My spelling can be off i am neither omnipotent nor a dictionary so apologies.
Lighten up, have a laugh.
I hate a good book, utterly and completely. I really must insist in my ability to loathe something so beautiful.
A victim I am and the replay is trapped within, it
always begins without my consent!
Oh how I love how it begins, that lustful shiver a well acquainted accomplice. That hurtful bitch pushing and teasing me with precision forcing me to relapse. To dive and delve into the crumbling pages. Each one passes faster than the last
but still I race on as fading dreams must in the wake of the oncoming dawn. That carnal kitty twisting and clawing not willing to let me go. Now of course its well past dawn and I'm fading and all I've got left is a few choice words for that damned
cat Curiosity.
Not one pretty word left but I never claimed to be a saint. I'll keep spitting my defiance, even when I know my last serenade has come.
My beloved House of Cards comes crashing down and I'm left exposed as they day I was born in the harsh light of reality.
Finite
-mt
A long time since I've written here but I'm a bit of a basket case lately. The weather is hot and my words run dry before leaving the tip of my tongue. Currently I'm tethered to a blistering headache, fading eyesight and a heart full of apathy. Not the best of days for no apparent reason.
You should read - Red Country by Joe Abercrombie. You probably should start at The First Law to saviour the entire piece. If you haven't guessed by now I'm on the hunt for a new book to read but I'm rather critical at the moment. Suggestions?
besides that I'm left adrift procrastinating about things that I should be doing, listening to the radio and watching the minutes count down to a new day.
Well I am currently most definitely in love, a bit of a hassle honestly to be in love with three guys at once. A bit of change in directions I can only assume it will end in heartbreak.
Sorry for the misdirection but I am currently talking about the band Eleventyseven, from Milk the Lightning to College Girls I haven't been listening to much else today. The only thing that I currently am a bit discontent is that they have a tendency to melt into pop and probably should up the manliness as it will soon turn into music that I would be embarrassed to listen to in public.
A little bit different Ill Manors - Plan B ">" target="_blank"> and some really old music from Bloc Party - The Prayer ">" target="_blank"> As I'm not keen on there new song octopus.
I'm currently blissfully unaware of the latest Australian music but will be sure to rectify it soon.
All I can really say is why you no come to Australia bands I like?
Nothing of import to discuss, not a detail of the dirty the nasty or maybe even the slightly exciting, only music.
The Cranberries -Zombie
It's the same old theme since nineteen-sixteen. In your head, in your head they're still fighting, With their tanks and their bombs, And their bombs and their guns. In your head, in your head, they are dying...
Long time since I've shared a little of myself here. But it is rather therapeutic, a silent sounding board. I sit here typing and I just feel a wave roll out of stress cease to exist. A silent discussion with myself while I get to sip from my coffee cup. Rather groan up of me you might say? Accept for the fact it contains sweet sweet hot chocolate :)
I usually don't post anything video game related here but the soundtrack to this trailer for dishonoured is wicked devious. ">" target="_blank">
What do we do with a drunken whaler!
What do we do with a drunken whaler!
Today, I sat and smiled and told all the white lies you wanted to hear. A polished performance if I must say so myself, excuse my false modesty. Here you have what you want that pure corrosive acid, honesty. Have your fill! For every thought of mine eagerly awaits its chance to douse your gluttonous hide in this abject moment of insanity. Eating away at the layers of this carefully laid charade, Is this what you wanted? It is what I want now, for my every word sparks and sizzles. This flaming tongue craves ignition. Come on I'll take any excuse, paint the target and I'll fire away.
I don't really have any recommendations for a playlist today as I have been listening to the same album preview over for a couple of days now. Childish Gambino (Aka Troy from community Aka Donald Glover) new album has been released or is about to depending on your location might be earlier on itunes (not an itunes fan here). So currently I'm currently laying back and letting my ears do the equivalent of masturbation.
On another news I've been diving my attention between three fronts, drawing women, setting up my planted fish tank and finally the demanding summons of jury duty. Luckily I have not yet been empanelled but that could soon change.
For some delusional reason my last post I was referring to exercising in the evening but woah and behold to my amazement it was only around lunch time. My body clock is all off after being up since 4:00 am. This is also concluded by my apparent inability to wish that everyone had a Happy Australia Day, post Straya day consequences are messing with my cognitive ability.
Now i'm tired and sleepy and need a nap before tonight.
-m
It's wet and has been raining constantly and I'm quite good at conjuring excuses as why I should not go for a run, 1) the possibility of falling over repeatedly on my face, 2) the huge number of bad drivers on the road, 3) Rain madness where everyone acts little bit sillier as they are not getting there recommissioned daily dosage of vitamin D , and 4) Finally lol the wet dog smell that I will bring into the house.
Than I remember twenty-seven day of consists regular aerobic exercise and realised that maybe I should stop thinking so much and starting running. My News years resolution aka the dictator of leg and related foot pain continues for another evening.
Oh and Hurray and Huzzah and Happy Year of the Dragon Rawr!
Watching the rain falling while listening to a mix of songs but mainly these two.
Only been 6 months and I'm already looking at going back to university and attempting another degree. I also considered taking up a language study but how would i ever explain that to the English language she'd probably get all uppity and jealous.
Riff Raff Saturday, a day dedicated to my inherently inability to resist this temptress that sweetly whispers in my ear.
Not my usual kind of playlist I post here, it is mainly rap so fair warning.
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This list is incomplete as i can't quite recall that one song, that son of a bitch of a white whale that evades my mental harpoons with a deftness only a ballerina could master. My spelling is probably atrocious as I can't quite find my glasses and on that note, the end.
The words don't seem to flow, I don't ever recall seeing a broken river but that is what i imagine it to be like. There is movement a phrase here and switching words there yet it is just movement beneath the surface. Halves of halves so to speak, tragic reflections that are deftly caught in sunlight's embrace.
Crystallized intentions, ageless but indefinitely cruel.
Oh where do you hide oh not so sweet devil named rage. You envelop my body completely encasing it in sweet ecstasy, lies becomes truth and i feel utterly indestructible. You promise me the world and i burn with intent to change the world. But just like that you vanish and leave me vulnerable bare of breast upon naked steel. Where are you my sweet lover? I need my next hit!
Just saw the new MIB 3 trailer and i can't wait, something to look forward to in the new year.
Only twelve days to Christmas. I'm not a fan of the Christmas lights as everybody goes berserk for quantity rather than quality. As of yet I don't even have a Christmas Tree up but i've at least started my shopping.
None of that really matters for what Christmas is for me is that short sweet succulent meal called Xmas Breakfast. Where everyone in the family comes around and eats more food than necessary and began to slowly sip back there preferred alcoholic poison.
I'll take it one step at a time, hoping to improve what lays beneath the rubble of shattered dreams. I'll make mistakes but as long as my left foot stays in time with the right I will at least keep moving. Whether it be forwards or backwards at least I'll be going somewhere.
From one to four I smiled in glee. Hours fled and still my lips spread in a pure expression of ecstasy. From five to nine i smirked and squealed. For I learned to smile with my eyes and smirk with my lips.
But atlas I lament, for oh so sweet thirteen. For I lost my smile to metal chains. It shattered like glass, and crushed my heart. My broken smile reduced to pieces of a memory. Still i hoped to smile again but for now it remained inside.
Years later I'm still waiting and hoping to bind this bitter bleeding trauma. I still remember how it use to be, but that sweet expression of joy is now forever incomplete.
My lips are stained and scarred just moments away from cracking apart.
About to yet again add another little notch on my belt for a completion of a series. Well technically they are an addition to the Malazan mythology but that doesn't detract from my perspective of these well structured stand alone novels I'm looking forward to the new book that is in the works and can't wait to get my hands on it.
Listening to: Noah and the Whale
And finally watching Dexter they've managed to rope me back in again after those last few seasons. Don't get me wrong i will still buy them and occasionally watch them but they lack a certain quality.
Sail by Awolnation my favourite song of the week. My ears are addicted aching for each verse as it goes by not quite willing to let the next verse come.
This is how I show my love I made it in my mind because I blame it on my A.D.D. baby
This is how an angel cries I blame it on my own supply Blame it on my A.D.D. baby
Oh so lazy i've let myself fall into disrepute. This is my attempt at counteracting my complete utter lack of productivity since taking myself overseas to London, Scotland and France.
Repetition, discipline and more repetition will hopefully lead to some retention. Time to break the habit.
Excited , dizzy and distracted but most of all I am sated. That superb feeling of self satisfaction that explodes from within which now radiates upon my fingertips An electric rush, giving me that thrumming touch capable of quieting life's maddening rush.
The eyes they wander, they slither back and forth
to rest the tip of my tongue would be an honour.
Words sprout forth but they are truly insincere for they can not describe the glint in my eye,
the inflamed heart nor my breathlessness.
This unbearable craving to cradle, clutch or cling
to the purity of this ravishing blinding light.
To toss and turn in fits of madness upon first glance
as a beggar must in the presence of the wealthy
and all that is left is the soul shrieking sounds of lust.
Desire - Mt
The quiet reflection that draws forth release.
Another year goes by and yet i still look upon my initials and say 'empty' , that little joke that the teacher brought up and thought it was funny. This precedent proceeded as a calling card for others and myself to mock myself. Yet the hunger that dwells beyond the depths of apathy undiscriminating clings to whatever it can latch upon in hopes of redemption.
To the heartful fiends and the two-faced queens,
I request upon you and my solem oath, a duel.
three minutes till dawn upon autumns noose
i'll bet my blood against yours for this is all.
my single ideology ingrained upon my soul
is to met out vengence, pertubed justice.
my fired heart -mt
I'm stuck in that rift unaware what i should do. My schedule has been completely broken due to exams finished and now i'm up at 8am with no direction or motivation. I've got the original tron movie for nto watch but i shall have to find something to do.
Exam incoming Uh-Oh!, Dont worry it'll will be fine hopefully.
This warmth in my chest can not be mine
for this feeling is outside my comprehension
and once again I will swear it is not mine
for i neither know what nor why it comes
for my heart doesn't quicken to your tempest
nor does my body shake in your presence
these vaporous feelings, are left to the wind
yet this detached heat persists as if sentient
pity it is blind to folly for it continues to reaches out
seeking a connection to reignite this lost spark
But atlas this wintered heart remains steadfast.
-mt
random rant rubbish
Hideous hideous footwear month, dear god. Those black army boot type things are anything but cute you might as well wear garbage bags on your feet. I re-iterate some fashion trends are idiotic.
On other news this guy i use to work with just randomly started a conversation with me the other day. We never were friends, in fact i think he particularly hated me. In the conversation he just generally dropped i had cancer and going through radiation treatment. Seriously how does one respond to that? I had no good response i was just like i hope that goes well and it just felt insincere not because i had any particular deathwish for him. Just that it was the only thing that came to my mind and it felt rather hollow thing to say considering he could possibly die.
Time to get off those depressing subjects for ignorance is bliss.
Listening to: Civic remixes (check them out on purevolume) and an insane amount of dubstep liturally days worth of material but to be honest there is about 10 crap ones per one decent song.
Memories make me want to go back there... (excuse the rediculous spacing cm journals = horrible formating)
All i can say is screw you Brandon Sanderson !
?Let's release a book I've been waiting ages for (though not as long as a dance with dragons grrm you lazy but) right in the middle of all my exams.?
Do you know how tempted i will be sitting there watching, waiting and deliberating whether i can maintain the self-control to only read one chapter.??? I know that i will try and convince myself i could but that is clearly a lie i would collapse faster than a house made of cards.?
Study mode soon to be activated :(
beneath this blossoming flower there reigns lustful hearts
praying upon youth they masquerade to gain your trust
an irrevocable act corrupts and? your innocence is lost
sweet words mask serrated edges
naive -mt
Not much new accept for i'm on my holidays yet still doing uni work on a saturday night seriously depressing i can't even look out the window.? My book collection is pilling up and it's not a small window either so i'm pritty proud.? Jenga anyone? The most annoying thing is i can't find the book i was reading yesterday.?
Listening to mindless self indulgence tonight - i do enjoy attempting to sing along to MSI just because most of their songs sweep you up in their addictive melodies.? "I've been denied all the best ultrasex!?
Oh dear Journal how art thou?? My neglectful soul has abanded our nightly tryst. Such a selfish lover, hoarding all my secrets from your delictable ears.? I pray my sweet words can sate your lust.?
Writing Writing and more Writing - I was thinking of attempting this writers challenge.? I thought it might be fun 50 000 words in one month, pity exams around the corner.? It's more focused on quantity than qualitiy but it is meant to keep you in the habbit of consistently practicing.?
Well i'm listening to Our Holy Ghost by the Felix Culpa to steal a quote "to be in love with love is not enough this time."? Would be a bit more enjoyable if i wasn't busy busy busy dealing with retarded group members at uni.? If i was Bruce Banner i'd be hulking out destroying shit but instead i'll just be stressing out.?
-mt
Honestly i heart fraud.? I find it one of the most interesting subjects out there.? The schemes people come up with combined with the sheer arrogance that some people have is amazing. ? Rodney Adler has been the recent case law topic and man sometimes you just have to applaud his abillity to break nearly every piece of corporation law available.? The man is a law breaking machine.?
Listening to: SR71 (everything) / Four Year Strong / Anberlin
I'm quite pissed at myself i finished one my books today.? Now i want more, i want more of the story it will be a hell of long waiting time since he is finishing off the wheel of time "Towers of Midnight".? I wish i could go into hybernation for a few years i hate waiting.?
That age old twitch, as shivers ripple across your mind. It traverses
cliffss and caverns entwinging us on this path. We tred this fine line between? desire and desolation.? This age old tryst born anew.?
Lamenting Lust -mt
Tonight will be a late night and I'm just rambling for now to pick the soundtrack to work to.? I'm think something a little bit upbeat with a ton of bite may haps some metal ?
Bookworm-Glee :D - two of my favourite authors had their books released into Australia.? I am extremely satisfied they are quite large.? Doesn't necessarily mean they are good but i feel dissatisfied with books only three hundred pages long usually character development is lacking.? Unless they are pure masterpieces but this is rarely the case.
I think I'm going to be drawing a portrait tonight once i clean up and put my sparkling touches of glory on my essays.?
busy busy beee -mt
Soulful eyes and buxom beauty baby you've caught me in a tryst. Careful strides and guard held high, but once again I've lost it all.
Drips of red,? tints of pink you've left me gasping, tongue tied and torn. Those sweet slick lips flaunt all you have, including what you've stolen.
For now i weep, for once again i have lost my precious? heart.
A Kiss and a Card - MT
Ankle bracelets are wickedly seductive.?
?Sigh I'm in a talkative mood with nobody about, sure is relaxing to sit and just write.? It carries away the pain and caresses the heart.? The only other thing i could prefer would be laughter.?
I'm basically waiting for the caffine so slightly higher brain functions kick in so i can produce a research paper that isn't sub-par even if it is a yawn inducing topic.?
Listening to : Senses Fail? - Angela Baker and My Obsession with Fire.?
Quite a curious fact occasionally i browse a profile here and there after reading some of my favourite journals.
?One thing I've noticed a lot is domme's demanding loyalty straight off the bat.? Last time i checked there was no big red button that activates an unquestionable loyalty on me.? Might be just me but i thought loyalty was something you earned over time and it extends both ways.? Blindness loyalty i would say is quite similar to stupidity.
It might be just unintended but how i read it is equivalent to asking a person to jump off a cliff the first time you have ever met them.? Maybe you are suicidal? i'm not.?
enjoy the week for surely it will end and thus the fun will start to begin :D - mt
Studying for an exam is quite similar to a marathon. There's the strict diet, cept we abuse red bull and any other caffeine related intoxicants.? The endless repetition of trial and error until you just want to scream.? The terror and anxiety of knowing that while you have tried you hardest it may not be enough. ? There's even a coach, you know the sickening feeling in your stomach?? Yes that would be him threatening your internal organs.
The major difference is marathon runners get wicked body definition and the ability to outrun zombies for a really long distance. Oh and they also get those sweet tiny cups of Gatorade. Uni students on the other hand get a percentage on a piece of paper.?? That's just speaking figuratively universities are way to cheap to actually buy paper.
-mt back to study
To be honest the election is coming up and i? certainly do love how the policy of choice seems to be demeaning their opponent rather than any actually political notion.? (ps that would be sarcasm)?
Last time i checked the Government has been trying to establish an anti-bullying campaign through out schools and young education.? Yet on a nationally televised level they seem to promoting it.?
Australia the land of Hypocrisy in a couple hundred years we still are about as civilized as a few hundred convicts on a boat to the end of the world.? -------------------------------------------- "I'm an addict from dramatics and i confuse the two for love."? It's been quite a while since it's release but i can not get enough of the song Liar by Taking Back Sunday.
?simple intitials six sweet strokes commemorate my bitter emptiness
self titled -mt
Well besides for the random i'm back to preparing for my exams.? I do
continually write but i much prefer the easy access of jotted note pad
when i have an idea rather than the tedious process of opening my
laptop unless i am actually sitting at it like i currently am doing.
I was watching V for Vendetta once again this morning, how i love his first onslaught of voracious /v/ words. *Rewind Replay*
The one semster suprise this year is that i'm actually enjoying
corporation law.? Sometimes i can't help laughing its quite amusing the
numerous ploys and plots involved in the management and shareholder
dynamic.?
Right now i have the urge to don a pair of sunglasses because on the
radio they are playing"Won't Be Fooled Again" by the Who. Everytime i
hear it i instantly picture Horatio Caine and aforementioned glasses.
YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!
-mt
My stomach is grumbling, my mind is irritated by the multitude of different aspects of corporation law and sadly the weekend is nearly over.? The one good thing i got to do was see Scott Pilgrim? vs The World which i enjoyed a ton but atlas i'm melancholic again.??
I feel like going out for one last blast before i have to go to uni and listen to some twat read out of a text book and call himself a "lecturer" as if it implies some advanced teaching knowledge that they have learned at an underground training facility.? My grade one teacher has managed to impart me more knowledge with her simple tricks of sweet affection and cookies.?
Well right now i'm just ranting, i think it may be time to cook some delicious lunch.
-mt
I am procrastination incarnate, i've spent the last three hours hyping myself up to get some uni work started and i just realized i haven't even managed to get my self dressed than factor into the fact its 5pm.? I'm pritty sure today wreaks of failure.?
Than the icing on the cake i'm sitting here writing about it.??
Well i shall have to rectify this right now!?
-mt
Write now im chilling out on the bathroom floor its kind of cold but it is the only privacy i get nowdays.? Spent most of the day at the ekka which was quite fun but especially overcrowded with children under the age of 5.? Honestly more parents need those baby leashes because the number of lost kids were off the chart.? Also another point for them is the fact kids seemingly have the inability to walk in a straight line or use their eyes.
Apart from that my favourite thing would have to be this one geese they were hilarious.? Sticking there long necks out through the cage and stealing they could get their beak wrapped around.
Well on other news i've been spending way to much of my free time of starcraft 2 and league of legends.? This combined with the fact all my money is being wasted on copious amounts of alcohol as there seems to be a never ending stretch of 21 st birthdays in August.?
I really feel like sketching on my tablet but atlas im to lazy? and i'll just end up wasting time by constantly changing the song on my playlist.?
journal blabla over -mt
Back to uni - back to work - back to waking up at 4 am - i am back to being grumpy.
?One good thing? is that i go to finish the Kushiel trilogies but once again i'm left with that dull thirst always wantng more.? I managed to satisfy my love for reading only to be left empty? once more as the curtains come down and the characters fade away.?
Pity there is no never ending story.?
Exams are finished for this semester finally a time to kick back and relax :3 , lately i've been able to go back to writing but i don't post much now days.?
I've been able to start reading series again i sort ot have to cut my self off from anything enjoyable to study otherwise i just procrastinate all day.??
There is one particular book series that i'm enjoying by Steven Erikson called the Malazan Book of the Fallen.? It has it upsides and its down during the first book i nearly put it down due to the way he skips from character to character with any warning.?
It can he quiet confusing considering the numerous similar name and his general writing style.? He is kind of vague on who is who and he never directly states that this is fact leaving you to your own assumptions.? At the beginning this in infuriating as there is no direct link established between the reader and a main character.? If you have persistance and the willingness to re-read every line and occasionally skip back to check chapters you may be able to stall your rage and find an enjoyable read.
The other book series that i got around to? reading was A Song of Ice and Fire, i had read the first books a few years ago and forgot about them.? Starting from the beginning i just remember how much i hate this author.? It should be re-titled a series of unfortunate events for the Starks.?? He is a pure genius and you will be hooked on the book but i pray that he finishes the series which looks doubtful.?
-Mt
Two exams down -two left but i am not motivated and this is just another form of procrastination damn you internet. ? As i have virtually passed the subject before finals i can not seem to motivate myself.
? It has been what two weeks of cramminng leafing through textbook after textbook preparing possible essay answers.? What annoys me the most is the amount of time i put into preparing and then hey the exam questions are the bland example questions.
Ah well i think i better cut off the stalling for now and start studying before i slip fully into vacation mode and start up more time consuming hobbies.
Waking up to the song Home by Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros is as good as it gets,
you just have to whistle along!
Still being sick and making a tissue mountain i decided to start watching a few episodes of the show based on Terry Goodkind series 'The Sword of Truth' i found it slightly interesting but it felt empty compared to the novels.
One good thing about the tv series was it made me pick up the series for about the third - fourth time? i'm not sure well anyways i've finished book 1 already.?
Sigh i'm in an aggrivated mood after wasting a whole day being sick.
I've been skipping between the bands Yellowcard and H.I.M all day.? Ville Valos voice has quite the unusual quality to it.? I would put in between smoth and coarse and the word that keeps popping into my mind to describe it is 'gravel'.? It doesn't exactly sounds like much of a compliment but it is sweet honey to my bearish ears.
she was the wind, carrying in all the troubles and fears you've for years tried to forget he was the fire, restless and wild and you were like a moth to the flame (funeral of hearts - HIM)
?On the other hand yellowcard plays to my angsty teenager heart.? The use of the violin in their music gives it a unique taste.? I've always considered the violin to be a particularlly sad instrument most of the time and it fits in wonderfully with the tone of most of the songs.?
--------------------------------------------- Rant It is quite hard to find decent photographic references of human anatomy. How hard could it possibly be? There is the internet and the billions of photos that are uploaded everyday.? That is true but there is simply one problem and it comes down to peoples inability to be able to work a camera.?
Just because the camera gives you the ability to point and click does
not mean you should.? Please take a half a second of thought otherwise
your photos are going to continue to look like the 13 year old try hard
myspace sluts.
What annoys me even more is when people slap on computer generated
filters from cheesy mac computers.? Congratz you've reached the pinacle
of intelligence you have figured out how to work a sliding dial.
I could rant on this for at least a few more minutes but i think i'd rather not waste my time any further.
-mt
Such a sad sad affair, i spent all day/night in class learning about? econometrics and running regression analysis upon regression after regression. After a while i couldn't stand it any morre my brain was just like la la la LA LA LA LA ! i'm not listening no matter how hard you try.?
I suppose it was enough that i got to spend the day with friends even though it was more intensive on the learning than the socializing .
The new gorillaz album came out pritty recently or is about to i'm not really sure retail wise since i've just streaming the preview of the album for the last few weeks.
For my favourite track of the album i am stuck between Stylo and Plastic Beach. I absolutely love the album it is actually quite upbeat and i find myself smiling everytime i hear one of the songs.? Almost makes me want to dance in public ... almost.
As far as other things have been going i'm feeling rather positive which is kind of unusual for me.? The only complaint is time restraints i find myself trying to apply myself for once to my studies.? It actually comes a lot easier studying finance than wading in the? mires of accounting laws and related structure.?
The delights of financial derivatives and econometrix are interesting but at a certain point i just want to get up and slap my lecturer.? He is close to genius level in his area of expertise but not much of a teacher. He has the habbit of rambling on and taking leaps and bounds before we have even covered the basics.?
Art wise i've been moving slowly through most of Andrew Loomis books as well as trying to do a portrait a day.? I've been mostly drawing women because they are rather hard to pin down the right features.
Nothing really major happening yet ...
Mt
Okay long time no writing
If you hadn't realised i'm an avid book reader, i seriously sit there and start reading and don't stop until the book is finished.?
RANT WALL OF TEXT
Things that tick me off about books today:
1. The trend of book covers that have the associated movie actors plastered across them.? I'm sorry they are completely irrelevant seriously take them the fuck away.? I read a book because the words create a picture inside my head.? I don't want the book to show me what some jackass of a movie director thinks what the main character should look like. Someone elses preconceptions? are imprinted on to the person before they even start reading the book. It tears a great big whole in your imagination when you try to sink within the story.?
?Personally i also find it disguisting that particular actor becomes an icon for that tale.? I bet you could name every actor off a book cover that i put in front of you but could you name the author? (A good example is Twilight, no i will not read it as i am not a prepubescent girl.)
2.? When books do not have blurbs on the back cover or inside the front page.? I just hate it when i pick up a book turn it over to find a blurb an instead a bunch of pretentious ass tags have written their review quotes all over the back of the book.? I don't care about such and such opinion on whether this book is a "must read" or a modern day "reference another popular book."?
3. It's more of annoyance than hate or anger but when they frequently change the cover of a book.? It's a clever market ploy against the retarded who must possess every different cover.? Scratch that it is not clever taking advantage of the retarded, just easy.? It's understandable if it is after a few years or so but honestly i've seen a few book completely change in under a 6 month period.? I even checked to see if they were just overseas covers they wern't.
4.? Books that are straight cut paste clones of others, the only difference is the names and a shitty gimmick.? Shallow copies with no depth to character and story line.
Sigh i could go on but i think that is enough for now.
- mt
My hair has reached the point which it would be considered shaggy, i usually don't mind it at this length the only problem is the fact that it iss summer. It kind of feels like im walking around with an oven on my head.? Ah well i think i'm going to get it chopped off.
Uni starts back this week coming which is kind of sad but i'm sort of looking forward to it again.? I;m also quite annoyed because my internet cuts out every 4 seconds meaning i have to constantly refresh or re-download my lecture nots.?
Had a wonderful v-day, even if i woke up in the morning in beer sweat which is disgusting.? My only excuse is that a wise man doesn't argue with whats on the bar tab.?
According to the clock it is officially monday and i will be going to see the wolfman at some point today can't wait unless it's terrible.? I haven't seen a pritty good werewolf movie in a while usually the wolf looks like a cross between a cheap puppet and my friends sorry attempt at growing a beard. ? Sleep Time
?I pressed my lips behind your heart and whispered just one selfish wish.? From my heart to yours sealed with a kiss, please don't break my heart.
Hidden Thoughts - Mt
Well let us see i haven't been typing much been kind of busy going and relaxing before the chaos of work and uni collide in a hailstorm of deprived sleep.?
Woe is me for the dilemma of what to buy for valentines day.? It basically comes around for every event of buying someone a gift, i'm quite hopeless and most of the time the gift doesn't mean a thing it feels kind of empty just like handing money to the other person. ?
I was at the peak of gift giving at what age four?? when i cracked out the crayons and the messy finger paints for whoevers birthday it happened to be.? It was pritty obvious that i had made it that day because you probably could still see the paint on my hands.? The main point though was the thought was genuinely there i just lacked the means to express it but i cared.
Besides it being filthy hot tonight has been interesting to an extent but i'm so sleepy stupid work.
Rant
Seriously i detest smokers even more as one has entered my family recently to my dismay.? To be fair its your choice to smoke but just please not in my proximinity or i may attempt to club the person to death with whatever is within reach.? Besides the obvious fact of the chemical reactions that are toxic and the end result is nearly always death in numerous of painful ways, there is the fact that cigarettes linger.?
You can smell it days after, you can taste it upon the skin? hours after, probably even longer if the person lacks hygene.? Fuck off cigarettes you lingering mother fuckers.? Honestly if you do die from smoking or a death related to i dunno the destruction of your lung cavity, you should be taken into a room in the afterlife and be slapped to the beat of the song faster, harder, better stronger (daft punk) by a? giant sized talking cigarette saying i told you so until your skull is wrenched off.
Ah now i feel better,
As the neon lights grind away awareness of night and day, will the term nightlife become obsolete?
The other night i went walking off on a whim and i was staring out into my favourite dark abyss and i wondered if it would still be there in 20 years.? From age 10 to 20 it appears to me the unquenchable darkness has been slowly beat back by technology as it continues to leap to new heights.?
A prey she was for the cruelty of love While its serpent inside crawled towards her heart? - HIM
Once again i find myself thankful for being able to chat to some people without restraint.
In love we're one, inseperable, pathetic lust, thus we crumble? - Alesana
To much chlorine today i can still smell it after a shower, my eyes are stuck in that hazy feeling as if you have been staring at an object for a lengthy period of time.? It makes it kind of hard to concentrate thank god i don't need to see to type.? Sadly dissapointed by 3xJ top 100 didn't really like much of the top 10 at all.? Gave up listening spent most of the time floating in the pool so dreamy , just being able to lie there and forget everything that is moving around you, people, places, jobs, obligations, technology (yah yah cliche) thats until some jackass pushes you under the water.?
Figure studies or maybe values study and some sleep hmm.
Those dirty blues, brought out by my nostalgic dreams. Yesterdays fears trace out the realities of my hidden secrets. These feelings teeter around my roused conscious just waiting to bleed free.
-Mt
I can't quite decide what i want to draw probably a portrait but of who hmm that is the question? Random google face it is!
Australia Day tomorrow - should be interesting the only thing i want to do is go swimming because of hot it has been the last few days.
I've been listening to lately my killswitch engage albums oh so soothing but atlas some of my favourite songs are quite sad.
ranting
Another person i know my age is getting married, shits coming around like a plague and if it isn't that than they are either pregnant or already have a child. Seriously i get tired of listening to people blab on and on about this shit. I'll smile nod as if I'm interested and fake some half assed compliment i don't know why. Lets compliment the idiots who can not even manage to achieve protected sex.
Tick tock goes the clock and i want to get this illustration finished by saturday.? I was having great fun painting the dog but now i've finished that and have moved onto painting the owners hands damn they are annoying i can't seem to get the hand underneath correct and its driving me nutz it looks a bit more like a claw which isn't intentional at all. ??
In december drinking horchata i'd look psychotic in a balaclava - by Vampire Weekend
Is jealousy really a monster? or is it a shred of humanity escaping our imprisoned hearts .
I feel like writing but i am not quite sure what? usually when i have something to write down it just flows out of me but lately the topic has been evading me or i am to far away from anything that is capable of recording a message without serious damage to my hands.
I've been putting off doing an actual self-portrait in photoshop or in pencil because i have seen my reflection plenty of times before.? Besides that been spending most of my time working with different items charcoal, pastels and assorted combinations of other things.?
The one great thing about this week is i finally went and got myself some new faber castell pencils and i think i may be in love so delicate yet firm and brings out just the perfect shades of grey :)
I hate being sick :(
As usual the new year has come and gone but not without it's mark on the first day of the new year. ? Hopefully wherever you woke up you still have partial memories of an enjoyable night of decadence.?
Extra Dry + Triple J =? A great first weekend for 2010.
It feels like the last few days have been a blur, one big long day hardly a sliver of relaxation.? Well the holiday madness is pretty much over and work starts back up again tomorrow sadly.?
I miss university and can't wait to crack open a textbook I'm just hoping for a reasonable time table so maybe i don't have work at 4am and lecture around 8 pm.?
well for what is left of my last few hours of freedom i having been picking out some of my old favourite songs but out of the list i have selected it has set a rather sad night. Ah well without the sadness we wouldn't know happiness etc etc? -mt
Pornstar by Amy Meredith is quite an addicting song, i've pretty much got it on repeat while i was sitting here sketching random bits of anatomy.
Finished shopping today took ages to get a car park because people are generally dumb. Lets all fight for car parks on level one! Got in got out as fast as i could but not before ducking into my favourite japanese restaurant :D ramen nom nom. ?
Let me know you feel the same as before
Look me in the eyes and Tell me that you wanna stay It took me by suprise? when she said
I wanna be a pornstar! We could leave the lights on and you could feel my heartbeat. And it won't Stop.
Show me how to fake it. Let me taste your lipstick. Than well turn the lights off. Touch me in the dark.
^_^
Well let us see once again the week has gone past and it is ticking closer and closer to Christmas.? Usually around this kind of year i would be slightly annoyed and angry due to working in retail where customers just go freaking insane.? I know everybody is struggling to get the perfect gifts for your significant others but come on there is no need to be an ass about it to the poor shop assistant, other employee or fellow customer.?
The only thing i want for Christmas is for everyone not to be an ass.
-mt
Final semester marks came in the other day and apparently i smashed my final exams getting 53/60 for finance 2 which i thought was one of the more difficult exams i had to do this semester.
Now i've been up since the ungodly hour of 3 to call in sick.? There is one thing i enjoy about being sick, this damn medicine which tastes delicious. I can't remember the name but damn this purple flavoured mystery cocktail of health makes me want to get sick more often so i can drink it.? Bit weird that my preference for medicine is based on taste another example of this is nurofen i am a sucker for the orange flavour.? Damn now i want some orange tic tacs.
These girls fall like dominos, dominos, dominos
Three words we shared, said to early on Stuck with forever to the point of tears Swimming with the fear where we slowly drown
Ending at never haunting melody
by The Big Pink - Dominos
I close my eyes to continue my search for true beauty, i delve into the back streets and shady alleys of this towering metropolis. Exploring to find that which is hidden in this living maze. The sound of a heart beat can be heard trailing out across the city's lights and street signs.
I might of been considered lost but maybe i just didn't want to be found. I conquered time through the act of simple ignorance, i swept it behind me and left it to cast a shadow of broken clocks wherever i passed. I found the answer to my question in a simple mirror.
Self Reflections - Mt
Summertime = Heat = Swimming = If i had a choice i doubt i would ever leave the pool hmm maybe to go to the beach. New bed finally but i feel kind of awkward on it i don't exactly know how to sleep on it considering it is so much larger than i'm use to.
I am living breathing in this salty summer night, the breeze is stale and the room is confining. Every slight movement creates a friction of heat that keeps me from my sleep. If i had to choose a word to describe this one moment it would have to be scathing. To be touched all over yet there be no one physically there. This internal fire coagulates my mind and drips slowly in the form of burning tears.
Greek Fire - Mt
I have finished exams last week and i was quite desperate for some marks especially on my last exam.
After being at uni for a quite a while there are two phrases that you never really want to see in a final exam "open book" & "multiple choice" why? because examiners really go out of their way to fuck you over. Open book virtually translates to everything that we have even remotely mentioned is examinable in more complicated fashion than you have been taught. Multiple Choice translates to we will give you four nearly identically correct answers but you must choose the most correct answer.
While i'm on the topic of final exams i swear the people who organize the time tables just want people to crack (yeah there was actually quite a few girls and guys who actually broke down sobbing during my tax law exam i mean come on as if the exam wasn't hard enough i don't need other people crying to remind me how ridiculously hard it was) i had 3 exams in two days come on i would easily give a few weeks of the holidays to have some space so maybe i can sleep instead of being a zombie fueled exclusively by caffeine.
Well i start work in about 3 hours hurray , i would be so happy to get into a car crash or other accident just to be able to lie down and relax and not have any kind of commitment.
- super long whine blog over (screw you spelling i can't be bothered) - night mt
A warning to the prophet, the liar, the honest
This is War
To the leader, the pariah, the victim, the messiah
This is war
Its the moment of truth and the moment to lie
The moment to live and the moment to die
The moment to fight, the moment to fight, to fight, to fight, to fight
This is War - 30 Seconds to Mars
I haven't posted much of anything lately but for the first time in a bit i actually have time to do things that i enjoy.?
Tonight is full of possibilities, i can reach for the stars and juggle them to my whimisical desires.? Play with fire and dance with lightning for in this lapse of responsibilities grows a precious rose.? A green bud brushing up through the dreary dirt, a ray of hope to lose myself in tonight.? This romance of self deprivation finally blooms to my great delight.? As each petal drops a crystalised dream breaks into life.
My Mythic Rose- Mt
The black ink manifests your twisted soul, forever the demonic possesion is on the rise.? Steel to bind, fire to engrave your tragic mistakes.? Unheard voices locked within in a silent madness claw for a voice of their own.? High above in what must be a sanctuary rests a treasury more valuable than materialistic wealth.? A harp of flesh and blood pulsates into eternity but also something else? . . . hope.
? - MT ??
Exams once again but when do i not have them?? meh i love university but damn it costs an arm, a leg and probably a kidney.
A puncture wound from my sweetest wooden spoon, the thin slash from the butter knife and let us not forget the last, the papercut.?
Deceptive yet refreshing, the equivalent of an? ice cold shower in the middle of the desert.? The clarity that can be drawn from within from a single blinking traffic light after the car crash.?? The contrast of feelings hopefully have you gasping.
The parting kiss - mt
With eyes wide open and blurry reason i stare into this mirror. For once i wish i would see myself smiling back, maybe another day ill wake from slumber and see what i want to see but for now my mirrored image portrays my faults and weakness for all to see.? There is nothing deeper than the look i give myself everyday as i glance past the external and embrace what i am inside.
