RoxMyBox

Several people have inquired as to how I have been doing as of late. 

I have had good and bad. The bad is pretty fucking bad but the silver lining is I am now happily dating someone regularly who I am absolutely fucking smitten with. We are taking our new relationship slow and I have no idea how it will pan out in terms of the D/s, as its a completely new world for him. So I am still lacking satisfaction in my personal s-type D/s dynamic needs, but I hope that will improve with time. 

I'm still not looking for submissives, I'm sorry. Until I get to a place where my own s-type needs are sufficiently met and I'm happy, I just don't have much interest in my D-type side. But I am flattered by all of the interest in me nevertheless. 

Be well kinksters and perverts, all. 

To all of the people who have reached out to me (most who I have never spoken to before) after reading my last journal entry and have asked how I am, if I needed someone to listen or to just give me a few words of kindness, I just wanted to say thank you.

I haven't been able to message or respond to everyone individually, but if this entry pertains to you, consider this as my official acknowledgement that your words and thoughts have been appreciated.

Breakups are never easy. They are even harder when D/s has been involved and when that type of dynamic tends to intensify emotions.

I realize I am here as a Dominant female. And yes, while I am VERY confident in my kink role as a very Dominant-leaning switch/ruthless Humiliatrix and Sadist, I am still HUMAN. And to hurt, to feel, to cry, to grieve something that was special and is now lost, these are all part of the human condition, regardless of what your kink role is. I am sure there are some Dommes/Doms who would argue that We should never let "them" (as in s-types) see us "weak" or vulnerable in any way, as doing so might kill the "fantasy" of what we present ourselves to be to the kink world. Or that it may be perceived as being a kink character flaw, if you will, to be that transparent with our emotions so openly.

However, it takes strength, not weakness, to express that kind of vulnerability with authenticity and transparency. It is those who are forever shielding their feelings from the world who are weak, not the other way around.

So with that having been said, in short, I miss Him. Even though I was the one to finally pull the cord and decide that because of our never ending conflict and dysfunction, we not see or talk to each other anymore, it does not make the loss of Him/us any easier. Even in its dysfunction, it was so incredibly special what we had. My heart is shattered in a million pieces. I cry almost daily. I have driven past his house and can't do so without starting to weep. I have removed all of the videos and photos and any traces of him from my computer because the images that used to make my pussy drip now break my heart and make me cry knowing what I won't have anymore.

I mourn the loss of him and can't stop thinking about feeling his weight on me, his cock in my ass, his breath in my ear, his teeth as he bared down hard into my shoulder biting me, the sound of his voice as he whispered Arabic in my ear and called me his habibti and how beautiful I was to him. The way I felt high and drunk and flying when he was inside of me. The intense feeling of joy I had in my heart when I made him cum over and over and over until he was just drained. To see the look in his eyes that told me most certainly that I was the only one who made him feel that way. I fear I will never have this again with another soul and it makes me unbelievably sad. It was that fulfillment of my own personal sub-type qualities with Him that enabled me and drove me to seek out fulfillment of all my wonderfully awful Dominant qualities. But now, without the former, I feel an emptiness that no amount of sadism will cure. I don't mean to be melodramatic, but anyone who has loved and lost knows how deep this grief goes and how much it impacts you.

I have tried to carry on with my life and not let myself withdraw. I have a support system of a husband and wonderful friends who all love me and encourage me every day that it will get easier. I have been dating, I have been fucking. I have been enjoying the benefits that come with being a pretty smoking hot babe. I have been doing only the very smallest of Topping because my heart is just not in it.

So with that being said, I'm not going to be actively really pursuing any submissives or play opportunities with subs for the unforeseeable future. And I'm using more vanilla types of means to seek out that Dominant partner who can be the kink Clyde to my Bonnie. The Henry Miller to my Anais Nin.

I will keep popping on here now and then but I'm merely only going to be poking around. I may or may not even read every message that I receive, but do know that any kind and thoughtful message IS appreciated, even if it is not responded to.

Be well, kinksters and perverts. Live hard. Love hard. Play hard.

--RMB

I am going through an incredibly difficult time emotionally right now. I am not sure what to do, how to proceed and highly contemplating just going dark and inactive altogether. I feel like I am going to throw up, my heart hurts and I'm emotionally confused. 

I am treading very carefully. I want to make sure whatever I do, I do for the right reasons and not for the wrong ones. I don't want to emotionally hurt myself anymore than necessary by acting impulsively. 

I am highly leaning towards not playing at all for awhile, or at the very least, not playing with anyone that I don't already have an established play partnership with (either as a Top or Bottom). What I need right now is emotional security and playing with strangers to fill the void of what is missing in my heart is not healthy for anyone. 

I totally despise the terms "cougar" and "MILF" in reference to me. Using it towards me will unleash the wrath of Rox bigger than anything. Why? Because for one, I'm not a mother. Can't be a "mother I'd like to fuck" when I am not a mother. Secondly, unless you are at the very least 15 years my junior, there is not a big enough age difference for me to BE your "mother'' TO "fuck". Don't call me a "MILF" unless you're young enough to have been pushed out of my own vagina. 

In regards to "cougar", by definition (depending on which one you refer to from Urban Dictionary) is a woman aged 35+ (although, most would agree that you don't hit "cougar" age until you're mid 40's+) who goes out seeking casual sexual relations with much younger men. If anything, I would be considered the age range of a "Puma". However, in order to BE a "cougar", or a "puma", I'd have to be someone who engages in those things. I don't fuck boys. I fuck men. I have no interest in screwing around with someone in their mid-20's. And I certainly don't go out to clubs and bars "prowling" for much younger men either. 

So don't fucking call me a puma, a cougar, a milf or whatever related term you feel like using. 

Dearest subbies, 

I am not considering any new subs/slaves at this time. I have too much on my plate as it is and not enough time to go around. If we have communicated already at some point and I've expressed interest in you, I will keep you in mind. Currently, I am already well served with what I have going on right now, I just do not have the time to entertain the thought of meeting more new people with the expectation of play. I am already having a difficult enough time finding windows of opportunity to have fun with the friends, play partners, husband, boyfriend/Dom, and subs I know now already. 

I am still fairly active within the community (not as much lately, as I have scaled back and become more reclusive due to personal reasons) so if you see me at something and want to introduce yourself, please do. I welcome all opportunity to shake hands with people when I meet them socially. 

Best wishes to you all. 

With much trepidation, I am now going to start taking messages from Male Dominants. I am in an evolutionary part of my life and realizing potentially what I might be missing if I keep the door closed and locked.

If you are a Male Dominant and you are reading this, welcome and thanks for joining me. Most of what I stated in my main profile about the types of men I am looking for are universal regardless of your kink identification of a D-type or an s-type, however, some points are so important to me, that it bears repeating.

I will not engage with anyone who is cheating on their spouse. No, not even "don't ask don't tell" situations. Of course you could always take off your wedding ring and lie to me and hope I never find out. But I would hope people are generally more honest than to purposefully deceive someone just for a piece of ass. Just don't lie to me. Don't. I will have more respect for your upfront honesty about your situation so I am able to make an informed decision about whether or not to get involved with you. If you don't tell me, then you are removing my ability to consent to whether or not I want to act as accomplice to your extramarital secret activities. And consent violations are not something I take lightly. So don't be married and cheating or any variation thereof. Married men are fine, if its open and I can verify that your spouse knows and consents.

I expect my Dominant partners to have at the very least the same amount of experience and skill sets as a Dominant as I do (preferably more, but equal will do). As my profile indicates, I am a Dominant leaning switch and by extension, I have a lot of experience Topping others in a variety of ways. In short, I am not looking for beginners, newbs or those looking to make me into their practice doll. I don't expect someone to have extensive expertise in everything kink has to offer, but if I can Top someone better than you can, that does not bode well for us. I will smell your weakness from a mile away. I am a whole lot of woman, so you better be able to bring it, confidently and proficiently. If your name happens to be James Deen, call me any time.

I am NOT a masochist. Let me repeat that. I am NOT a masochist. I do not "get off" on pain. It does not make my pussy wet. A whip to my back will not make me cum. So if you're looking for a pain slut or someone who won't have any pain limits, keep moving. I have a low pain tolerance and only enjoy just the right amount of "ouchy" to get an endorphin flow going, but no more than that. I very rarely have my pain tolerance pushed to the extreme and when it has been, the end goal is to have some sort of cathartic release of whatever has been bottled up inside of me, not to orgasm.

I have a very limited tolerance to stingy. Thuddy of most kinds is always encouraged. Rough manhandling, takedowns, being tossed around, carried and thrown down and violent and savagely taken will make me wet faster than anything. I do love the slow burn of a long build up and sensual Domination. But aggressive and rough sex is where it is at for me. I like my Dominant men to be strong, confident (but humble and not cocky), abundantly more Alpha than I, and secure in who they are. No, I'm not going to let you violently play with me right away. Those things take trust and time. If you don't understand the necessity for such, then you probably have no business trying to Top or Dominate anyone.

My s-type play is very much sexual. 90% of the time, I will want to get off and to get off intensely, frequently and as if I'm having a spiritual experience. If I am in a deeply commited D/s involvement with you, seeing your pleasure from my body really is sufficient a lot of the time. To a point. But I do expect reciprocity, sexual generosity and some display of sexual selflessness from time to time. If you're only attending to your sexual fantasies and pleasures all the time and none of mine, we will not last very long. Dominant does not mean "Sexual Narcissist". See this body here? You better be able to touch it better than I can do it myself. Otherwise I will just do it myself. And you won't be around for it.

I am not a slave. Unless I am so over the moon about you and I naturally just want to do things for you, as an act of service, to make you happy, you're a grown man, go to the frig and get your own beer. When my service oriented submission urge kicks in, you'll know it. I have hard limits which should be respected and acknowledged always. They are there for a reason and they are not pushed for a reason. I know myself and my kink well enough to know what you can push and what you can't. I've known me much longer than you have.

I have a husband. If you are involved with me in much capacity, you will meet him, you will likely see him around at things and he will absolutely know who you are. He has to like who you are, respect who are you. If you are going to put your dick in me with any regularity, you are damn sure he will know who you are. If you can't handle the idea of that, then move on. I'm not about to make anyone into my secret lover/Dominant.

If you have other committed partners already, that's fine as long as they also know who I am, like who I am, and consent to me being around. I would prefer that they possess a polyamorous mentality, but as long as they don't object or interfere in my time with you, I'm good with that. The model of polyamory I subscribe to is "equal but different". The idea of a hierarchy, of a "primary", "secondary", "tertiary", makes me feel icky because it alludes to one person being lesser than an other. Which I don't feel is a positive healthy model to build any relationship on.

I have very specific sexual kinks and I am looking for people who either share these kinks or who are at the very least secure in themselves enough to endulge their partner in those things, even if its not their favorite. I love to be objectified, loaned out, used by other people, and subjected to all sorts of whoredom. I will never be your one and only. If you expect that yours will be the only Dom cock I will want in me, you are in for a shocking surprise. If you enjoy whoring your girl out, enjoy seeing her be enjoyed with others and constructing opportunities for this to happen, then we are on the right track.

I am NOT a "submissive", at least not in the traditional sense. For Dominant partners for a D/s relationship, I am looking for the emotional connection, devotion, bond, chemistry and commitment that comes from a Dominant/submissive dynamic but one on a physical level that functions 80% of the time as a Top/bottom relationship. Most hints of 24/7 type of interactions don't work for me. I'm not going to give you my passwords to my accounts, I am not going to abide by a curfew, I am not going to let you tell me who I am allowed to talk to, I am not going to have you order for me at restaurants all the time or control my comings and goings, what I say, what I eat and what I wear outside of a "play" or clearly defined fantasy enactment situation. The D/s is limited to mostly a sexual capacity, with hints of someone who acts as Protector and Defender in a D-type way. I need to maintain my sense of autonomy, independence and that I have the ability to make my own choices, sometimes with guidance and suggestion, but sometimes not. I am not looking for a collar, per se, as much as I would like to have a collar but with a very very long leash on it.

I highly prefer my Dominant partners to be around my age. If younger, no more than 5 or so years younger and no more than about 10-15 years older. I am not wanting someone old enough to be my father or young enough to be my kid.

I enjoy all ethnic backgrounds of men. "Hot" is universal. If you're hot, if you're attractive, if you have a nice body and a handsome face, I don't care what your ethnic background is. I tend to be drawn towards dark hair, dark features and have a strong leaning towards black men or biracial men. I am not a fan of genital piercings or a lot of excessive body modifications. I do love tattoos though. If they are artistic, beautiful and well done, a gorgeous man with beautiful strong arms and a full sleeve of tattoos will get my attention. But no tattoos are ok as well (I don't have any).

If you are romantic, a gentleman in the streets but a rapist in the sheets, will open a door for me as easily as you can slam me up against one, if you passionate without being emotionally volatile, if you are willing to feel and demonstrate vulnerability as much as you can exhibit strength and dominance, then send me a message. 

CHALLENGE TO ALL MALE DOMINANTS FROM THE STATE OF WASHINGTON:

I don't normally advise people to repost private messages publicly from other users. And even though I have gotten quite a bit of extreme doozies that I have shared privately to my friends (because they think honestly that I make some of this stuff up), this one just takes the cake.

Male Dominants from far and wide, and especially those residing in the state of Washington. This user from Washington state, whose profile states that he is a "Dominant", sent me a completely unsolicited message recently and then when I basically bitch slapped him, he threw a temper tantrum like a 5 year old when a pretty lady wouldn't agree to basically send him her used undergarments and for no gratification in it for herself.

This is who you have to represent you, guys. If this is the caliber of "Dominants" residing in your state, I will never ever visit there for kink activities. Maybe he thinks that telling some girl to suck his dick on Second Life is what it means to be "Dominant" (and by "girl", I mean, another dude who looks and smells just like him).

(misspelled words were all his, not typos on my end)

From:        
(user name withheld)

Dated: 
4/22/13 10:26 AM    

well may i ask if you would have a old used bra that you may not wante or need aney more,? i am asking so that i could have some of you here with me and so that i could wear it for you on cam whin or if you would like to use me on cam as your play toy for your self, please im asking, haveing a bra and pr of panties is the next best thing to haveing the female here with me.


RoxMyBox on 4/22/13 at 5:36 PM:
   

For someone that claims to be a "Dominant", you sure do sound like a whiny needy little bitch.
And the answer is no. Do you actually expect someone to say yes? What the fuck do I gain from it? If it doesn't make my pussy wet or it doesn't put money in my bank account, I have no interest or time. '
Go to the thrift store and buy a used bra and pretend its me, fuckwad.

From:        
(user name withheld)

Dated: 
4/22/13 10:49 PM    

WELL YOU KNOW WHAT YOU WORTHLESS FUCK SHIT GO FUCK YOUR SELF WITH A DOG THATS ALL YOU AR WORTH ANEY WAY AND HAVE THE DOG FUCK YOU AT THE SAME TIME YOU WORTHLESS FUCK MEAT AND YOU ARE THE WHINY NEEDY SNACH NOT ME AND YOU ARE THE BITCH SLUT YOU ARE THE ONE SHOWING WHAT YOU HAVE NOT ME YOU WORTHLESS LIL SLUTY CUNT

(and then he blocked ME so he could get the last word like a child he is before I could respond back)

DOMINANTS FROM WASHINGTON STATE HERE IS YOUR CHALLENGE:

I am looking for the fucking hottest, buffest, biggest dicked, fucking Tom of Finland Alpha "pin me down and fuck me like a goddamn MAN" Dominant to restore my faith in the beauty and strength of male dominants in your state because this is a pretty pathetic representation.

Send me a message and attach a photo of yourself to show me that there are actually male "Dominants" in Washington who are actually DOMINANT, good looking, fit and have their shit together and are a fucking MAN for crying out loud and not a whiny bitchy baby who gets upset because a pretty lady won't send him her used undergarments AND entertain his pathetic ass on cam. Whomever can send me the best photo, I swear to god, I will send you the fucking hottest photo of my pussy and asshole getting stuffed that will get your dick harder than a, than a...well I don't know. You know what I mean. And yes, it will absolutely be my photo. BUT it WILL be watermarked AND websized. I don't trust you dudes at all to not repost it and then I find it 6 months from now on Reddit. I have no problem getting hot dick to feast my eyes upon, I certainly don't need to do something like this to obtain images to fap to of gorgeous manly man cock.

RULES FOR QUALIFICATION:

You must be listed as from the state of Washington, as the whole point of this exercise is to restore my faith in the quality of available Dominants in that state due to the pathetic poor representation I received in this message.

You must prove the photos IS OF YOU. Your photo needs to have you holding up something that has your user name on it. If it doesn't, its disqualified. I know you shady motherfuckers. You will just steal images of hot dudes online and claim them as you. I need to be sure its you.

DEADLINE FOR THIS IS MIDNIGHT APRIL 30th. I will choose a "winner" then, post their name in my journal and send the winner their photo of me.

COME ON DOMS! DON'T LET ME DOWN!!!

Guys, stop sending me chat requests. I don't use chat and I have no interest in doing so.

No, I will not add you to my "circle of friends". Unless you happen to also know a LOT of people personally that I also know or I actually have already met you in person. I'm not here to collect a bunch of random "friends" that I'm never going to talk to, never going to meet and never going to play with. Seriously, this isn't Myspace. I'm actually here for a reason, not to play friend collector.

When you say "I'm looking to be a live in slave and will relocate to you" what that says to me:

I am baffled at the amount of messages that inquire about seeing if I am looking for a live in slave and even go so far as to say they would relocate to me. Well, that's flattering and all that that you think I am such a Goddess befitting to move hundreds of miles for. But that's unrealistic. Anyone who is willing to pack their U-Haul and their life (be them a kinky person, vanilla or otherwise) to move potentially hundreds of miles for someone they barely know or don't know at all, says to me the following things:

1. You are looking for someone to live with for free room and board and saying you're a "live in slave" gives you the in to be able to be fed, have a roof over your head, and no responsibilities. But I, your "owner" am the one actually going to work every day, paying the mortgage, the utilities and so forth while you, my "property" can indulge in your little fantasy of being kept bound and caged all day (as in, getting to lay around and do almost nothing). Seems like the "slave" in this situation would be ME, not you, as I would have basically a parasitic entity and pain in the ass I'd have to see every day and have one more mouth to feed and take care of. While you, get off virtually scott free, except for maybe being responsible for doing house chores, running errands and small tasks and so forth but not have to contribute financially in any way. If I wanted someone to act as my personal assistant, I'd hire one and could send them on their way, to their OWN home when they are done with work. If I wanted a cleaning service, I would hire one and for probably for a lot less money than it would cost to take in a "live in slave" that I have to daily take care of and feed. Yah, no thanks. Unless you happen to be independently wealthy and a millionaire, can pay off my house, give me and my husband about 100K a year so we don't have to work for our living, by all means, I have a little spot in the basement saved just for you. Granted, you pay to have it remodeled into a dungeon space, of course. Being a "live in slave" for someone is not an opportunity to just be a freeloader and leech off of someone who worked for what they have.

2. You are extremely unhappy in your current position in life and are looking for an opportunity to run away from it and start new as someones "live in slave". This shouldn't need much more to be said, as its pretty obvious why I wouldn't want to take in someone whose motives are as such. It is highly disconcerting to me when I get messages as such: "I'm looking to be taken and made into a full time live in slave. I am married and yes i have kids. But i have a need to be a slave more than i have love for my family. I want to drop off the earth and never be found by anyone i know ever again." Wow.Dude, you don't need a Mistress, you need professional psychiatric help. If you are so miserable in your life and feel like running away from it, it is highly unfair, emotionally selfish and a pretty shitty motive to look for some Mistress/Master to use and take advantage of just because you don't want to handle your own shit. I don't want to take in someone with these types of issues. I have enough of my own to deal with, thank you.

I could go into other things, but you get the point. Now I know I am generalizing here and I am quite sure there are slaves and submissives where these are not the truth for them. But from MY experience, a persons true motives for seeking this out is NOT service oriented. Their real ulterior motives aren't kink related at all; they are just looking for a free lunch and its transparent as fuck when I see it. This goes for a lot of the female slaves I see on here as well (some of which have contacted me). No dear, you're just a poor girl who is broke, has no marketable skills to get a job and are looking for me to take you in, feed you and take care of you. This is basically financial domination in reverse; a topping from the bottom if you will. If I wanted to have a child, I would pop one out of my vagina. I don't need a fetish site to find a child to take in and care for. Shit, I could become a foster parent to a child in need and accomplish the same thing. I don't need some barely legal "slave" who will sit on the couch all day smoking pot and playing Words With Friends on Facebook. No thanks.

You want to be my "live in slave". Well, here's how its going to be: you're going to get a real 40 hour a week J-O-B and you're going to have to financially contribute to this household, just like I do, just like my husband does. You want discipline, guidance and a Dominant female to look after you? Well your first assignment is to show to me that you are a grown ADULT who can handle their own shit independently without needing to rely on others to leech off of. The title of "slave" doesn't get you out of that. If you're living in my HOME, you are a member of my HOUSEHOLD and are expected to contribute as such.

OMG, this has gotten me so aggravated. The end. 

Ok, so this was really not what I was on here to look for but what the hell. I am looking for a sub female that my Sir and I can both enjoy in a NSA arrangement. You would be submissive to myself and to Him and we would both be submissive to Him. I am looking here instead of since we are both pretty involved in the local kink community, which is incredibly incestuous, and we would prefer to find someone who is not super involved in the community as we would like to keep our play activities to ourselves and not have everybody know everything we do.

If you're a Dom and you want to loan your sub out to us to play, please let me know. Either you can loan her out to be used no strings attached or we can discuss possibility of a sub swap; your sub for our use and me for you and your subs use in exchange.

We are looking for someone ideally 25-40, but age is irrelevant if you are all that and a bag of chips. Older is fine if you are hot, have taken care of yourself and have a nice body. Younger might be ok, but I would prefer to not play with someone young enough to be my kid. We do NOT want to play with ANYBODY who is married and cheating around. We don't want to have anything to do with that noise. So if that pertains to you, please do not contact me for this.

Requirements: you must be willing to have anal sex, and preferably the more experienced you are with anal, the better. This is not negotiable. You must have a shapely (NOT FAT) figure and a really great ass. No flat asses allowed. Apple bottoms, bubble butts and round shapely behinds only. You must also be willing to perform oral sex on him AND I. No "bi curious" chicks who will only play with other women "above the belt". You don't have to be highly experienced with other women, but you MUST be willing to go there. You must be willing to have photos and video taken. Sir loves loves loves his photos and video as his "souvenirs". You can have copy if you want it. Nothing will be posted online without your consent. But if you are at least ok with things being posted as long as your face isn't in it, that would be ideal. You must be ok with very rough sex, being tossed around, slapped around, etc.

It would be a PLUS if you are: a pain slut/masochist and like moderate to heavy corporal, willing to do ATOGM (Ass to other girls mouth)--specifically his cock from my ass to your mouth (don't worry, I keep my back end tidy when I play), into piss play of all sorts, bukkake, cum swapping and are just a filthy dirty girl in general.

Wow, what a really fun past few days. Awesome sexy time with one of my new girlfriends Friday, super fun kinky private party last night. Got the hell fucked out of me by a friend to the point I thought he was trying to kill me from orgasm overload and I had a super fun time being mean to people with my evil magnets and rubber paddles. And bare handed spankings too. If it tells you anything I slept in until 3:00 this afternoon. I am knackered.

Well, interest in me for Pro sessions has definately been picking up. And while I'm not here to scout for people to do professional sessions with (and trust me, I have enough interest coming in from elsewhere I don't need to rely on CM as a source of advertisement for myself). I mention this, because besides needing time in the week for: my husband, my Sir, my friends, my job (yes, I actually do work), and the play partners I currently already have, most of my free time beyond that (which is little) I am going to be prioritizing to allow that time to take session work.

So my free time is limited. I have a lot more priorities in my life right now than I have time. While I am not opposed to considering new people, I already have a short list of people I haven't even gotten a chance to meet or play with as is without adding to the list. If you are an exceptional match for me and literally knock my socks off, send me a message if you think you have "it". But honestly, for most, I just these days do not have the time to consider any new people.

Guess its come down to this. I'm keeping my profile images scarce as it seems too many are just scanning photos of the pretty lady and sending me messages without reading my profile. What confidence would I have in someone's ability to take directions, follow instructions, be observant of the things that make me happy, and serve me when it becomes obvious you can't even do something as simple as to read a profile. I realize you are simple minded creatures but if you actually are serious in finding a real person to get involved with and use you, at the very least take 5 minutes to read a profile to make sure you're even what they are looking for.

If all you are looking to do is clean my house, provide NSA housework, non-sexual types of service, please consider the following before contacting me:

1. I have a husband who is pretty good at doing the laundry and dishes so I don't have to. You will have to bring something more to the table than that. You'd really just be alleviating something from his routine, not mine as I typically get out of doing some of the housework here.

2. You will still have to be nice to look at and a decent person.

3. The most important thing: I don't just invite any ol' random stranger to my private residence to be around me and my things. I value my safety, my privacy, my spouse, my animals and my things more than I desire to get out of housework. You will be expected to serve me as my service slave at least a few times as I Dominate someone else in a public dungeon setting and need to carry my bags, keep my stuff organized, fetch me things, clean up after I'm done, and basically be my go-fer. You will be my table if I need a table, you will be my lube holder if I need a lube holder. You will serve me in anyway I need you to for the evening. You'll pay for your own guest pass/membership/entrance fee to where ever I need you to be; I will not pay to guest you in myself. This is an honor to be given this opportunity. And the reward of getting to come to my home is not guaranteed as it boils down to how much you impress me and how well you serve me in public play spaces first. If you are unable to earn your stripes, then move on. These are my terms.

I am now considering selling off some of my worn sexy things. And no, this is not an offer of me to sell you my used/soiled panties/socks/etc. This is legitimately for CD/TS ladies who want to buy some of my gently worn old modeling/stripper clothes and a bit of accessories so they can add to their own collection and wear them. I am selling a bunch of it as a LOT, not individual pieces. You take it all or you take none of it. The intent is to pass it along to another lady who will wear these items and get as much enjoyment out of them as I have. But if someone wants to buy them for their girlfriend/sub or just to jack off on, I could care less who gets them as long as I get something for them. 

Most of these items I had when I was in better shape/thinner and before my implants. Many of these items I had custom sew for me, they were not off the rack from a store. And many of them cost me quite a bit of money when I bought them. All of these would fit someone around a size 6-8, and no bigger than a B cup (maybe a C if you had a REALLY tiny band size). Some of the things have stretch or have a free measurement in the hips to accomodate you if you are a little bigger.

No, I don't have a crap load of photos to forward to you, but trust me, its not shit stuff. Most of it is quality stripper wear. I traveled all over for 7 years as a traveling dancer.

I'm only taking payment for them via a eBay gift card; no Paypal, no money in the mail, etc. I'm selling stuff off so that I can buy some things more to my current size and style.

I also have a lot of 5 different hot hair styling tools (curling irons, wavers) to whomever wants to buy them.

The clothes and the hair styling items are going to be sold to whomever gives me the best offer. I do have a minimum I am willing to accept, so inquire for details.

Dearest subbie perverts from far and wide,

While I am here as a lifestyler and NOT as a Pro-Domme (even though I DO do Pro work, both live sessions and phone), I am going to have to put my foot down on your nuts, so to speak.

While I love the adoration, compliments, offers for companionship and service, I am not here for recreational "cyber" activity nor am I going to consider someone who lives hundreds of miles of way, sometimes not even in my country.

I am getting WAY too many messages in my bulk folder and I'm sorry loves, I have not the time or inclination to respond to the hundreds that keep coming in. Its getting out of control and I would love to give you all the attention that you want but I can not as I have other priorities such as a husband, a Sir, a submissive, a job, friends and home obligations.

Therefore, while I have not wanted to do this, if you are not in my area if you really want to engage me in conversation, my time for such is going to have to be compensated for it, otherwise there is no benefit or motivation to give you that attention when you live hundreds of miles away. If you wish to speak to me on the phone, I can direct you to my Niteflirt listing and we can take a conversation there. If you are interested in that, specify as such in your message and I'll give you the details, but I'm not here to advertise it.

Last week was so awesome in so many ways. This week has not shown to be a great one so far. Looking forward to showing off some new arm candy at an event this weekend.

I really need to be mean to someone right now. I need to degrade, humiliate, hurt and control someone. I am really feeling like being a supreme-o bitch right now. I need that power exchange in my life right now. I need a vehicle for it. Saturday is not going to come soon enough.

UPDATE 1/24/2013: Aside from also continuing to look for sub/slave males for a potential long term D/s relationship with, I am now looking specifically for Black slave/sub males for various types of Civil War era Female plantation owner/black slave race roleplay (complete with costuming). There may be a black male Dominant participating on occasion (that will involve me submitting to him, but also me switching and me Dominating you), and while I might want to encorporate some cuckold type elements, it will NOT involve sexual interaction/forced bi play with him in any way. Scenes may be indoors or outdoors in remote locations once weather gets warmer.

This is very radical controversial types of race play which might be off putting for some people. So you can not be offended or triggered with frequent and free use of racial epithets by any party involved (myself included). If you take objection to this type of play, then you can kindly choose to not participate and keep your judgement to yourself. I am not a racist in any way, (which should be pretty fucking obvious since my own Sir is half black), I am just looking for likeminded people who enjoy pushing taboos with roleplay and get off on it as I do.

You must be: mid 20's-late 30's, fit, attractive, hung, articulate, be a masochist, into bondage, fear play, and degradation. If you are a pussy with pain or not into pain, this will not work. You need to be into moderate-severe types of impact play/rough body play/electro-play/sensory deprivation. I am NOT looking for service subs for this, however, if you ARE also into service style submission, it does open up for more options of scenarios. Same rules apply for other things I am NOT into (see my profile), such as I am NOT interested if you are cheating on your spouse or partner. Married folk are FINE, but your spouse better be full knowing and consenting of your activities (and yes I will check).

Ideally I would like to either photograph or videotape things from time to time for my own personal use or to put up online. You will always receive copy and if you need to have your identity concealed, you can opt to wear a hood or I will gladly edit out your face (either via digital manipulation or cropping) in all publicly posted images.

If its a good fit overall, there is opportunity for more frequent and varied types of service for a long term D/s partnership.

Where oh where are the beautiful sub girls, where oh where can they be?

Water water everywhere but ne'er a drop to drink....

Would love to find a beautiful sub/slave female to have as my own pet. Preferably someone who is new that I am able to train, mold and teach and not active socially in the community yet. I want to be her world, her Goddess Teacher, her protector and her guide.

I have a beautiful sub that I very seldomly get to play with because she is always away for work. I would like to find someone who can accompany me to things and play regularly and perhaps build a relationship with.

No, I am not looking to set you up with my husband or my Sir or bait and switch you into a threesome. Unless your limits specify you are open to being used and given away to males at my discretion or you verbalize specific interest in one or both of my partners, you are all mine. Mine mine mine.

I am attracted to girly girls. Tomboys and plain Janes need not apply unless I can see a diamond in the rough there and the potential to polish you up. I am curvy myself so frail thin petite girls are not a great match for me. I am attracted to females with similar physiques to mine or fit/athletic builds.

I am definately an ass fetishist so you must have a nice round ass for me to spank and play with. I want someone experienced in anal play or who has an openness to be anally trained is a requirement of being my pet. If you are fairly unexperienced at sexually pleasing another woman, that is ok as long as there is a genuine interest in learning and a true sexual desire from you to do it.

I am very very good at Topping/Dominating women and it brings me a great pleasure to do so.

1/7/2013: I currently have about a half dozen potential subs that I am considering. If you are one of them, you should know this by now as my continued correspondance with you should indicate as such.

I am not going to be considering anymore at this time, until I have ample opportunity to see if any of these potentials pan out to be a good match. Unless you are an EXCEPTIONAL match for me and more than above average in physique, looks, social stature, employment and overall are the "total package", I am not likely going to entertaining the possibility of adding any more potential matches to my queue for the time being.