RelevantWellephant

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There's a lot of big talk online. A lot of men speak confidently about wanting a strong, dominant woman, a Female-Led Relationship, or deep power exchange dynamics. But when it comes time to invest real time, energy, and intention, many seem to need to feel that dominance first from behind a screen before they're willing to step forward. I often wonder if that's part of my lack of success. It's difficult to build something meaningful when people are seeking an immediate experience or fantasy instead of taking the time to get to know the woman behind the words.

"You're not well off until you have something stamps can't obtain." (or somehting close to that ;)

Spilled Beans ? In the past, I have been a poor self-advocate. I think this character piece is part of My Queenly Quest. It is about finding someone C/competent, someone who has my best interests at heart and advocates for me when appropriate.

With the things I've been talking his ear off about for the past three months, I'll tell you when.? Realizing this moment to put into words - I long for part guardian and protector. the P/primary. An exchange that ignites U/us and, in meeting, produces pheromones.

I am a humble Mistress.
I come from humble beginnings that led to spending large amounts of my life in my own head with limited trust in others.
Neglect.
I'm very new to understanding what that really means and how deeply it has shaped me.
I think, on some level, I look for the spirit of a man who can see his future partner at her best, at her worst...
...and everywhere in between.
The whole package.
Someone who trusts that she works harder than anyone else at freeing the bonds within herself so she can radiate the light she was meant to shine.

I'm less likely to continue surface-level chatter, though I'll use it when I'm spinning too many plates.
The kind of friends where, if I visited their home, they'd already have the St. Andrew's Cross waiting for me, a place to sleep, breakfast in the morning...
I'm frequently busy with work or entertaining potential submissives (just the way it is).? If there's delay in response, this is most likely the cause.? I do try to get back to everyone.? However, sometimes, I miss people or do not respond because there's real lack of effort in even saying anything in your letter to me.

I live a busy, interesting, full, and engaging life? in abundance or scarcity.

I am, and will be for the foreseeable future, deeply engaged in personal healing and development.? For those of you that think all of that should be in my past and not cloud my present?? I think you're parcially correct.? I also believe part of it will unfold naturally, as is realistic, for the rest of my life.?
I'm looking in part for a partnership we can point out, when misbehaving, questioning where the behavior is coming from and not taking things so personally so as not to hurt each other mentally or emoationally.

I'm looking for someone who supports what I need to propel me toward what's calling me in this season of my life.
A life that blends vanilla and kink.
I know it's damn near impossible to find that in the vanilla world.
Then stack BDSM on top of it?
I've been out here long enough.
We'll know it when we've found it.

I've built a solid track record of moving myself in the right direction.
I can only imagine the heights with the right connection and support from an adoring partner
My number one love language is words of affirmation.

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And just like a strike of lightening.? A new song comes on and I hear lyrics only a couple of other songs I knew used them or something close. "Tura Lu"? it has the perfect ring to it.? ?Suits Me.? Even though Wide Bertha also rings true.? Tura Lu is like lyrics that have come my listening ears throughout my life.? Without any searching from me.? It is a root notion for me to realize.? In regards to me and my house. It would be a special private endearment.? And only used when souls meet.? However brief or prolonged.

Just because you actually read and might keep up with My journals don't think you know me.? That takes actual exchange.? ;)

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I have a calling bigger than myself to be seen and heard, because I have something of value to express.? I'm newer in showing as I learn new things about myself and those around me regularly.? There's always a first and a last of something or another.? I am at rare levels of firsts of what might have happened once upon a time.? Which means, there's plenty of people that have experienced things I have yet to give and receive.?

Also, a middle-aged woman putting herself first.? ?Non-negotiable.??I'm certain of roots that bind within me.

Stop the other shoe from falling.?

I dare you.

We are as individual sa each of our finger tips.? Every one.? I hold storng belief everything is interroconected by energy we're still trying to understand.? Different values and beleifs about that different ways it has (or is) in life experience.? In any gear.?

Who said Quigong & Kinky Partnered Yoga?!

I have strong notions of how things proceed with those I connect.? With certain chords hit sings different notes and makes music.? Symphonies and Encores.? How many Encores does one investigate and others file 13?? Do I need to lower my expectations?? ?

I have high expectations of myself and, in turn, I expect better in a partner.? Particularly after thourough training, which takes patience.?

As I chart paths on My map - following the compass of Jack Sparrow.? ?To navigate to the Priceless Jewel that is Myself.

Because I have confidence and I anchor My Will,? you flee.?

Few are Seekers of living in discomfort.? You don't have to completely understand something to love it.

The 1st Mate.? Protector of the Capitain. Like Capitain Shakespeare is to Tristan and the oblivious star that walked amongst them in Stardust..? ~~~>>@<<

Please-? if you have a notion or limitating belief that practicing compassion as part of the D/s dynamic prevents you from feeling submissive or like a slave.? Pass me by.? It won't work out.?

If you're into real abuse- it's a hard limit for me.? This means anything that causes permanent, irreversible damage to a person - psychologically, or physically.? Contracts aren't going to save my ass in court.??

I enjoy BDSM and take D/s seriously,? I also have a healthy dose of needing fun,? laughter, and full range of an emotional life.? ?Don't fret,? you'll know your place.??

I won't be emotionally manipulated, charged, or out of control giving lashes.? These are basic rules people that people in the BDSM community have taught me.? Not a random information off the internet or learning from porn videos. Get real!?

Lastly - I don't do repeat performances from a person in your past.? Your mind must be open to Me and My ways.?