sextoy4HIM

I wanna take this chance to let yall all see me as I really am.Alot of times I act like I am happy,but the truth is I'm not what so ever.I have some many issues from my past I am still trying to over come.And then I have other fears I never tell no one.Not even my family.Cause they will not understand me. I tend to think who could ever care or love me.I am not skinny, I am not the prettiest woman, and the fact of my past.I know your thinking wow she always seems so damn happy.I put up walls to not let my self get hurt.But not working these days.Cause I trust tooo much and has not gotten me very far.I know I am not the most normal person thanks to the life style I am into.But put tha aside and I am still just a woman looking and wanting and needing.And not sure if's even out there.I have lied to get to where I am.I have hurt others.I have done bad things.But I am here now and not going back to how and what I use to be.I have alot of anger in me,it can cause me to act or say dumb things.But I do try and will keep trying.But my fears keep me back,won't let me go.I wanna get over them.It's not easy.And I need help.BUt hate to ask for help with this stuff.So I hold it in.But I can't no more.Getting too hard for me to keep quite.

On the 1st day of Christmas,my true love gave to me... 1 New Dildo.

On the 2nd day of Christmas,my true love gave to me... 2 butt plugs.

On the 3rd day of Christmas,my true love gave to me... 3 speculums.

On the 4th day of Christmas,my true love gave to me... 4 sensual hot wax candles.

On the 5th day of Christmas,my true love gave to me... 5 Leather Corset's

On the 6th day of Christmas,my true love gave to me... 6
tubes of Oral Ecstasy Numbing Spray.

On the 7th day of Christmas,my true love gave to me... 7 whips ( 1 for each day of the week )

On the 8th day of Christmas,my true love gave to me... 8 a Frisky 8-Piece Restraint Set.

On the 9th day of Christmas,my true love gave to me... 9 yards of Premium Black Nylon Bondage Rope.

On the 10th day of Christmas,my true love gave to me... 10 flavored condoms.

On the 11th day of Christmas,my true love gave to me... 11 Orgasm's from his mouth.

On the 12th day of Christmas,my true love gave to me... 12 hand prints right on my ass.

I have not been this happy in a long damn time.All I do is look and try and wonder why it took me this long to find the right person I was looking for.The only thing I can come up with it I was not ready.I had to learn a few more lessons.

So I did learn a few things.Man I can tell you this much.I at times made it harder on my self.

But look at me now.I am becoming more and more sub like every day.I love to make pics and vids with my Dom.And when he is my sub I do the same with him.

Happy Thanksgiving all  hope it was a good one for yall

And today was also my b day   and I gift was I got to spend time with my sub/bf.

And just soooo u all know.

We are a switching couple.

I am his Domme/gf/sub

He is my Dom/bf/sub

Take me........

Grab me,rip my clothes off and throw me down on the bed.Blind fold me,take my arms and tie them down to the bed.Spread my legs and grab my ankles and tie them to the bed.
I tell you beat me,whip me,flog me,slap me do what ever you want to me.As long as I am yours.
I will bow my head before you as my Master.To show how much you mean to me.

I am gonna try and be as nice as I can when saying this.

if you wanna talk with my sub.You had better talk with me 1st.He will tell me what is said and then I will hand u ur ass.I do not play when it comes to what is mine.

Would you like some one messing with your's or saying things.With out you knowing?

I don't think so.So the next fucking time I find a Dom/Master talking with him like that.I will

step in and then that will be the end.

Friday night I went over to my sub's house.When I got there,we talked a bit then had to work on dinner.I got to watch him be a good little bitch boy at work cooking for me.We sat in the living room eating watching a movie.As it turned out it was a b movie so I was trying to look for some thing else.Once we was done we stepped outside to both have a cig.I got to have some fun with him.I love to pull on his nipples and slap him around a little.We went back in and sat down and chilled before we put his brothers kids and my little girl to bed.Once they were asleep it was game on for me and him.So I told him I wanted a shower.I told him he could come in and talk to me while I was washing my self.But he ended up watching me the whole time lol.He even helped me outta the shower and I warped my towel around me and we went to his room.I showed him I had brought over my new razor.I told him he had better go and get some hot water.I layed on his bed and was covered up with my towel.He came back and was smiling he knew what he was about to do.I watched him sit on the end of the bed.He then lifted the towel and looked at my pussy.He grabbed his rag and it was hot.he wet me all up and then little by little he was making sure what hair I had was shaved all off.I could tell he was some what scared,but once it was all done he was looking like he was pleased that I was happy at the job he had did for me.Then all of a sudden he bent down and was licking and sucking on my pussy.Then right as it was feeling soo good he stoped.He looked down at me and I called him a bitch and said no fair for teasing me like that.He said lets go smoke again before we get busy.I didn't feel like getting dressed so I wrapped up in my towel and we went out side.Once I was out there I got cold.I was jumping around and crossing my legs.He was laughing so much.I told him to shut up and slapped him a few times.I couldn't even smoke a whole cig.I was too cold.So I made my way back to his room and took the towel off and got on his bed.He came up on his bed and all the way on top of me and was kissing me.I was pulling his hair and he went right too my boobs.It was like he was making love to my boobs.He took such good care towards them.Then before I knew it he was down at my pussy.All I can say is damn he has some damn good skills when it comes to eating some pussy.I came sooo much in one night from that.I had to tell him I needed a time out. laughs.So we went to the living room and got on his pc.And I told him to go to a porn site I use I wanted him to learn how to do this one thing.So as he was watching it,I told him it works really well.So when it was done I was looking up more vids.I told him to do my feet.He got my ped egg and was going to town on them.It was nice.Then once he was done he was then sucking on my toes and licking my feet.I have no words to say how that felt too me.He told him I was ready for more now.So back to his room we went once more.This time I grabbed his clothes and pulled them off fast.I pushed him down on the bed and told him to relax.I then came down by his feet and opened his legs and said bend your knees.I got some oil on my hands and then rubbed it all over his dick and balls.I even rubbed it on his ass hole.I told him to take a breath in and slide a finger into his ass hole.I watched him jerk a little as I did that.I then slide another finger in and was sliding them in and out with ease.I told him that was all for now seeing that it was his 1st time.So then I was kissing his legs all the way up to his hips.slide up to his nipples and was sucking on them too.Then I wanted him to cum.So I got undressed again.And I told him to fuck me.He did as I told him.

He was mad because he was a little fast.But like I told him I am tight and it's been a long 8 years with no sex for you.

(I can tighten my pussy muscles up,so my pussy at times is very tight)

I told him I had soooo much of a good time.He then told me I came over 30 times.I was in shock.It has been a long while since I had came that many times in one time.

It was almost 4am by the time we went to sleep.

I got me my very own sub now.And what a good little bitch boy he is too.He is a noob so I am going easy on him.I have to teach him alot and show him alot too.This week I am gonna make some home work for him to do.Not sure what just yet but none the less he is gonna do it.I am going to his house tonight and I am bringing my ball gag and my vibe with me.

I am looking forward to this.Been a while since I had a sub.So I'm a bit rusty lol.

doing a little better this week.I kicked a person who said they loved me to the damn curb.Turns out they loved what I was able to do to them.And when I was not able to do it all the time.They got pissed off at me.So now I am just doing my best to not think of them.And look to what I do have.Friends that care for me.

BEWARE I AM SUPER PISSED OFF !!!!!!!

Men at times make me fucking sick.I mean at times I think at times I should go all the way to women and be done with the fucking asses.

No matter what I do for them.There fucking ass is never happy.And then when they are I am so god damn unhappy.

So now I am drinking and I am not much of a drinker.And got on Some hard rock to chill out some.All I need now is a human foot rest and some one to whip and all will be just right.

Spent my day shopping.I got me a big ass pumpkin to make it into a zombie.

Then cleaned with the help of my sweet little girl.And I almost forgot my younger sister's b-day.

So I fixed that by saying some thing to her on facebook.

Then I found out I lose 5 pounds.I was soo happy.I need to lose some more.I stopped eating junk food which helps alot.Now for the rest of my day.I plan on chilling here at home and watching some tv.

Alot of good things on tonight.My new show starts too.I can't wait.

As it turns out.I loved playing with my new toy and then fisting my own pussy.Took me a while to get my hand in it.But once I got it in there it was easy.

I am looking forward to more and more fun with my self too see how far I am willing to go with some one else.

I also did some clothes pins on my nipples.All I can say on that is NO WAY.Hurt like hell to me

Tonight I found myself watching some porn.And it was some pretty crazy stuff.

I am going to give some of it a try.I got the toys to do it on myself.So why not.

For now I am gonna go and test some out.Will tell all of yall about it latter

I did alot of thinking last night once I logged off the site.Maybe at this time.I don't need a Dom.

I just need others like me to talk with.With my life the way it is.I am not going to be able to do

what most Dom's want there sub's to do.So I will still be here but for friends only nothing more.

I am going to give a good man another shot,I do care for him.And I am the one that was in the way,my own way.I was not able to let my walls down and let him in.

Now I see I miss having some one,that likes me for me and wants me.

If I say hey I am a sub does this mean I am less of a person and I'm your fuck toy?

Hell no it does not.I'm a sub not but trust me I did not come into BDSM as a sub.So I

Know a few things.

And whats up with always thinking I am gonna do what you say from the first message.

I do not work that way.Take the time to get to know me as a person.Or go to hell.

I am all ready blocking others on here due to the things they say to me.I am not a

dumbass or whore.So watch what you say to me or I will not read your message and block you.

I got a message tonight.saying is I can handle having my Dom pick what I wear every day.And was ask if I was able to do that.

Why and the hell would I be ok with that.I am not the kinda girl to let any one tell me what to wear at all.I hate dresses and skirts and high heels most of all.

I do dress up but in the kind of clothes I like.

And if you read my profile I say I am a BBW,so you tell me what you think that means.

IT MEANS I GOT MEAT ON MY BONES.I AM NOT SOME SKINNY ASS SUPER MODEL TYPE.

went to bed early last night.I woke up in such as good mood with all the sleep I got.

I cleaned my whole house and now I am online listening to music on youtube.

Just been thinking since yesterday about me trying to have a Master/Dom.

I am not able to do as much as they ask of me,due to my everyday life.

And they have to understand that.I will not ask any one to wait on me cause

thats a bit unfair to them.

Everyone needs to understand this about me right out the gate.

I get to your message's as soon as I am able.I do have a life out side of BDSM.

And in that part of my life is a child.

So the next time I get a message calling me a rude cunt or any thing like that.I will make

your ass pay some how.

I am only new to being a sub not BDSM.I was a Domme for many years.

I'm having such a great day so far.I got some computer work I'm gonna be doing this week.

I get to wipe a hard drive and reinstall windows and set up the fire wall.And get to download firefox and the music program I use to download it.

Then I got to learn how to change out a oil filter in a car, what fun that's going to be.

I've come back after some much needed time off this life style.

I wanted to think long and hard at what I want from this.

So far this is what I know.

I keep on getting messages from the men on here.Some are nice and are respectful towards me.

Others not so much,but not all of us humans can have class and tact right.

So before you even message me think on how to talk to me.

I will delete your message if your saying the kinds of things I find

disrespectful.