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That which yields is not always weak.
At this time, I'm not seeking a dominant. I'm happily collared, and both he and I have no interest in a poly situation. I'd still love to talk to anyone who's seeking friends or to just extend their lifestyle network.
I've been involved in the scene since I was 18. I spent two years in Arizona, very active in the scene there. I am now in MI. I identify as a slave, and my primary interests are in a longterm D/s relationship. NO casual sex. A 24/7 TPE relationship would work, with the right person. It may even be what I need, but finding that person who wants me for who I am, as well as what I can become, is difficult. You have to like me first, as a person...we can go from there.
I am not looking for a poly relationship, though I have been known to play in poly situations. Nor do I have any interest in submissive men who want to serve me. Though I wish you the best of luck in your search, I'm not a Domme or a switch.
I do not consider myself a heavy pain player, though I do enjoy sensation play, often to the extreme. I do have an interest in certain types of edge play, including singletail, knife, and fire. I also love energy play, and though I have no problem with any religion, I prefer people who deal with energy manipulation, including vampirism. I have a very strong connection to the wolf as a totem, and enjoy very feral play, including take downs, wrestling, claws, and teeth.
I believe that respect must be earned. Please do not expect me to call you 'master', 'lord', or anything other than (maybe) Sir. You may have been involved with the lifestyle longer than I've been alive. However, I don't know you the first time you contact me. Rest assured, once I get to know you, respect is given where it is due. If you start issuing demands off the bat, chances are you will not only be blocked, but you may be ridiculed on lj, or some other online bbs. I do take screenshots, I do not edit names to protect the guilty.
In my day to day life, I'm very aggressive. I work out three times a week, study martial arts, and like to spar on a regular basis. I'm working on a four year degree in Information Security and Intelligence.
I'm upfront, honest, and can be blunt to the point of pain. I do not play games, nor do I tolerate those who do. I'm looking for real people who are seeking an indepth friendship.
Age is of no consequence, as I feel that friendship (and more) has little to nothing to do with something like that. After all, maturity is much more important than any number. :)
If you have questions or want to talk, please drop me a note. I promise, I'm not as much of hardass as I seem. ;)
At this point in time, I am planning to relocate to be with my Master. I am quite drug/disease/alcohol free, and keep myself in good shape. I'm very physically active, so be prepared to keep up with me! No smokers, please.
SLRN 773-531-661
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Please don't send friend requests if I've never met you face to face. Thanks.
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This girl proudly bears a steel collar around her neck, and will be moving down to join her Master soon. I do not have the words to describe the joy this brings. :) |
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Quick update from my Master: If you send me a picture of your penis, you will be blocked. He does not want His girl to have to put up with such things, nor does He particularly appreciate the lack of respect it implies towards His girl.
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I'm not really sure what to put, here. People tell me I'm a pain player. I've never felt I had a particularly high pain tolerance, and I still don't. I don't enjoy pain, though the endorphins and physical reactions are something else entirerly. I will (likely) never get off from being beaten. It just doesn't turn me on.
So why do I do it? Why do I actively enjoy being whipped and flogged until I'm in tears? I've asked myself that a lot.
I think it's two main factors. The first of which being that it's the way I burn stress. Convert mental and emotional into physical, and burn it off. It's how I relax. I won't allow myself to break down. I don't know how...so someone has to push me to it. Someone I trust, in a safe way.
The second is that I honestly enjoy suffering to please someone else. Mentally, emotionally, I enjoy enduring something I don't physically enjoy, simply for the satisfaction of another who is Dominant over myself. It's a way I can prove devotion, servitude, make them proud of me. The simple words 'good girl' can firm up my resolve, and make me able to take another round of pain, make me able to continue and endure more, can motivate me to do much more than I would otherwise be capable of.
I don't think that makes me a masochist, but I think it does make me a slave.
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I've received so many helpful comments and emails! Thank you so much, everyone. The support really helps, and so does the advice.
I did want to clear one thing up, though, since I've received a few questions. I'm still collared. I've no plans to ask for release. My Master and I will do our best to work through this rough spot, as we have through others. He's not putting any pressure on me to change my decision, though he's disappointed in the fact I won't be relocating to him.
Things are still very much up in the air right now, but neither of us are willing to give up on the relationship. We've been through rough spots before, and come out the other side stronger for it. All relationships are work, and sometimes D/s ones are more work than a 'normal' one. If you want easy, you're in the wrong lifestyle. ;) Along the same lines, though...things that take more work are often more rewarding in the end.
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I'm finding myself a bit depressed and discouraged. This man and I are a wonderful match. We have great physical chemistry. I recently decided to pursue a bachelor degree that would give me a thousand more job options, not to mention a much better career potential, than just a CJ degree. This means I'll be where I am for another four years, likely. I have a wonderful job, and the college is the only one in the country to offer this degree.
The problem? I was planning on relocating soon. Around a year. Now that I can't do that, I'm left wondering what's going to happen with us. I feel like a bit of a failure, that I can't wait four years for him...but even at the four year mark, I don't know where I'll be able to get a job. There are no jobs down by him. I'll likely have to go at least near a population center.
He won't even talk to me about the possibility of him relocating, and gets angry when I bring up the fact that I don't want to be strung along. It'll break my heart, but I need to know if my choice to pursue this career means that he doesn't want me...or maybe that I can't be his. I feel...depressed, and discouraged. :(
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I know that my profile says 'submissive'. That's because I still am having issues with the whole 'slave' thing. I mean, for this man, I am...but I don't know if I could be for anyone else, if that makes sense. Just felt like tossing this out there. :)
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I have no idea why folks find it acceptable to have affairs, or cheat on their spouses. Both my owner and I hold honor to be one of the most important things. It's right up there with honesty in your relationship. Matter of fact, the one thing I am never, ever to do is lie to Him. I wouldn't dream of it. The people out there who lie to their SOs as a matter of course just...make me sad. And confused.
Dishonesty dishonors you. Honor is important. Don't sacrifice yours.
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Back from my vacation, more or less. Still incredibly busy this month between work and volunteer work. Yay haunted houses! So, there will still be delays in email replies. I promise I'll get to them eventually, though. :)
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So, I'm taking a bit of a break. Vacation time. Feel free to send me mail, it may be a week or so before you get a reply, though. :)
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If you send me one line, and it has the word 'slut', 'whore', or any other sort of derogatory term, expect to be blocked. If you can't take the time to type a coherent paragraph with at least an attempt at grammer and punctuation/spelling, expect to be ignored.
Please read the profile, and the interests. I'm not going to answer a million things that I've already listed and addressed. It's a waste of both my time and yours. The profile is there for a reason, and I put a lot of thought into it.
Basic etiquette and common sense will save us both a lot of grief. :)
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I've indicated that I'm only looking for friends. I have an interest in a long time friend, and our relationship has been changing quite a bit over the course of the last six months or so. He's got my attention to a severe degree, at the moment. So, I'm not entertaining interest from other Dominants in any capacity other than friends, at the moment. Thanks for your time and consideration, and I'm always happy to make new friends and contacts in the lifestyle. :)
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So, I feel the need to journal once again, now that I've updated my profile. I'm a submissive...but only to a select few. In my experience, there is something in some people that calls to me...not a trait I can define, or put a word to. It's instinct, more than anything. I can't tell you why, out of a group of lifestylers, two dominants will stand out to me, and the rest fall to the wayside. There seems to be some intangable quality...self confidence and self knowledge, perhaps, combined with that 'other' that makes someone trip that switch in my head. For those who hit that switch, I'm loyal to the point of fault, incredibly eager to please, and willing to sacrifice almost anything. For the rest, I am respectful, but almost never more than politely submissive. I never can truly relax.
Maybe there are some of you out there that understand what I'm trying to say. Especially as I'm not sure if I'm making any sort of sense when I try to explain it. ;)
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So, an example of everything bad on the internet/collarme! Here you go, screenshots. Names not edited, screw the guilty.
Ok, so I can't post the link. But, I do have screenshots, if any of you out there are curious!
Please, ask. I'd love to share it.
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It has come to my attention that I need to redo my profile, as quite a bit about me has changed since I originally posted it. I assure you, I will be getting around to this eventually. :)
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I thought perhaps I should start using my journal. First off, this likely will not be something I use often. I've got a livejournal for that. ;) Second off, a note for those who contact me. Please, no one line comments/questions. I like to know a bit about whom I'm talking with. Also, if your profile consists of one or two lines, I likely will not give any serious consideration. In all fairness, I put a lot of time and thought into mine...I like to know that the person I'm talking with is serious enough to have done the same. Till next time, take care.
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