I've been mulling over adding a couple of points to my profile, but I think adding to the journal would suffice.

I don't have loads of money. I will be starting a new career very soon. Unless something huge happens, I don't plan on moving anytime soon. Currently, my life is in a holding pattern.

Also, when my Dominant nature peaks, I am not the type that wants to command or lead other people. When the submissive side comes up (which is rare unless it's with the right people) it's usually because I feel safe. As I stated in my profile, I don't lead a day-to-day BDSM lifestyle. It's more of a feeling and a state of mind to me.

If you do contact me, don't expect miracles and don't expect me to have all of the answers. In many ways I'm just putting my life back together again. I am very careful with whom I invest my time in. I've just been hurt and emotionally taken advantage of so many times that delving into some sort of emotional situation, whether good or bad, is not at all fun for me. If you really like me, help me make it fun! I'm not in this thing to play. I am looking for my life partner.

I only ask to be accepted and loved for who I am and what I stand for. Those that do not or cannot respect that do not get much attention for me. I no longer have time for games. I have ADHD and I am quite high-maitanence.

If you read my profile, that's pretty much me in a nutshell. I don't have the inclination to mail my profile to 100 different people for 5 responses. Neither do I have the time to constantly be at the computer. I have a life.

Be prepared. If we hit it off, I'm going to want to talk on the phone. If we hit it off there, I'm going to want to meet. If we hit if off from there, the sky is the limit.

Now that I have said those things, there is one more thing that I would like to add:

WHEN I DEVOTE MYSELF TO SOMEONE I AM ONE OF THE MOST LOYAL MEN YOU WILL EVER MEET IN YOUR LIFE AND I CAN ROLL THROUGH ALMOST ANY CHANGE AND ANY CHALLENGE THAT COMES UP.

Thanks for reading!

As I read over what I have written so far, I realize that I haven't said what I hope to find.

Well, I really don't know exactly. I know that she will be easygoing but something of a perfectionist. She will be kind and yet not put up with a lot of bullshit. She will be pliable and yet be able to stand her ground. Someone that wants to walk the journey looking at the horizon while hopping over the potholes in the road.

I have come to believe that I will probably not meet the girl of my dreams here but, hey, who knows.

In my travels and ponderings of BDSM and of life in general, I have found that I have some heavy caretaking aspects to my personality. When I meet "my girl" I wish to explore being a DaddyDom with her.

Also, I don't look at this life as a hurried affair. As much patience and learning that I will do with my girl, she will be expected to have the same patience and will to learn and explore. I am not perfect and I have a need to discover and make mistakes. Isn't that what being human is all about?

My experience level isn't high although my life experience is extensive.

Just because in a moment of madness
I took advantage of your sweet love
Don’t just hand me a lifetime of sadness
When there’s so little I’m guilty of

One chain don’t make no prison
Two wrongs don’t make no right
One rain don’t make no river
One punch don’t make no fight

Can you spare me a little affection
Would that be askin’ too much of you
Don’t point love in another direction
I swear I’ll make it up to you

One chain don’t make no prison
Two wrongs don’t make no right
One rain don’t make no river
One punch don’t make no fight

There’s a bed I’m keepin’ empty for you
There’s a lot I know I’ve got to prove

Don’t let a simple misunderstanding
Be a mountain that we can’t move

Just heard this while watching Baseball:

What is a "sports hernia"? A hernia is a hernia! I once had a "sex hernia" but it wasn't bad. I was in and out in a couple of days.

Totally hilarious!

I haven't lost my desire
I wouldn't beg U
Instead of playin' deduction of what 2 do
They called me rude often
When I called their hand
They judged me and told me that we're through
"Why can't U be like the others?"
I cried out over and again
"Why can't U learn 2 play by the rules?"
But maybe at last it's the end
Because I am not like others
I'm unique in the respect I'm not U

I know in my heart I would try 2 love U
I wouldn't try 2 hurt U despite all the ways U try 2 hurt me
U call me a fraud, an uncaring wretch
But I'm an artist and my only aim is 2 please
Between U and yours, myself and mine
Isn't life cruel enough without cruel words, cruel words?
U see, words are like shoes
They're just something 2 stand on
I wish U could be in my shoes
But they're probably so high, U'd fall off and die
4 U words are definitely not shoes
They're weapons and tools of destruction
And your time is boring unless U're putting something down
What would life be if we believed what we read
And a smile is just hiding a frown?
Come now, isn't life a little better with a pair of good shoes?

Beautiful, Loved and Blessed

Wake up
U're beautiful, loved and blessed
U feel me? (Think I don't?)

When U found me, I was just a piece of clay
I was formless, U gave me a new name
With the breath of life I now live abundantly
All I needed was the potter's hand
And the blood on Calvary (That's right)

But 2 much power (Tell it)
Can sometimes turn 2 shame
2 much desire
Sometimes make U feel the same (Come on)
But 4giveness is how U win the game
I begged 4 truth, now I know the truth
And that is when U came and said I was...

CHORUS:
Beautiful, loved and blessed
I'm better than the day b4
Cuz U made me confess that I am...
Beautiful, loved and blessed
When U're free U're really free indeed
All U gotta do is just plant the seed

A constant battle 2 stay ahead of the game (Stay ahead of the game)
Is anybody famous when everybody wants fame?
Always trying 2 break U down
Thinkin' that it'll raise 'em up
I just wanna be happy
Come take this bitter cup from me

If I were 2 ever write down my life story
I could truly say (truly say) with all the fame and glory
I was just a piece of clay in need of the potter's hand
Cause when U whispered in my ear
The words I so now understand, oh...

CHORUS

Everything U made U said, "That's good"
B4 the fall of man U said, "That's good"
Every time I walk in faith, that's good
U let me see another day, that's good
B4 the earth was made U said, "Támar,
I will lead the way and U'll go far"
Knowledge and understanding
Understanding is good
And when I wake up in the morning
All I hear in my hood
Is people saying that they're...

Beautiful, loved and blessed (Beautiful)
Will U rescue me from the darkness?
And now I just must confess
That I am beautiful, loved and blessed
When U're free, U're free indeed
All U gotta do is just plant the seed

Hey, hey, hey
Wake up it's a new day
Hey, hey, hey (That's right)
Wave your hands in the air and say
Hey, hey, hey
Wake up it's a new day (New day, y'all)
Hey, hey, hey
Wave your hands in the air and say

Beautiful, loved and blessed (Beautiful)
U rescued me from the darkness in the wilderness
That's why I am beautiful (beautiful), loved and blessed (blessed)
No matter what the challenge
I'll always pass the test

That's what I am
Beautiful, that's what I am {x2}
I don't mean 2 put nobody down
Still I must confess that I am...
Beautiful, that's what I am
That's what I am
When U wanna give up, don't cuz U know
U always got a friend

That's what I am, that's what I am
That's what I am, beautiful, beautiful
That's what I am, that's what I am
That's what I am, beautiful, beautiful
Oh yeah (Oh yeah)

Beautiful {x8}