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	About shydina I have found Texas to be home to me. I have tried living other places and the homesickness becomes overwhelming. That is not to say that if I eventually found the right person for me, somewhere outside of Texas that I would not ever consider relocating. I am not closed minded to it, let's just say, slightly narrow minded about it. I have close bonds to my children and it's all the family I have left and it's so hard to be away from them. I am a pansexual submissive on a slave path. I have a great desire to serve. I have been in the lifestyle for about ten years with the last four having been spent in the community. I discovered this lifestyle online. And sad but true, when I first discovered it, I was one of the worst online trolls (horny net geek) around. I had just come out of a bad marriage (three years abstinent) and found the whole cyber sex to be a safe outlet. I was not putting myself in danger of sexual diseases, nor was I bring men into my home with three young children I was raising. I did the online thing for quite some time. Even explored gor and was collared online to a gorean home for a long while. I do not regret those things. They did help me to learn a lot about myself. And as I stated, at that time it seemed a very safe outlet for my sexual frustrations. About the past 7 years have been in serving real life and the past 4 or 5 of those have been within the local community. I have recently found that the leather lifestyle is the path I seek. I have just begun this journey and look forward to a lifetime of learning. I strive to live by the values taught within that community and have met some wonderful mentors in this new path I have chosen. I have also discovered that I have a little girl inside that loves feeling safe enough to come out and play. I seek to find a Daddy dominant. I am not sure if the Daddy and Master I seek will end up being one person or not. My mind has become much more open minded to the various possibilities that can be available in this lifestyle. I have also explored my top side and I am a little sadist. Even have thoughts about one day perhaps having a pet of my own. I am very big on humor. I have a smart assed sense of humor and laughter is very important to me. I have been called "sassy" at times, but not that it's disrespectful. I do things in hope of making others smile or laugh. However, I also know that delivery and timing mean everything in how things are taken. Should I do something with the goal of making someone laugh and it is taken wrong, I am able to accept correction with the grace of a slave. Well, ok, I say I take correction with the grace of a slave, however, there is an issue there I do struggle with. When I have disappointed, disrespected or disgraced myself or my Owner in any way, I tend to be harder on myself than others. I had a Master tell me once that I had no right continue to punish myself once he had decided the issue was dropped. I do try to remind myself of that, but I very much take it to heart and it hurts me so much knowing I have disappointed. I am looking forward to continue learning and exploring new paths presented to me. This is not just bedroom kink or weekend warrior stuff for me. It is a lifestyle. If you are seeking nothing more than cyber sex and/or part time fantasies, please pass me by. Learning leather, shy

I find myself in a time of inner reflection. Trying to figure out where I fit. I wish that I could say that I was seeking at this time, but I can't. My reasons for seeking right now would be purely selfish. I do not have what it takes to fully serve one at this time. My wants to seek One is simply my need to not be alone, not be without guidance, have some regular play and use to ease the tension. And that is not the reason to seek. I also know that when one gets in that mode of "seeking", one tends to settle, then regret later. I am getting too old for that. I'd like to hope that the next time I accept a collar, it will be eternal. That may be wishful thinking in this lifestyle. I see so many come and go. But momma always told me, if you're gonna dream, dream big. So, this is my dream and it can be as big as I want it to be. For now I will have to be content to have wonderful people in my life that do care about me and try my best to be happy being without my Master/Daddy to make my life more complete. Continue with my inner reflections to become that which I desire to be. And content in the knowledge that when the time is right, it will happen.

First you have to go into the chatroom through the website. There you have to look at the bottom of the frame for your password.

Then open your mIRC but do not try to connect. In your connect window (press alt + o) type in:

Full Name: yournick
Email Address: yournick@
Nickname: yournick
Alternative: yournick

Then click on Servers and, if you have a CollarMe server there delete it. click on Add and make sure these settings are exact:

Description: CollarMe
IRC Server: chat.collarme.com
Ports: 6667
Group: Collarme
Password: enter the password from the chatroom screen

Then connect to the chat server via mIRC.

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