Saiya

I just want to be cherished...

The Depth of Me 

He sees the soul inside me that no one else has seen

The pain, loneliness, anger, and all the feelings I have been

Buried deep inside me, he tries to dig it out

I fight with all my might, to keep him from getting in

He prys the door wide open, touching what’s within

Needing him to hold me, and tell me it’s alright

To cry my pain upon him, to fill my soul with light

Who is this magic man, whose sees what’s deep inside?

All the things within my heart, I’ve fought so hard to hide

He wants to heal the pain, I’ve held on to for so long

To take my cries of fear, and replace them with a song

To fill my empty nights, with love I’ve never felt

He takes my heart that’s frozen, and with his heat it melts

I want him deep inside me, deeper than anyone has ever been

To touch my soul, and melt my heart, and heal the pain I’m in

I fight to get away, and he just holds me tight

I cry and scream the pain comes out; I’ve fought a good fight

He cradles me in his arms, to comfort my inner child

Loving the little girl, that used to run so wild

He strips my soul bare, exposed before him now

To never cause my heart pain, to me this is his vow.

ok so we know that fantasies look better on paper or in our minds then in real life. that being said, here's one that's been on my mind all day. 

 im taken, slightly drugged, like an herb, restrained, and tortured, flogged, spanked, medical play with weapons of sexual persuasion (excuse the bad play on words) every part claimed, brought to the breaking point again and again, then forced pleasure and orgasms. (that cant be faked) punishment ensues. and flying apart, words or praise and encouragement whispered, "good girl, you have pleased your Master" warmth envelopes me, strong arms hold me, a thundering heartbeat music to my ears. fears faced, spirit free, control taken, the darkness takes me. i am owned.

if a Dom cant tell if you orgasm how does orgasm control work? lol

Isn't there some way a man can tell if a woman orgasms? I hate faking it, and saying i did just so they don't feel bad. Or a man who wants to be sure you got yours? i know this is probably slly to some. but what's a girl to do?

So hard to find 'the one' so how about findng someone local who could just help me find release through an old fashioned otk.  if things progress that would be nice, but at least maybe a friendship with spanking bennies. if this would interest you please let me know. we would meet publically to discuss, then would have to be done your place or hotel. my home would not be amicable as i have a teen daughter at home. so that's what i need for now, but would like ltr. eventually. thanks

Submissive,

The pain that?s deep within me is brought up to the skin.

Summoned to the surface, to whip away my sin.

I cry out in pleasure, I whimper in pain.

Walking on a thin line, crying out again.

Lashing at my soul, you bring me to the edge.

I beg and plead for you to stop, Closer to the ledge.

Wishing you to go on, the pain turned to desire.

The slightest touch I feel, setting me on fire.

My skin it burns, I fly alone, knowing that you?re there.

You catch me as I?m falling, coming back aware.

My flesh so hot, I need your touch, to feel you close to me.

The torture that I get from you, that only sets me free.

The pain inflicted, a comfort to my mind.

Your cruelty to my body, to me is only kind.

I breathe you in, a need fulfilled.

My fate is in your hands, your command is willed.

Your hands are my enemy, but also are my friend.

Only to begin again, praying for no end.

Ache 

The loneliness engulfs me, a darkness never lit.

I die everyday, just a little bit.

I yearn for arms to hold me and never let me go.

Hands to caress me, until I overflow.

A heart to love me, and not like in the past.

A love to know me truly, and love that will last.

And so I dream, until I wake.

Until it comes for me,

I ache.