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| Warning: This a 1300 word rambling and not quite coherent manifesto that might actually tell you a little bit about myself. More than likely you’ll get a few words into it and get distracted by some pretty pictures elsewhere on . I don’t blame you if you don’t read the entire thing, but at least link me to those pretty pictures that you left this profile to go perv on. Without further delay…
Normally it takes me 4 or 5 years to update my profile, but big changes have happened recently that do require a profile update. So what are these big changes that I’m referring to? In Jan 2011 Asyrol and I decided to split after being together for 8 years, and being married for nearly 3. The short version is that we grew apart due to a few reasons and the passion had died. The breakup was very clean, no messy fighting to deal with and we know we’ll remain friends.
So where does that leave me? Right now I’m just adjusting to life being single. 2003 was the last time I was single. It was the era before smart phones and netbooks and get this the Toronto Maple Leafs actually made the playoffs. It’s hard to imagine that eh? I’ll have to figure out the whole ‘dating scene’ again. You see the last time I needed to troll for a date I used ICQ. Many of you are probably wondering what ICQ is/was but that’s not important. My point is I’m clueless at this dating thing and I’m sure there will be some laughs to be had at my expense soon. But seriously I’m not in a giant rush to get hooked up again, but at the same time I’m not going to shy away from the opportunities. If someone comes along that fits then I hope it works out, if no one comes along than I’m content to be single for a while. No rush, no pressure, no period of self exile required. Lets just see where life takes me in this .
If you’ve made it through my ramblings this far, you probably need a new hobby. Hobbies? Let me tell you about mine. I love riding my bikes, that’s bicycles with the pedals, and legs. Don't confuse them for Motorcycles. If I wanted to be lazy I'd sit at home. Some years I ride more than others, in 2005 [I rode across Canada on my bike] (http://canada2005.crazyguyonabike.com). The last couple of years I've been that lazy person sitting at home, I'm hoping 2010 finds me riding more often. I also love messing around on computers and the intertubes, but who doesn't these days? I enjoy a wide variety of nice tequila over ice. There are currently 41 bottles on the tequila shelf. Get the image of tequila shooters at the bar out of your head, please! (So many people have been turned off nice tequila by bad experiences on birthdays.) I take great pride turning many tequila haters into fans. Moving on. I follow baseball and hockey, but never had the skill to play any sport without making a fool of myself. That’s why I like cycling. Once you got the spandex and goofy riding gear on, everyone can't help but to make fools of themselves! Finally I enjoy making puns out of my nickname, it's Troo!
So apparently you’re a dirty pervert! Why else would you have hung around this long? I suppose I should touch on that whole side of me. First off, the reason I wrote this section last is to bring home the fact that it’s just one part of who, and what I am. Sure it’s a big part of me, but all of the above is part of who I am as well. I don’t want to be thought of as one of those people that are their kink, and only their kink. (Look at me thinking I’m special.)
So, the real reason this is last is because I find it the hardest part about myself to express. Over the years things have changed, and new aspects of this side of me have come out of the woodwork. A couple of years ago, I found my dominant side. I am not sure where it was hiding, but it came out of nowhere and it’s not going anywhere. That makes me a switch! Now this is getting too complicated; I’m going to break this down into the dominant side, and submissive side. I figure that’s a good way to make this even longer, and well if you’ve made it this far, you probably won’t give up at this point.
As a submissive: I’m mostly a service submissive, yeah I have a few fetishes and kinks but the most important part for me is not my fetishes/kinks but the Top/Domme’s wants, wishes, and desires. I don’t want to be catered to as a sub, as that would ruin the experience for me. I suppose that is actually catering to the one thing I require. I’m not really into pain for pleasure, for me it’s about discipline, or for the pleasure of the Dominant. I can endure pain, I like its use for correction but I doubt I’d ever end up asking for a beating for the sake of being beaten. Finally, some might call me a brat. It depends on how you define ‘brat’, but to me a brat is someone that misbehaves to get punished. Often (imo) they act up to be punished because they enjoy the punishment. I never intend to get into trouble, my aim is to please and serve. However, I’m rather cheeky and that sometimes gets me in trouble. I try to skirt that line, and stay on the good side of the Domme. I’m not saying being a brat is wrong, either, it is just something I don’t wish to be.
Moving right along. As a Dominant my biggest kick is being mean. I love finding the things that make people squirm, hide, and wish me away. To me, being called a jerk is a term of endearment. Humiliation is a particular favorite of mine, as many of my friends have discovered. Don’t worry, deep down inside they really truly love it.
With each person, I know there is a different dynamic to the relationship, usually one side or the other will come out. The odd time it is turmoil and we fight back and forth. Despite the dominant side being the more recent side, I am pretty comfortable with both sides of myself. I’m still learning, but I don’t think we ever stop learning.
What am I looking for? I’d love to find a Dominant play partner to serve, and/or play with. I’m not looking for something ‘full time’, but something a little more serious than occasional play partners. I know that’s incredibly hard to find but I am optimistic that something, or someone will come my way.
If you’ve made it this far you can apply for a medal of ‘special’.
The last thing I want to say is that for the next few months I am one of the 5 organizers of Toronto TNG. We are a social group for those 18-35, that are kinky and in the general Toronto area. We hold monthly munches on the second Monday of every month at a local bar/restaurant. It’s a relaxed social atmosphere that I think lends itself well to newcomers to the ‘community’ and those that just want to hang out. We understand the concerns with an age limited event, however we think the benefits of creating a comfortable space for the younger generation outweighs those concerns. The feedback we get from attendees tells us we are on the right path. Please check out our website.
Come October 2011 I’ll age out of the group, something that was hard to even think about back in 2004 when we started Toronto TNG. I’m happy that it is still around long enough to see me leave.
If you have any questions or concerns regarding TNG feel free to email me.
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