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About ShyMetamorphosis
Who am i? i am a writer, but i've never been all that good at writing about myself. Who am i? i've spent years getting in touch with myself, but i still haven't completely answered that question. Who am i? i'm learning. The more i learn, the further it seems i have to go. But i'm coming more and more out of my cocoon...
Who am i as a person?
i am an introverted person, an INFP according to the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator. My personality is much like water--i possess deeply-held, intense, and sometimes turbulent emotions that lie between a usually placid surface. My eyes always betray me, though. They can truly are the windows to my soul, they are very expressive, and even shift color subtly depending on my mood. i can be painfully shy sometimes, and i get nervous very easily. To be honest, it can at times border on full-blown social anxiety. But if i feel safe in a situation i also tend to thaw out pretty quickly once i get to know people. Still, even after i've thawed, i tend to be very quiet. i've always been more of a listener than a talker.
i am a nerd. Let me rephrase that... i am a tremendous nerd. i love science fiction and fantasy. i play pencil and paper RPGs, not just Dungeons and Dragons, but several other games as well. i read comic books and love superheroes. i read other books voraciously, and when i'm not reading fiction of some sort, i am probably reading about philosophy, psychology, politics, history, or theoretical physics. i own a copy of Robert's Rules of Order and am not a law student. i am fascinated by mythology, folklore, and literature of all kinds.
i am a musician, though not as much of one as i might wish sometimes. i play the French horn and trumpet, though i often don't have a whole lot of time to practice. Still, i manage to perform periodically with small ensembles, and i have even performed some on-call with the Springfield Symphony. i love to listen to classical and orchestral music and consider myself to be something of a connoisseur when it comes to movie soundtracks. i also really like jazz quite a bit. i enjoy other styles of music, and i can generally find at least one artist in any given genre that i can listen to. i'm a sucker for rock songs that use "real" instruments (orchestral strings, brass, etc).
i am a writer. i express myself best through the written word, often stumbling and tripping over myself when speaking. For the most part i write fiction, and i'm working on developing an idea for a first novel. i also enjoy writing nonfiction pieces, such as essays, on topics that i care about. i also journal occasionally, though i've been neglecting it recently and need to get back into the habit.
Who am i in a relationship?
i am an introvert, but i crave companionship. i am uncomfortable around people in general, especially in large groups, but i constantly seek a person or group of people with whom i can feel completely at ease. i like my alone time, but i need human contact. i think a possible definition of perfection is connecting to another deeply enough that time spent together is more energizing than time spent alone. i have experienced this feeling before, so i know it's possible.
When i make an emotional commitment in a relationship, i make it wholeheartedly and with intensity. i have a somewhat submissive relationship style even outside the bedroom--i make every effort to ensure the happiness and satisfaction of my partner. i'm very physically affectionate, as well. Whether i'm in a relationship or not, if i go too long without affectionate touch, my body feels like it's literally crying out and screaming for body-to-body contact. And i don't just mean sex or play... i love cuddling, and would definitely consider myself to be a bit of a cuddle slut.
i have also experienced physical relationships and casual play. i enjoy these for what they are and have fun with them, but my true goal is to find a committed relationship. Still, if a less-committed arrangement is something that is desired, i would be willing to do that temporarily, with the understanding that such an arrangement will not interfere with the overarching search for love and commitment.
i have recently been doing a lot of reading about polyamory. i still have much to learn on the subject, but the more i read, the more i feel like it is in my nature. i know for a fact that i have been legitimately in love with more than one person at a time. i no longer subscribe to the maudlin notion that there is only one right person out there for me. And given my fluctuating bisexual (i prefer pansexual, but tend to use bisexual, because it has less chance of drawing a blank stare) orientation, a multiple-gender, multiple-partner arrangement seems like a really nice idea... But again, i still have much to learn here.
Who am i as a submissive?
i have participated in BDSM for a few years now, and i have had some wonderful experiences (and a couple of not-so-wonderful ones as well...). Despite these experiences and all that i have learned so far, i still consider myself to be a bit of an amateur. i know that i still have much to learn. i have also been inactive for about the past year and a half, though, due to the shake-ups of a move from Columbia to Branson, and am just now getting back into the swing of things. It's good to be back...
i consider myself to be very experimental. i say that i will try almost anything once... and then maybe a couple more times for good measure... This holds true for most things, and it is how i have discovered that things which previously made me nervous or even scared me are really quite enjoyable. i have, however, set some hard limits. i will not do golden showers or scat, and i will not do anything that permanently modifies my body with/for anyone with whom i am not in a long-standing committed relationship. Also, call me superstitious, but i absolutely will not get a tattoo of anyone's name, regardless of the relationship status, because the moment i did that something would inevitably go wrong.
Aside from that, my submission takes many forms. i am definitely submissive, and it permeates my entire existence to some degree or another. i was once told by a play partner that she didn't think that i "have a top or switch bone in [my] body." It's funny because it's true...
i contain elements of nearly every type of submissive within myself. i enjoy bondage, pain of various types, service, sensation play, sexual play, roleplay, mental bondage, and power exchange. In relationships, i like an element of power exchange to color nearly every interaction, and i really like subtle things that i can do in public to still be submissive in ways that vanilla people don't notice. i find that there are few pleasures more potent than knowing that my dominant is pleased with me. On the other hand, i do have a bratty and mischievous side that can come out and play sometimes. Despite this, i don't consider myself a "brat," and my mischievous side shuts the hell up when it's told to.
To sum it all up, i am an intensely emotional and loving submissive man in search of a dominant (or dominants) to whom i can give myself entirely--physically, emotionally, and mentally. i begin shy and nervous, but over time that timidity transforms itself to quiet devotion and respect. i ultimately seek a committed relationship, but am not averse to more casual play to scratch the itch until i find one.
Thank you for reading.
i can also be found on as Shy_Metamorphosis.
And here are the obligatory quiz results... (http://quizfarm.com/quizzes/Sex/poeticthinker/do-you-have-an-inclination-for-bdsm/)
You scored as Submissive.
It feels good to serve. A lack of control in the bedroom can be fun and relaxing. Being with a dominant person wouldn't be a bad idea.
Submissive: 100%
Masochist: 89%
Experimental: 86%
Bondage: 71%
Exhibitionist/Voyeur: 68%
Degradation Lover: 43%
Switch: 40%
Sadist: 18%
Vanilla: 11%
Dominant: 0%
Personally, i think Bondage should have been higher on my list. From what i can tell, the quiz didn't differentiate between dominant bondage and submissive bondage, so while i answered unqualified yes to questions like "I enjoy being tied up" and "Being bound makes me feel safe," i answered no to questions like "I like to tie up my lover." This probably skewed the data a bit. Oh well... |
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