**READ THIS CAREFULLY AND COMPLETELY; YOUR MESSAGE WILL BE DELETED WITHOUT A RESPONSE IF I CAN TELL YOU DID NOT DO YOUR HOMEWORK BEFORE MAILING ME! THIS IS YOUR FIRST TEST AS MY WANNABE SUBMISSIVE!** ~~IF YOUR MAIN PICTURE IS OF YOUR DICK OR YOUR BIRTHDAY SUIT, I'M NOT INTERESTED! Yes, I do have some sensual pictures on here, but they're just that - sensual, not blatant! I don't care to see what you look like naked or in various BDSM positions, and I DEFINITELY do not want to see your gaping ass-hole! Such a turn-off to me, those kind of pix are, and if you're the kind of person who would post such a thing, you are not for me!~~ I'm looking, first and foremost, for a REAL-TIME RELATIONSHIP; I am not in this merely for 'kinky sex', but to find someone that I hope will be a lifelong partner, albeit a submissive one. To that end, don't expect play at the first meeting or soon after. Just like one [generally] waits at least a while in the vanilla dating world, you will wait, too, so we can get the foundation right first. I want to Dominate your MIND before I dominate your body...**Also, you will notice that I do NOT have a list of My BDSM-related Likes; this is so that the basis of the relationship is not the kinky things on My Profile that you are interested in, but our interest in each other as people. I HAVE, though, listed things I Dislike or that are a Hard Limit, so that's out there from the get-go and we don't waste each other's time, not knowing.**
While I do believe that age is just a number, if you were born in 1982 or later (my oldest offspring was born in 1992, so I'm FIRM on that!) or before 1958, you need not apply. You also need not apply if you don't live close, as I'm not ending another possibility due to distance. Race is not a factor, but weight is, so please don't be too heavy (I won't define "too heavy", but you should know if you are) or too thin; I'm hefty myself, so I don't need or want a twig. I'm also NOT INTERESTED in bisexuals (yes, I am one and yes, it's hypocritical; deal with it!) or transgenders/cross-dressers.
Also, if you're going to TELL me how to dominate you, then you're not what I'm looking for. I respect limits, but I don't need anyone who's going to be [trying to] top from the bottom. Remember your place; you do as I determine and as I say. Period... I am somewhat new to this, however, so I do need someone who's willing to let me learn on them and has the patience to do so. Finally, I will immediately DELETE any and all messages with a request to "chat" or "webcam"; I am interested in neither and even if I were, I would rather be the one suggesting it, not you. So don't do it if you want any kind of response!
Wishing anyone who reads this a Happy Fourth of July, and here's hoping that since I'll soon have My own place, this time next year will be filled with fireworks of My own creation on some lucky young victim...er, partner.
Seriously thinking of "hiding" My Profile again, as I seem to be a magnet for so-called "sub"s who write Me and write Me and then suddenly stop - chicken-shit, maybe, now that things are getting real? - with nary a word. I get that people sometimes decide against other people for one reason or another, but how hard would it be to drop a line and say you changed your mind or whatever? The lack of manners these days is seriously appalling and I'm glad I haven't gotten with any of these people, as they obviously are not even worthy of Moi.
Thinking about going to see "Dark Shadows" this weekend, but more than likely will have to wait until finances are better, provided the movie is even still playing at that time.
I'm still staying with My cousin at the moment, but I've decided to quit spending nearly all of My time looking for employment - housing, it seems, will have to follow after employment is set - and focus on My personal life some.
To that end, I will be looking to finally meet - in a public place, over coffee or something like that - some of you that I've only been "look"ing at up until now.
Just in case you didn't know, I've moved to Chicago, as of Feb 24th, so that is where I am now looking.
Things are so different here, in the big city - vs. my little-ish home town - and it's quite the adjustment, but I am enjoying it.
Not having a good day at all. Youngest left for college this morning and I can't stop bawling! Years ago, I looked forward to an empty nest, now I just feel empty.
Very depressed tonight; my cousin had somehow forgotten that his oldest kid's got allergies so he can't have my cats in his place, after all (he'd already said it would be ok, so I was going by that), which means I've gotta have enough funds to have a place on arrival. Sooooooooo it may be Feb, after I've gotten my tax refund, until I can move and here, I've already given notice at work. *sigh*
Sooooo not having a good day! A mere 40 hours after picking my car up from getting the transmission replaced, it's now grounded again! - (1) It was still off when I picked it up, but I'm wondering if it was a problem that had been there but hidden by the tranny problems and (2) even more urgently, I think I may've damaged a strut or tire rod when I hit a bump a little too hard w/a donut on the damn vehicle...and while I could HAVE driven it with the former problem, I certainly canNOT drive it w/the latter. And of course, now I'm all out of my cushion money and today's check is the bill-payer...I am just so pissed beyond words, right now. Here, I'm supposed to be moving in just under two months and My damn car wants to act a bitch!
Yes, I AM STILL MOVING TO CHICAGO. No, there's NO POINT in starting anything with anyone here in Ohio, as I will only be here for another three months, Myself.
Well, I'm putting My search on hold for about 6 months, as I plan to move in about a year, when My youngest graduates high school and moves off to college, thereby emptying My nest. At this moment, I plan to move to Chicago, with My cousin, so I'll renew My search in that city in a few months. Thanks so much to all who have approached and/or befriended Me here.
**SIGH**
OK; NOW I'VE GOT TO ADD A FEW MORE THINGS HERE!
REMEMBER WHO IS THE DOMME, HERE - MOI! If you're going to come
to me, whining and always nagging about when next we're going to message,
email, IM, talk on the phone, etc, don't bother! Last I checked, *I* was the
one who determined IF and WHEN we will do any of the above, so the answer is ‘IF
AND WHEN *I* GET READY’! I have three teenagers, so if I want a bunch
of whining and nagging and fussing, I’ll go to them! ‘Mine’ however, (or even
potential ‘Mine’s), need(s) to be patient! If you can’t handle that,
leave My Profile and go look for a Domme who's into "Baby" subs
because I am NOT!... Sheesh! Talk about “topping from the bottom”! ... RANT OVER NOW...
TO
ONE SUB IN PARTICULAR, I WANT TO SAY “THANK YOU” SO MUCH FOR YOUR PATIENCE, FOR
YOU HAVE THE EXACT MINDSET I NEED IN MINE; I’M RUNNING THIS SHOW AND YOU JUST
WAIT FOR IT. I really enjoyed our dinner two Saturdays ago and look forward to
another meet. More to you via Message here. *wink*
**I WILL BE RECYCLING THIS PARTICULAR JOURNAL FROM TIME TO TIME, AS I DO NOT WISH TO ADD IT TO MY PROFILE, BUT IT NEEDS TO BE KNOWN! I WILL ALSO INCLUDE THIS IN MY INITIAL RESPONSE TO ANY MESSAGE YOU SEND ME, SO IF IT SEEMS REPETITIOUS, TOO BAD, DEAL WITH IT!**
I have two teens at home, which means My life is very busy. If I make an appointment with you, I am serious about the meet, as I have gone through great lengths - sometimes even rearranging other stuff I had going on - to see you, so you'd also better be serious, not allowing anything but death, sickness, an act of God, car trouble, or jail to keep you away! Meaning, if we plan to meet on, say, Saturday at 3pm, nothing of your own making should keep you away. Don't come to me at the last minute, claiming that you have to cancel because you're helping out an ex-, who is presumably an EX- for a reason! Do it and all communication ceases! If you won't keep your commitment to Me when you're being considered and therefore should be on your best behavior, what kind of sub will you be for Me? It can be said that we are not an us yet, so why should your Meet with Me take priority over someone you already know and have something with? If that is your viewpoint, I suggest you stop reading right now and move on to another Profile, for I've already stated why and if you can't understand that, you're not for Me.
I'm putting Myself in a time-out by "Hiding" My Profile again - which means no one is reading this, anyhow *lol* - so as to stop getting messages from either persons who are too far away to be interested in or those who wish to play games; I am not a child, so I have no time for them.
Well, what a week this has been! It
started off not-so-great - but Easter Sunday was excellent until My
youngest and her last boyfriend split up; of all the days! - as My
mother is in town and that's never the most pleasant of things. But
canceling that out and actually exciting Me is the correspondence I have
taken up with someone here. He's a bit younger than I like, but I'm
willing to give it a shot and see where it goes. Unlike other recent
write-mates, this one actually seems like he's serious and will be a
real contender!
So, Saturday, I went out to dinner with My former pet and I had a really really good time. I am not looking to rekindle anything, but it was so exhilarating speaking with a submissive who did not try to take the conversation to his kinks every few minutes. And this isn't only because we're just friends, now, for he was like this when he was Mine. And this illustrates exactly what I want; I am looking for a RELATIONSHIP, just like any other. Except it will be Female-Led and kinky. But before all that other stuff begins, a foundation has to be laid and I will not constantly talk kink with someone I'm courting or who's trying to court Me. Not to mention that I don't want to hear about what YOU want and like and want Me to do to you; since when is this about you?
*a certain someone may exclude himself, for I am not lumping him in with the "Do Me" types that I am so sick of*
I'm really starting to wonder if "Collar Me" should really be named 'Fakes, Flakes, and Half-Bakeds' *lol*
Well, 2010 @ CollarMe is off to a lousy start-- seems all the complainers at the Forums are right - the males here are just players or "do me"; as soon as I get what I think is a nice repoire w/someone, they suddenly stop writing and I know My mail has been read. I've been hear a couple of years now, perhaps it's time I cut My losses and hope I find someone REAL on the outside.
So. It's a New Year, now. That normally means Resolutions and while I do have goals in mind, I am of a mind that one should always be improving and changing, not just resolving on Jan 1st, but failing to meet those resolutions...In My case, I am continuing with My diet and, hopefully, finishing My novel before next Jan 1st.
Looking ahead to 2010! ...
I've got My eyes on a couple of potentials here and I really like what I'm seeing. I look forward to meeting and getting to know one or both of them, as I've been minus sub for faaaaaar too long. Now that one offspring's off to college and another one will be out in June, finding time is getting to be easier and easier.
HAPPY NEW YEAR, ALL!
Well, my youngest came back 12:07am Friday morning, and she was on Cloud 9, as her group WON! They won a bunch of video games and DVD's, but even more important, they won the right to return and compete two more times in August. Of course, I am thrilled to pieces for her!; their first time on national TV and they kicked a--! That's my girl!
Today, I'm bursting with pride for My youngest! Her dance group (she doesn't dance, just manages), Mane Atraktion, is appearing on "Wild Out Wednesdays" on BET this evening @ 6pm EST. If anyone here watches it, please vote for My Baby! Thank you!
A-aaaaaaaall right! Mom is finally gone back home, so I can go on with life as usual...which means finding a male to call My very Own! I've written a few that I haven't been in contact with for a while; mayhaps something will jell this time.
Mom is still in town, but only for another day, so I guess I can bear it.
But what's really getting my goat is all these males writing me from another state or even worse, another country! Just how the hell difficult is it to read a Profile w/some kind of comprehension? NO LONG DISTANCE means NO LONG DISTANCE!
Soooo, last night while cleaning, I went in the basement and stepped right on a rusty nail sticking out of a board that one of my offspring had irresponsibly left laying about. I did the responsible thing and went to the Hospital for a tetanus shot, but I am in SUCH pain today, meds notwithstanding. Now would be a really great time to have a sub tending me hand and sore foot! *sigh*
Well, I've "unhidden" My Profile now, as I'm back to looking in earnest. However, now I seek two things: (1) A romantic partner, to have for My very own and (2) A houseboy, who won't live @ my house, but will come over 2 or 3x/week, to keep up the house...It IS entirely possible that both persons can be one in the same - a romantic male partner who comes to the house and cleans for Me - but I've found that it's hard to find both in one person, as most romantic partners are willing to service in non-housekeeping ways and many "houseboys" just want to serve, not form a relationship. If I CAN find both in one, that's the ideal; if not, so be it.
I am soooooo addicted to Twitter now! I've known about the website for quite some time, but was never really interested. Now, I can't stop posting! I actually have two accounts and my 'family friendly' one is the one I "tweet" on most, but Queen will be tweeting more from here on out. Check Me out @ www.Twitter.com/THE_Queen_Isis
Hmmm. Long time no Journal! So this' what's going on in Queen's world...
On April 30th, I had my Final Divorce Hearing; THIS time, the dick showed up and is still requesting custody of our middle child, as if he's got a snowball in hell's chance! They interviewed her on May 6th about her wishes and I'm expecting to hear back from the Magistrate on that any day now.
My oldest will be graduating on Saturday and on Wednesday, with both a high school diploma AND an Associate's Degree, respectively; my, the Youngstown Early College is a great program! Then, in August, he's off to finish his college education, in PA. This'll free up quite a bit of time for Me, so I hope to have more free time to devote to My search for My sub. I'm quite excited about this, as I have two wonderful prospects with whom things are going famously and I'd like to set up "meets" if things continue in this manner.
As of this past Thursday, I traded in my Taurus for a BEAUTIFUL gold 1999 Chrysler 300M and am deliriously happy. Thank you to everyone who suggested a car in their area, but you can stop messaging me about this now.
QUEEN ISIS' DICTIONARY, pt 2:
sour grapes, ph. The state a would-be so-called wannabe "sub" finds himself in when he's turned down by a Domme (never mind that he can neither read nor comprehend, apparently, or if he could, he would not message someone from 100 miles away - which is clearly a "no no", as stated in the Domme's Profile over and over again) and then complains that the Domme is "fake" or "unwilling to meet".
Example: Since I turned down "insert name here", he's been complaining that I'm fake, when it's really that he's suffering from sour grapes.
The final resting place of mail that comes from those not suffer from it: IN THE TRASH! And they are banned from mailing the Queen hereafter.
I know I BITCH a lot here, but believe me, if you got My mail, you would too! But I do want to thank the submissives who have been nothing but polite and understanding, for even if WE do not make a match, I am sure you'll make someone very very happy.
I won't name names, but I also want to thank the three males I met with during the last two weeks - you know who you are! *wink* - for their wonderful manners and attention to detail. I'll be "speaking" more with you later.
OK. This SHOULD be really SIMPLE! What I am looking for, first and foremost, is a monogamous, one-Woman, one-Male RELATIONSHIP. So, if you are already "involved" with someone, don't even look My direction. I don't care that she "doesn't understand" you or that she is vanilla and "doesn't know"; if that's the case, either go to a Pro or break it off. When I find Mine, he will be Mine and Mine ONLY, for the Queen does NOT share!
Please let me serve you! Please let me serve you, Queen! Please let me serve you, Queen Isis! Really?! Fine, then do this --
Find me a car. And not just any car; I am looking for a SPECIFIC car. I want a 1999-2001 Chrysler 300M. The price range should be no higher than $3000-$3500. My favorite color is blue, so I'd prefer it be blue, but silver, gold, red, or white will also suffice. I have a 2001 Ford Taurus (about 110,000 miles, one dent, a bent rim, and a faint keying on the right side) that I want to trade for it and I'll finance the rest.
I'm not having any luck finding one anywhere near me, so I'm now asking for help...er, SERVICE! If you find it, you must be willing to drive me to and from the location, as my car won't make it too far OTR (I know; I will have to get it there eventually so as to have it appraised and then traded, but we'll cross that bridge when we get to it) and since you want so badly to SERVE me, you should be jazzed at the opportunity to both find me what I want and spend time with me while I complete the business. Who knows? Charm me enough and you just may be my new pet!
If you have any questions, don't delay in mailing me, as I really want this vehicle and I want it yesterday!
Today I am MURDEROUSLY angry because I got an email from My Attorney saying that my ex-prick did, in fact, file for a continuance of the divorce hearing, so the Magistrate vacated the Order from the 19th and reset the Hearing for April 30th, IN TWO FLIPPING MONTHS!...WTF?! -- How the hell could he have filed it in time yet neither my Attorney nor the Magistrate got it in time?! This SOOOOO bites! If he's allowed to prolong this for too long, I am so just gonna lose it! I just want this the hell over with and I just know the a-hole is doing this to fuck with Me [since he can no longer fuck Me].
He needs to be hoping that it doesN'T go to full-length trial cuz I will so rip him a new one from the stand! He's gonna wish he'd never heard of Me after this!
*dances around* Today, I went to my Divorce Hearing! The d--k didn't show up, so the Magistrate went ahead and gave Me everything I requested. He did say the d--k has 14 days to contest the decision(s), but I daresay that even if he did, he'd probably be turned down since he couldn't even make it his business to be there today!
And since there [hopefully] won't have to be a 2nd hearing, a full-length trial, that's more moolah back in My pocket from the retainer I paid! Yeah, baby!
Still, I do kind of wish it had gone to trial; I can only imagine the Judge's laugh as (s)he looked @ his requests. And I'm salivating just thinking about ripping him a new one during my testimony. *sigh*
Two more things: (1) If you cannot do week-ends, DO NOT WRITE ME, as week-ENDs work best for Me! (2) If you're married, DO NOT WRITE ME; I want someone of My own, not someone I'll have to share!
OK. Now I'm back to looking in earnest...I have reached out to a handful of males, just to see them turn into flakes (and not even the pretty SNOW kind *hmph!*), so I hope I don't get too much more of that...This means DO NOT MESSAGE me, begging for attention or what-have-you, just to not respond when I do answer. If you're not serious, don't message me. And also don't message me if you live too far away to do me any good!
LEARN HOW TO READ, PEOPLE! I DO NOT NEED A PHOTOGRAPHER ANY MORE! QUIT MESSAGING ME, ASKING ABOUT IT; IF YOU COULD READ THE JOURNAL ENTRY WHERE I ASKED FOR ONE, THEN YOU CAN READ THE ENTRY WHERE I SAY I NO LONGER NEED ONE!...SHOULD YOU DECIDE TO BE HARD-HEADED ABOUT IT, YOUR MESSAGE WILL BE DELETED AND YOU WILL BE IGNORED FROM NOW ON, AS THIS LACK OF READING WITH COMPREHENSION IS NOT SOMETHING I DESIRE IN MY SUB!
Not to just plaster other sites on here, but I just found a drawing for "The bestest and largest ever Kinky Christmas Stockings"! Since I want another chance in the hat - hey, nothing like honesty, right?! - I'm putting the link here: http://.com/kinky_christmas_stockings
Well, now that the craziness of the holidays is over, I can get back to searching in earnest. But while I'm looking, I'd really like to see the movie, "Twilight". Anyone nearby wanna take me?
OK; I've found a photographer, so I hope the offers for such stop now.
Thank you all who inquired!
I haven't been at Collar Me or Collar Chat so much lately, cuz sometimes life is just a bitch! And such is the case now.
But I won't complain because I have found an adult auction site wherein I can auction off my castoffs, such as used underwear, used socks, hair, etc, so at least I'm getting more moolah for Christmas shopping! Anybody want something? You can bid...after you find out where I'm posting stuff.
I've recently discovered a naughty online auction site, wherein I want to sell some stuff, but I need a good photographer to help take pix! Of what? Well *chuckles* LOTS of stuff -- me in the bathtub, me shaving my legs, shaving my pubes, pissin' my panties on the toilet, and so on...
I wonder if any good little subbies who live in Youngstown wanna help out?
No, I do NOT IM or chat, so don't invite me! Also, don't invite me to webcam; I have zero interest in that.
*sigh* At least you guys have learned the definition of "lives close to me".
QUEEN ISIS' DICTIONARY: live close, ph. Live in such a proximity to me that should I need you for any reason, you can either (1) drop what you're doing and attend to me, (2) make arrangements to see me when whatever you're doing is handled, or (3) make arrangements to see me the next day if something serious is going on, thereby making you completely unavailable. Synonyms: down the street,on the other side of town, a hop skip and jump away, WITHIN 35 MILES OF ME. Antonyms: in another state (excepting parts of PA), in another country, OVER 35 MILES AWAY FROM ME. Example: Since "insert name here" lives close to me, I'm going to have him come over and help me celebrate the raise I unexpectedly got today. Exceptions, aside from parts of PA: NONE. The final resting place of mail that comes from those not close: IN THE TRASH, UNANSWERED.
Yep, the search is back on. I just hope the potentials are better @ reading w/comprehension this go-'round. And I was quite thorough in the Interests section, so males will know right off the bat what I will and won't have in my life. Let's see who's intelligent out there!
**I HAVE MADE MY CHOICE, SO I AM NO LONGER ACCEPTING CANDIDATES! IF YOU MESSAGE ME, YOU DO SO IN VAIN, FOR IT WILL BE IGNORED!! THANK YOU!** ... Yes, I have made my decision and I couldn't be luckier, seeing as how some people have been on here for months and are still looking. To that end, I have removed my Profile, but I'm keeping my account, as I do like participating on the Message Boards at Collar Chat, but I will NOT be answering messages from new contacts!
**ATTENTION: NO LONGER ACCEPTING NEW CANDIDATES! But I am still open for messaging with those with whom I've already been mailing!** ... Yesterday's meeting with a potential sub went really well - our likes and dislikes, both vanilla and BDSM, are very similar, and he's totally willing to submit to those things we differ on; his temperament is good and I don't think I have to worry about him having bouts of rebelliousness; and he's quite easy on the eyes, so I can totally see myself BEING with him *lol* ... I still have a couple of more meets, but this male has really set the bar high, fellas, so if you want to serve me, you're gonna have to step it up! *sits back and waits to see who, if anyone, can take up the challenge*
**ATTENTION: NO LONGER ACCEPTING NEW CANDIDATES!** I have NOT yet made a final decision, but I have narrowed the field down to a manageable short list. If you've already been messaging me, you may continue writing until I tell you otherwise, but I do not wish to entertain new inquiries! Thank You.
I'm in really good spirits today, as I've had some wonderful conversations with potential subs in the last few days and am now starting to meet them. The male I'm meeting tomorrow seems to be right on the same page with me and the male that I'm IMing with right now also seems to be right with me about a lot of things. I'm very excited about this journey I'm taking and hope to find a match that will benefit all parties involved sometime soon.
Ok, no more bitching about out-of-staters, I'm onto other tasks, namely weeding through all of my mail. While I have told a few males right off-the-bat that it's a no, I do need to get it down to an even more manageable group and I have to admit that there are a few that have majorly peaked my interest. While I'm thrilled about my new job, it is going to make it a little more difficult to go out - while making sure my offspring do what they need to - but I'll manage; everyone I know says I'm the "Queen" *lol* of multitasking!
Course, in this case, it's easier said than done, as just as I've told three males I'm not interested, five more new ones show up. That's okay, tho, it gives me more options and once I'm satisfied that my boy is in the group, I'll let everyone know I'm no longer looking.
*sigh* More mail from out-of-staters! I hate to not respond to everyone who contacts me, but now it's gotten to the point where I'm going to take advantage of the "Mail Controls" and redirect all males from out-of-town to my Bulk Mail. I've already done that with males from out of the country and males who have absolutely no profile. Hopefully, it'll make the weeding process easier...
I've also specified exactly where in Ohio I'm from, as someone pointed out that it's hard to know if you're in the vicinity or not if you don't know the city in which one lives. While he did have a point, I would think that someone from California, New Mexico, Ireland, or New Zealand would know they're too far! *sigh* Must I really spell everything out, in crayon?
More worthless messages! Today's mail is full of males from out-of-town, which isn't bad in and of itself, but my Profile clearly states that I want someone close to me! I'm just not in the position to try to work a LDR, nor do I want to!
But all is not hopeless; there is some potential and one male in particular has really peaked my interest. I hope for a RL get-together sometime soon to see if we "click".
Today I'm annoyed by all the males who contact me wanting to pay me to do certain things and the ones who clearly just want to play right away. Is my Profile THAT hard to read? *goes to make sure it's still in plain English*
So, yesterday I found out I got the job I've been hoping for, which is great, but the hours will be Mon-Th & Sat 11am-7pm, so it'll be a little hard to find time to find "the one", but I'll keep at it, as I really need someone. More than ever, though, I know that I need someone close to home.
Today I finally got back online after about a week off. Boy, did I have a ton of mail waiting! I hope no one thinks I was just ignoring them, because even if I'm not interested, I am courtous enough to respond.
I am gonna wade thru all this mail and get back to my potentials in as timely a fashion as I can.
Okay. So, today I changed my Profile to say that I'm a Domme, but that I'm also willing to bottom on occasion, as I was getting far too much mail from interested Doms and at this point in time, I am definitely not willing to sub.
I've also gotten a few mails from males who are bi-. While I have nothing against people who sip from their own pool (heck! I'm one myself!), I do prefer that any males who come to Me be completely STRAIGHT.
Oy vey! So, he bailed on me. Which I actually thought would be the case, seeing as he just contacted me out-of-the-blue, on Myspace, when my site there isn't even BDSM-oriented. He said he saw my profile and just hoped that I wanted a "white pig" to serve me domestically and financially. Being skepitcal, I mailed with him, but took it all with a grain of salt, figuring that he was probably just playing around. And I appear to have been correct, as today he mailed me, saying his "job transfer" fell through, so he can't serve me after all.
Oh, well; now that leaves me open to a sub on here who may wish to serve me...which means that instead of you telling me what you want and are willing to do, you are willing to do whatever I say, whether it "interests" your or not. That's the meaning of the word "submissive" guys - your only desire is to do as I see fit, whatever it is. I will, of course, respect your limits, but beyond that, what I say goes. I decide where to go to eat, I decide what movie we see, I decide what kind - if any - of sex we'll have. You comply. Period. Anything else, and either you're just acting or you've mistitled yourself and you're really a bottom or have a/some fetish/es. If you can't follow any and all orders (w/n your limits), don't bother mailing me, because I've had enough actors in my life and can't be bothered yet again.
