This "lifestyle" is starting to become frustrating. Reason one is because you think you have friends in the community and then they stab you in the back. Reason 2. Me being a 22 year old submissive I believe it is hard to find someone worth meeting. Yes I am going to be picky about whom I want to get to know. I don't think that is such a bad thing.
I have play partners yes, but I want more. I want someone whom I can cuddle with, tell my secrets to, laugh with and YES someone whom I can become serious with and learn from. But it is so hard. I am active in the Chicago scene, but most of those people That I know are either taken, or well out of my age range. I am starting to get frustrated with the scene, and half tempted to go back to being vanilla to find someone.
I am done rambling for today. Just needed to get my thoughts out there.
Best of luck to everyone.