seinmadl

So, it's been a quiet few months. Had some nice road trips through Germany (Bamberg) and the usual trip to Munich. Next is Berlin. Can't wait! Then Munich and then Rotterdam and then back to England. So fun!

I've had a crazy New Year. I was in Munich, Nauders, Glasgow and it's still January.

What I have decided I'm tired of, is the low life people that keep getting in touch with me. No! I don't want to see your Photo Shop dick pictures. No! I don't want to listen to your lies of how you will take care of me. I don't want to hear how I would be perfect for you if I would just masturbate on Skype. I don't want to hear anymore lies about who you are or what you do. That's not Dom that's cheap and insecure. Grow up!

I've got my shit together. Yes! Subs can have their shit together. We are not all groveling, damaged, insecure, wimps waiting for you, Mr. perfect dick. Don't confuse sub with weak. I and many other subs on this site, are doing just fine. 

Sure, I would love to meet a Dom that is real, caring, controlled, mature, successful, self assured, considerate, and respectful. Hopefully I will. Until then...it's all good.

Happy Holidays all!

Next stop Austria and then a few weeks later Scotland!

Made a few updates to my profile, you're welcome to check in or get in touch with me. 

Next stop Dubrovnik.

London was great. Lots of shows and great food. I'm going to have to go back.

The Batman shooting in Aurora Colorado:

I don't like my home state being on the map because of some socially challenged individual(s) deciding to blow people away.

It is just so sickening that disgruntled people feel entitled to leave a swath of devastation in what amounts to a display of rage and temper. HN

There are no better words to describe the horror felt by so many yesterday. 7-20-12

New adventures begin for me. I've cut my hair and have a pixie instead of a bob. In a few days I'm leaving on a week long road trip through Belgium. When I return the changes will continue. It feels good and it feels right. 

To those friends old and new, I wish you all the best. May you find what you seek.

To all the males that are looking for the perfect woman. Here's a good site to find exactly what you need ...

http://www.realdoll.com/

They are expensive but hey, they are perfect. 

Peace

This sub is going to Domme herself.

The Daddy-Dominant
* Above all else a Daddy cherishes his girl, and takes great delight in watching her grow
* He can be demanding take full advantage of the power given to him, but knows how to share the pleasure that comes from that precious gift of having a sub
* A Daddy is in control of himself first and foremost, so that he may control and take control of his sub
* As a stern and demanding yet caring compassionate nurturer , he may cause his submissive to cry real tears , but will ALWAYS be there to wipe them away
* As the consummate lover, he will then kiss the tears away, without stepping out of character
* In times of trouble, a Daddy will never leave the role behind, and is always there to be a supportive friend and partner, never forgetting that this is still a loving relationship between two caring individuals
* A Daddy is quick to understand the differences between fantasy and reality
* A Daddy would never ask His sub to put Him before her career, or family, just to satisfy his own pleasure, he will encourage independence and growth
* To win a sub mind, body, spirit, soul, and love, a Daddy knows they must first win their trust
* A Daddy will show their submissive humour, kindness, and warmth, how to play, when to play, and it's not always sexual
* A Daddy must always show His sub that his guidance and tutoring is deserving of her attention, that he is a person she can learn from, and that she can trust his direction
* A Daddy is romantic enough to be protective and chivalrous. When called upon, He will fight for his subs honor
* A Daddy proves to his sub that He is someone she can lean on, and depend on
* When it comes time to teach His sub their lessons of obedience, he is a strong and unyielding professor, but always nurturing, loving and patient
* A Daddy will accept His sub as she grows but wants the best for her so nothing less than perfection from His sub will be allowed while she learns
* Never does a Daddy use discipline without a good reason. When he punishes his sub, it is always with a knowledgeable and careful hand
* A Daddy is always open to communication and discussion; always ready to hear his submissive wants and needs
* A Daddy is patient; taking time to learn the limits of His sub, and knowing that as her trust of him grows, so will she
* A Daddy understands the fragile nature of mind and body and never violates the trust given to them
* A Daddy is secure enough to laugh at Himself and the absurdities of life. Open minded enough to learn new things. Strong enough to grow
* A Daddy's tools are mind, body, spirit, soul, and love
* A true Daddy-Dom is not hesitant to kneel to His sub and kiss her hand in honor of her trust, service, and love for Him

babygirl subbie

What a sub wants

Hello. How are you? This is who I am...This is what I have to offer...This is what I want to have...This is what I'm willing to do for it...

What a sub gets

Hello. How are you? What are your hard limits? Do you take it in all three holes? Do you deep throat? Send me a picture! Turn on cam now!

And they wonder why subs are not submitting?

Submissive creed

I will communicate with complete honesty my needs, desires, limits, and experience. I realize that failing to do so will not only prevent my Top and I from from having the best experience possible, but can also lead to physical and emotional harm.

I will not try to manipulate my Top. I will not push to make a scene go the way I feel it should. In other words, I will not top from the bottom.

I will keep an open mind about trying things that I am not comfortable with and expanding my limits. I will continue to grow as a submissive and as a human being.

I will accept the responsibility of discovering what pleases my Top, and will do my best to fufill their wishes and desires.

I will not allow myself to be harmed or abused. I know that submissive does not equal doormat.

I will be courteous and helpful to my fellow submissives. I will share my knowledge and experience with others in the hope that they will learn and benefit from where I have been. I will take the time to help those new to the scene start out on the correct path.

I will be responsive to my Top. I will not try to hide what my mind and body are feeling so that I may assist them in their responsibilities as my authority. I know that Dominants are not telepaths, and will not expect my Top to know thoughts or feelings which I do not share.

I will accept in the responsibility of a scene or relationship gone bad. I will not place total blame on my Top when it is not warranted simply because they are the Dominant. I realize that things may not work out as they should at times, and will do my best to put it behind me and move on.

I will give my gift of submission only to those that can responsibly accept and desire to receive. I will not place anyone in the position of Topping me non-consensually, nor will I give my respect to someone that has not earned it.

I will be obedient to my Top even if I disagree with what they are requesting. I realize they have my best interests at heart and often knows better than I what I need in a particular situation.

I know that my actions reflect upon my Top, and will do my best to help others see them in a positive way. I will not intentionally embarrass or displease my Dominant.

Above all, I will wear my title of submissive with honor. I will never cause others to think that being submissive means to be weak or sub-human. I will take pride in who and what I am and will never show myself in a negative way.

This is my adaptation of a writing that was originally addressing taming a bird. Author unknown. 

Even the best trainer,with the best sub, takes a shallow breath as the sub leaves the controlled space, wondering as she runs away if it’s in her mind to return. You feel it *every time. Sometimes, it's only a passing thought, relatively sure you've done your job well, and have your sub’s loyalty, and confidence. She goes thru her paces, as instructed, as planned. You think that you've provided an atmosphere that will make her WANT to return, even if she doesn't have to. You've conditioned her, thru love, and caring, that being by you is a better place to be than free, and defenseless, and on her own. You think all this for just a moment, and you breathe again.

Then, just once in awhile, she doesn’t make the turn. She has traveled just a little farther, a little faster than usual. You wonder if it has decided that the lure of the unknown, the things not yet experienced, the call of the wild, may be just a bit stronger than your training, and it's loyalty. You see it looking towards the mountain, running towards it, mesmerized by it. You know you can use your call, a verbal signal that would break the animal's concentration, train of thought. The sound would illicit an immediate response, you know, as it has so many times before. But this time, this one time, you see something different in the way the cat is running. Stronger, straighter, with a purpose. Is it merely stretching it's legs, exploring it's boundaries, curious as to the world it is in? Or has it decided to explore a new world, an unconfined one. You could call.... but you don't. You decide, in that instant, to allow the creature it's freedom, it's choice. Somehow, you know it needs to make it, it needs to know for itself where it belongs. So you hold your voice, and your breath, and your heart, and you wait. And suddenly... it turns. It's race back to you is straighter, faster than usual. And you breath again, and feel pride, for this mighty creature is here because it wants to be, not because it was trained to be.

It was a wonderful time but dusted with unfulfilled expectations.  I was not released but ignored. Not a good way to handle things. Should not a Dom be able to say what he needs or does not need? Especially to release his pet? Never mind, these are the learning processes that one must go through. Weeding through the undeserving to find the deserving. It's just a sad case of reality. Everyone has there own interpretation of what this site is about and each of our roles have so many different interpretations.

The new freedom is strange and exciting. I did not wish for it but it was given to me and I will take it and enjoy it as much as I enjoyed being taken.

madl

Wise words from marymay

When someone owns you, they agree to look after you until you're released, and they should make sure you're ok when you're released. It can really harm a sub to just abandon them because of the nature of d/s relationships. People shouldn't just walk away.

Always in the big woods when you leave familiar ground and step off alone into a new place there will be, along with the feelings of curiosity and excitement, a little nagging of dread. It is the ancient fear of the unknown, and it is your first bond with the wilderness you are going into. What you are doing is exploring. You are undertaking the first experience, not of the place, but of yourself in that place. It is an experience or our essential loneliness; for nobody can discover the world for anybody else. It is only after we have discovered it for ourselves that it becomes a common ground and a common bond, and we cease to be alone. (W. Berry)

Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it.

Boldness has genius, power and magic in it!

Goethe

Some reading material:

Natural dominance and submission relationships (as opposed to “scene” D&S) are about three things… or rather about seven things broken into three categories.
1. Power, control and responsiblity: Some people are unable to balance these things in their lives. THey feel lost with or without these things, intimidated by them or their lack, stressed by them or their lack, frightened by them or their lack, angered by them or their lack, whatever…
2. Trust and loyalty: The relationship between those with dominant personalities and submissive personalities is entirely best on two way trust, and two way loyalty. This applies whether it is a sexual relationship or not. If there is trust and loyalty, there is strenght, and there is the next element…
3. Freedom and safety: Some naturally must be in control to be free, some cannot be free if they are in control. Some naturally must be in controll to feel safe, some cannot feel safe if they are in control.

Though some dominants do see submissives as weak, those people will most likely never uderstand what is below the surface of the relationships; only seing the “scene” as it were. Some dominants also DESIRE the weak partners, but that extends into an entirely different level often involving debasement and humiliation, voluntary slavery, or human toys and human pets.

In a dominant sumbissive relationship, while on the surface it appears that the submissive is sacrificing themselves to the dominant, actually the reverse is true. The top is in fact assuming responsiblity for the bottom, which allows the bottom to be freer, and more comfortable, more in tune with their nature. This can be a very heavy burden on the top, mentally and emotionally (and sometimes physically and financially). It is far more draining in every sense to top someone.

The purpose of dominant and submissive games and gestures, is to enhance the feelings that these power relationships engender in the participants; the top feeling more responsible for the bottoms safety, and having more of a duty to live up to their trust and loyalty; and the bottom feeling freer, and more able to express themselves as they wish, without worrying about the cares or dangers that the top is protecting them from.
Trust me on this one, topping someone is hard work. Hell even being the dominant partner in every day situations is hard work, because YOU are responsible for EVERYTHING.
But we like it that way...
Do you think the dominant partner is really in control in this situation? Not if they care for the person they are topping they aren’t. The real control, and certainly the real freedom, lies with the submissive, because by making the dominant responsible for them; if their top cares for them and is loyal to them; their safety, protection, and satisfaction has become a central concern; as in an almost parental relationship.

Theanarchangel "CB"

Alright, time to rant and rave! I've tried really hard to stay positve.

I'm a big girl. If you don't like it then train me and change it. I'm not close minded to change.

I am becomming close minded to dom's that want me for a slave. Or to ones that only want to talk on Sunday afternoons and then never again. Or ones that want me to be perfect but are far from perfect themselves. Ones that don't see the potential. Ones that don't see that I am in a position to relocate with a bit of planning. Ones that think they are god's gift to subs and that we should bow to them because they are on this site.

Get a grip! We all have our good sides and our bad. Mine can be changed. I'm sucessful and on top of most things in my life but not all. So I have a few things to work on. If I manage them on my own, most of the doms on here are going to be even farther below meeting me half way, than they are now. If you can't even meet half way then you certainly can't be dominant. Yes, I will top from the bottom if you let me. Sassy subs try and do that. Think about it. My submission is earned not forced. If your not smart enough to keep me from topping you, your not smart enough to be my dom.

Sometimes I wish I was a domme. It seems it would be so much easier to top with reason and purpose not as I do now, because I can. 

To the rest of you.The ones who see the potential...

Bite me! Please

Many Doms have expressed that they do not like to read the negatives or what a sub does not want. I will attemt to write what I do want. I do not think it is wrong for an unclaimed sub to express her needs. It seems to be the only way for the Doms to see what and who I am and decide if they can meet those needs or prefer another.

Single, may the Dom be single. That he is articulate and can read what I have written and finds that it is something that has potential for him. That he can see that I am a cherished pet or little girl not to be confused with pain slut or slave. That he is focused on having one sub and one sub only. That he is willing to commit and collar his sub. That he understand that I am a career woman and will need to be in a position to continue my career. That he can see that it is not money or possessions I seek but a molding of two halves to create a positive whole. Yes, I can relocate to some degree. Only to counties that have work for me and where I can flourish as a professional. He should be as old as I am or older. Youth is something wonderful that I have already experienced and am no longer focused on. I do enjoy it when he is taller than me and can certianly be a teddy bear as larger Dom are wonderful for protection and cuddling. That he sees that this is not only about sex. Yes, sex is a primary focus but my sexual side is something I give to a Dom that is right for me. I will give freely and passionatly once this point has been reached. If he travels that he has a base point that will allow for numerous interactions and that he will have the ability to stay in contact when he is away. I do respect Doms that travel a lot for work but need to know that there is a number or e-mail where I can reach him if needed. That he is aware that I am not perfect but that I am prepared to be molded. That I will respond well to positive feedback, discipline and training. That he finds scening and clubs interesting but as an observer not a participant. That he would enjoy having a specific social circle for the lifestyle. One to meet on occassion and have intersting conversation. That he is okay with me being straight and does not have the need to share me with others.

When I read this I see that I am reaching out for a Daddy. A Daddy that wants to have one little girl to cherish, mold, discipline and possess. That I could please him, make him proud and meet his needs as if they were my own.

The Man, the Master

A Man who displays sensitivity Will be a Master who is sensitive to you

A Man who displays humility will be a Master who will show you respect

A Man who is not afraid to cry will be a Master who understands your tears

A Man who is quiet will be a Master who will hear your quietest whisper

A Man who knows fear will be a Master who will not leave you to face yours alone

A Man who will listen to a child will be a Master who will always work to understand your words

A Man who can stand alone will be a Master who will not crush you under His weight

A Man who controls Himself with ease will be a Master with the ability to control you in the same way

A Man who does not have to prove His point will be a Master with many worthwhile points to share

A Man who never makes demands will be a Master who treasures anything you give

A Man who doesn't run after you will be a Master you will never need to run away from

A Man who is calm will be a Master who can weather your storms

A Man who has walked the path to peace will be a Master able to guide you along that path

A Man who does not shout will be a Master who will never deafen you

A Man who knows Himself will be a Master who will have time to know you

A Man who never stops learning will be a Master who never stops growing

A Man who always seeks to be the best He can be for you is the only Man truly worthy of being called Master.

Daddy Denial