SayMyNameFag

Male Dominant, 28, Brooklyn, New York

Male Dominant, 29, jacksonville, FL, Florida

Male Dominant, 36, Athens

I am aware that there are few men on here that are awaiting my return and so this is for you.... You probably have noticed that I my personal email is no longer in service. I have been diagnosed with something quite serious and it is something I will have until my last day. I have to say goodbye to all things that could possibly bring stress and so CM will have to go. I will no longer be able to focus on anyone but myself and my health. Thank you all for your love and kindness! I love you all :)

Ugh my sugar detox is causing constant cravings! Well as I briefly told you, I'm taking a 4 month break from the internet to focus on intense meditation and non attachment. These things are necessary for me. I will only be on sites that align with my focus. Oh don't worry about my subs....they are part of my focus. I talk to them away from CM. I'd say wish me luck, but I've gotten pretty far in my practice and that is why I add more time each time I leave all social networking sites and online games to remain in present moment. I am good at dedicating my life to present moment and non attachment. Happy Spring!

"Tell me all about you". Anyone else dread this fucking question? If you are able to answer then you must lead a very beige existence. I am too technicolor....I am a kaleidoscope. I am low-maintenance, I am high-maintenance. I am jeans, I am evening gown I am compassionate, I am merciless. I am sweet, I am a bitch. I am laid-back, I am passionate. I am Zen, I am psychotic. I am humble, I am narcissistic. I am selfless, I am selfish. I am up, I am down. I am unpredictable, I am predictable. I am.

I often click on profiles out of pure curiosity as to what it is I'm looking at. Is it a vagina? Is it a vagina with something stuck in it? What the hell is that!?

A close friend text me a photo she found of the two of us together. We were around the age of 12 though we looked 10. With the photo were the words "we were so sweet and innocent". Looking at the photo one would assume that the young preppy girl in her Ralph Lauren Polo shirt, Tretorn sneakers and Lacoste sweater was absolutely sweet. I had the face of an angel. My friend, was completely ignorant to my obsession with death and reading books about serial killers and the occult. I remember always sitting in my rooms listening to The Smiths while reading books on witchcraft and playing with an Ouija board. I always played with that board alone because word on the 12 year old streets was that you NEVER play with it alone...DANGER! That's all I needed to hear because even then I was drawn to dangerous situations. That preppy little snobby blonde girl believed she was a witch. She knew she was more evil than good.......she wanted nothing more than for everyone in the world to believe she was normal and she played the part well.....she looked the part.

Kissing Mmmmmmmm

Let's make it 6 weeks this time, My love.

I really should not be so lazy and actually proofread journals before posting. It's easier just to blame the autocorrect on my ipad.

Last night I let him finally cum after 5 weeks. Boy did that rubber pussy get filled to the brim with cum! It always amazes me watching one of my men cum after being denied for so long....it looks to be the most electrically charged intense fucking out of this world experience. It's as though I had just main lined my most purest heavenly love into their veins. I'm kind of tempted myself to go 5 weeks without an orgasm just to experience that same high. Fuck it. An hour is long enough. Where's my sissy? I want his face to sit on.

I am so appreciative to have so many friends and loves. Hell I even appreciate all of my CM friends :) There are men in my life that I speak with daily....some first thing in the morning. There are men I am in a more casual relationship with. No matter the dynamic or degree of love, I care and appreciate each one the same as the other. They take quite a bit of unpredictable bashings from me", just because", and I am fiercely protective of them for it. They thank me for the abuse.....I need to remember more to thank them. If it weren't for their love of me, I could not be Me. Thank you for your unwavering loyalty and devotion. Thank you for your trust in me enough to not allow your pride and ego to destroy what it is we dream of so often. I pledge to never harm......your heart. xo

How does that precum taste? Like beautiful torment.

Awwww that is so adorable the way you think you are going to get to cum. Hahaha Why don't you ask me in another week. Until then, and only MAYBE until then, you are nothing but holes.

I always considered myself pretty fit until I saw Cirque de Soleil on the weekend. Boy are they all in great shape! Yes I know they work out for hours each day and follow a diet way more strict than even mine. Still very inspiring! Did I mention the show was quite homoerotic? Hot!

That really hurt? Awww poor baby Too bad.

I'm not fucking you yet. I can feel your desperation for my whip ..... For my strapon. Not yet, my love. I am too entertained by you humping the air as precum drips from your useless cock. Oops my mistake; MY cock. Thrusting yourself back against the air exposing your man pussy as you spread your ass wide open in anticipation...... I'm not fucking you yet.

"You just haven't earned it yet baby" The Smiths

Ugh why suddenly are my messages not sending? Another cm bug? I'm not ignoring you all; my messages won't send

Yes, I realize as a dominant woman, I have many submissive men in my life, all of whom hold intense attachment to me. I am honoured and accept the complete responsibility of becoming their Mistress. I understand my power and am a constant in their life as to not harm. I would have to be! I need to make sure he still hasn't cum while I'm away! So yes, to reply to your messages, of course I am aware that my men are mentally, physically, and psychologically attached. They have been in my life for years.....they have been attached for years....because I am responsible in my position and knowledge of their very delicate attachment.

The common theme these last few days in many of my conversations has been the topic of "love". One person had even mentioned being wary of early mentioning of love. Ask a million different people and you may receive a million different definitions of the word "love". From romance authors to Disney writers to Buddhists.....each projects and defines love in various ways. Buddhists strongly believe that love should be given freely and loving kindness shown to everyone. I am not afraid of love because I do not place attachment to the word or the people I love. Perhaps those that are "wary" of love are confusing love with attachment? They are wary of early attachment. More so, respect I do not take "lightly". When respect for someone is lost, as hard as I've tried in past sexual relationships to regain, the fires of passion are extinguished forever. Trust, betrayal, respect......these are words to be wary of because once gone can never be restored for if you accept someone back into your life that does not respect you or has betrayed you, it is you to blame. You need to ask yourself why it is you allow this to happen....have you been suffering excessive stress or anxiety? Have you experienced a recent loss? Meditate on these questions and you will find your answer. Love freely and openly......without attachment. For those of you bored by the non-sexual content of this blog, this is for you..... Cock. Pussy. Cunt. Bitch. Ass raped. Fist. Gangbang. Fuck. You're welcome.

Strange....while writing my journal, I noticed words missing that I am sure I put. Each time I edit so to fix the problem of missing words, it saves the entry yet the words remain missing. Anyone have a solution for me? I would appreciate it. Thank you

Many feel that it is the submissive that must contact the dominant first....the submissive that needs to win over the dominant to become the chosen one. I adore searching for s off my desire then zeroing in to seduce them. I am a temptress and will wither away if not able to charm and so charm I do. I enjoy winning men over with my quick wit and ability to make them laugh. It's not all about you amusing me. I want to amuse you as well....make a joke to watch you smile when I sense you're having a low day. I want you to feel desired, wanted, cared for, and lusted after. I want to be the seducer, the romancer, the charmer......the man? I'm told I'm very good at it ;)

What is with every time I'm in bed with a fever and body aches (sick), I long to curl up all sick and read cm journals? I am yet to analyze this sufficiently. I can go months without giving this place a thought yet when forced to remain in bed, I begin to wonder how so-and-so from cm is holding up.....what do the journals say?........ I wonder if "that girl" I chatted with so much found her master? Is it a simple case of misery loves company?

From a controlling, dominating, sadistic woman.... Thank you. Thank you to all of you beautiful masochistic subs. I appreciate and love you all! Enjoy your day

he is curious to meet the sadistic Me.....the torturous Me.....the cruel and merciless Me. Well let Me introduce you.....

I have found the yin to my yang. I am as hooked on him as he is on Me. There is pain....yes, but also laughter and conversation. he is Mine and I am his.

I fell in love with a sub once.....a lawyer living in Manhattan. He left a comment under one of my photos I had posted on another kink site. He looked cute so naturally my curiosity was piqued and I went forth to check out his profile. I remember stalking his profile for a week before I wrote him. We hit it off immediately and so began talking numerous times a day, every day, before we took our conversations to the phone. He was even more fantastic on the phone and we began to get very close very fast. We would take a plane to see the other quite often and would spend hours laughing and having conversation about everything and nothing. I loved how easily he gave all of himself to me....no games.....no baggage....what you saw was what you got which was a very funny, sweet, compassionate, sane and stable guy. Unfortunately it ended on New Years Eve. He is monogamous and I am not. He wanted a certain commitment that I could not give him. I have met someone recently. We spend hours having conversation about everything and nothing. We laugh often. I love the way he gives all of himself to me....no baggage....no games....what you see is what you get which is a kind, funny, compassionate man. He draws pictures for me....writes poetry to me.....makes me smile. I told him I am poly and unable to be monogamous. He understands. he is Mine.

For the first time, I understand how satisfying online "romance" can be. I don't know if it is due to meeting some pretty magical men knowing how to wield their words effectively or if it's me. I've never been able to lose myself in a man on here in the way I've witnessed others be able to do.I blame my ego. Well since opening myself up to the possibility of finally experiencing this euphoria I have heard so many rave about, I have seen a spark of what could be.....and I like it! Each man and each dynamic has been so completely different yet each dance the same....slow, sensual, lustful, passionate, intense, teasing..... I love this stage of discovery. I feel so greedy and I'm loving every minute of it!

No other compares....not even close. you provide Me with everything I need. I'm taking you on this path with Me. Only you. Entwined. Tethered. Forever.

I'm taking your heart with Me as I leave for the light. I'm keeping it safe....next to My own. you are home. Mine!

I have noticed that many dommes have designer clothing/purses as their profile picture. We are to presume that they either had someone purchase it for them or they would like for you to purchase those items for them. Ladies! This isn't very dominant. I have a designer wardrobe so large that a room in my house had to be converted into a walk in closet. Guess what? I bought every item myself. Every pant suit that cost me $1500....every pair of Louboutin....Hermes bracelet, etc, I bought with the cash I earned on my own. The thing is that I couldn't care less about any of it. I am required by my high paying job to exude an image of "luxury" and even sign contracts each year that my image will not falter. I must look elegant....have natural hair co.our and polished makeup, etc. I bought it all myself. I worked long hours and many days proving that though I do not have the business degree required for my position, I have the natural capability to bring success to the company. I really had to prove myself and did. Being able to hand over my own debit card each visit I make at Holt Renfreq feels empowering. I have had men purchase things for me in the past and it always left me feeling so out of control. Get a job that has you able to purchase these items otherwise you can't afford it....and that's fine. That purse in my profile pic is from the new Fall collection.....for work purposes I wouldn't dare carry that through the Winter. I will purchase that winter purse (and rest of my wardrobe, jewellery and shoes) with the money I earned. No. Man. Needed. That my friends is having control.

I am so wet thinking about you wearing My pink panties in court today Mmmmmmm I can't wait to get home to your toned and tanned body. My thoughts have been running wild with what I'm going to do to you. Oh to see that wanton look in those big brown eyes. Mine!

What I really like about you is that you have always respected my belief and practice of no attachment. You understand that I have and will always leave this realm weeks at a time to remain true to my path. Many are not understanding to this and need me to keep them constantly intoxicated. I understand and so have become aware to not involve myself with them lest they get hurt. I like that you have so many other loves in your life.....I know this keeps you happy and I of course relish in your happiness. It also keeps me secure in my thoughts that you are not dependant on me and so I am able to safely leave for large amounts of time. I know that when I return, you are not angry or resentful because you have been satisfied by many others. I like that. Thank you for your understanding.

Looks as though I will be getting to know many new friends when I return. I am looking forward to it!

I will be leaving today for a 2 week trip to Muskoka with no access to Internet. I was suppose to spend time with the bitch yesterday before I left, but life had other plans :(

Woah so many "you sound too harsh" messages. This is our dynamic and it is absolutely consensual. I have owned him for a year now and this is how it progressed. he wants it harsh......he NEEDS it harsh. It has been pleasant knowing that there are people around here that are genuinely concerned about the delicate psychological condition of others. Believe Me, he can handle it and more. you should see what he can endure physically! Hot! On his behalf, thank you for the concern. Sometimes My arousal and passion need an outlet and that is when this journal enters the equation.

Who do you think you are? you are worthless. you are absolutely worthless to Me. your only worth to other women is the you are a lawyer. I couldn't care less. I see through that definition to see a man that should be on his Knesset thanking God to get such attention from a Woman like Me. I am way too good for you and you know it. How frustrating it must be wanting to fuck Me so bad it hurts. Hahaha you're never going to get it bitch.....you could never be good enough to fuck Me, lawyer. I have had men with more wealth, power and fame than you could only dream to attain and I couldn't care less about their definition as well. I simply was not born with what ever it is is that makes a person give a fuck about that sort of thing. you are just as worthless to Me as they were. Others may see you as a confident man in a very expensive suit, but I see a short, middle-aged fag that can't even look Me in the eyes for long and shakes with in My presence. Hahaha Who would want to fuck that? Put away your false bravado, bitch. It won't work with Me. Be lucky to even receive such abuse from a women of My calibre. I'm sure people seeing us on the street just assumes your rich and I'm your trophy wife. Awwww how cute that these women feed their low sense of worth knowing they fucked a lawyer. How asleep they all are. I, on the other hand, am fully awake to the disgusting cum hungry, cock whore, fag that trembles before Me, begging to have Me fuck his cunt. Do they all know how badly you want breast implants and hormones? Would they fuck you then or would they be revolted? I know all of your sins.....all of your fantasies....I know the truth. you should be ashamed. you are worthless. Consider yourself lucky to have such a Goddess that knows all of your truths and allows you closer.

While chatting with a friend this morning, he burst out his confession of fantasizing often that I take him and force him to be my slave. This caused my mind to trail off from our former topic to think about how I wouldn't appreciate that one bit. Oh I appreciate him and our friendship immensely. I just would not be down with forcing a man to be mine. I like that all of my men gave themselves freely to me....their body, but more importantly their heart, mind ans soul. All of this came naturally after giving me their trust and love.....which was given after feeling safe, loved, and a reason to trust. Oh sure they are forced to do other things *wink wink nudge nudge*, but their submission to me was not. I won't say I have never played with that type thing through fantasy, but it was nowhere near being reality.

I'm getting off the computer to go wake someone up so that I can get fucked good and hard and for a very long time. Enjoy the rest of your weekend you whores. Haha

God I am feeling so fucking sadistically horny and you are going to pay for it My love. you hate My whip? you poor baby. Too bad.

It can be quite easy falling into the trap of becoming attached to an idea. Attaching yourself to the thought of "ithis relationship will work this time", after YEARS of the exact same disastrous results is ridiculous. It is only setting both parties up for failure. I believe any substantial relationship takes work....compassion and kindness need to be implemented. I am currently in a few relationships that have been going for over 20 years and so I know this to be true. To walk away from those that brought only misery shows spiritual maturity. To say I love you and never turn to look back.....well that is wisdom.

Wipe that surprised look off of your face bitch. Now now, you know My sweet tenderness wouldn't last forever. Sooner or later the sadistic succubus will take Me over to feed off of your pain and torment. .....to remind you what a worthless cunt you are. I swear I am just too good to you. Hmmmm what will I do with you Sunday? I'm wet at the thoughts. Scared? your body is betraying you whore. I know how much you like Me, thus the reason for you enduring so much pain from Me. I think I shall invite Mr. X again to fuck you insanely while you eat My pussy. God I can't get enough of that. His voluminous load left all over you for days reminding you what a pathetic cock whore you are. Speaking of cocks....yours, once again, will be rendered useless. your cock is Mine. you are Mine. Aren't you a lucky bitch.

you make Me so incredibly happy. I cherish you like no other. Every day you thank Me for the abuse. Today I thank you....thank you for being in My life and taking such harsh, merciless, abuse. That is love. you give Me the biggest smile, the most sly of grins, most evil of thoughts, biggest laughs, explosive orgasms......oh great, now I have a girl erection. you are Mine. Dont be thinking I'm unlocking you. 1 more week! Mine!

Ruined! Hahahaha

I could only spend a couple of hours with him today. I decided we would play a card harm in which punishment would be given depending on the card drawn. he just didn't have that great of luck when choosing cards. Ssshhhh don't tell him I cheated. ;) I am the luckiest girl in the (sub) world!

Best. Night. Ever. He won't be able to sit for a week. Mine!

Can't help but take inventory of my life today (my birthday). What a difference a year of spirituality will make on ones decisions. I have the most amazing, loving, family and friends! I also want to brag a little about having the sweetest, kindest, compassionate, wise men too! My subs provide Me with everything I need and I want to say thank-you! Thank you for being in My life....thank you for being you. Without you, I could not be "Me". I love you. Looking forward to birthday spanks! Ie; gagging and binding you as I plan out the most sadistic fun one could have on Her birthday. Whips....caning......rammed up the ass with god knows what. Yup. Tomorrow I shall love you so painfully. Happy Birthday Me!

Sometimes there is that rare occasion that you meet someone and find instant attraction. I met a local man on here yesterday new to CM. we hit it off immediately in that our humour and flirtatious style seem to align. I found myself constantly checking my messages for him. He appeared to to have the formula to what it is that really gets my attention. Naturally I began to seduce him. He seduced me as well. We moved our conversation to IM. Edge for me. Mmmmm All night long this is how it went. Our conversations manifested into the most erotic dreams.....I found myself waking up to my hand on my pussy rubbing. CM you have redeemed yourself. I want to know all about him. I want to move right in to his psyche as I like to do. Think about me today? You better fucking believe you did. Mine! Maybe.

I have really enjoyed all of the conversations today. Hope you all have a lovely day.

you told Me you love Me as you do every night. I tell you that I want to gauge your eyes out and fuck your skull until a voluminous load of salty sperm breaks forth from My cunt. I'm in one of those moods and you are no stranger to them. you look at Me with that look of puzzling bewilderment and lust as you always do when I get like this. Its your fault....you turn Me on. I continue to tell you how I think of painting your skull alleyways of pink and placing it upon My nightstand. A candle placed inside illuminating the darkness like a lighthouse in the foggy recesses of this black psyche. you giggle and tell Me how confusing it is to hear such thoughts come from a woman looking so angelic. I wear this for day walking. It serves Me well. you both love and feel apprehensive each time I transpire into this other self. I read you so easily. you're not as complex as you believe your self to be. you tell Me you love Me and I want to show you violence like no other. I want to hear you scream in torment as I frantically masturbate to the blood that flows down your back like sweet rain. I long to invite you into My world...My black heart....My dark soul....My unspeakable thoughts. Will you think Me mad? I want all of this. Why? It's because I love you too. you worthless cunt. Aren't you lucky.

I promised you I'd come back on before summer ends. When I pinkie swear, I mean it! I hope everyone is having a great summer thus far. I'm still happily bonded and everything is great. Still having lots of fun with cuck and chastity. How could I not? Hope you all are well.

I remember a time when I enjoyed coming on here to read the journals, but man, how depressing. Nothing but the lost and broken souls. I can feel compassion for whatever it is that brought you to the state you are in, but also want to shake you all and tell you to smarten the fuck up. Nobody wants such a depressing broken sub. Where is the challenge? I love the challenge of tearing down a strong and secure man. Mmmmm now that's what I like. Who would fall in love with such a whiny pity party? Yuck what a buzzkill! Woe is me. No challenge at all....just revolt. Best of luck to you!

If you don't receive a reply it's because my summer does not include CM. If you're one of the handsome and dashing boys I speak with, please continue to text or FaceTime me. Happy Summer! I'll probably be back in the fall when the weather turns cool.

What do you mean you're not bisexual? I could tell by the way you sucked my strapon that wasn't the first time you've had a throat full of cock. you took that thing like a professional slut. The way you thrust back against it....grinding so eagerly....I could tell My strapon wasn't the first cock rammed into that man pussy of yours. you are a fag. you are MY fag.....My slutty fag. I know how much you like Me, fag. Let's see how far I can make you go.

Come here. Come closer. I am going to take away your loneliness. I am here for you. I am going to give you all the answers as only the wise can do. I am going to make you wiser so that you need not seek out the answers from others; they lie within you. I am going to keep you safe. Forever and always. Looks like someone has been inspiring Me as of late....a muse for the journals. I am off to turn these emotions into colours and paint. Happy Summer everyone!

This isn't going to work. I'm just not digging your ways. Oh did I just call you Dave and not bitch? I did? That can't be good. Oh. I forgot that I had put you in punishment? Uh oh. I know what that means. It appears thus is over. It's not me, it's you. you have lost the ability to keep my interest and so that lustful beast that resides within me just has no interest in taking me over to take over you. It happens. I warned you. I told you that my need to control is dictated by my attraction to you. I simply have lost interest. I no longer care. The beast no longer cares. But you....yes.....you. I like you so much. My wetness is stirring awake that beast to arise and possess us both. I want you. I want to degrade, torment, seduce, manipulate, and control you. It's your fault. Move over, I'll be taking over your psyche now. your fault. Oh and I'll be taking that heart of yours. I'll wrap My arms around it for safe-keeping. That throat.....My hands will be wrapped around that too. you are so beautiful....so witty....so worthless....so Mine! you have awoken the sadist. Look out! I'm in charge now. your fault. Welcome to hell (heaven), bitch.

No!

I have decided to hide my profile so that I may genuinely attempt to take a couple of connections to a more profound and deeper level. I have stumbled across 2 very humble, kind, and tender men that have piqued my interest fully.

he's a keeper!

And there you have it.....right when I think I'm going to ignore this site for awhile, the most promising messages appear. There is something about the heat of summer that has me itching for a few intense, complex, perverse, dark, passionate and addictive D/s love affairs.

I have met someone, on here, that I have really been enjoying. Though I don't really actively seek out love, being polyamorous, I am always open to the possibility. It doesn't happen often as the type of soul I fall for doesn't really pop up in my life as often as I would like. Usually it is the lack of a soul we tend to find on here.....which makes for great fantasy and lustful words only. But those rare souls appear so rarely. I have found one. I am not sure where this path will lead and as a person that never lives in past or future, all I can say is.... At this moment. Right now. you are Mine! I would tell you to get yourself use to that idea, but me thinks you already have.

Hi everyone- I am not in the Philippines, I did not get mugged, and I do not need $1590. My Yahoo email account was taken over by spammers. Do not reply to that email. Thanks!

To my new friends.... Please contact me away from CM. I have provided you with a few ways in which you can do so. I look forward to getting to know you. I am closing down this account now

you said you want to know everything about me....what was I like as a child. There you have it. Don't say I never give you anything. Don't ask again. you're welcome.

I very rarely revisit the past, but found myself doing so while sipping coffee on the porch early this morning. I thought about the summer when I was 10 years old and nicknamed "the cocaine kid". I'm not kidding. This is not a joke. I would walk into the room to hear "here's the cocaine kid" "looks like we'll be doing cocaine all night". Then the eruption of laughter. I was 10 and I was the cocaine kid. Now for the explanation.... The summer I was 10 my parents decided to purchase a trailer so that we could do some family bonding. Family bonding meant they played lawn darts while drinking with other adults while I hung out in the campground club house that was monopolized by the teenaged children of lawn dart playing, alcohol chugging adults. I was fine with that. My mother would drunkenly hand me a handful of cash and I was expected to keep myself busy somehow. At 10, I busied myself with cocaine. Oh yeah I haven't explained that part yet. In the clubhouse was a pool table, arcade games, a jukebox, and a whole lot of denim. Man, I loved that jukebox. Music had always been my savior and so naturally I gravitated toward it with a handful of shiny coins. That was when I fell in love with cocaine. I remember it clearly.....a teenaged boy covered head-to-toe in denim played it "she don't lie....she don't lie....she don't lie; cocaine". What is that song? I asked denim. It's Clapton, man. Eric Clapton. Oh I love it! True to form, I obsessed over that song and played it over and over and over and over. I'm sure I annoyed the teenaged kids to no end but I didn't care. I played that song all summer until, true to form, I grew to hate it and never wanted anything to do with it again. "Here comes the cocaine kid" "Here she is. Looks like another cocaine binge". I had no clue what cocaine was. I think it's her name. I remember it like yesterday. The summer I was 10. The summer I was the cocaine kid.

he deserved it ;)

Have a great weekend everyone! Hopefully it isn't raining where you are. I may look all woman but tonight I'm going to make him call Me Daddy as he sucks My cock (strap on). Mmmmmmm Daddy is getting wet.

Happy Fathers Day to all of the true father's out there. I am not speaking of the men with children, but those men present in the lives of their children to raise them as aware, wise, adults. Happy Father's Day to you!!!!!

Mine! Forever and always. he is Mine (and I couldn't be happier)

Last night I told him those 3 words he has longed to hear...."I love you". Last night I told him those 3 words he hates to hear......"one more week." I don't care what better way to celebrate My love for him than to deny his release from chastity for one more week. :)

Whoah! Thanks for all of the ideas. They sound so scary and dangerous! Poor baby. My baby is in a whole heap of trouble this weekend. Isn't he lucky :)

I can't believe how aroused I became with electrocuting the boi last night!!!! I only dabbled with electrical play in the past and it was always on a professional level. Last night was the first time it was with someone I love. his screams....his jolting, clenching body....his begging for mercy....My giving no mercy whatsoever....so fucking hot!!!!! I would love to speak with someone experienced with this for some new and sadistic ideas. I would prefer to speak about it on IM than here. No I am not going to ask you to sign up for anything hahaha Electricity. How sadistically sweet.

I don't forsee myself logging back on here for quite some time (months). Please feel free to say hello via the Facebook link I provided you with. Thanks! Have a great spring/summer everyone! Hope you get raped! :)

I seem to not be responding to the same number of messages I have in the past. Perhaps it is because of self-awareness and my awakening which has led to my recognizing immediately that this person writing me will cause suffering in my life. Perhaps I am comparing all men to my boi and I am accepting contentment. I do know that I read your messages with a depth you are unaware of when you are writing your shallow words. Sigh

I take your body as mine.....rape you so violently, joyously, relentlessly....until you bleed. But this is not why I love you. I dig my nails deep into your gaping wounds....this is not what urges me to whisper my words of love into your ear. It is not the bites, the whips, the torture.... It is the way you give your all to me...your trust in me to take you far....deep through the darkness, knowing I will safely return you back to the light....my arms. It is your trust in me to guide you to be a happier man....wiser. Beyond form is the essence of the most beautiful man I have ever tasted. This is why I love you. Oh, my fucking you like I hate you and your taking that angry cock like you love me....well, that's just a nice little bonus ;)

Still get in touch with Me through Facebook if we already have been. I come on here to meet connections but find FB more personal and fun! Say My name, fag

For those I have been exchanging messages with, please continue to do so via the Facebook profile I provided you with. CM is great for new introductions but also comes with it's fair share of negativity that is enough to make a girl lose her erection. :) I look forwarding to getting it hard again so continue to contact me.....far from this place...where prying eyes will be unable to see what I plan to do to you ;) Follow Me to heaven (hell)

I keep my phone beside me at my desk at work and will reply to messages on CM as I work on reports. My phone is not always compatible with the sites that you all often send me links to. I appreciate the attempts to do so,

Enjoy your holiday weekend, you Americans you.:)

Yeah I will not be going down that road ever again. I have not been replying to many messages because they have been received by certain men that I have attempted to know via a profile I have had in the past. How unwise it would be to yet once more attempt a connection and expect a different outcome. It didn't work. The hide button has proven itself beneficial with aiding in time-management while perusing this site.

Yes, the transgendered are absolutely welcome.

I could say that Rob Ford (mayor of Toronto) could not possibly be addicted to crack cocaine based solely On his physique, but the late Chris Farley then enters my mind.

I received a message telling me that I am rude for not replying to his message. On the contrary.....I found it to be quite polite. My replying would have been rude for it would have read "you don't have a chance in hell". See. I am very polite.

I don't believe in living in the future. I never live in the past. I only ever live in present. Presently, I am eagerly devouring the souls of some very delicious men. Presently, I am severing ties with some that carry too much baggage.

Toronto. I am in Toronto.

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