i can check-off "do a sissy-sub photo shoot" from my list. i'm really going for it this year folks haha. i love getting to that point of no return, it's just so easy after that. Does anyone have any other fun ideas they want to try out?

Today i tied my first whippings:) i did 4 of them. i hope this is the beginning of a beautiful relationship with rope. i just uploaded a picture of them. im pretty sure it isn't typical for a sub to be tying anybody up but my interest is really the rope, the knot, the textures, the turns, the finished product. i think its really cool. funny that i'm just gettting into it. i'm forever submissive by heart, that hasn't changed, but i'd really like to practice some of these moves that the Knotty Boys are teaching (google them). Do we have any takers? i'll even pay for your time :) i'm no Dom and won't attempt to act like one...this is really about the ropes. Now to make a couple of changes to my profile...seeking switches...i haven't changed that status since i started 10 years ago. it has always been seeking Dominant Females. i know this sounds crazy, i can't imagine anyone being so trusting right away, so don't worry, i don't expect much right away. i'm very willing to build the trust. i'm very patient, i'll find you:)...and in the mean time i'll be practicing:)  

It was such a pleasure driving you tonight Goddess. You are always stunning, but tonight i really witnessed how flawless You are and You smelled like heaven. i hope i can still smell You in my car tomorrow on my way to work. i was so happy to hear that your date went well and that i could be a small part of that. Thank You so much Goddess for the chance to prove myself:)

To everyone else: Goddess Nena (GoddessNena5) on collarme is real and to be in her presence is nothing less than exhilarating and to serve her is a privilege like no other.

i get two options she said...one plate had pills and the other: semen. 

Just left Mistress's apartment, her ideas for the 24 hours of slavery, which has now been extended to a weekend, involves other men, tranny clubs, shaving all my body hair and drugs. she laughed and mused over some ideas then looked at me and told me "I'm going to give you the biggest mind fuck of your life. i might lose your friendship". i thought it would be a day of bondage, beatings, cleaning and a male blowup doll for humiliating games...but she literally joked about stuffing me in her trunk, driving me out to the desert and shoving a gun in my mouth, i laughed with her but i'm getting second thoughts. 

i was told to wear tights today at work. i wore 2 pairs. Both were too small for me. 10 hours later my toes were aching to be free and my hair follicles were sore (never experienced that before, maybe i should shave my legs next time). i loved every minute of it of course. 

hmmmm dee dee dee desire...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wDfGh7XE1m0

she wants a doughnut. i don't care, i'll make the drive, im just grateful to be on an assignment.

no task too small! :)

btw, like my skeleton costume?:)

i have Dommes who will vouch for me, i have Dommes that have become friends but why do i still have this dying need to prove myself to more and more women...will this ever go away...will i ever get enough abuse? i'm addicted to being treated like trash and making women happy how ever which way they (or you?) define that (and discovering that is definitely part of the fun). i'll get it done and the smile at the end of the day fulfills me. Damn i love being a bitch sissy servant:)

i've been presented with the most amazing gift. Its by far something i never imagined because how could this ever happen really...but a Domme has offered me 24 hours of slavery. wow!!! this is a once in a life time opp and i hope i do things that push my limits over and over and break me down and make me grow as a submissive. i actually think that if i get pushed to the point where i cry it will be so spiritual and surreal. There's definitely some planning that needs to take place but it will happen in the next few months. oh its going to be great:) i know ive worked hard but this is nothing i ever expected. As though i ever expected anything, the service is fulfilling enough

i make one hideous girl but it's just too much fun not to try :)

Thank you kindly Goddess for taking my picture tonight and capturing this moment forever

I just received my next command. I'm running to Costco and making some purchases. I feel so lucky to be used. I won't let you down Goddess.

SUBMISSIVE STATE OF MIND.

im at all times respectful, polite, eager, and open. i live to serve

yay! i just payed for a Goddess to get her nails done:) ...theres no better feeling right now

The work speaks for itself. i live to follow every tinny tiny little detail.

just added a picture of my collection of panties that i've acquired over the years. i don't like to shop for myself unless i'm ordered to. i'd rather shop for someone other than myself.

literally bought myself 2 dresses from forever 21 today, for the first time ever!!!!! my stomach was in my throat the whole time i thought i was going to die from the humiliation alone. i loved it though. 2 girls were obviously giggling and talking about me.

one of the dresses is too small and wont fit but i guess thats what i get for rushing it. i wish i could give it to somone.