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I'm beginning too open my eyes and see that Im ready to put myself out there a little bit. Go to some events munches meet some real people. Have some fun!!! Cant hide myself away because I dont want to get hurt yet again.So I can't wait to go down yet a new path soo excited.... |
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Just wanna go out and play sighs |
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Feeling very accomplished I am moving forward and loving it. Setting goals and slowly but surely im getting there. My life has changed 100% for the better. Cant wait to see what comes next |
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Sighs and looks around more and more thinks its time to just walk away.......not much else to say its just sad maybe someday it will be right but im tired of looking and finding not serious minded people I have pulled myself up and out and I know what I deserve and I will not settle if that means walking away so be it.....I have met some wonderful friends in the lifestyle things I shall never forget a few great memories and if its meant to be it will be.... |
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Finnally settling in my job I stay busy working but there also has to be more! Im missing and needing to find what I crave and desire not just a play partner but the other half of of me the one I desire to give my everything too. I need to get out meet people this is a new area to me and i moved and left my community and I miss them very much but I have to step out..... |
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Been a long week and a big difference than being a nanny it feels so good to earn my own way. This move has been the best thing that has ever happened for me. I cant wait to continue my jpurney of self discovery. I wont be on much but will stop in to check my mail. Have a wonderful day and week to all |
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This has been the best week!! Im heading in the right direction Who got a job this GIRL......After being a nanny for the last 5 years im heading back out to the real world im sooo excited for this new journey feeling I have nowhere to go but up......Thanx to the many people that I have in my corner and all my lessons I have learned along the way..... |
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I hate this site grrrrr have some new pics to post and it wont let me geezzzz |
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I think I need a weed wacker or better yet fakes begone spray!!!I love how Doms say over and iver how real they are what they expect.....But dont follow through.....Fakes will always fall out in the wash better yet keep it moving thru my pro cause Im seriously JADED and wont put up with any crap Im a good girl but only if your real and prove it. I wont do chat only long enough to meet for coffee to see if your real and I swear dont say this is my Dom Voice!!!!! |
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Some things happin for a reason, All lessons learned sometimesa door shuts and a window opens for a better thing to come along.What a beautiful day today my smile says its so........It feels good to be me today. |
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This has been the most trying week. As I begin my new journey I dont forget where I have been. Im excited... To learn to be taught..... To look through a fresh pair of eyes the sky is the limit now..... |
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Today as I sit here all my things ready to go my heart breaks from what I leave....But so excited for my futcher its time for a new beggining |
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Life sometimes isnt easy the choices we make in life affect many. I close my eyes and I'm thankful for all my lessons I have learned I take them with me and use them for the strength I will need! My life moving in a new Direction I protect my heart at all cost seems trust is an elusive thing I wont stop looking cause I know what I seek is out there I wont accept nothing less. I know who I am and what i need not what I want but what I need whst I crave so with this New Year I will open my eyes and I will not be a doormat. I'm seeking a connection that cant be faked! Its not about Sex for me that is not my be all I want a connection everything else falls into place I want to hear you in my head in my heart I want to turn and think you are there cause I smell you which brings me to my knees cause thats where I want to be!! I know its out there smiles it must be waiting watching........ |
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Spinning spinning my personal life is crazey the hardest thing I have ever had to do is walk away from ppl I love! Eyes wide open people while I have learned alot! Im not a doormat people are where they want to be that is a choice my choice is to take care of me my trust is wavey I trust to easy give to easily for something I desperately want doesnt work that way people spend the time and energy where they want to be I get it now!!! |
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Happy New Year a new year a time for change. A new start time to release all the stress in my personal life. Continue on my path in my submission. I have been a nanny for 5 years its time to move forward. We are put in people's lives for a reason then sometimes its time to take a new path! Im excited I have learned much through my experiences, and have learned many new things as well I am grateful for the support and the guidence. Excited to see where my new path leads me. |
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Wishing everyone a Happy Holiday be safe and sane. |
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Happy Holidays........
What a beautiful thing when you find some inner peace...when you learn to quiet the mind and listen to what is being shown to you. Meditation has been a blessing helping me along my path of where I belong. Showing me my needs and making acceptance a beautiful thing........ May everyone have a blessed holiday and find something naughty under the tree.
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Big hugs to myself Happy Birthday Zoe......... |
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Getting to know oneself is the most important. To know my wants from my needs. My desires for a life I wish to have. My Desires to serve how I wish to serve and whom. Its all important as I find myself pulling me into a place of reflection...... |
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I have been gone a few days. Some self evaluation learning to quiet my mind finding my peace my purpose. While I have been through much my biggest discovery has been, that I can let people be who they are their anger their fears are not my own. While I have been through alot and I wear my heart on my sleeve, yes I have been hurt but I allowed that to happen, I had to see and realize it isnt personal so now as I move forward to find what I seek finding my peace as I go. I have to thank a very special person they know who they are for showing me a new way to find myself my peace my place where I belong. |
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Looking in the mirror trying to find that happy place closes my eyes pushes everything and everyone out. Smiles have a lovely day all may you find all you desire. Kisses |
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You know that feeling in your gut when you know someone is a lier and a fake. I have just learned to use my words and call as i see it not befor i got stepped on a bit. Its ok lesson learned who do you trust myself. |
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Looks in my mirror what do I see??? A conflicted Zoe I know where I want to be..... Everything takes time so i will give time. I wont run away like always...but i promise myself i won't be a doormate either. Smiles and winks let the dance begin. |
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Good morning I say to myself as I look in the mirror holding my head up even when I dont want to. This morning has been alot of reflecting and telling myself to hold on to what i believe is right no matter how I feel. No matter how easy it is to backslide I just cant I wont take the easy way out not this time......I tell myself what you seek Zoe is what you want not the easy way not instant gratification not today. Smiles at myself.......... |
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Good afternoon as i look in the mirror today, and ask myself who I want to be, today I'm a little bit stronger today I have built a wall around me working on my trust in myself. |
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Good morning Self looks in my mirror I LOVE me today, after picking myself up yet again, trust is a funny thing. I'm learning the only one I can trust is myself, I'm learning to be me and after 2 years and a very hard head just being submissive is not enough. I have learned people say alot of things and i believed them whole hearted and people are not always your friend. I know what i want but have settled over and over cause i just want this sooo much i walk away but cant stay away, Sooo now i just want a friend to talk to no expectations me from you or you from me im going to move at a snails pace........ If your in a hurry to play or you think its your right to touch me keep moving not happing anymore I have been stupid for the last time. |
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Cant reply to any of my mail im sorry:( |
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As i have continued on my journey into a life that I have so been looking for my whole life!! I have had the best real life experiences!! To feel not just dream what it means to belong to a community!! I belong to a house a family that guides and teaches me the right way. Ohhh to be a good girl is the sweetest desire I love my journey |
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The fakeness on here is soooo annoying sooo done with all the crap have fun....... |
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Sighsss....... i feel soo lost and tired,confused, time for a change |
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Its sooo funny whats in the dark always comes to the light!! I find my journey gets more interesting by the day !! |
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