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About Quebie
Master who understands the varying differences in lifestyles, very strong dominant.
Within my life I find that there are many who would wish to be mine, but who are not willing to take the steps necessary to show what they are. Many on here claim to be something, but when you read what they say it becomes very evident that it is not the case. I cannot help that people are not what they say they are, it is up to them to be honest to themselves as much as others.
Once again I find myself looking for those who would be true to what they claim to be, the one I thought who was mine gave me reasons to believe otherwise. I am a Master, if I cannot make? you mine and? you give me reason not to, so be it. To be a slave takes a strong personality, not defiance, nor brattiness, nor any other kind of intolerant behavior, but a special kind of strength that I have yet to find in any I call mine.
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Is it time for an update in this journal? I am not sure but will put something here just so that people know I am alive! lol. Anyway, the way I choose to live my live and my search for someone who could be a part of that life goes on. As I have said in past posts, domination is very much a part of my life. Mental domination, the ability to dominate another completely, make them feel that they totally belong to you, TPE as it is called, is very much a part of who I am. But it is only between myself and a consenting partner that such a relationship lays, in the normal world that goes on around us, such dominant displays are frowned on so it is wise to simply channel that dominance into the way we project ourselves as a person, strong, confident and assured. It is the way I choose to be. Anyways, there isnt much for me to say right now, except that I am still searching for someone to be a part of my life. |
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Time changes all of our outlooks, new experiences bring new perspectives and new opinions. Though I enjoy the Gorean side of life and would love for that kind of life within the environment in which I live, such a thing is not possible within todays society. So I am sitting back and doing what is comfortable for me and those I choose to surrond myself with. I remain and always will be, a strong dominant. But one who cares for those he chooses to make his own. I want to live a comfortable life, one that is happy and shared with another who feels the same way. People tend to read about the gorean side of my life and panic, they shouldnt. I am who I am and when given a chance to prove that and show what I can be, those I choose to be with find me very acceptable, but my problem is.. do I find them acceptable? |
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Well, it seems my journal entries are stirring up some interest. Good. It means that people still take note of what I say, that is encouraging. Well, read this next part.. my journal is my provate thoughts, they are not up for your discussion nor for you to lambast me with emails saying that what I am writing is wrong. For when I write something, it is based on facts and personal experience. Nor do I write it for you to hold a discussion with me, should you want a discussion on a particular topic, then dont hide it, let the entire forum decide if they have a say, take it there and raise it as a general topic, if you are afraid to do so because you are afraid of the answers you will get, then you have no moral right to challenge anothers thoughts in private. I stand by what I have written as no one has come up with a credible argument against it. Deal with it. Calling others names or labeling them because they express their opinions in their journals loses you credibility and increases the status of the one you would lambast. Deal with it. I re-read what had occurred and again I still find it incredulous what had happened and those I have spoken to regarding the issue have been just as amazed as I was. Today is the second anniversary of the Black Tarn on Collarme, the current one is no longer even remotely close to being the same room as the one I created, it has lost a great deal of its Gorean authenticity and genuineness, those do not come from me (though I agree with it based on the trips I have made there) but from the mouths of others who have been of the room. That is a pity, for I would have genuinely loved to have seen the room grow and become a beacon that shone bright amongst so many dull lights. But I have watched it grow dull, become the same as other Gorean rooms or even less than some. I have watched it slip down the rankings and become less than what it was and should be. Instead of concentrating on making the room the embodiment of Gorean standards, it has steadily declined and become less than it should be. Whilst the owner of the room bears ultimate responsibilty for that, it is also down to those around him to help guide him and to be Gorean to the best of their abilities, from the brief visits I have seen, that seems to be an issue for some. Still, I havent seen all of those connected with the room, so perhaps there is hope there yet. Time will tell. |
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Its a shame to see what is being done with the room that I started here on Collarme. I began the Black Tarn Inn as a strictly Gorean room, following the phillosophies and strictures as laid down within the Gorean Chronicles. It was a room that allowed anyone to come in and be Gorean, you had to declare your status when challenged and meet the challenges of those who controlled the room. If you failed to show the Gorean side, then you were asked to leave or removed if you became to rowdy. At no time were you not permitted to IM with a slavegirl if she was serving you or if she were free to do so. Any guests in the room could freely chat with other guests if they chose to do so, there were no restrictions on guests interacting with guests (slave or free alike). However, it has been brought to my attention that if you are a guest in the Inn, you may not IM or chat with anyone else in the place or you will be removed. So a free man may not IM with a guest 'slave' in the room, collared or not. All done to 'protect' the slave. This is wrong in the eyes of Goreans, for no slave should be 'protected' by free men, they are there for the enjoyment of all who wish to. Should that slave desire protection then she has the right to ask for it, to impose it implies that the slave has rights, within the Gorean phillosophies, they do not. Gorean slave girls exist for the strong men, those who would take them and use them for what they are, females. Wholly, fuly and without reservation. They are wonderful and marvellous creatures and well capable of dealing with those who dont know how to handle them. Gorean men do not protect slaves who wander into their path, they capture them and make full use of them, that is the way it is. To force protection on them and deny others the right to capture them (even though it be in IM and no ones business but the slave and the captor) is so not Gorean.
That raises another question however, how does one determine if two people are in conversation with each other? Saying that you can read an idle time. means nothing other than that a person has been chatting to 'someone', to whom that may be, is no ones business but those who talk, for it can be people completely unrelated to the room, such as a server op. If you claim that you can tell when two people are chatting to each other, then you have either been told by one or you are listening in on their conversation. Either way, that is an invasion of privacy and as such, punishable inder the laws and rules of the server. Be careful, oh ye great and serious ops of the Black Tarn, when an idiot comes along who has half a brain, you may find yourselves locked out of your own room for just that offence. |
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This has been a while since I last created a journal entry. Life moves on within the online community as it does online. The life I created within SL was a wonderful experience, however it is too full of game players to be something that should be taken seriously. A game is what it is touted as and a game it is. There is some serious side to SL in that you can create and operate a business within it and it is for that reason that a there is a lot of commercial activity within that environment, however, if you just want to go there to play a game, just remember that lag is ahuge issue within SL, it is created online and creates the worlds on your computer dynamically by downloading them from online, hence the lag.
It was a very interesting place for me to visit as it is the place where I met a number of girls who wanted to do more than just play and from those I have now acquired a girl who is also registered here on collarme, in SL she is called Alura, here on collarme she is called MissA. She serves me in all ways that she can, she is devoted and wonderful within her service to me and has won my love of her. I may revisit SL as I may revisit the collarme chat rooms, we shall see. |
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Its interesting how things develop within the wonderful online world. Within SL I have now procurred some 5 slavegirls. All of them devoted to me and all wonderful girls in their own ways, beautiful in life and within themselves as well as without and within second life. I have made the decision (yet again) to seek real life with my girl, Shyloh. She is very committed to this and understands that it is going to require work. It is very difficult to find a woman who is willing to submit to a man in every way, to be pure slave for the rest of her life and serve the desires of a man for purely his pleasure. It is not something that many women are willing to commit to, hence the reason that it is taking me so long to find exactly the woman I want in real life. I am exacting and can be very exasperating at times, but I do provide a sense of fullfillment and passion that is unrivalled (in my opinion) as well as strong guidance and total ownership. I am pure TPE. My real world committments are now increasing to the point where it is making online communication between me and thiose I care for, difficult. However, if I am to ever achieve my goal of bringing shyloh to me, it is something I am going to have to deal with in a way that is unique to me. I love her and she is in love with me, I am going to work hard at making this happen as it is what we both wish for. The Inn is complete and looking wonderful. Doubtless there will be many changes over the coming months, but everything is now in place for a grand opening and the beggining of business, if you are reading this, I will be providing details as to the opening date as well as links to pictures of the interior and such, I hope to see you there if you can make it. |
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Time does fly, inevitably. I have completed the creation of the main building itself and the installation of the furnishings is now well advanced I hope that today I will be able to finish things and be able to announce the opening of the Black Tarn on second life soon. I have acquired a new first girl there, she is beautiful and gorean, totally devoted to her master and complete in her slavery to me. She understands fully her role and her place, though she is no doormat but gives me all I could want to see in a kajira. The marbling in the Inn looks impressive with the fireplace looking especially good. The dance pit is in place with the pole centered and music piped into the area. A small stage has been built where musicians may play and girls may dance. it will be interesting to see what can be created on there. The alcoves are built and within each I intend to create a theme from the books, Ar, Tuchuck, Red Savage.. etc. So that people may come and enjoy a small part of the books. It will be interesting to see how things progress as time goes on. |
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I have now been a part of second life for almost a month now and my plans there are progressing. I have acquired a number of new slavegirls and my plans to build a new Black Tarn there are well ahead. The new place will be different from the BT here on collarme. Gorean to the core, yes, but more tolerant of others as I have found that there are a whole lot of people out there who wish to learn about Gorean customs and ways. It seems that Gor has had a huge impact on the cummunity there, but it is a flavor of Gor and is not book. They are clamoring to know what the book version of Gor is all about and why it seems to have changed so much on second life. I have located a place to situate the BT now and it is a marvellous place, but of course, as with everything, it is going to cost me (chuckles), but the financing has already been approved, it is merely a matter of funds transfer and the start of building my new Inn. Second life it seems has thrown Que a huge challenge, it is one I am meeting head on and enjoying the challenge it represents |
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Well now, the days came, the days went. clover and I parted as it became obvious that she could not accept that I was Gorean and everything that it entailed. I took her to another place in order to have room to grow and understand one another better. There she found that being the slave of a Gorean Master was not an easy situation, especially with one as strong as I. It was with regret that I parted from her, but I will not compromise my principles for no one, no matter the depth of my feelings for them. |
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The time is counting down to the day I will meet clover. Just a few more days now and she will be wearing my collar for real. She is nervous, which is understandable, however, she is committed and wanting very much to wear my collar and be mine for the rest of her life. I am looking forward to it.
I just changed my profile photo from the one of me in a kilt to one of me currently. It seems to be generating some interest and a fair few comments! LOL. Still, to all those who ask, yes, it is me. |
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Well a man cannot truly survive without a slave at his feet.. and clover now kneels at mine, a real beauty and mine to keep. |
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Times change and with that people move on and things develop. The Inn has moved from a roleplay home gving training to prospective kajirae, to one of reality where all Goreans are welcome and made to feel at home. Training still takes place there, I take girls who show promise and try to mold them to fit with the lifestyle, using them as kajira should be used and bringing them to a level of submission they have never felt before. It is becoming a wonderous place, my home, with many coming there and many finding the place to be something that is missing in their lives. I have just lost the most wonderful free companion to issues that are personal between us. But she is one I love very much and I always will. It makes an impact on the way that life is viewed and reorganised and the emotions that goes through ones head. But I am Gorean and will not let it impact me to the point of leaving the lifestyle I love so much. I am Que, arrogant as that sounds, but there are none like me and if you are reading this and agree that I am one arrogant son of a bitch, let me leave you with this thought:
You may judge and scorn the Goreans if you wish. Know as well, however, that they judge and scorn you.
They fulfill themselves as you do not.
Hate them for their pride and power. They will pity you for your shame and weakness.
~Beasts of Gor, page 11~
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Owner of the Black Tarn Inn, a chat room on the collarme server. Be welcome to come in and take part in the roleplay but be Gorean, thats all I ask of visitors to the Inn. The rules are there for all to see and entrance into the room is acceptance of those rules. If you are not prepared to play your role according to those rules and the Gorean lifestyle.. then stay away as I guarentee, you will be removed. |
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Male Dominant, 35, Floral Park, New York
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Female Switch, 46, Tampa Area, Florida
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Female Dominant, 49, Plymouth, Massachusetts
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Male Switch, 22, Madison, Wisconsin
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Female Submissive, 27, Austin, Texas
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Female Dominant, 42, Detroit, Michigan
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Female Dominant, 41, Newark, New Jersey
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Female Dominant, 33
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Female Dominant, 35, Tampa, Florida
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Female Dominant, 33, Phoenix, Virginia
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Male Submissive, 63, Biddeford, Maine
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Female Dominant, 20, Detroit, Michigan
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