Serista

Female Submissive, 35

Male Dominant, 24

Female Submissive, 22, melbourne

Scene Music... It's hard to believe that eleven weeks have passed since I gave birth to Ryan. Our little man is adjusting well to the world around him and growing faster than I ever imagined. He's happy, well behaved and sets his own schedule. We've learned to adapt to his needs and really are not trying to force him into a routine yet. He has his whole life to live by society's rules, but these first few months belong to him. Though he doesn't usually sleep through the night, we are able to get him to sleep while we still have enough energy to be frisky. We've recently brought out the canes and began to play. Of course, we have a child in the room with us that we didn't want to awaken. The only solution is to play music. There are lots of good, hard fucking and beating songs out there. I constantly see people requesting ideas for scene music. Though Lords of Acid could definitely help drown out the sounds, our son comes first and his music of choice is the really annoying songs in his toys and swing. To play, we turn on his swing, let the music roar and then play with the hope that our son stays asleep. Fisher Price- Music to Scene by

I just received the message: "I'll impregnate you...!" Assuming I was single, which I'm not, if that was the "best" or "wittiest" line a dominant had, there is not a shot in hell that his sperm would come anywhere near me. Most of M/s is mental so if you can't wow a girl with your cleverness, your cock doesn't stand a chance.

And we have a son! On November 07 at 6:01pm, our little Ryan was more via c-section.?

Folks are strange.? Someone, who has never spoken to me before, sent me an e-mail insulting me and then blocked me. Evidently, my pictures are a decade old and I am not fooling anyone. If someone is such a weird-o and is not worthy of correspondence, why bother sending out the initial e-mail? I don't believe I have seen behavior like that since High School. I believe someone forgot to take their meds today. In truth, the pictures are probably about one to two years old. Ten years ago, I had Scully red hair and was probably about twenty-five pounds heavier than in the pictures. Of course,? I am currently heavier than I have ever been in my life; being 9 months pregnant may be a a factor in the weight gain. And yes, I am still pregnant. The little one seems quite content in hanging out, even though it's past his due date.?

Let me drop everything... I just received the most enticing e-mail ever: so u have web cam and yahoo I take a moment to read the sender's profile, something he obviously did not do before he contacted me. His brief profile and two blog consist of him whining about how everyone on here is really a man posing as a submissive woman to get off. He's finding losers, but since he doesn't read profiles and doesn't send out anything beyond a request for cyber sez, I am not sure why he is complaining. Seriously, if his goal is to sit at home and masturbate to the computer screen, who cares what the gender of the person on the other end is? Back in the mid-nineties when I did cyber, I never cared what the person looked like or what their gender was. I cared about the story we would weave and whether or not it tickled my imagination. The ability for someone to form proper and complete sentences was more important than whether or not they peed standing up. As I've said previously, whether or not you are successful in finding someone is dependent on the amount of work you are willing to put into developing the connection and how you present yourself. Even if I were single: "so u have web cam and yahoo" is unlikely to make me want to pursue any sort of interaction with you, even a one time roll in the cyber hay.

Master and I closed on our new home last Thursday. I have carved out a few tranquil spaces for us, but overall it will be weeks before all the boxes are unpacked, especially with both of our travel schedules. The travel schedule is slowing, just not soon enough and the weekends all seem to be booked up. This weekend, we have MAsT and an outing with friends and then the following weekend we have a getaway with friends to a bed and breakfast in the mountains. After that, we can start to really focus on the home and preparing for the birth of our son... He's only eight weeks away now.

Less that a week to go. Yesterday, we had the walk-through for our new home and it was absolutely beautiful. I know it will take a lot of work to make this "our sacred place of serenity" but it is definitely something I will strive for. I am planning to build a House Manual that contains not only all the information about the house, but the cleaning and maintenance information as well. As I stay home more with our son, more of the responsibilities of the house will fall on my shoulders. It's probably a good idea to track and list the types of paints and supplies we use as well as we move forward. We move in less than one week. In other news, our son is now known as "Daddy's Little Cock Blocker" which was stolen from our favorite comic strip. Our son has decided that his new hobby is to kick my cervix. Though I like pain, I like external pain. Horrendous cramps and sharp shooting pains from my vagina are not my idea of masochistic fun. Our boy is definitely grounded when he is born.

I'm currently at the M/s conference in DC and am looking forward to a very energizing weekend.

Life has been extremely busy lately. I am currently six months pregnant and with the exception of being constantly tired, the pregnancy is going well. In addition to the pregnancy, Master and I are buying a new home. Construction should be completed by late August and we're planning to close right before Labor Day. I am quite excited about building a quiet sanctuary for both my Master and our son. I want a place where we can relax, but also entertain friends and family. We opted for a 500+ sq ft deck so that we can host BBQs and gatherings next Summer. We will be attending the M/s conference in DC next week. Unless we decide to attend Floating World, this may very well be our last conference for a while. We will do our best to stay active within the local community, but with our new son and new house, we will not be able to be as active.

Kicking my butt My Master and I are currently expecting our first child later this year. The physical and emotional changes in me have added both depth and challenges to our relationship. In the beginning, my breasts grew rapidly. I actually grew two cup sizes over a weekend. I know the men out there are thinking- "Yeah, fun!"; however, any woman who has been pregnant before knows what I am about to say... "Don't even fucking look at them Master." They hurt *that* bad. A few weeks later, the pain went away and was replaced with a desire to have them touched constantly. I joked with friends at yesterday's MAsT meeting that at the rate I am going, I will be walking up to total strangers and asking them to rub my breasts for a few minutes. And no, that's not an offer. My Master has already forbidden me from letting people other than him play with my breasts. And then there is the constant weariness. I am fortunate enough to not have morning sickness; however, I could sleep 10-14 hours a day, every day. I also caught a cold that wiped me out for almost three weeks. Both of those have hindered my ability to serve him. He tells me that I am always in service to him, even if I am sleeping as he cleans the bathroom or prepares dinner, but I still feel guilty and happy and sad and jealous and ecstatic and scared and elated and every other emotion ever imagined. Evidently, our little baby sits on some emotional keyboard and randomly cues up this moment's emotions. I actually went through a two day period where I was desperately anxious and was trying to search for something to be anxious about. Not finding a reason, only made me angry. Damnit Jeff, why do you have to be so wonderful? *smiles* We're relearning what I can and can't do and taking it day by day, which is a huge lesson in patience for both of us. Well, primarily for me. Jeff is pretty patient and well I am patient with other people. This shall be an interesting journey, but it's one we both are looking forward to.

Uncommon sense I have spoken to several gentlemen on the quest for a permanent Ds relationship who are having a difficult time getting a response rate on this site. Either people ignore them completely or they quickly drop out of site. Though I respond to everyone, most do not have the mental bandwidth to do so. I am not searching for someone so I get fewer e-mails than some friends of mine who are seeking a partner- and no, I will not give you their names ;) If you want someone to respond to you, there a few things you must do- 1) Write a decent profile. Your profile is the first impression you make. Indicate what you are looking for inside and outside of a D/s relationship. For instance, I like to be tied up and beaten, but I also need the structure of an M/s relationship by a dominant who can laugh and get his ass beaten in board games. Unless you are looking for just a play partner, indicate what you do when you're not in a scene. 2) Spell check your profile. Ensure you have used punctuation and capitalization. I don't recommend doing the W/w/H/h/O/o/L/l/E/e upper case-lower case play because it makes it difficult to read. I have yet to meet a submissive who thinks a man who uses a capital letter is going to be a better dominant. Save the flowery capitalization for later. Right now, you want to make yourself seem literate. If you are the world's worst speller, still take the time to proof and spell check it. If you're too lazy to spell words correctly than you are too lazy to dominate my high-maintenance ass. And yes, the majority of submissive women are high-maintenance. They require time, structure, attention, time, discipline, attention and then more attention. :) 3) Read someone's profile before you write to them. Do not tell them that you find their profile intriguing and then ask what they seek in a Master when they have indicated they all ready have a Master. And when caught, don't try to play it off. You end up looking like a lazy liar. 4) Spell check your e-mail, write something friendly and ask a couple of questions, preferrably not scene related. Women typically wanted to be viewed as a whole entity and not just tits and ass- objectification play can be quite fun, but it's usually best to know their name and their favorite hobby before you ask them for their favorite fantasy. 5) Spell check your e-mail and profile again. ;) 6) An introductory e-mail should be at least three sentences long. This is the bare minimum. It should involve room for follow up and you should seem personable. The people who respond to "Kneel to your new Master, bitch" are typically other men who are pretending to be women or people just looking for short term or online play. 7) If you post a picture, try to make it a good one. You're contacting women so if the picture is from 1982, we will take one look at the clothes and know it. I've had one gentleman contact me twice and while he is extremely well built in the picture, it is clear that the picture is from the 70s. Share a recent picture or no picture of all. A bad picture can be detrimental. Remember, you are making your first impression. Just? a few thoughts before I return to shoe shining for South Plains. Good luck in your search!

I believe I am having one of those Monkey Paw moments right now... When I mentioned that writing one word letters was unlikely to get someone meaningful responses, I did not mean I wanted to received bad gang bang porn. Seriously, two poorly written stories in two days... Ugg! And NO, this is not an invitation to send me what you think is good porn either. Since you don't know who the hell I am, it's unlikely you'll send something that I like and No I won't be sharing my turn-ons either. Sheesh!

I realize it might be frustrating to search for people on this site and then look at their pictures, read their profiles and then think of something clever to say to get their attention, only to have them ignore your e-mail; however, this doesn't mean you should become lazy in your approach. Whether you are looking for a real time slave, an online romance or just a friend to ask questions to about the lifestyle, you should put forth the effort to spend two minutes to read their profile and write them more than a single line. I am a firm believer that you will get back exactly what you put into an exchange. "Hey sexy" is not a proper introduction, especially to someone who is only looking for friendships. E-mails that show that you haven't read the profile are disrespectful because it tells me that my only worth, in your eyes, is what I look like. Now, if you are looking to save time, it's not difficult to write short letters that are fairly standard to folks that allow an opening for correspondence. An e-mail that simply says "I'd like to get to know you better" is likely to get an "Okay" or a "Why?" back because it doesn't request anything else. A better approach would be to send an e-mail like this- I have been in the lifestyle XX years and am looking to meet others in the lifestyle for friendship. How long have you been in the lifestyle? Are you open to making new friends? Though the above isn't the "best" letter, it at least gives the recipient something to work with.

As Jeff showers, I cannot help but take a few moments to give a huge sigh of relief- the holidays are almost over. December is an extremely crazy month for us because clients are always try to squeeze in end of the year projects that require me to travel more and everyone and their brother is throwing a holiday party. In one week, we had six parties to attend. It was insane. I miss spending time snuggling with my sweetie or "other" things. We're attending SPLF and I am going to re-ask him to attend LLC. We had originally planned to attend LLC, but their class list isn't out and Jeff liked the list of classes for SPLF, though I wish he would unlike the flesh hook class. I made the mistake of telling him I was curious about needle play. The thought of a super thin needle terrifies me. Actually witnessing flesh hooks is likely to cause me to faint. Oh well, I am sure someone will scoop me up off the floor.

Too much sugar! Today, I hosted my first bake-a-thon with fellow submissives at my house. As there were many other events happening this weekend, the turn out was small, but I honestly believe it was better this way. We made peanut butter cups, peppermint patties and a variety of dark, milk and white chocolate treats. We also decorated and painted oodles of sugar cookies and baked a few other cookies as well. We did all of this while chattering amongst each other, answering questions for a friend newly exposed/interested in the lifestyle and simply enjoying each other's company. My Master proved himself to be the most amazing man. Not only did he provide an alternative point of view, as both a man and a dominant, but he let us pick on him- proving that dominants do in fact have senses of humor and can laugh at themselves. He also kept the kitchen clean as we were elbow deep in frosting. It's these small moments- spending time with friends and realizing how he fits me in many ways- that I realize exactly how lucky I am.

I have several musings and essays I want to put to paper over the next few weeks so I am testing out this little journal to see if it would be a proper place or if I am going to need to set up a website as originally planned. I've had the opportunity to talk to quite a few wonderful people since coming to the site, which is always a great surprise. I've also had people write me introductory letters with questions and then block me before I can even answer. I am assuming the block was accidental or he realized I truly do have a second head growing out of the base of my neck. I must seriously choose a better picture that doesn't show the shadow of my monstrous growth. And this morning, I ran into a complete asshat who not only couldn't read, but was quite offended when my little slave heart didn't immediately kneel before his masterful presence. I would say that I am completely torn up about offending the great and powerful capital letter, but that would be a lie. Anyone can "play" a dominant on a net, but that doesn't make you a dominant. More importantly, it doesn't make you MY dominant. Seriously people, pull the sticks out of your ass and act like a person. It's really not that hard to do.

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