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PrttySubnNdofD Female Submissive, 19, Beaumont, Texas	PrttyWmn21 Female Dominant, 23	Prttylilken Female Dominant, 21, frisco, Texas

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	About prttyktty9 Recently a friend of mine and I started a new BDSM group here in Jacksonville, FL, if you would be interested in information on that group, please send me an email and I will send you information on it. Please do NOT contact me if You are seeking a submissive, good time or fast lay as I am very happily collared to a wonderful Master.

Sometimes life goes well and at others it doesn't. The past few weeks have been very rough....the loss of 3 dear pets and then a stay in the hospital. Yet even with that, I have managed to keep going and have tried to keep a positive outlook on things. I have been honored to be included into the inner sanctum of the SECC as the volunteer coordinator....SECC is the Southeast Erotic Cultural Conference to take place about this time next year here in Jacksonville. I know through this adventure I will be making a lot of new friends within the community. I also found out today that a long awaited court date has finally arrived and it will possibly turn my life around. Playing the lotto looks like it may pay off this time! LOL

I wanted to thank all of You who have written me over the past few months showing support. Funny how we get the most support from total strangers....

I am still daily amazed at the behavior of people here. Once again I have come under attack of sorts for something I don't even understand! Not only have I been accused of being mean and rude, the person has now blocked me so I can't even find out what the heck I did! We were talking and even joking and the next thing I knew He was angry and sending me hate filled mail with no opportunity to respond or explaination of what I had done! How can people be like that? If nothing else I feel I should be told what exactly I did wrong so I can learn from that and correct it even if it does not repair any damage I did to a newly forming "friendship". I just don't understand it. Even when I am approached by someone who is being obnoxious or rude or just disgusting, I am nice and polite. Granted as of late, I have not always responded to all of my email as I have learned that even a polite no thank you seems to open up a long barage of emails trying to change my mind and such. I am sorry, if someone is just too far away or into something I consider a hard limit and they don't want to acknowledge that, I have the right to decline and not be continually harassed on the matter. In this lifestyle even more than the vanilla, no does mean no, no matter how nicely it is phrased.

Desire, lust, passion and bliss
All conveyed to Him by my kiss

Silk, satin, leather and lace
Worn to see pleasure on His face

Cuffs, straps, ropes and chain
In thse with joy do I strain

Tremble, shake, moan and grind
As He touches body, heart and mind

Submissive, subservient, slut and slave
Each and all to be for Him I crave

To sit at His feet
skin to skin our bodies meet
no need for chains to hold me
no rope could so tightly bind
as that bond within my mind

To be His forever more
no longer wandering an empty shore
no need to dream of perfection unattainable
in my heart and soul it is within Him
for Him my only desires stem

To be the light in His darkness
and the joy in His sadness
to serve His need for cruelty
and relish His desire for the tender
on me His needs and desires to render

Can any joy be so sweet
when two of the same kind meet
they to share life and love
with a trust and connection so binding
all else seems pale in its light so blinding

too much has been happening inside me of late and here. I once thought for sure I knew what I wanted. Now I have learned that I don't. I was given the opportunity to have everything I was looking for and I have run from it. I do hope someday to have a 24/7 life with a Dom that I fit with. Apparently however, I am not yet ready to settle down to that degree. I enjoy meeting people far too much. I enjoy being able to make a choice of whether to meet someone for lunch or dinner without getting permission. I enjoy having the option to play or not. How long that will last I don't know. I have been gone from people in general for some 5 years, now I am enjoying the reemergence to life. I hurt someone very special in learning that lesson. I will carry that shame with me for a very long time. I hope that He can find someone who He deserves to make Him happy. Meanwhile, I keep flitting around, never really landing in one place or the other. I have been verbally attacked on here several times now for the journal entries I have made, and while I believe everyone has a right to their own opinion and even the right to disagree with me, I do not agree that someone has the right to attack me for what I think or feel. I have not mentioned anyone's name in my journals nor would I even if it weren't against the policy. I will gladly have conversations with someone about something as long as it doesn't start with and out and out attack! I always try to be polite and a lady but when under attack I have the right to defend myself in what ever manner I choose. If you don't like what I am saying, then by all means, stop reading! Words can be a powerful weapon in the right hands, and I do have the ability to use them. I would ALWAYS rather be kind but can be forced into cruelty with them. As I said, I welcome conversation even of opposing views...but will not tolerate attacks.

I am very happy and fortunate I suppose lately, to have actually had the chance to talk with some very nice and "real" people from here. I was getting a little worried for a while as my other entries suggest. One thing that still bothers me a great deal, and I am totally powerless to do anything about it is, all those supposed "submissives" and "slaves" out there who are causing such harm for those of us that are real. So many of the Dominants, male and female, that I have talked to lately have had really bad experiences with these types. Therefore, they now distrust anyone calling themselves slave or submissive or are overly reluctant to talk. I know that there are some real subs and slaves out there that can say the same in reverse, and so can I, that many of those claiming to be "Doms" aren't. I don't know what can be done about any of it other than remind those that care to listen that this lifestyle is full of the need for patience and it should carry over to meeting someone. It is hard sometimes. I have been told of Doms having money scammed from them for the purpose of the "sub" coming to serve and never being heard from again or the getting brutalized by a "Dom" who only wanted to get laid and had no clue what he was doing. Every aspect of life has that from wife beaters to cheating spouses. The only way to know if someone is real is to give that person a chance. Base each person you talk to on just that person, not all of your past experiences.

Another problem I am seeing and am guilty of myself is the age problem. Forget the lifestyle a moment and think about society in general....it is perfectly acceptable for an older man to "date" a young woman, but still not as accepted in reverse. Why? Why can't that barrier be crossed? I have spent a great deal of time looking through the profiles here and have noticed many younger men who I have no doubts as to whether they are real and Dominant but because of society and the age prejudice, I won't even think about them. I have been fortunate enough to share conversations with one such Dom and find Him very insightful, yet He gets discouraged from time to time because many submissives tell Him He is too young to be real and that they are looking for someone around 50. That just isn't fair. It seems, over all, that women are causing a lot of the problem! We frown at others of our gender for dating younger (and by that I mean 15 - 20 years or more younger), while the younger women are seeking older men. I sympathize with the Dominants here, male or female.

Guess I found a couple of soap boxes here...sorry. Just these things have been bothering me lately and I guess I felt sort of safe writing about here as I doubt too many people actually read these journals.

Still looking for Sir right.......tired of all the right nows and wannabes. How can someone know what they are looking for if they don't know themselves? Too many are only seeking kinky sex, which is fine as long as they say that and not try to label themselves as Masters or slaves. Perhaps many feel the same way I do that in that there don't seem to be any "real" people in their area..all the real ones seem to be far away. In hopes of proving myself wrong on that thought I started a new group here in Jacksonville to bring more of the locals face to face. (If you are reading this and would like to know more about the group, please contact me and I will send you an invite, it is open to anyone 21 and over).

It has been pointed out to me that no where on my profile does it state that I am a smoker, so here is it. I am a smoker. I am polite about it as I don't smoke in the homes of non smokers and away from non smokers when in public as well. Never the less, there it is.

So many times I hear Dominants complaining of submissives/slaves playing games. Lately I am finding that just as many of Them play them too. Has the world gone to hell so badly that people can't just be honest and up front about what they want, desire or need? It seems that many Dominants feel that a submissive should have the natural ability to read minds and therefore instinctively know how to please Them. That only comes with time together talking and getting to know each other. Many times the majority of the conversations I have had have been about sex and what I will, can, won't, and can't do. Yes, I have hard limits, all subs do, at least all that I have ever met. As for things that aren't limits, right now I don't know my ability. I have been a long time alone and have therefore lost any conditioning I had for floggings and such. Play with me will be a great deal like dealing with a virgin in many respects. I know what I used to be able to do, but have no clue if I can still do them.

I am not a competitive submissive. I would much rather make friends with another sub than challenge him or her to any kind of competition. This lack of aggression has recently caused me loss. I can't change who I am. I would probably be able to get "catty" with another sub if I were in a relationship and then felt threatened within it. I really wish I could have been able to "fight" over a Dom, but I can't. I do everything within the scope of my abilities to show Him and anyone else watching that I am proud and honor to serve Him, but fight or compete? no way...it isn't in the Libra nature.

It is still amazing me that people try to be something or present themselves as something they aren't. Why can't they just be real?

I also don't understand why the first thing many Dominants want to know is your body type ie skinny or fat. Some of us out here are bigger than barbie doll types. Every noticed how quickly barbies break? What is wrong with a bit of extra on a woman or man for that matter?

The age thing I can kind of understand as I have a slight biased there myself, but only as it applies to me personally. So far in my limited experience, I have only met one Dominant who was a few years younger than myself, that I could have a real relationship with. I can imagine the same can apply to older men with younger women, but it rarely seems to bother them . With age brings experience and skill, there is no shame in wanting some one to have those things on at least the same level as your own is there?

I am real, I want a real person as well. I want more than just a Dominant, but someone who is comfortable being a normal man as well who likes to be spoiled and waited on and able to do the same in return on occassion....what is wrong with romance being in the lifestyle? It isn't all about whips and chains. I hope to find some one I can fall madly in love with and have them do the same.

I had forgotten how difficult communicaton is via email and online and how easy it is to offend someone or be misunderstood. I can honestly say that I have been firmly reminded now as I seem to have made one "enemy" unintentionally.

Why is it so damned difficult to find someone who shares interests with you, without it being centered around sex. All I wanted to find was someone I could share the rest of my life with that shared common interests with my both in and out of the lifestyle. The lifestyle is not everything as there has to be contact and interaction with the "vanilla" world. A relationship has to carry well in both worlds.

I have met many wonderful people online in the past and hope to continue that record here as well. It just hurts that through my own stupidity I have made someone angry with me that doesn't even know me! It will bug me a while and that I can't help.

I am an intelligent and caring person, is that such a bad thing to be? Should things I don't understand or don't know how to do be held against me? It doesn't seem right to me, but apparently that is a reality I must face.

How important is the lifestyle to me? I am a submissive, I can't change that. What does it mean to me to be a submissive? That has been asked a lot. It isn't all play, in fact, very little of it centers aroung that. It is the need and desire to tend to the needs of my partner. More than just the normal stuff a "wife" might do such as making sure dinner is ready and such, but making sure I know how to fix his coffee and when he might want it or how hot he likes his bath water and so forth. Is there anything wrong with that? I hope not as that is the type person I am. As for playing...that takes many forms but as long as both of us are satisfied and a great deal of my satisfaction is his satisfaction.

I am new to this site and find the responses to my profile to be a bit overwhelming. All I hope to find is someone to love and serve, hopefully close to me in location as I am not willing to relocate. So far I have heard from a great many Sirs but unfortunately most seem to be too far away. I try to respond to each letter I receive, but that is becoming a full time job! I will continue to do my best with it though.

I am real, I am seeking someone else who is real. I am not a one night stand of kinky sex. I don't play games about the lifestyle. It took me long enough to find it and learn something about it. Too many use it to try something kinky without learning that there is real depth and beauty within a BDSM relationship...often far more intense and stable than a vanilla relationship.

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