A sub's needs.  Now thiis will probably turn some Doms away, if they've gotten this far in my profile. However I need to say it, even at the risk of being deemed a demanding sub.

I will gladly bestow my heart, my life, and the diligent servitude of my body and mind to my man if I feel taken care of.  No, not like a sugar Daddy.  But I firmly believe in "taking care of Him, and being taken care of in return." in ying, yang I complimentary fashion both of the Dom and subs' needs are mutually known and taken care of by each other.  For example I always have dinner ready for Him when He gets home.  This might be a big priority for Him.  On the other hand He knows that I thrive on His compliments and from time to time love a good snuggle.  ...  Another example.. if the sub or Dom is on a diet then the other would help their best to cook or buy foods that are on that diet.  Or work out with each other.  Or the Dom would discipline the sub when she might fall off her diet.  ... I feel a happy sub best serevs her Dom.  Pleasing my man makes me extremely happy and fills me with confidence.  But sometimes I would like to be held.  Or texted randomly on the middle of the day just to know He cares.  I need daily communication or close to it. And I need to feel wanted, desired. We are all busy but He is always in the back of my head and most likely I'm changing much of my life for Him.  Little signs of affection or caring I need to carry on sometimes.  I am a sub girl.  Not a slave with no emotionl needs.  .. That's just me.  I do apologize. But I also believe there are a good deal of good Doms out there that get this. ... Thank you for reading this ramble.  

Happy May Day Everyone.

1) I took all the landscape pics on my cell phone cam, yes they're mine.  Yes, I e-mail pictures of myself in email.  I don't have them posted here because of work. 

2) I have nothing against it, but I am not cut out to swing or belong to a poly family very well.  Just not me at this moment, nothing against those who do.  I am bi-curious but more of a fantasy and definitely would only do things with other girls under the guidance and control of my man, while in a stable relationship.  Just me.  

3) Yes I know #1 and #2 have nothing to do with each other :)  

I realize that as my profile is now, my journal entries say a lot more about my submissive side and where my mind is - in D/s.  

I firmly believe that every D/s dynamic is shaped by the two people interacting.  Every Dom I've been with makes me respond in a different way to them.  To some I'm more babygirl, to others I'm straight slave.  Typically I'm more of a sensual pleasure sub who gets off on serving her man.

The kind of man I'm typically attracted to varies... but he's taller than me and typically has a truck of anysort.  Yes, I know that's very superficial.. but honest.  He's secure in his job and is experienced in the lifestyle, but still curious in some things... and he's not too stubborn to pretend he knows everything if something comes up in which he's not experienced   (He would do research and maybe talk to other Doms who were familiar before bringing it into our play.) ... Anyway he has a sense of humor in and out of the bedroom.  He is passionate and has interests outside of the bedroom we share.  He is Dom in the relationship and allows my opinions to be expressed but ultimately his word is the final say.  ... He is always trying to improve his girl and himself.  I want to make myself better for him, not just in training sexually but being a better person... someone he can be proud to own and to be with.  

ramble ramble ramble

Goodnight.

"Trains moan in my sleep when I'm tryin to go to bed.

Moving way to slow for whatever they're a carryin.

I've been working hard ever since I was a kid.

Trains moan in my sleep-

Seems like something is always moving.

Trains moan in my sleep when I'm trying to go to bed.

...

Trains moan in my sleep - into the future and out of the past.

Trains moan in my head, when I'm trying to go to sleep.

Throwing rocks at the window, something's crawling up the sheets!

I've been working hard ever since I was a boy.

Trains moan in my sleep, gnawin at me like I was a chew toy."

"Trains" off Jacksonville City Nights by Ryan Adams & The Cardinals... a highly addictive song while runnin around.

Oh the night here it comes again

It's off with the jeans, the jacket, and the shirt

How'd I end up feelin so bad for SUCH a lil girl?

I hold you close in the back of my mind

Feels so good, but damn, it makes me hurt

I'm too scared how to know I feel about you now.

La cinega just smiled and says

'I'll see you around...'

I hold you close in the back of my mind

Raise my glass cause either way, I'm dead

Neither of you really helped me to sleep anymore

One breaks my body and the other breaks my soul

La cinega just smiled

and waves good-bye.

Ryan Adams, "La Cinega Just Smiled"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zOuH_iScVro

Love is like a fart. If you have to force it, it's probably shit.

The blunt simplicity of this gets me. :)

I think one should be upfront and honest always with others, ESPECIALLY those friends in the lifestyle.  The way we "play" with each other is actually very serious - mentally, physically, and can involve-hurt-confuse-elate the heart very easily too, IF the connection is right.   ... So I've learned through trial and error - honesty is always the best policy :)  

To me, a real "Dominant" is a man who gives off this strong, secure, sensual presence without trying.  He doesn't have to have go by the words "Lord" or "Master" ... although I do tend to use "Sir" a lot in conversation just to show respect.  And eventually a D/s relationship might be more accurately categorized as a Master/slave one of course.  

But anyway a good "Dom" might long to fuck a girl hard and feel the thud of her ass cheeks bounce against his balls in a hard rhythm while his cock pounds deep in one of her holes ... but he knows that first above his cock's needs comes the lesson he must give his sub (whatever it may be).  Then after that lesson, his girl will flower and blossom right in his hands, and the experience will be all the better because of his patience. ... That's just a example to get your attention.  (winks) 

...

I think, in my tiny opinion, that protection and stability and sense of humor are just as important as sensuality and an eagerness to try new things, and a love of bondage.  ... Well scratch that, sometimes I need to be controlled mentally and held down tight so much that I crave it and can taste nothing else but memories of it.  (smiles)  But a lot of times I just wish for someone to share a knowing smile, caress and cuddle with before sleep comes.  ... "Protection" is underrated, I feel.

I really can't stay - Baby it's cold outside.

Merry Christmas to everyone!

She wants a simple life.

She needs a simple man.

That don't drink or smoke,

But plays in a rock n roll band.

But she want you to hold her at night when she's lonely and cold.

Ain't got no trust in her Mamma.

Ain't got no trust in her Daddy.

Ain't got no trust in her Sister.

And she ain't got trust in You.

-The Black Keys, "No Trust"

(smiles)