virgin, I thought maybe you could take her virginity for her I said if that is what you wish, yes I will do that.

Lita got a text from Princess last night and it looks like she is not coming home any time soon. Lita turned to me and said it looks like I have daddy all to myself now, how would you like me to fuck you in the ass daddy, and she did after making me suck her strapon. The twelve year old voice came out while she was fucking me, saying, how does it feel now daddy? 

Talking to a lawyer on Monday about adopting Lita legally. Not sure of the ramiifications of continuing sexual encounters with her if I adopt her, but not really caring about that right now, I love her so and she loves me as her daddy with side benefits.

coming back from our shoot today, I reached over and unzipped Lita's shorts and started feeling her up, she kept saying, don't do that daddy, don't do that, in her 12 year old voice, but I kept doing it until she came. She  then leaned over and kissed me on the cheek, and said, "you are such a good daddy, I love you"

time to go and do a photoshoot with a beautiful young model, Lita is going to go with me to assist. I love having her on photoshoots with me.

Princess has been gone again. I texted her and got a response back from her, "leave me alone right now faggot, I will be home when I am fucking good and ready to come home, now go molest my little sister you pervert." Lita surprised me and asked me to look into adopting her, so does anyone know if one can adopt an adult person?

woke up this morning to a raging hardon, so I slipped into Lita's room and molested her again, Princess was watching me do it, from the doorway, and let me finish, and then got out a belt and spanked me something fierce, and chastised me for molesting her little sister. I have the best two daughters in the world and I love them and serve them totally.

Princess finally came home this morning. She said she spent some time with Derek, the black guy who came over. Lita gave her a kiss, and felt her up, and said, you are all wet down there, and she said, yeah, Derek fucked me this morning before I left, and then she turned to me, and I knew what she wanted from me, so I complied, and then Lita said, "Daddy molested me" in her twelve year old voice.

well Princess has been gone for two days, so last night I went into Lita's room, and reached under the covers to rub up and down her leg, and this voice came out of her that sounded like a 12 year old's voice, and she said Daddy what are you doing, as I rubbed closer to her genitals, I said I am trying to make you feel good sweetie, and she said, I don't think daddies are supposed to do that, and then I pulled her panties aside and rubbed her shaved pussy, and she said, Don't daddy, you are not suppose to be touching my private area, but I went ahead and stuck my finger in her, and she started to cry, which got me really hard. I leaned over and kissed her check, and told her daddy's are suppose to take care of their little girls, and teach them things, and then I climbed on top of her, ripped her panties off and fucked her, with her crying the whole time. After we were done, she kissed me and said "good daddy, I love you"

If anyone would like to see some of my photography work, none of it is BDSM, let me know and I would gladly send you a link.

Lita and I talked last night while Princess was at work. She said she wanted us to be more like a real daddy and daughter and when we are at home alone, she wants me to sneak into her bedroom and molest her like a real daddy would. She wants more of an incestual relationship between us. Wow.

everyone should feel free to write me nasty messages, the more humilating, the better.

Princess has a friend over, and she wants me to jack off for this young lady. took my clothes off, and the young lady instantly started laughing, and said look how little your daddy's cock is.

Being a submissive is such a part of me, it is beyond my comprehension, and life experiences, to understand how any man can think he is above a woman, any woman, when female superiority is so evident around us.

we were in the grocery store yesterday, buying groceries, of course, and Princess came up behind me, with customers in hearing range, and put her arms around me, and let one hand go down to my crotch, and said, "I love you so much Daddy, and I am going to take care of this hard on when we get home, cause that is what a good girl does for her Daddy" It turned me on, but you should have seen the looks we got from the other shoppers.

Princess told me to write on here that I am a faggot daddy.

After Princess went to work today, Lita came to my room and laid down on the bed with me, and said she was sorry for the way Princess treated me and she was going to make me feel better. She started jerking me off, and then leaned down and gave me a blow job until I came in her mouth, I warned her I was cumming, but she said to cum in her mouth. and then we just laid on the bed holding each other until she looked up at me and said " I love you Daddy"

why can't I be good?

Do you know what it is like to have your erect penis smacked with a ruler? Just for looking at another woman?

I  was suppose to get to suck some more cock last night, but instead I was forced to watch my Princess and Lita get fucked over and over by some black guy I did not even know. I did not even get to clean them up, I just had to sit there watching, handcuffed to a chair. They said that I will not be able to touch them, kiss them, or anything sexually for a week. The reason, Princess looked at my computer and found where I have been lookiing at another Domme's profile and writing to her, a beautiful Domme from Chattanooga. She told me if that is what I wanted, I could go ahead and communicate with her, but it would cost me sexually every time I did.

was just informed by Lita that she got a text from Princess and was told to tell me that Princess has a date tonight and that I am going to be cuckolded again tonight, and that the guy is really into men and that it won't be just cock sucking tonight. Not sure what that means but I do look forward to sucking the cock of one of Princess's dates again.

took the ladies shopping today. Apparently I stared at the store clerk too long and daddy got a spanking when we got home, and I am unable to look at the ladies directly for the rest of the day.

Princess noticed me looking at the neighbor girl last night. It was an innocent glance for sure, so she made me strip down and stand by the back door with my cock in my hand. I am not sure if the neighbor girl looked up or not, but it was embarassing none the less.

It is nice, but it is also an adjustment, going from having had no women in the house permanently, to having two "daughters" living with me. An adjustment but certainly a fun and fulfilling adjustment.

Just Lita and me at home tonight, Princess is working, and Lita said to me, daddy you were so good over the weekend, I think you deserve an reward, and she got down on her knees and gave me a blowjob until I came in her mouth. I love them both so much.

I had a great weekend being cuckolded the whole weekend. Loved cleaning both ladies up after he came, and loved watching them get fucked with a much bigger dick than I have, and yes I loved being forced to suck his dick to get him hard again as well. It was not nearly as bad as I thought it would be, but most of all it brought Princess and Lita and I much closer together. Princess has asked to own me now officially as has Lita, with the understanding that Princess is the head of the household and we both answer to her when she is here and I answer to Lita when Princess is not here. What a wonderful life it is turning out to be.

I will be out of touch for the whole weekend but looking forward to being cuckolded for the first time in my life.

after talking more to Princess about her cuckolding me this weekend, and getting advice from a lot of really nice people, I have decided to do it, and have fun with it and enjoy it, as I should.

Princess brought up this subject, and asked me if I thought it would interest me for this weekend. She suggested cuckolding me for the whole weekend and force me to watch her and Lita getting fucked by another guy. She says she knows a guy who would be willing, what guy wouldn't be, and that he is bisexual as well. Just not sure about it, what do other people think? write me a message and tell me if I should or not, I am not totally opposed to the matter, but really just undecided about it.

Got contacted by a nearby Domme today who wanted some new photos for her profile here and other sites, so we are booked to shoot this Friday, if anyone other Dommes need photos for here and elsewhere, contact me and I will take them for you.

Life is good. Submission is sweet and such a great gift to my little girl.

Oh, then she made Lita clean her up after I came all over her legs.

They are finally home from work and Princess took off her clothes and then laid down on the bed and turned to me and said "give me a massage daddy" She knows just how much I love her feet and rubbing them and working my way up her beautiful body, but she also knows just what it does to my tiny little cock too, it gets very very hard when I do it. After rubbing her feet for a long while, she told me her feet felt really good now, to take off my clothes and massage the rest of her. She turned over on her stomach and I straddled her and massaged her shoulders. She turned her head and told me I was a naughty little daddy cause me getting hard at the sight of his daughter being naked was just so naughty and bad. I massaged her back and my dick accidently went into the crack of her ass and she turned over quickly and slapped me in the balls and said, "Never ever ever do that again you perverted old man, you will never ever stick that sick old man cock in there ever" "there is one thing you can stick in there though and that is your tongue, now start licking daddy" I must of hesitated a bit because she grabbed me by the hair and pulled my face down to the crack of her ass and yelled "Lick it now daddy" and I did as she demanded. After I licked to her satisfaction she told me to go stand in the corner facing her, and told me to start jerking off. I came close to cumming and she must have known because she yelled "STOP NOW", after a while she told me to start jerking again, and just as I was about to cum again she yelled "STOP", she tortured me like this for a while and then told me to come over to her and I did, and she stuck up her feet in the air and told me to put my cock between her feet and she started to jerk me off with her feet and I was about to cum, holding it back the best I could and she surprised me by saying "cum for your little girl daddy, I want to see you cum daddy"

I really hate Sundays, especially if it rains. Both Princess and Lita have to work, and if it rains, my shoots usually get cancelled and I have nothing to do but edit previous photos, especially now that She has put in place the no jerking off policy.

any man my age who tells you that he does not look at much younger women and wonder what it would be like to make love to her is a liar. All men my age desire younger women, no exceptions. Just in my case, I desire to be submissive to younger women. Also I met some more of Princess's friends last night and she introduced me as her daddy, and when asked if I was her father, she said yes of course.

I am really surprised to find out just how submissive I am, and how much I firmly believe in female superiority, and surprised at the things I will do to please the woman who controls my whole life right now. She asked me tonight if I would ever suck a man's dick if she told me to, and I told her that if it pleased her to see me do that, then yes I would do it or anything she wanted me to do.

would have written somethiing last night but I was tied up.

what a nice way to wake up!!!!!

Princess came home tonight and gave me permission to look at her again, told me that she is so glad I came into her life and glad that I wish to serve her and Lita. She said she was not ready to collar me yet but wanted to know if it was all right for her to move in with me, and I said of course. She then asked me if it was all right for Lita to move in as well, and I said yes of course. She called Lita up and told her and asked her to come over, and then she sat down beside me and kissed me passionately and started jerking me off until I came. She said it was the least she could do since I was so good about taking her strapon up my ass last night like a good boy. We are going to be a poly family.

Just got back from my latest photoshoot, and yes it was a beautiful female model and yes it was a nude shoot, artistic nude shoot. On shoots I am very very professional and would never dare let my proclivities take over and cost me a great shoot. I thought about Princess the whole shoot, how could I not, my ass still hurts from my punishment. I was hoping she would be at my house when I got home but she was not, maybe that is part of my further punishment because she should be off work by now. I texted her but did not hear back. I am not sure if the short time we have been seeing each other is enough to know or not, but I feel in my heart she is my Princess/daughter and the one I want to own me. I might just be a silly old man hoping someone that young would wish to own me though, we shall see. I want to give my heart to her and if she wishes, to Lita as well.

she is still calling me her "faggot daddy" and will not allow me to touch her, or even look at her directly. Her and Lita made love last night, I was forced to sit there and listen to it but was not allowed to look directly at them at any time, and most definitely was not allowed to touch myself. I hope my punishment gets over soon cause sleeping on the couch when I have a bed is not fun, especially when one's ass hurts from getting fucked by a strapon being worn by your "daughter" 

I confessed and was punished. My punishment involved a strapon, enough said, and I did not like it, it hurt and still hurts and was humilating, especially since Lita was invited over to watch. Princess kept saying "look at my faggot daddy, he likes getting it in the ass"

I was washing up some dishes this morning and looked out the window, and the neighbor girl was out there sun bathing. All I could think of was Princess and how I could not masturbate, when the girl turned over, took off her top and threw it to the side, then lay flat on her back and stuck her hand down into her bikini bottom and started masturbating, right there. Then she glanced up at the window and smiled. She knows I have done this in the past apparently and missed me watching her, so I took out my cock and masturbated to her masturbating but now I have to tell Princess and accept my punishment. I am one worthless piece of human garbage.

wow, Princess said she really liked spending time with Lita this past weekend and then she asked me a question, if she chooses to own me, how did I feel about polyamory? I had not given it much thought, being owned by two daughters? I will have to give it some serious thoughts and asked her if that was all right and she said of course.

she ended up spending the whole weekend with us. I loved having Princess there for the whole weekend. The first night she arrived and the first words out of her mouth, right after kissing Princess and then me, was she had to see us fuck, she needed to see a daddy and daughter fuck, she still does not know we are only daddy and daughter in our hearts, not in reality, so we fucked, and she fucked me hard. The young lady was sitting in a chair just fingering herself wildly and came almost at the same time as Princess and I did.

It was not all sex though, the three of us went out to eat, went shopping, and went to a bar, where Princess introduced me to people as her daddy, and told everyone what a good daddy I was too, which made me happy, but she caught me looking at another young lady once, just a glance, and grabbed my crotch, and told me in no uncertain terms, that if it happened again, she would not allow me to enter her with my dick or my tongue, and that masturbation would be out of the question for quite a while and that she may well put a chastity device on daddy, so I looked down the rest of the time except when spoken to either by Princess and the other young lady.

After the bar we went home and all three of us feel asleep in the king size bed I own. It was nice waking up to two women for sure.

oh what a night last night was!

just got a call from Princess. the girl called her and asked if tonight was ok, and she said be there at 8. the girl told her she loves watching people have sex and has been a fantasy of hers to watch incest happening. she thinks we really are father and daughter. turns me on to have Princess fuck me while she is watching and masturbating to it and then maybe I will get to make her cum with my tongue if Princess wishes. She may not own me officially but she already owns my heart.

I took her shopping today, and she surprised me. When we got up to the counter, she starting talking to the clerk. The clerk was a bit on the hefty side but a cute face, and she told her, "this is my daddy and he has the best tongue I have ever had" The girl said "excuse me?' Then she said I could get her off in no time flat just using my tongue, and asked the girl when was the last time she had her pussy eaten? the girl said it had been a while, and Princess gave her her phone number and said call me later if you want to get off, and we will be home all night for you. So it looks like I might be servicing a fat girl tonight maybe, but it will be my pleasure if it pleases Princess.

I got to spend the entire weekend with my Mistress, who I have been told to call Princess. It was quite a surprise when she called me and asked me if I would want to do it, and of course I answered quickly and in the affirmative. She told me there was going to be a surprise but that I would not be told until it happened.

I arrived at her place at the exact time I was told to be there. She told me to sit down and that there was going to be another guest arriving shortly and the guest did arrive shortly after that, a young woman about the same age as Princess. I was ordered to take off my clothes and sit in the chair and if I tried to touch myself in any way, I would be restrained. They proceeded to take off their clothes, kiss each other passionately and fondle each other. the other girl was getting really into it and excited and Princess told her to crawl over to me and suck my tiny cock, which the girl obeyed. I was told that in no uncertain terms I was not to cum while being sucked off. Princess came up behind the girl and fondled her pussy and her breasts while she was giving me a blow job. it was very hard not to explode into her mouth but somehow I resisted. Then Princess ordered me to fuck the other girl until I came inside of her, which I promptly did, it did not take very long at all, and then I was ordered to eat her pussy with my cum in it, which I obeyed Princess. There were other things that happened over the weekend but those I have been told not to discuss with anyone but was told to tell everyone these things.

she called me and asked me to come over and just talk, so we did. I told her things that I was doing and she told me to stop masturbating, that the only time I should be touching myself was when showering or urinating. so that is what I have been doing in deference to her superiority over me. It has not been easy, especially when around her but I am doing it. She told me I had to be truthful and tell her if I did, and then accept my punishment. I may slip up just to be punished.

I was doing a photoshoot the other day. it was like every other shoot I have ever done, at least until it was over with and done. The young lady 21 years old, very pretty and a great model for what I was shooting. When we were packing things up, she turned to me and said that a friend had told her that I once confided in her that I was a submissive looking for someone to serve, and asked me if that was true? I turned red and informed her that it was. She said she was very domineering and was interested in learning about the lifestyle but she was not sure she wanted someone 24/7 just yet, but she was really horny and could use some servicing. I turned to her and said if she was interested in me doing that, all she had to do was order me to service her and that is what she did. We drove to her place and she ordered me to my knees and told me to undress her and eat her young pussy, which is exactly what I did. When one least expects things, they may happen. Now whether she will ever be interested in 24/7 or whether she will be interested in owning me or not is another question. I asked her to call me if she ever required any more servicing, and she kissed me and said she had my number.

I am doing a photographic project on masturbation. it is an art project and am in need of both male and female subjects, as well as both straight and gay couples. If anyone in the Nashville Tennessee area is interested in helping me with this project, mail me a message.

I just want some young woman to order me to my knees and then say "daddy, eat my pussy now!!!!"

there was a note on my door when I got home from work yesterday. It was not signed but all it said was "I know what you are doing"

I have been a very bad boy, because there is no one to prevent me from being one. I have been watching the young lady that lives next door to me and masturbating as I watch her. I wish she would catch me and make me stop in no uncertain terms, but she has not noticed yet.

I was in the same place as you the other day, enjoying my meal, when you walked in with him in tow. You placed your order for both him and yourself. I found that interesting so I continued to watch as I ate.

When you started to talk down to him in that way it gave me something I have not had in a long time, a hardon. I wish I had not been as shy as I am that day so I could have talked to you and let you know how much you and your actions turned me on.