sarahruth1978

I'm sitting in the car for the past 15 minutes, absolutely sobbing and trying to hide myself so nobody sees me, because I'm not one to draw attention to myself. I've been doing this since last Friday because I'm so sad, devastated, and scared, and I'm not home because I can't be alone. So I come to work with Danny every day and sit in the parking lot all day by myself. All of a sudden, I look up and I see this man in a hat and a bright green work shirt, and I don't even know who he is or what he's associated with. I have no makeup on, my eyes are red, I'm crying, my nose is red, my hair is up in a bun, and I'm not wearing a bra. But I put my window down, and he took my hand and said, 'Can I pray for you? " />

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And I just looked at him, shocked, and I said yes, which is so unlike me. That man said a prayer for me, and I don't even remember everything that he said, but he asked for all of this to be taken off of me and for me to get everything I've asked for in prayer so far and everything that I want and need in life. I've been praying about this situation for 10 weeks now, and it's always the same thing over and over again, not more than four or five things. And I've never experienced that amount of compassion and love from a stranger " />

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And then he says to me that he's a pastor and he has been for 20 years, and he says, 'You look like you're in pain.' I said, 'Well, I have pain, and this whole situation has kind of activated that a little bit.' So he's like, 'Well, I want to pray for you again for your pain to be removed from your body,' and he prayed for me for that. But I just had a little emotional breakdown sitting here out in the car all by myself with some stranger who just prayed for me for me to get everything that I have asked for in prayer lately. Everything that I've asked for in prayer is about my friend and what he's going through in his life, for my daughter, for my son, for my husband, a very small amount for me with my anxiety disorder, and a new housing situation down by Danny's work " />

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?I just never experienced such love from a complete stranger in my life. Every day, I ask God to be with me and to show me that he's with me, and I tell him that I don't even know if I believe that he's really there, and I tell him I never feel him and I never feel that it's real. And I'm in the back of a parking lot, and some random man just came out to my window and held my hand, and I'm a sobbing mess in a car, and he prayed for me twice " />

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I've been trying really hard the last 10 weeks to have faith when I've never had faith in my life and never understood what it even meant to have hope and to pray even when it's too much?

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So every night at 8:00 I get undressed for my shower and turn my water on and stop my prayer that lasts about 25 minutes from start to finish by the time I'm done with my shower and my night routine and get into bed I end my prayer every single night it's about one person who I love deeply it's about two teenagers who I love deeply it's about Big Daddy who I love and it's about me who I don't really love?

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16 days

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Day 7 and counting

28th day You know there's a lot to be said about suffering and longing in life for another soul you love sometimes you might just get what you want. My dear friend George said?

You never know right

Hello if you're going to write to me could you treat me like you just met me out of coffee shop.? Please don't talk crudely to me or sexual or ask me the things I like just talk to me like a woman

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Day 11

She was the little girl with the big green eyes and scraped knees, climbing trees and swinging on the tire swing in the backyard, head thrown back, giggling as if her world was made of magic. I often wondered where she got all that love from as a child to a woman loving people who would try and break her, loving broken toys. She never expected much from anyone, she could not wait to get back to whatever star she came from. And I think at times—

Hi

A little update...   I do not share my pictures with men I just met. Most likely you won't get to see me.  And I also don't want to see your pictures.

I kindly ask you not message me if you are after anything sexual. Don't ask me my breast size or my weight   I'm not here for a thrill. I also don't care what you look like physically or the size of certain parts. I'm not easily impressed so please don't try to.  I just want a normal human being who isn't weird in a bad way to talk with.

I treat my conversations here just like I do in real life if I met you in my town. 

I am not a lifestyler who's here to play a part. This is about the mind for me.  I'm a real person. With feelings.  Again I am not interested in a sexual relationship. 

I won't show you pictures of myself or get on a phone call with a stranger... Again I'm not here for fast cheap thrills. I'm not going to meet you a stranger after a few months of talking   It is not something that is me or something I want.

I'm not dressing up in pig tails or costumes. Please if you are into that type of thing pass me by. I'm not interested in this kind of thing.

Its actually quite humerous how often we create this mental image as to what we are seeking.  We are so sure of ourselves that we will hold to that picture even when the best thing in the world is standing right in front of us.  That is why I have stated that due to our attention to such details, we can often find ourselves missing out on something very special simply because we are so focused on what we consider is a perfect fit that we miss out on that special person.  Most of us have made this mistake in some form or another and have paid dearly for such blindness.  However, it doesn't have to end that way - instead we can learn from our nearsightedness and begin to realize that our stance or opinon on some traits we hold dear will actually bend to and fro and they might even help us expand our view which will lead to an awesome resolution.   KeithSir    I loved this had to share !

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'We like war-we're a war like people. We like war because we are good at it. You know why we are good at it ? Because we get a lot of practice. This country is only 200 years old and already we've had ten major wars.We average a major war every every ten years in this country-so we're good at it !!! And its a good thing we are ,since we're not good at anything else anymore.Can't build a decent car,can't make a TV set or VCR worth a fuck !!'George Carlin