PrincessLisa1969

Moving day tomorrow, finally!!!!  Finally, things are coming together where i can have some more privacy and take some time to sit down and reply to messages.  Life is just so busy, but hey, when you want something bad enough, you just make it work, right????

i just wanted to let a few of you know that i have not been able to send you a message back for some reason, it is a strict policy to reply to everyone who writes me or is waiting on me to respond, if you do not get an answer, it is bc the system will not send my message, has happened twice this week as i have tried to answer several a week from several message pages back.  Sorry!!  i do apologize if you don't get one, know i tried.

Geez, looking at some of these journal enteries, i can spell, promise!!  i do make money writing on the side, although it is done slower and more correctly then these are!! LOL...moving got pushed back to next Wednesday..movers will be moving me in on Wednesday and i will be geting settled on Thursday and Friday...and trying to stay on top of school work while i shuffle..it will work out, i know it!!! will get to all of your messages, i promise..everyone will and always will receive an response back from me.

Wow, what a week!!  i have lots and lots of messages asking where i went too, lol.  Well, i went to University land and I am moving this weekend (take a deep breath, one step at a time, right?)....i have to say i have absorbed an amazing amount of knowledge this past week, i hit the books HARD, even working up into the 3rd and 4th week of classes just to get ahead so i could move and get thing set up.  i can finally tell you what the hoopla is in the West Bank (Holy Land), i can tell you what most of the Sonata's  are within classical music from 1750-1820 (what this has to do with me being a Psych major, who knows?  maybe Music Therapy) and i can tell you the developmental stages that most humans go through, if we''re somewhat normal (define normal, huh), and i can certainly tell you the name of just about every harmful substance that we come or do come in contact with.  i am fairly religious, as most of you have figured out. Howver, i have been forced to do some serious thinking on religion, i have to write a paper on this..but if God is all kind and all loving as we like to think He is AND He has all the power any being can have, wouldn't He intervene in disasters, diseases (cancer, which took my father's life), poverty, murders, war..etc etc..and He doesn't do that..even on a human level, if we had the power to stop these things and we didn't wouldn't we be considered neglectful, maybe even criminal??  so the conclusion i have come too, is yes i absolutely believe in God but i am not too sure He is as powerful as we would like to think, i do think He is kind and loving.  i am in serious debate with another student on this, his take is God is all powerful but anger is also a part of God and well, God is just plained ticked at us at times, so that is why suffering happens...he has some good points, read the Hebrew bible some time, some of the stories in there are plain scary--showing that God is angry and just really doesn't care....college!! what it does to you brain which makes me ask again, what in the hell am i doing??  LOL...i can also tell you that on the West Bank i might have drifted a little on it....it's all about inheritance..long story short ....wife (Sarah) of Abraham brings in slave girl (hager) because Sarah is not having any babies (common in this time frame for wives to bring in slave girls if they were not conceiving, and other people think our ideas are far fetched??? )...well, hager gives birth to Abraham's first son Ishamael who is the first born son, and what do you know Sarah then turns around and gives birth to the second son Isaac.  Well, here's the deal God made a promise to Abraham that he would have many descendents (as many as the stars in the sky..I am laying bets that both you and i are descendents of Abraham) and that his children would have their own special land to call their own, would never be homeless so to speak...Jews and Christians trace their heritage back to Isaac while Muslims trace theirs back to Ishamael..so who inherits the father's (Abraham) estate..the oldest male son? or the son of the union?  i should note that the Jews were granted access to the Holy Land after 2000 years (booted out in the 1st century by Romans) after the Holocast..the United Nations take was that Jews needed to compensated for the millions of Jews who were killed during WWII..that is all fine and dandy, but what about the people who has lived there from the 1st century to 1948? mostly Muslims...if someone came marching onto your land after 2000 years, what would be your reaction??  anyway, tough questions and i am going to lay off of it, but if you sort of know me and what i have branded myself as than you have a fairly good idea of what i think...what else..i have been hit on some by other students half my age..which is ok, i just don't see age, as long as i am not breaking the law...ha.  but i was also hit on by one of my professors...AWKWARD is all i am going to say, but i can handle it and i'll pull of an A in this class....i didn't think it was appropriate 20 years ago when 50 something professors were hitting on me, and i don't really think its too appropriate now....i am older, so maybe at the end of the class asking for a date would be acceptable, but now NOW when i am looking at you to give me a passing grade (then again some very naughty things come to mind to secure that A..but its just not in me..i know i made a joke in an earlier journal about giving bj for an higher grade, it wouldn't happen...i would come to my senses and walk away with the grade i had earned)....anyway, i will try to get to all my messages..all five pages worth sometime this week, (it doesn't let up) but it may be next week after i move this weekend...i can't respond respectfully when i am so rushed and with so many people surrounding me...so i am very much looking forward to my own space..quiet and private!!  hope everyone had a good week last week and if you don't hear from me this week, please know you are not being ignored!!!  i will get to them this week or next...take care.

Hello everyone..i will get back to you asap, i have made promises and i have every intention of keeping them..however, time is not a factor to me as it seems to be some..i see and feel real time..a few days and a few weeks is not long to wait...i was typing up a polite response to somone today when everything i had written got wiped out..ugh....i am looking at new laptops right now bc this one is old..the keyboard cannot keep up with my fingers and when you like to write as much as i do , that can be frustating....i woke up with a terrible headache this morning and i was laying in bed thinking, as always....about life and what i am determined to make it...i felt like i had a someone hitting me up the head with a sledge hammer too..so i skipped church, dialed in to check email and some other things and wrote a page or two back to one of you which was a waste as it disappeard on me...but i was thinking too about things..how hard it is to keep up and get what you desire..both for Doms and subs/slaves alike..like me, many have seen past the sexual fantasy and recognized beliefs for what they are..still cannot believe they call this a flipping lifestyle--isn't this how relations are suppose to be, what most of us  feel when we can break free of the "norm" laws out there....and secondly, how much work i have ahead of me....making someone happy and pleasing them..its not so much hard as it is a learning experience..so many people and so many unique personalities...what pleases one is not going to please another...its also funny how word has gotten around with my past ex(s) that i am seeking a M/s and D/s relationship..one of my ex-boyfriends.much to my surprise discovered my profile and contacted a friend of his and it went from there..LOTS of people have a profile on here...so i am also dealing with some who are not connected in anyway shape of form with CM....let's put it this way, my emails are getting hit hard..and i suspect my cell is too..but i have no clue as its been sick and is in treatment at a local Sprint store.... going celless is a pain..i hesitate to buy a new one for several reasons that i wont mention...but somethig will have to be done soon, you would be surprised at how texting has taken off and one of my professors just asked for cell #'s so they could text once in awhile if needed...i hate texting myself so my reaction was Whaaatttttt?--its been a long time since  i have had classes but since when does a professor contact you via text?  ok, another thing..i am getting way too many messages telling me i am "perfect"--i am flattered and honored but no one is perfect..do not take my image and my beliefs and mold them to what you want..that is unhealthy and unrealistic..i have many faults and i am not afraid nor lacking in confidence to fail to recognize those and to work on them to be a better person.. i do have faults..it makes me uncomfortable to be called perfect--we're both setting ourselves up for failure if perfection is expected, let me tell you!!  i love Sunday's..what they represent and the laziness of them....and i cannot wait for fall, my favorite time of the year...i know, many would think sumer where i can get outdoors and play..(sex outside..whew..fun times)..but it is actually fall with the colors and the holidays.. i have a xmas rule in place..no one gets more then 3 gifts from me..i think if i should have a child i would try to place this rule in..Jesus only got 3 gifts so certianly no human deserves more then 3...one big gift and two small ones..don't get me wrong..i love gifts as much as the next girl (coach men..btw, i am getting a ton of compliments on that purse)..... i am off to find a good book, do some laundry and drink some lemonade..(homemade!!)...after spending over an hour typing up a message to someone on here and having it wiped out, i am not about to do messages right now..frustration..an emotion i stay clear of..btw, if you have sent me a message after reviewing my profile and given me compliments, you will be replied too...well, everyone will be replied too, i just ask for a certain amount of patience...also something else i want to stress AGAIN--i got a message from a household saying i am the only one they are concentrating on "winning" and they will not be looking at anyone else..i have to be honest, i am dealing with a lot of people here who have learned i am seeking a M/s or D/s type relationship...do not focus on me solely...i say this for several reasons...you deserve the best... there are several who are very much standing out...not that i want to discourage you from contacting me...(see my below posts) but don't just focus on me until we know for sure we have a match....its my intention that when i get moved on 08/31 that i narrow things down and fulfil some of my agreements and obligations..to be frank about it right now, i live in a zoo....it is hard for me to address you with respect and call you Master..although i call every man Sir..Dom or not...however, i can't call you Master in front of ignorant family members.i do have one family member who is a  Dom and who has been telling me i should explore this lifestyle for over ten years...better late then never, right?...but he is not around as he is busy with his "wife" and so called wife's bestfriend who has been staying with them forever..this is a close relative, most of you would be surprised...it is hard to ignore fate,  you know it?  all of my life Doms (who i now know are Doms) have made off handed remarks..as i have told some of you some of my best dates were with Men who didn't actually ask me out..just said be ready at such and such time and if you have plans, cancel!!  those and I'll be at such and such place..be there!!!  i do not respond to asking much...however, give me a command and we are in business....in this case though don't expect to command until i have given you ownership..something else that seems to be ignored....fate...my relative, past ex(s), the Dom who turned out to be a Master and slave owner on a vailla site...he intrigued me btw....he actually hestiated to contact this girl next door, it was when we had exchanged a few emails that he jumped on it....then that not working for varoius reasons (God is an amazing protector) and rewriting my profile..and boom!!  good grief..is it so hard to find a submissive or is it that just most women lack the confidence to voice who they are..and fear of judgement..i can understand that..most view us as sluts, sadly.....but waaayyyyy too many signs as to how i should have been living long ago..add that to my sexuality and firm belief that a Man deserves more then one woman..and we're off..not too hard to connect with folks on here.....add that to responding to Dom females, something i wont deny..some females are born Dom and they need to be jsut as true to themselves as the rest of us....btw, i will not respond to time enforcements by a potential Master let alone a sister slave...yes, i  was threatened by time enforcements..come on!!  you don't own me!! and as much as i would love to meet your time enforcements, i do live in the real world too....a world of being here and there at certain times and those "cirumstances" that happen...like a 3 day  hospital stay after trying to perform the jig!!!!..make no mistake i will make this happen..some have commented that i am too deep into relationships here at home..i do love my family and friends and my  life here, yes...if your the right one i will drop it all.....you are not dealing with a 20 year old who thought..ummmhh..i can get spanked every night....you are dealing with someone who has thought long and hard..i didn't just decide to do this out of the blue....everyone has to make sacrifices to live the life they want, i am no different..i am signing out of here kind Masters/Doms/Sir/Dommettes and Hunks and Hunkettes....i have to set up my system for my classes bc i plan on hitting the books hard ...i have never been less then a A or B student  (forget C's major shudders..i will give a bj to get that  moved up..lol)...i will answer as i go and when i can bc in truth things have to be settled once i am out in my apartment and have some privacy..wish me luck as i meet with my lawyer on my divorce..free from a wesssle of man who could not nor would not run his household.....i couldn't do that now could i?  stay with a man whom i lacked complete respect for....that has happened twice.....him and a vanilla ex who seemed to think  he was better then everyone else....

PS..Sherrie Austin..don't see it...other then dark hair and fair eyes, flattered though, she is a gorgeous creature...and i am getting a few cats!! believe it or not, there is similarites between a cat and a Dom person..when a cat really trust you and rolls over onto its back...all four paws up in the air,...and gives you that look like "you may rub my belly now"..i have to simply crack up..reminds me of a Dom who says i may now massage Him or Her....what a privelege...lol.

Goodness, still flabbergasted by patience and domiance...i have had impatience sneak up on me and wow, do i get frustrated..that feeling of NOW, NOW and NOW....but in the end my thinking takes over and i don't do anything too rash...i never have, much to people's dismay...i am not too spontaneous, not that i can't and won't be at times, especially if the emtion wins out....i am not answering questions this evening as i have some church activites to attend too..i am not sure why people cannot see the connection between Chirstianity and the core values of a lifestyle..i hate it that BDSM=Kink...it really does not if you get yourself together and do your research..it is hilarious, because a close friend of mine here in town made the decision to join a Christian dating site, and well she describes the Men on there to me sometimes and i have to laugh inside...very similar to some of the wonderful Men i have met on here....the diference between i and her is i understand how and why a person can be bisexual--a great sin in her view---and i understand domiant females..i really do think people are born one way or another..i think a major mistake most people have is thinking a submissive person is a doormat...that is not true..we do strive to please and serve..i am constantly doing things for friends and family but i enjoy that, it brings me pleasure..give me somebody who appreciates my submisssiveness along with all the other aspects of my life and well, i am pretty much a goner...i am very tired tonight and have to fulfill my church obligations..speaking of which my ministers daughter is getting married and she has been struggling on whether to say "obey" or not in her vows. ..cannot believe women who omit that in their wedding the vows, i for one would not have the nerve and i didn't the one time i got married....sweet Amanda has chosen to say "obey"..she told me it was bc one day we were all in a heated discussion about this and i said, "you cannot rewrite the bible to suit your needs, if its written in the bible then its to be followed, period"...glad i had an influence over her decision...i start classes on Monday so i will be very busy, if i do not get back to you, it means nothing right now....simply a time factor, which has me all up in arms anyway...two weeks is not two dozen years...why the rush?  seems to be a difference between real time and cyberspace..i do hope whomever i hand ownership over too has a sense of real time..ie, coming home for a week to see my family and friends does not mean  forever...as serious as i am about voluntary slavery, i am just as serious about living our lives in the real world at the sametime..its a confinement, but reality is reality.....take care, everyone.

Just had to share, an old ex boyfriend emailed these to me, made me smile...sense of humor = sexy, right?

One other thing in addition to my jornal comments below, i just found it somewhat amusinog that someone would not contact someone whom they found appealing based on the fact they chose not to make journal enteries...but please keep in mind, because of my background and education, i can spot lies or misleads in written form, i don't know how someone has the gall to lie verbally or in written form, but some seem too...i can just tell these things, as i said with my background by spacing, spelling and the way something is worded--but anyone can  put anything in these journals, does not mean they are being honest with you, so be very careful!!! with me, you can get to know me through what i write because of my openess and level of comfort, but really 99% of the time, the only way to get to know someone is visiiting with them, my case might be a little bit different, but this doesn't hold true for most......take care everyone, i finally got my writing done and submitted, and i am tired and tired and tired..calling it a night, i will certainly get back to answering messages sometime tomorrow but remember i am getting ready for classes to start on Monday and preparing to move within the next 10 days.....

Wow!!  Good Afternoon, hope everyone is doing ok, i am still sticking to my plan, signing in and checking messages and answering a few, but mostly waiting until i move--which i am grateful bc i suspect some have found me out in the big whole wide world....i'm pretty smart though and don't stay in contact with the "flaky" ones before blocking or usually just politily telling them i am not interested...so i am at ease that my actions and my brain have kept me away from anyone dangerous....i have been invited to a Celtic Heritage Festival on 09/08---day before my birthday!! -this is funny--about ten years ago, some friends and i stopped at park where this "festival" was going on, it was more like one of those scenes in a movie with hippee wannabes dancing and drinking --about a group of 20 were there when we stopped..well, people have always approached me..since i was little, i just have that approachable look i guess..so a few started talking to us and they told us they were celebrating their Celtic background...when the leader/founder commented on my eyes..i have very green eyes sometimes...it is weird, my eyes change colors between a very vivid ( is she possessed) green and a sky blue...it depends on what i am wearing, mostly -- there are two in my family that have the changing eyes and its a joke..my 15 year old nephew and myself..everyone else either has green or blue..anyway, my eyes are usually a funky shade of green and i get a lot of comments...this guy was no different but he was going on and on that i must have a strong celtic heritage to have eyes like this---it is funny bc this little festival has grown into a great sucess that draws several  thousand to the same park---a lot of people go and they now have vendors and music and food!!!  the leader emailed me and invited me to come and told me that i and one guest could eat for free..isn't that nice?  so i am going to invite my sister along..i know i have mentioned my many friends, but i have tight family ties too....so i am taking my very very greened eyed little sister along for the ride..and yes, i do have a celtic background..Irish--which leads me to ask if anyone knows Sherrie Austin..sherrie with two r's and an ie..i guess she is a singer, i have never heard of her and i am going to pull up some youtube vids later on this weekend, i was told i look just like her this morning...my "twin" they said..so I am curious....i don't have much else..gasp!!!  lol--i did want to make a comment though..someone told me on here after reading my journals that they felt like they couldn't or didn't want to contact any other slave(s) who chose not to commuicate their beliefs and ideas and life in the journals...that is silly, kind Master..don't just not contact a potential slave bc their journal is empty...some people don't enjoy writing and are very verbal..nothing wrong with that...a lot of people express themselves just as well with spoken words and feel its a waste  a of time to sit down and type a journal entry...and i can understand that....in truth..i have always been encouraged to write..by my parents before school even began..i suspect they recognized my difficulty at times commincating verbally, and then mentored by teachers and such in school..my first writings were published when i was 11...i just happened to be very blessed that my grown ups realized that i might be a person who commuicated with ease by writing and it was encouraged and well, as an adult i discovered early on, especially in college that my writing...non-fiction instructional writings aided charities when i gave them to different organizations to sell and for a little bit of extra money for myself when i needed it.....anyway, don't just not message someone bc they choose not to keep any sort of journals..if you do read them, watch for the written word on honesty and character....you can tell these things by spelling or lack of thought put into their expressions...you can sort out flakes by reading journals...or i can....and someone told me i must spend hours writing..no, actually not...it takes about 5 or 10 mins to do a lenghty journal...i have written so much in my life that my fingers fly..and i know what i am going to write before i even sit down and begin...i have just discovered that these journals are a good way to let a numerous amount of people know what is going on...and as things went on..i had more messages from Doms and slaves alike who read them regularly..much to my surprise....and thank you to several of you who have told me i should do a class on voluntary slavery.. i somewhat have a tendency to roll my eyes and stick out my tongue at this compliment, which is huge..but i've never been owned!!!  what you see is what you get, what you read on my profile and journals is me..just me.  i am the very last one who is qualified to teach a class...but thank you...one more brief comment and then i have to get busy bc i do have a writing for "moola" that i have to get submitted by midnight tonight..and then i will get back on this tomorrow...but i also write for another huge reason --to give insight to my soul..who i am and what i am..i think this will make things easier down the road..i even suspect my Master will return to these journals every so often to read them..bc as i have said before..if yu want to know me, you are going to have to read my written word..i just do not commucate as well verbally....i am constantly handing over short notes and letters to family and friends..they are used to it...lol.  everyone take care..and i will be in touch one on one soon!!! 

***Found out who sent the Coach purse and flowers (same person(s))...did you have to freak me out like that??  LOL..regardless, it is a relief to know you are not a stalker but a good hearted person(s)..i am grateful you said you did not know my last name yet nor exact address,  but took the hunch and  sent them to the local post office, wondered why the post office was bringing flowers up to my door..i should note the information i found online is way out of date by the way if i have been speaking to you awhile and you have picked up on tidbits of information..a downfall of having a very social personality and too much trust..ie, why background checks and other things will be done when that time comes--i simply have the tendency to assume everyone is like me and nice and polite and not gonna be some sort of freak other then an average Joe who signed up on a kink site, and i certainly cannot say much on that score, now can i? here i am....so anyway, know that my current address is no where to be found, i even had a friend who is a private eye check for me today...lots of kidding around while i was in His office as to why i needed this done..and no, he did not charge me!!!  i just had to go eat lunch with him, sweet man...i will tell you that as a former computer programmer i know how to trace your emails!! if we have moved onto a public email service and you have sent me a few, as i have not used them lately--i know your vicinity, actually your exact spot via Google Earth in some cases, but no fear....i am just beginning the "investigative" process and i am not a danger to you!! i promise..which leads me to say if you email and have told me you are somewhere in beautiful Virginia, and your email is rooted in California, i am going to raise eye brows here!!! and well, if you are in Nigeria (hasn't happened to me but to a sister slave)...get lost.....i've shown quite a few sister slaves and a one Dom how to trace IP's, there is a way to block that trace, i have not done it yet..lol, but will when i move on the 3rd of September, i haven't shared that with anyone yet and probably will not, just bc i don't want you to have the ability to block that trace from me!!! duh...i started martial arts class today...instructor..WOW!!! thank God these are private lessons...a little bit of panting on both sides before it was over..i am doing it for the excercise, not to body flip you someday, unless you order me too anyway!!!  i had to sign papers i would not use my future skills as an illegal weapon...i have been thinking about signing up for these, there has been a rash of muggings (remember my purse got snatched in a hospital parking lot earlier this summer), and well after being a victim..i was thinking on my way home of a now funny incident when i was in my early 20's and finishing up college...i was at the mall one night spending moola i did not have, and was walking out that night, the parking lot was nearly empty and i was on edge, big time...well, this guy approached me and do you know the little pepper spray key things that us women like to carry? i had one, and i jumped the gun and i meant to spray him, deal was--was i had it backwards and ended up spraying myself in the eyes...all he wanted was the time...i remember driving to my parents house with eyes watering..(stuff hurts!!) bc i was a little bit more then rattled, and my Dad just cracking up, he thought it was so funny...he said i'm glad you don't carry a gun!! yep, yep, yep---not on of my brightest moments...ok, i am off the try my potential hypnotist Master's videos again..i am excited..this stuff is fascinating..as a Psych major, what the mind can do just slays me....i have the chance to meet with some patients tomorrow afternoon who are individuals who have been so stressed or suicidal and lonely that their minds have come up with imaginery people..pseudo humans, real to them but not to anyone else..this sounds terrible bc i cannot even imagine being so lonely or suicidual (i can see how and why but not for me)..but i feel for these folks, but i am so excited to speak with them...to learn how real these people are for them? solid people like you and i? or shawdows lurking?  anyway, it is part of one of my classes this semester...fascinating..and with that being said, i am off to let myself be hypnotized, willingly!!  i was really somewhat afraid of this to begin with, now i just find it completely fascinating..i have insomnia as some of you know..i speak to you throughout the day and night!!!  yes, i do sleep sometimes, but i think i am going to ask this potential Master for permisssion to use his videos as a sleeping aid..they do and will put you to sleep, it feels like...you are soooooo relaxed...i see myself researching more of this...someone asked me, btw the other day and i cannot find the message, how many dating sites did i sign up with?  4 is your answer..first one i was doubled dared, one by a good friend who  joined one and thought she was doing me a favor by making one for me!!!  what a sweetheart? and one i did on my own after a friend announced her engagement after meeting her soon to be husband on there... and i haven't closed them out yet,  bc to be honest, i enjoy talking to the people and wondering whom i will have the privilge of meeting next....really, i have to admit when i was working code, i'd come across some dating sites and i would kind of shrug and say whatever floats your boat, good luck to you kind of an attitude, but really i would have signed up way before now, had i paid attention to HOW many people are on here!!!   that was 3-4 months ago...but i answer everyone out of respect, you know me, but i find myself making more friends then anything, and meeting my potentials here on CM...let's face it, this site is the one that i am meeting like minded Men and women on...had no clue its been here so long, but its fun...as for those other 3 sites---vanilla ones,what can i say? i most desire a Master/Dom/Sir but i'll settle for a husband if i have too..now doesn't that just sound strange, if i'd known i would write something like that a year ago.....now off to hypno land....

OMG..cannot believe i forgot to mention a few things..first, a huge Thanks for the person who sent me the Coach purse, it is gorgeous.whoever you are...the card just said CM Admirer..all of my family and friends are like what's CM?? well, if you only knew..i have no idea how you got my address but a few have surprised me out of the blue by springing my town in the grand ole state of MO out...i suspect the flowers are from the same person..whoever you are, thank you..a little nervous you got my address (must be a smartie) but Thank you..secondly, i got my first "hate" messages in the last few days..guess i am lucky that this hasn't happened in 4 months..one was from a Master whom i complimented on his picture..hmmmnnnn....as a Psychology major you have to wonder at one who responds to a compliment by spitting out insults..why?  a simple Thank you or no repsonse would have been enough..thank God i wasn't interested in Him as a potential, just liked the pic, for cryin out loud..second one was from a jerk who really spit out insults..the fine Master who commmanded that i put a profile on here has not updated his profile yet and still has me listed as his slave...(which if you read my past journals, you will know i was never really truly owned by this Master..just not meant to be and i am fine with things not meant to be--i would have been very unhappy had things worked out like he wanted to begin with)..and this jerk vented as to how this Master could get two women when he couldn't get any..first, i had to instruct him to read the profile..and then he admitted to jealousy and  then sent me more insults...poor tormented soul.....really have to wonder about these people sometimes..must be very unhappy and unstable to not be able to accept a compliment without confrontation and to jibber jaber about something that does not exist any longer....alright, enough said, i will pray for these two gentlemen along with a few other "borderline" hate personalities i have encountered ..enough said..

one more and then i have to sign off...i have answered as many messages as i can tonight...i do not want anyone to get lost in the shuffle or not show due resspect but getting overwhelmed..well, i am not going to let that hpppen!! i refuse..lol, this is  fun for me..i enjoy getting to know people as it is, and getting to know someone as a Dom just doubles that..i just wanted to add a couple of things here..the one who disappeared on me is ok, thank God..i was sincerely worried about this gentleman..but speaking with Him combined with some messages i have gotten is prompting this last journal entry of the night....i have gotten some messages from Doms who have said they would like to speak to me but do not feel as if they have a chance...and have had a few after speaking with them a few times have commented that they do not stand a chance combined with "my extremem submissiveness and social personality"?? ..i ask you this, why don't you? i am not something special here, i am just LIKE you, looking for a M/s relationship bc it is who i am...i have had some comment they are too young (Mr. wise young old 22 year old) and too old..and everything in between....i do not respond to age, color, religion or nationality......i happen to respond to Domiance from male or females....please do not short change yourself....in the end i am going to go to whoever shows me that they Own me and to whom i respond too physically and intellectually...not your looks or what you do..if you are rich..great..i know i will be taken care of..if you are poor..so what?  i will speak with you if you so wish over whether to fill the tank up with gas or eat at McDonalds the next day...remember a slave is a slave but we live in the real world too...i just do not want anyone to not to contact me based on their notion that they do not have a chance and i certainly do not want you to disappear on me bc you think i am too social and set in my life here..as i just finsihed tellling my disappearing Dom...are there some aspects i wish to keep in my life..yes such as contact with family and friends --but i have no problems dorpping it all for the right one....if you get far enough, you will come to find out i have more friends then your average soul and i am busy...i keep myself that way.i love people, i love making them happy.that accounts for the many friendships..a lot of my friends are Domiant's, they just don't really know it....don't short change yourself just bc you think i am not going to be interested..i am a very honest person....i will be polite enough to tell you that i am no longer interested in you..it has ended one of two ways..me telling someone they are just not for me...and someone who just quit messaging me......(which is fine, it happens...not everyone is going to be  compatible)....i will tell you that at this point, if you have my email address or have texted me or i have had numerous exchanges with you here on CM or chat sessions with you, i am interested..i am not going to waste Your time nor mine...life is too short.....so please i veiw all of the Doms/Master(s) on an equal playing field.....the only thing i have to add.. is this..if you are going to message me and then after a few exchanges insist on ownership (and i am getting tired of this) and that i stop all commincation with all others "immediately" as some have put it.don't!! all i have to say and this is a word that does not make it into my vocabulary much is NO, i will not disrepsect another soul on here, it is my wish that when i hand over ownership that i am granted permission to message my other potential Masters..one to say Thank you and good luck and seoncdly as a sign of my respect for them....it has been from my experience with sister slaves that once ownership is shanded over, that it seems the new Master(s) take over the profile..and note their slave's profile and journals... i do not know if that is what will happen with me or not..but regardless, i will be in tears if my new Master(s) does not let me sign off gracefully...ie, do not see any need to keep a CM profle open unless my Master(s) want me too..i do enjoy speaking with and making friends with like minded slaves....anyway do not short change yourself--if interested, message!! You will find out soon enough if things are a possiblity...take care again..and to my disappearing Dom...so glad you are ok and relieved too!! good luck to you kind Sir...hope you find your perfect sub/slave soon....

Keep telling everyone good night and then....had to note this real fast before i forget..joining a site like this is not illegal...taking part in the activities are not illegal when done between two consenting adults..taking money for sex has been illegal for awhile now in case you haven't heard..so just don't...funny, i've met a few law professionals on here!!!  there is a huge difference in eithics between a slave/sub who pleases her Master/Dom sexually willingly and a whore....i wanted to state this bc now there have been 5 sister slaves so far who have warned me that they thought  they were getting messaged by a cop, or trying to get tricked into taking money for sex..shame, really, i've  met some of the most high class ladies on here, versus the many low-esteemed, low self-confidence gals in the vanilla world..but it is what it is..and Masters/Doms...i have not had any voice to me this,  but a sister slave did that one Master thought he might have been messaged by an undercover cop to find out whether he was pimping.so goes both ways..so much judgement and discrimination against some goodhearted honest people..be careful!!!!and know that discussing sexual matters or how to please a potential Master/Owner sexually with them is not illegal.....you are doing nothing wrong unless you agree to a monetary payment.

Thanks for all the compliments on these journals...i enjoy writing them as much as you enjoy  reading them, so thank you....i am still getting messsages and i will answer you,  i am determined..anyone who is kind enough to show an  interest in me will see a response, period.may be a few days but you will get one..i just told a few tonight i am not sure if i am seen as an easy lay or what?  all it is, is an extremely submissive gal being honest to a T bc i i get beet red if i feel like i short changed someone or God Forbid  try to lie....cell phone issues again..plz!! someone tell me when the twilight zone hit with my cells.i am on the 3rd one..is it me?? surely not..lol...i was a computer programmer for over 8 years...there is not much difference between a cell and a machine and its code, believe me..i have torn this one apart literally, looking at the software and hacking into the code on this cell..well, i call it code, better know as apps...or something, not sure with cells..anyway, very tired today....had a modeling shoot, brief one but man it was hot!!  gonna be in Bass Pro if its approved, photographer was a little risque for this type of business so i will be surprised to see it make it in, but i don't really care as long as i see my pay!!!  was just laminating with a sister slave late last night..once again, that we are finding it amusing how you hold all the power in handing over ownership and then poof!!  you do what your told until He or Domme sells you or dies..one thing i have been thinking about lately..yes, i do way too  much thinking but it is the money aspect...it is scary and awkward as a slave to approach a Master with this kind of thing...you don't deserve anything material wise, but then again a person takes care of His property--the car goes in the garage....i've given some of you my prized corvette/sporty car and human slave comparsion..problem is, the corvette doesn't come with a soul, emotion, a brain and a mouth..so how is it to be? you have to eat..so who does this?  if you are permitted to work, do you hand over all of your paycheck and do you even get an allowance?? what about gas and a car? does He provide that for you if your not allowed to work..just like the corvette has to have gas to go, the slave has to have shelter and food to serve..so how it is?  if not permitted to work, do you just do what you are told all day and night long? pray and hope they shelter you? and if permitted to work, do you hand over all of your pay and hope they pay the rent? and what about personal girly stuff..tampons..i serously doubt any Master is going to want to buy your tampons for you..the one thing i know is, i do not know how this aspect works, i guess it will come up when the timing is right but i refuse to be a homeless slave..lol..if someone is going to enjoy me sexually, then my body which is Theirs to begin with is going to be taken care of, cleaned properly and fed properly...i have a small fear of being taken advantage of material wise..i need my lip gloss and good book to read!!  and the problem is, once a sister slave has given her ownership away then she cannot tell you personal details..a rule of this and just a respectful thing towards your Owner/Master...i doubt i will even know how much my Master/Owner makes and really, why should i?  whew, hard being a slave like minded sub with a brain....well, i have a frim belief in God and know things will work out the way they are meant too, and i know how God prefers a woman to live and in reward i know i will be provided for, and hopefully be granted a few things i enjoy , like a good book once in awhile..getting ready for my move on Labor Day weekend and looking forward to some much needed privacy and the chance to finally speak with some of you by phone/Skype rather then messenger or text or CM!!! so inpersonal..i am hanging in there, learning as i go..following emotion and intution alike...and yes, using my smarts...i have to think bc in the end i refuse to do anyone wrong, not intentionally bc i have a few unintentionally and i WILL NOT DO SO AGAIN, i might be scared to death but in the end i will do what is right....i know one Master who is glad to hear that, but i cannot hurt anyone and know i did , like i said (and i still apologize to these fine Men..i am new and its so easy to just let someone CLAIM when you are submissive and really its an easy way out without any work put into your own happiness and His/Her happiness, and making sure everything is lined up before jumping in bc of physical attraction)...i learned all of this up until about a month ago and actions taken since then will be honored!! period....i have a lot of subscribers to my journals..(who are some of you, btw???) and i have addressed my firm beliefs on giving and revoking ownership..revoking only if you feel endangered after the deed....or if they disappear on  you, which has happened once on me, in that case i just wonder if they are ok????   you know who you are rascel, let me know you are doing ok??? hope so......written a book again...lol.  time to call it a night, i have a potential Master who is also a hypnoist..amazing...one of his session ONLINE actually worked on me...and i have been told i have a powerful mind....i believe this Master has a sronger one..buI am going to try another one tomorrow....curious..and do some more packing..Lordy, don't you just love moving..oh yeah, and one more thing...the Master from Dublin..you are funny..i will answer you back but not in Irish......i have talked to more Europeans and now have an Australian who messaged me..i love different cultures..but the thought of relocating internationally terrifies me..i don't want to be homeless in America..see my above spell let alone a strange and foreign land...not that i won't go where my Master is in the end, if he happens not to be in America then neithe of us can help it, just have to figure out the background information stuff.. SAFETY..lol....take care guys..i am calling it night...i will get back on the messges tomorrow...a few fellow girlfriends..sister slaves offered to help answer..please..i am not that tacky.. thanks girls..you are funny too...but i don't think its very polite and no thanks, i will answer my own messages, lest one of you lasses steals one of these hunks/hunkettes away from me!! lol..take care all...

A woman should soften but not weaken a man. ~Sigmund Freud

A man is as good as he has to be, and a woman is as bad as she dares. ~Elbert Hubbard

Nature has given women so much power that the law has very wisely given them little. ~Samuel Johnson

Lovely female shapes are terrible complicators of the difficulties and dangers of this earthly life, especially for their owners. ~George du Maurier

When a man talks dirty to a woman, it's sexual harassment. When a woman talks dirty to a man, it's $3.95 a minute. ~Author Unknown


A woman can say more in a sigh than a man can say in a sermon. ~Arnold Haultain

Wow, just taking a look back at my journal enteries and all the BS i have had to deal with this summer of 2012--Good Riddance!! it has been interesting in many ways from the fine Dom who helped me recognize something in me (Master, of Richardson you know who you are) and to the ones who followed rather they sticked around for me and plenty of you have even though i have taken a backseat approach to this, and the ones who have moved on (Good Luck!!! hope you find what you need) in truth, i have really taken a back seat to this, so i will be answering messages and getting caught but not for a week or two...just TOO MANY THINGS...from feeling true Ownership to hmmmmnnnn to what now?? i am a complicated creature, first to admit it and acknowledge it, but Lordy, i hate drama and there has been a lot of that outside of CM in my vanilla and supposedly sane world....to even have time to sign on to CM and read the messages!!! and cell phone issues.....i am not even going to go into that one, you got it if you read my temp journal entry the other day...cell phones hate me, i have come to the conclusion....any suggestions for a reliable brand? anyone? one that delivers texts on time..not good for a potential slave, but i have to smile when i see natural domiant behavior emerge..sorry, naughty slave emerging here...for those of you still interested...i know, i see you peeping and i do read your messages..you know my deal about respect..the only thing i hate is my grand plan to question some of you that went awry....but it was a good one, just one i could not or did not feel at ease i should say placing forth...i don't know how to explain it..when i got ready for my questions, it just seemed so INSENSITIVE....it worked great for most of my sister slaves...yes, i will not lie..this was a grand plan of a group of us..and it worked for several who are now in the relocation phase, worked so damn well Yahoo and Skype got skipped for the most part and background checks were ran pronto...lol...now i imagine bed and lives are heating up..but me..well, i thought isn't this just weird?? and also why do i want to do this before i have done any kind of meet and greet ....i lost a few there, and i apologize for wasting your time, my intentions were good...but you guys floored me...why??/ way too many of you responded....i expected two or three and that is what most got..i got 227, eyes wide open and jaw hanging open..and i know i lost some good ones in the shuffle there...but i am only human..geared towards amazing slavery..lol. on slavery....i know people now and well, i know i am a slave at heart, i have been told to go in as a submissive...i can tell you that i am so submissive i would be a slave in two days flat, tops. the word Master escapes before Sir....anyway, i have done this on one vanilla dating site, on a double dare..you do not double dare me anything unless its plain stupidity or harms someone, especially me...that is where i met my first what i thought was a Dom who turned out to actually be a Master...and i came to CM two ways...(funny, thought at first it was the coloney???) but i was commanded to put a profile on here (surprised?) but the funny thing was that right before i followed that command, i typed in "womens roles" and what in the hell came up? CM??? no joke and i thought oh...collar me??? not the coloney..guess i was expecting a bunch of bugs instead found a bunch of kinks like me!! much to my surprise...so i followed the command although the man who i thought would own me and his already beautiful slave did most of the work, bc as they said it looked like a dating profile...major giggles...then things did not work out with that fine man, which is ok...i realize now that it was not meant to be, not only by personalities but by everything going on at the time in my event filled life...would have put a major kink in trying to find my real Owner...smart man whom i greatly respect....what else do i need to update with..well, two things....if i haven't talked to you in awhile and you are still interested..bring yourself to my attention..i am sorry but there was just way too many of you to begin with..and that is not going to happen this time...second, i move on Sept 3rd..very little contact if any with just a few will be made...cm, text or phone.....thirdly. some dilemna to take care of bc i have one recent event i have not disclosed and i thought who in the heck is going to believe me?? this just doesn't happen in people's lives...but what the heck...i was at the hospital, not for me either..when an older lady stumbled, to prevent me, a solid wall of muscle about 40-50 years younger crushing the poor soul i ended up doing a lousy jig and hurting my ankle in the process which ended up in a hospital stay for me and a week of weird and strange happening while on pain meds....i have had issues with pain meds, i do not work well on them...(to be shared in private later if i feel the need---only the first kind Master and Sir Dan know this..lol, smile Sir Dan..i like your messages)...so yes, memory break there and i need to clarify some things with someone who i do not think completely understands...i'm scared--yes, you know who you are too and i am sure i will be calling as i feel your pull, and a week of getting back into things..my problem is someone tells me to do something and i am like ok...when, where and why oh mighty Master? next thing i know i find myself in a mess....ok, then there are the international Masters..yes, i know...one called me "such a flirt"..wink, wink, grin, gin..sort of blush..yep, i did win that contest in high school, best butt and cutest flirt....i was just reminded of that today as i got pulled into helping plan our high schopol reunion..what was i gonna say? i agreed, love to help but thought hmmmmmnn, what am i gonna do if mighty Master shows up?? sorry girls, i joined the BDSM community and i am now owned..can i bring my Master or Masters with me? granted He lets me go??? another aspect i have given some thought, how am i going to present this to people?? family??? i may have to be misleading as far as meeting online and the whole ownership thing, just friends is the route if one Master or multiple Masters....one Master..g/f story...Master and Mistress...friend of the Mistress..let em guess on my Master....group of male Masters...defintely friend and friend and friend and g/f of ONE. group of Domme's (i am not kidding with the combos i am working with are amazing)..easy, friends..i was a sority girl so surely i can pull one of them into being a "past sister", the mother/son one..i am so hesitant..but at least you showed one or the other was interested...the father/sons ones..i am sorry, just something i cannot get over..and the international ones........charmers!! Euopeans...lol...temptations of a life in greece, london, cairo and london..and Turkey!!! but how does one check out an international one..believe me, you know my view point on safety.....but i can't refuse someone their chance based on nationality either...that is just wrong, but i am not placing myself in danger....GM...i know you read these..Greece..come on?? how??? help, please?? makes my heart thud. painfully, i might add. btw, i am returning to school..classes online beginning on Monday 08/20..when this started i totally figured on requesting permission to do so but since i slowed things down, well here i am and what do you know..classes are here..have no plans on being an unemployed bum....Major is Psychology/Counseling...i need to serve others and help and this is the best one.and its online so i can take it with me....so to speak. not much else, i have written a novel again...which reminds me.the fellow wrier.i lost your message!! message me again..one, i will tell you where my writings are and yes, i have made money as a professional writer....i think writing for me developed bc i am naturally soft spoken....and often told to speak up...not that i don't and cant express myself verbally i do and often willl, but writing, i expect is going to be a major way of communication for my Master (whom i suspect i have already met) and myself...someone needs to know your soul to control you and well, read my words and you know me....what else? i am unashamedly a Lady Gaga fan..just read his/her (up for debate) lyrics and i am gone...what i would do to be able to write like that....not to fail to mention Cairo Master..whew, fan myself and fall to a heap...how may your slave serve you oh mighty Master.....He is the one who called me a flirt...well, yeah!!!!  Thank you Sir...natural as i said....take care all, off for some cardio..uck and uck....and some weights..yeah, yeah.....

***Fellow slaves i simply cannot stress safety enough...i for one have done my research, unfortunately i made the decision to back off for awhile and probably will take things lightly until i move in a few weeks for privacy reasons, but i have been super blessed by a group of older Dom's who have for some reason, felt a need to protect me and give me advice, something i appreciate, i can tell these are true Dom's and here is what one said to me and i just wanted to share, it went straight to my heart and i thank you Sir for you messages and feedback****

 My suggestion before you brand yourself as a slave is to go slowly. You need a Dom/Master that will take things very slowly with you. This lifestyle can literally overwhelm you if you are careful. One who is very patient and understanding and who will also take his time to understand you and your way of thinking about you being a new slave to all of this. So investigate the lifestyle with renewed diligence. It just May save your life. Just remember a slave has no rights or limits other than was the Dom wants. That's a pretty tall order to achieve for one that is just getting into the lifestyle to brand herself as as slave.

Take this kind man's advise, i am!!!  there will be background checks and the  more i think about it, a contract in place, giving me the freedom to leave within the first 12 months should i sense my life may be in danger...this is my reason for moving slowly...it has cost me some good potential Masters/Owners, but i simply am not going to hand myself over to anyone until i KNOW them, and for the potential Masters/Owners..THINK...there are not too many pitfalls to a Doms natural traits to a submissive/slave except i have noticed one..impatience to the max..you see a desirable slave and wham you want and you command, you are almost in a more dangerous spot, this person will be living with you, by you at all times...don't let yourself get fooled in  your rush to claim, make sure of your safety and especially if children are on the scene........just some thoughts for us all.

1 Timothy 2:11 Let the woman learn in silence with all subjection. 12 But I suffer not a woman to teach, nor to usurp authority over the man, but to be in silence.

Told my job to take a hike..enough said..questions will arrive in the next three to five days.....anyone know of anyone hiring. now would be the perfect time to relocate but here is a dilema for ya..takes moola to re  locate and i just gave it up!!!!!  oh well, we will let panic set in after a few days of freedom...just wanted you all to know.would like to say i did it all for you guys, but nope, did it for my sanity and that is the truth!!!!  Start sending those text messages again, by golly i can answer them!!!!!  OCraz43..see ya on Monday  night.

Good Evening Potential Masters/Owners--this is an long overdue apology and i hope that you will accept it.  As you noted in my previous journal entry that i made the decision to step down from my management position and i did!!!  i am so proud of myself because i am basically being asked to be released from a employment contract on an early basis.  What i did not expect was to be asked to work non stop for four weeks, and i do mean non stop, from about 6am to around 10pm training my replacement, after that this is all over and i can take the time i need to find my true Master, granted he feels like i am worth waiting for, that is.  i was pleasantly surprised at how many messages i still have out there after being out of the loop for two weeks already, with the death in my family and with my purse being stolen.  i will not lie and say i have had time to read all of the text messages, i just haven't--i am having to use both my personal cell and my business cell for working purposes while i communicate with our headquarers in San Antonio and in Denver.  so if you think i am ignoring you or not showing you your due deference, stop it!! there is just not enough of me to go around at the moment.  i am taking this Friday, Saturday and Sunday off and i am solely focusing on getting my questions out---if you have sent me a somewhat harsh message on text, you are forgiven as it is my responsability to keep you notified as to what is going on, and  unfortunately i have not been able to due that..you should see my office..i currently three machines hooosked up and running, my two cell phones plus four others for emerenency  purposes...i am sorry, again and i will get the questions out this weekend.  hope everyone is doing ok.

slave lisa

Amazing how we used to live in a society without cell phones!!!  The cute cop up at the station--who offered to write letters to anyone who did no believe me that it has taken me this long to get my stuff back--i declined, stating if they did not believe me...well, then there would probably be an issue, no letter would be needed...lol.  this fine cop did let me bring in my charger and he is going to charge up my cell tomorrow night in his office so when i go to get it on Monday morning, with birth certificate in hand!!!  i will be able to get it all back and the cell will not be dead.  Just a word of advise, bc no on ever thinks this is going to happen to them,  have a copy of your birth certificate and know where it is in case you run across something like this, also keep your SS# card and voters registration card in a separate place, other then your wallet so if your wallet is stolen, then you have the means to get a temp driver's license while filing the police report and making sure no one has your personal information...also if your DC's and CC's were stolen too, notify your banks and the places you hold CC's with and notify them asap, close out all cards and get new ones with new numbers!!  last but not least notify all theee credit reporting bureuas that someone ha gotten a hold of some of you rpersonal information and you want it noted on your credit report right away.You have to be careful these days.and i will be honest when i say that with ths happening i did not get out my questions as soon as i wanted too, but i will this weekend, and that is a promise, i do not break promises--it will also play heavily on me with what text's i have  or if i have any offhanded remarks as this was completely out of my control, and even though i have not been owned yet, i have seen too many sister slaves get into trouble when the sun did a jumping jack and they couldn't stop it, something that always plays heavily when narrowing down your choices....hope everyone is doing ok..i think it is time to hand over my cell # to a few more  folks  once i get it back and i know for sure it is up and working properly. 

Long story short--i will have a copy of my birth certificate on Monday and will then be able to pick up my stuff.....had to actually order it because i guess between me getting married and moving  to NY, and Mom finding a new place after my father passed away, a small file cabinet was lost or misplaced, we are not sure--so we all ordered our birth certificates..my siblings and I to get copies of them, mine is taking a bit longer as it is coming from the state of Arizona.  Even i am shaking my head at the whole thing, what is that saying,  be when it rains, it pours!!  i have been warned by some sister slaves that there may some harsh words for me via text (even though i cannot see them) and even a few who might in a roundabout way accuse me of lying..one question on that:  why??  i want this just as badly as the next true slave out there, i view what happened as a brief determent, not an end to a long term plan--but i will say that when i get my cell back, if i have any of those kinds of messages, they will just be discarded, as i am not obligated to follow anyone's command yet, and won't be until i hand over final ownership--so yes, while this is horrible for me, i am more worried about family not  being able to get in touch with me more than anything else--so i have a borrowed cell just for this purpose for the time being but it does not have unmlited text...i am also a spiritual person somewhat and i was beginning to wonder why GOD was throwing so many things my way???  was it a sign that maybe right  now i should holding off on this? and then i guess you would say i had a somewhat flashlight bulb moment, GOD is simply showing me those who are caring and understanding Masters/Owners--making them show me their true colors, i really do.  liar, i am not one of those, person with some bad luck at times, i am one of those!!!!  irish luck in reverse as my friends jokingly say, but its only bc i don't make a big thing out of stuff...i happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time when my purse was stolen..that's all, thank goodness it was me and not  some elderly person who could've been harmed!!  once i get my birth certificate back and can get the silly cell, i will check my texts, but keep in mind if i do see any harsh messages or any short commands i will simply discard the thread, the only person(s) i would not do that too is my true Master(s) when i find them and my family!!  fingers crossed, everyone that i get it back soon (valuable lip gloss in there too!!)  Yes, i feel bad about this, but since i have not turned over final ownership, in a way , I am  much relieved that it happened now before i was owned  on a perm basis--questions to my eamils will be going out next week, cannot wait to speak with all of you...

Hello, just wanted to notify everyone that i do not have my purse back yet from the police department, here is a surprising fact for you, you have to prove your identity to the police before they will hand back over your stolen items, what a dilema when all of your sources of identifcation are in the purse!!  hmmmnnnn, what is a person do?  bwell, i have to find my birth certificate or get a copy of my SS card, the police also stated they could probably identify me with fingerprints, because as a past computer programmer for financial institutions, i have been through many FBI checks and fingerprints--i have had access to many people's personal information...so they took my fingerprints today and said they will run them through their database and if eveything matches up, i can get my purse back.felt sort of like a criminal!! sitting in the police station getting my fingerprints done..in the meantime, i am going to find my birth certificate as i know for sure i can get it back with that....but here is what a little bit of flirting will get you, they did let me rummage through my purse and see what was in there, they also let me have the cell so i could just make sure  it wasn't dammaged and was working right..i just briefly went into my text messages and i do have a job ahead of me answering several people, and well my phone log is just plain scary!!!  so sad that in today's world you just have to have a cell phone, it's almost heartbreaking to be away from the thing!!  An emotional connection to my cell phone, i guess, didn't realize how much i took it for granted...i should be getting my cell back tomorrow so i can get in touch with everyone, and i am also working on my emails so i can get my questions sent out, i am excited to see what everyone'e else's beliefs and thoughts are, cannot wait--i also filed the paperwork for my "demotion" from my management position..the two above me tried to talk me out of it, telling me that they did not know the system as well as i did and they would really be caught in a bind at times if i was not there to assist with computer/system issues, maybe now is that time to inquire about a raise??  but i'd rather be devoting my time to my potential Masters/Owners--i am delighted to free up things with my job so i can visit and speak with everyone, hope everyone is doing ok, and i will certainly be getting back with all of you!!

Good Evening..wow, what a day, again!!  Need a break..very much so...i have reached a decision today, i am a manager with my workplace and i have made the decsion that i am simply going to have to step down from this position, because i can't visit with anyone when i am here 15 & 16 hours day, and unfortunately that has become my typical days here for the last couple of months, for those of who don't know i have 50 people who report to me...kind of ironic, isn't it?? me, dishing out orders..i intensely do not like it at all..so there are only 2 other people above me authority wise and they are going to be very upset with me but oh well--i am going to our HR tomorrow and submitting the paperwork right away!!!  has to be done..i can't Yahoo here at the office, and i was called at 3:30am this morning (after my week last week) to be at the office at 5:00am, my boss was flipping out but that's a whole different deal...now for the most interesting part of my day..i was the victim of theft for the second time in my whole life today..someone stole $20.00 from me when i was 8 years (and i remember it well) and today my purse was snatched...one of my female workers went into labor today..no kidding, thought she was going to deliver her child right there in my office, i have sweated bullets at work a few times due to circumstances but nothing beats that, i was in total agreement with her Man that it would be faster for me to take her to the hospital rather then call an ambulance..so i drove her, praying the whole way that she would not have this child right there in the car...arrived at the hospital, made sure they got her situated and waited with her until her parents arrived (father was on his way, but i couldn't hang around to tell him how happy i was for him)  and on the way out, in the parking lot, this thug grabs my purse..took me totally by surprise..now here is where some of you might jump, yes my cell phone was in my purse, good news is that all of my text messages are password protected!!!  another bit of good news, i filed the police report and a few hours later they called me here in the office to tell me that someone had found my purse and turned it in, now here is the funny thing...all of my cash was gone, but nothing else....so i am lucky, counting my blessings although i will be getting new ATM cards just to be safe,  the police also told me that my cell was still there....so i haven't ran by the police station to get it yet, i will when i finally get off..so if you have sent me a text messsage, please know it is private, no one can access those except me and if you have sent me a text after a certain point, i haven't read it yet, so please know i am not ignoring you either..i just don't have my cell phone in my hands....so i will answer you as soon as i get my cell back...very crazy day, it is a good thing i am a good natured soul and take things in stride!!  just a quick joke and i had to smile at this as a slave...(one who will probably find themselves in a wee bit of trouble once in awhile)..but what does a tea bag and a woman have in common?  you don't know what they are made of until they find themselves in hot water!!  Hope everyone is having a good day, hope you have the same sense of humor as i do regarding this very wild and crazy day...i promise, life isn't always this exciting for me..it's usually pretty boring!!  Take care, and i will answer texts asap.

Goodness, thank you to all the potential Master(s) who responded to my request and asked for my email address so we can take this a step further, i am truly  humbled and shocked!! let's face it, Domiants don't like to be asked to do anything at all, that is their nature..so if you responded to me, i just appreciate it all the more...please just give me a few days and i will email everyone back as soon as possible..i think it would be dorky to do a mass message and just not very respectful although i will be asking all of you the same questions....and you will receive much more information on me as well, potential property needs to be determined for their long term value so any questions you send back to will be answered open and honestly..in no way do i think that my potential Masters do not have some questions for me as well...before i hand over final ownership you wil know me well and what you are acquiring....that being said, please keep in mind, life returns to normal for me next week and i iwll be much better with consistent text messages if i already have your cell #...but i do want to let you know i work at a bank and they view cell phones as  a security risk so i am not allowed to have my cell out on the floor or in my office..so if do not reply right away, that is why..but i will respond to you as soon as i can...i work from 915a to 8pm..with a lunch and several breaks...i just wanted to mention something that one of my potential Masters told me via a message on here about another slave who handed over Ownership in 5 days!! although i know that is what many of you requested of me (or demanded i should say)..all i can say i wow!!  i am not a fligty young thing looking for a fantasy..i am looking for someone to truly Own me and to control my life, how could you possibly know someone in a short 5 days?? but well,who knows, i guess matches can happen very quickly and would have already happened to me if i had followed some of your commands but goodness...i hope everything goes well for my fellow slave, whoever she is and her new Master and  most of all i hope they are both safe!!  i am taking tomorrow to myself..i just have to sleep..i am functioning on very little sleep so please do  not expect much of me in the way of texts and messages, of course i will respond to you should you text me..but i am about to drop, its been a rough week, amazing what  soul can do when they have too do something!!  sad to see my relatives depart and despite the circumstances it was very good to see them..i am also going to out to my Aunt's grave and saying a sort of final Goodbye on my own..although i know my aunt will always be here in spirit....i suspect my Aunt may have been submissive or even a slave....now that i am learning more about this so called lifestyle..there are things i am remembering about my Aunt and my Uncles relationship that make me suspect...my Aunt was in her late 70's so that tells all of us just how long some people have been living the way we wish to live!!  have to admire such a woman who follow her heart and her true nature...i will be will emailing all of you soon...and again, thank you to those who asked for me to send you my email,  many of  you have already emailed me and Thank you!! those of you asked and haven't emailed me yet, i eagerly await your response, those of you whom i already have your email addresses as some of you reminded me..(and i do apologzie if i already had one) i will be sending you an email from my new one....and i absolutely cannot wait to speak to you further...to those of who made the decision to move on,  i wish you nothing but the best and thank you for taking the time to show an interest in me ....very much a honor.....also, those who requested that i send my questions via IM, thy will be done!! makes no difference to me how i get them to you and i will follow your instructions on how you want them delivered...

Please note...the previous two journal enteries are really what counts...wow, is all i have to say...i realize i am dealing with extreme domiance here...and several of you whom i have been speaking with seem to be greatly offended..saying that you have already shown me great interest....yes, you have and i thank you..but my request is a simple one--regardless of how much contact we have had...all i ask is for confirmation that you are sincerely interested..a simpe message of "yes, i am seriously interested in owning you, you do have my permission to forward me your newly set up email address to address your further questions"..something of this sort is all i am looking for.....if you are so completely offended by this request then you are most likely not for me.....as i expected this is weeding out the ones who are not sincere or who are not for me on a long term basis...that was the purpose of my message and i am pleased...for those who have sent me a message in response to my entry, thank you!!!  i will be forwarding my new email address to you in a few days times..so we can move away from CM and into planning, visitiing and getting to know one another...for those of you who have responded with a kind  message expressing Good Luck to me and Best Wishes..the very same to you Kind Masters..you will own the fine slave that you deserve someday, i am completely sure!!!!..to my serious ones...i cannot wait to further visit with you!!! 

Hello potential Master(s)Owners--it is the previous journal entry that does count..but i do hope that you are also being intelligent about this and also are speaking with other potential property..this is serious and life changing, after all...so in no way do i think i am the only one you are speaking with..and if i am, then thank you very much for concentrating solely on me...do have to close as i am sitting in a very loud and noisy airport at the moment....hope everyone has a good day..

slave lisa

Hello to all of my potential Masters/Owners...its truly an honor that you are considering owning me at this time...i did feel like it was very necessary to post this journal entry..as a potential slave you have to think and use your brain....because so many are showing their domiance to you and asserting ownership...there are many, and i will stress many that are saying that they are my Owner and my Master and consider me their property...it is the only power a slave has to give over Ownership..and i reserve that right before determining who owns me..it is very serious to me..so with that being said, no one owns me yet until i am in total agreement that you are my Master and Owner..i will say that those potential Masters/Owners who are being considerate of my current situation are playing heavy in my mind and thoughts..i know many of you are refraining from making Yahoo demands and such at this time until next week, it is very much appreciated and i am totally aware of your kindness at this time, even though my Aunts funeral is over i still have many family here and do wish to be a good hostess to them as well...so i am truly thankful to those of you who are not making current demands, i know this will change greatly next week and i expect that...also, i do want to notify  you all that i have not had a signal on my cell for awhile so i am now getting bombarded with text messages and i will get those answered as soon as i can, in between running family to the airport and making sure that everyone who is leaving this weekend is comfortable..i also did not have an internet connection last night and truthfully had to use my brain and go into the office late last night to answer messages!!  so thank you to those of you who were understanding and did not have  harsh words for me although those of you who expressed disappointment, i do understand given that you are a Domiant person, but still those of who choose to understand and did not have too many harsh words for me...well, thank you..that stands out, as i spoke greatly in my profile to those circumstances that may arise that make it impossible for a slave to follow a command--and my deep beliefs on this wil be shared with most of you at some point when we can chat further....ok, now...a demand given by a potential slave is not only rude on my part but so uncomfortable!!!  it is not natural but i have to do something to narrow this down...i know many of you are asserting ownership, but as i stated it is mine to give on a final basis, and though it is an honor that you are telling me such things, a thrill really, i will be spending a lot of time for a very long time pleasing my true Master so i have to use my brain in this circumstance as well!!!  so this will give me a chance to know who is really serious and what they are wanting/needing as well as giving me the chance to narrow down the list and focus on those such potential owners with all of my due respect..so consider this a request, not a demand but please know i will only truly follow the commands of those from here on out if i hear back from you..and please let me stress that anyone is welcome to respond to this,  even if i have only exchanged one message with you via CM, email or text...what i have done is i have set up an email specifically for this...i am requesting that if you are serious about owning me that you send me a message via CM...i will go into detail as to what information i am requesting from you and up front, yes i will be asking for real names so background checks can be ran or reference checks can be conducted..i do not want to waste my time on a dangerous individual..(keep in mind a few non-violent infractions are different then murder!!)...i also have a series of questions to ask my potential Masters...so with all of that being said...i also need to stress that i have to sleep just like any human!!  so late demands to be on Yahoo will be followed as i do not get home in the evening until 830PM..but those commands to be on Yahoo on my days off  (and if you do not know, you will if you respond to my above request) those demands are very kind, and thank you!!  slaves, to be healthy for you also need to be health aware also.......so if you are very interested in me, please respond to  me and i will forward you the email address i have set up....i am so ready to move this into real time, and i need to narrow down the list as i said and i simply cannot think of any other way to do this....i know some of you have express disappointment in me for having contact with others...and are just flat out telling me that i am owned by you..although flattering, i do have to think and once again it is myself i have the power to hand over, and the only power that i do have....also having some psychology in my background, if you are simply planning on issuing command after command to keep me from displaying respect to my other potential owners and not giving me time to chat and visit with them, please do not do this....it will not work....i will give everyone their due respect and if i have dual commands to be on Yahoo at the sametime, consideration will be given to the potential owner that i know the least and especially someone who  i have not had a chance to visit with.....as just to stress those of you who have refrained from contacting me and making demands at such a time, a sincere thank you!!  although a slave, i still have emotions and feelings and i cannot help but to recognize your kindness especially at such a time as a family death, it shows me that in the future when something serious happens that i will be given permission to do what i need to do in that situation.....i look forward to hearing from those of you are truly interested in me as your potential slave/property and i will get busy narrowing down this list so i can focus on ONE....and only one....those of you who are saying you are my owner, thank you--i do feel your desire and your want, but whoa....it is mine to give, ok?  those of you have requested i add you to Yahoo, that will be done asap...but those of you who respond to this message will be the only ones in final consideration....to those of you who choose not to respond and who i have been speaking with, thank you very much for your time it was an honor and a pleasure to be able to speak with you...i do so hope my final owner will allow the use of me in certain situations, and will allow friendships to continue....also note that due to the circumstances i will be taking Sunday to myself with my immediate family..we have been so busy hosting others that we need to take our time to rest physically..health is so important..so if you issue a Sunday command it may or may not be obeyed..at this time i am only following issued commands out of respect, but i have  not granted final ownership yet so i feel i am not obligated to follow any command as of yet..once you are my Master/owner...all commands will be followed without questions or hesitations, but in the meantime, if you are not my owner yet then such obligations do not hold....once again, thank  ou so much!! i cannot stress how blessed i have been on this website to meet such wonderful people....and please, if you are serious and do feel you are my Owner, then please do respond to  my above request..time to get serious and down to business my future Master/Owner...

once again a huge Thank You to all of the potential Masters/Owners/Doms/Dommes who have expressed your condolences to me this week, it is so appreciated and it will be kept in my thoughs and in my mind as i hand over final ownership...i still have family in and my Aunts funeral is tomorrow at 2PM...i will have house guests  through the weekend so next week will be very much free up for me so i can fianally address and speak with my potential Owners in the respect due to them..although a lot of slaves do not have a compassioniate or considerated Owner, it is nice to see those ethics express to me...to know that i will not be isolated or cut off from my family as i strive to serve you and make your life happy....my Owners will always come first before anything ever...but to know that permission can and might be granted for me to return home for a few days, it is nice to know....i was thinking today that as a potential slave it is ironic, isn't it...you hold the power of the decision on who to grant final Ownership too.(something most of us do not like to begin with..making decisions..major shivers) but once it is handed over then all power is gone..and you are essentially powerless, by your own will of course. and any situation a true slave finds  comfort and security in..so very natural to be owned, i would think..and a huge honor and compliment too...i am at work right now..(i kknow, as admin of our computer systems i can do this) but work duties or obligations should never be ignored but with this week, i really have not had any choice but to answer some messages while working with so much going on, but i don't normally do this out of respect for my workplace, they are paying me to work, after all....also i do not have Yahoo at work and i cannot download it...(and i am the one who blocked it from my fellow workers)...but i cannot Yahoo here at work, but i can reply to messages..all i am doing mostly is transferring files that have to be submitted--i am off tomorrow and Friday but have a houseful o will return to normal for me next week and i so look forward to further speaking with a lot of you.....take care and enjoy the next few days as i take the time to serve and host my guests and honor my Aunts memory with my fellow family members....all of my respect to you as a Domiant person, always....

My goodness..what a week i am having...thank you to everyone for thinking of me when it  comes to my Aunt's psssing, that being said i am working very long hours and odd hours to keep things caught up here at work so i can have my bereavement days..hate being a manager, i truly do, goes against everything i am..having to make decisions..ugh...i just saw a little bit of a TV show in our break room on Poly dating and Poly households..plz...some fo the arguements from so called "conventional" people are just plain ignorant...most of them of course saying it is all about the sex..sure, that is some  of it,  but as a human if you are not a sexual being, something is just wrong with you, no matter in your choice of partners (or in my case, my Masters choice of partners).....my biggest "sadness" over watchiang this was an elderly lady, obviously in conflict with who and what she is, (a WOMAN!!!) arguing over the the children among sister wives..saying that their kids were stepkids to each other and not brothers & sisters..wth????  with the same Dad??  i can assure most that children in a poly household have more love then your average child, who wouldn't want two mother figure, or more...when one is away, having another one there for you??makes me think of my aunt, she was much more of a mother figure to me than an Aunt..i was blessed very much so...anyway, i guess i just do not see the stepkids arguement at all....i would spend hours going around and aaround with that lady from everything to personal rights, to legalities to religion..lol...i have to say, it is a very hard choice to make a decision here on who owns me...as a slave/sub, when someone just flat out says "I own you and am the only one who does"...well, it's very hard to sit back and think wait a min..to even think bc instintually, you just say Ok, what do i do next, Master??  which leads to Skype and well  all sorts of things..lol..Skype..as a slave sometimes you love that app, sometimes you curse it...just like everyone else, sometimes you just don't feel like getting naked for someone even when they are a Master and are just flat saying they want to see what they own (in my case, what they may own..althogh several arguements with Masters are abounding here--another awkward deal, wish i could just submit to all of them, who knew so many would emerge??)..going back to Skype, i am finding out that most Masters/Doms are very sexual beings, thank God for us lucky slaves--but i am telling all that i am speaking with that when it comes to taking my clothes off, iam going to be respectful to who is in my house!! sometimes you are commanded to get on Skype at the oddest times!!  please understand i have no problems with face to face conversations, i want to see you too!!  but, getting naked, i may or may not obey.and i can just hear several of you in my head saying 'oh you will get naked at my command, slave"...well, i am a cheeky slave at times and you may have a "brat" on  your hands when it comes to that and whatever circumstances i am in at that time....i'll follow any command to talk to a Master face to face, but getting naked..weeellll, i'll take my risks and face my punishment later on if you are the one who ends up owning me!!! back to work..i have to say i cannot wait until i find myself that in spot where i am commanded to come home or stay home...and i have to tell a boss that my Master's command has to be met..well, i woudn't exactly put it that way, but you know what i mean.....as always, will be checking messages and will look forward to speaking further with several of you when life returns to normal for me..which will be later this week....back to that TV show real quick...i know my views are extreme in a lot of ways to some, although normal to me...i guess the slave part of me says if you are giong to submit, then submit!!!!  do what you say and be who you are..is it scary, sure...to think you are allowing someone complete control over your body..but at the sametime, so so natural for a woman...and well, you have to trust you Master to know your limits, bc  as a slave you really do not know your own  limits...it is just normal to obey and follow commands, especially those of your Owner....although i have never been owned, yet!! better late then never to come to your senses, right??? some of these things on here look terrifying!!!...floggers...some shivers...i will admit...but its not all about sex..its about serving and obeying..and living you life as a woman should..its very much 24 hours a day 7 days a week!!  please take care...think of me for the next few days...thanks sister slaves, for your friendships...it is nice meeting real women who are confident in themselves and know what we are here for,  your friendships are so appreciated!!!..and being bi-sexual..to you strong Domme's out there..wow, you are classy Mistresses, i have to say!!!!  Nice to know we can all balance each other out and meet personal needs...what a true honor to serve and obey and follow commands...one day i will earn that Collar!!!

slave lisa

Wow, did i ever just generate a response to my previous journal entry and wow,was it misunderstood?..it most certainly was..i will not go into it so if you did not have the chance to read it, do not even ask,subject closed.....to those of you who responded with firm 'i own you's"..you do not yet, no one does until i hand it over, that is mine to give..as slaves in this world, we do not allow ourselves much, so our submission to you is the one and only power we do allow ourselves,  and it will not be given lightly.--especially since i have long term in mind here...(like the rest of my life) ..that being said..once again, thank you to those who have been so understanding and compassion during such a time of need for me, as i am feeling the loss of a loved one, it is very much appreciated as i am quickly learning that a Domiant is just that...NOTHING comes before Him/Her, even the loss of a family member in some cases, so your compssion and understanding goes along ways for me while i make the very hard decision of who Owns me--i am doing my best to reply to messages and i will do so as soon as i can but please bear with me during this time...what i have done to garner such responses and sincere interest, i do not know but thank you....i did have a very  kind Dom warn me that 9 out of 10 of the messages are fakes..i am finding that here among the older Doms/Masters/Dommes..very sad that so many have been mistreated and thank you for you kinds words of advice..but yes, i do have a head on  my shoulders and i do have a brain, and above intelligence if i may say so with the risk of sounding conceited--so please be assured that i am being extremely careful, and on that note, background checks will be ran when the time comes..God Help my fragile heart if i end up being the victim of fraud, no on deserves that, but they will be done for safety's sake and i would like to think that a potential Master/Owner would do the same on me..i am not an angel by anymeans but i am not a violent person either...so just to clarify some of my last message, all i am going to say is i am still thinking on this, even  though i am feeling the strong pull of a particular Master--i have not made a choice yet and i do not feel i am in the state to do so at the moment,  with the sad event that has happened in my life..why i feel the need to stress this, i really do not know--but if you just sent me a message telling me that it is you that Owns me..i am flattered and Thank you,  but with all due respect, no one has been granted Ownership of me yet--and when that does happen,  i have more class then to post it in a Journal entry..it will be posted loud and clear out of relief and out of respect for my new Master/Owner(s) who Owns me and who i will be answering too on my Profile for all to view and hopefully to celebrate with me and for me!!!!  As always, my best to everyone and your messages will be answerd as soon as i can .have to close for now as i am at work...Thank you...and who knew so many read jounral enteries?  ..i have not been doing that, but maybe i should???  i have just been intent on getting to know potential Masters/Owners-----have a good day, everyone!!!