Ryuki

As much as I'm wanting to...I still can't bring myself to delete this just yet. A small glimmer of hope that I may just find what I'm wanting? Who knows really. Have talked to some awesome people on here, and others who need a reality check, and some social skills lessons.

There's just too many fakes, flakes, time wasters, and those that like playing games. We're adults now, fucking act like one. These past few days have caused me to get highly irritated by the illiteracy, incompetence, games, and such. I don't like being irritated. I enjoy being positive not pissed off by stupidity.

Lately I've found myself often shaking my head in disappointment and thinking "That's the sperm that won the race?!". Some people totally lack common sense, and respect. You can have street smarts, and/or book smarts, but if you lack that common sense, you're just a dumb ass.

I have my moments, don't get me wrong, but I'm adult enough to recognize it, acknowledge it, and if need be, apologize for it.

Yet another has decided to waste my time in hopes to get me to cyber. When will these twits learn?! I try to have a small amount of hope that one day that they'll get it, but yet to see that they do.

After much thinking I've realized I identify more as a switch that's on the dominant side, than a Domme. I thoroughly enjoy being in and taking charge of almost aspects of my life. However after speaking to some wonderful people, it also made realize that I missed certain things in my past. I've almost always been in female led relationships. I've been on both sides - dominant and submissive.

But one thing that's always been a turn on as much as me taking charge over a man, is him taking the reins and directing me. Deciding where to go, what we would be doing, in and out of the bedroom. Now mind you, I will NEVER submit to just anyone. You try to force your domination on me, you'll be met with the most hard headed, stubborn "cunt" you may ever come across. But if you come at me with respect, you'll receive it along with my kind words.

I was married once, to a very prude, vanilla male once. I was miserable with our pretty much non-existent sex life. To me it's what bonds two people even closer. Yet I was always faithful to him despite being so miserable. However, I loved being a housewife. I slightly imagined it to be like the 50's, he works, comes home to a hot meal on the table, and to be pampered by the wife. But seeing as the man I married was a meek prude, that never happened for him.

I will only submit to the right person, one that I feel will be my protector, possible provider some day, one that will treat me the way a woman should be treated, like a queen and in turn I'd be treating him like a king he deserves to be.

But I also realize that I would like a continuous, reliable play toy that I can see on a regular basis till the right dom or sub comes along. One that will please me in the ways I want to be pleased, under my instructions, guidance and such. This is where my dominant side comes in. Where I will very much take control of the situation. Now mind you, I am picky. I won't sleep with just any one that messages me. Any type of relationship, may it be bf/gf, D/s, fuck buddy, friend with benefits, etc, it all takes TRUST, and RESPECT. You must have a certain amount of trust and respect in your partner. To trust they'll do everything to make you feel comfortable, and to respect your boundaries.

Starting to feel a bit lonely. Would be amazing to find that one I can connect with, spend time with all the while they know their place. Although I've been having some delightful conversations with some, no serious inquiries. I feel like I've been a bit pessimistic in my earlier posts, because they were written out of frustration from those that just saw some skin, and had hopes to scoring. Sorry, it doesn't work that way.

The more I speak with a potential sub, it occurs to me that it's more about what I will do for them and not what will they do for me. That most definitely needs to discontinue. I have taken time out of MY day, to respond to them. And either they're just blowing out hot air, or to scared to actually commit.  STOP WASTING MY TIME!

Please don't message me if you're not going to respond back. It's annoying. Can you possibly grasp how many messages us females get on just a hourly basis? More than your head can wrap around. So YES, it will take me a little time to respond to those that I have felt have intrigued me enough to respond.

It would be positively delightful if some would actually READ a profile. Would save me time and energy. I do not want someone that's out of the country, let alone out of the county. What could they possibly do for me being so far away? Do you really think that I am going to be flown or driven to such locations? Absolutely not.  I most certainly do not want someone old enough to be my father, I already have one. I have a good relationship with him, no daddy issues here. Plus I am NOT attracted to men over 40. Most just don't age well.