I was writing to one of my replies and as I wrote to him It made alot of sense to me that if I put this in my journal It might give many a bit more window into who I am. So here is a portion of my reply::
I am willing to communicate as much as I can, I will be honest with you I am not available for 24/7. I am pretty up front with my situation, so as not to confuse someone that has no interest in someone that cant commit that way. I have been in the lifestyle now 17 yrs, I had a sasistic trainer many years ago that was involved with old guard. I was formerly involved with a Daddy kind of Master for 5 years and then abandoned me and found out he was cheating on me for whole time and used me and dumped me when he found someone else. I took a year away from any kind of lifestyle relationship and I am carefully, slowly, hurt and wounded looking for someone to fulfill my submissive needs.
I just ask for patience, understanding, take my hand and lead me like a child to your world, surround me with safety and possabilities, and I will follow you willingly and offer you span of control and power exchange. |