i am free to do as i please.  i find it very distasteful.  i need proper control.

Mistress permitted me to cum yesterday, with the full moon.  52 days of waiting.  How long will i wait for the next one?

i haven't heard from Mistress for a few days.  It is now day 51 since i was last permitted to cum.

i feel abandoned, but true abandonment would mean no control.

Mistress has kept me in denial for the last 6 weeks.  i don't know when She will release me, but i am sure it won't be before June 1.  

May is Masturbation month.  This is the second May that Mistress has owned my cock and the second May that She is holding me in denial.  Thank You, Mistress 

Today Mistress has added the condition that i must edge at least 3 times a day until Saturday.  It will be so difficult after all these days to avoid cumming until the day She has decided i may cum.

After 18 days of doing without, Mistress has granted me permission to cum this weekend.  Saturday seems so far away.

Yesterday, Mistress gave me permission to cum.  Now that i have, i want more, need more.  One isn't enough.  But i will have to wait until She decides that the time is right.

Mistress has revoked the permission to cum that She previously had given me.  She also has instructed me that i may not touch Her cock, Her owned Meat as she puts it, until She decides that i may.

She is in complete control and will use me as She sees fit.

Mistress hasn't given me permission to cum since the end of January.  i need it so badly and don't know how much longer She will make me wait.

i am in Her power and must suffer until She permits release.

Mistress has not permitted me to cum for 18 days now.  i stroke and fondle Her hard cock, waiting.  i don't know how long i can hold out.

Mistress held me through my birthday, giving me permission to cum on Hers.  She ordered me to wait after that for permission.  After a week of not hearing from her i got so horny and Her cock was unbelievably hard. i couldn't resist. 

Today She wrote me and i confessed unauthorized use of Her cock.  Now i'm waiting for Her punishment.

i fondle Her cock and stroke as She has instructed me.  Stroke to the edge, but no cumming, building Her load.

Mistress is back in control.  Such happiness to have Her control Her cock again.

i refrained all through Masturbation Month as Mistress J- demanded.  During the month dedicated to self pleasure She denied me release--an ironic but fitting observance.  On the 31st i was allowed to cum for the first time in 37 days.  Then She abandoned me.  It goes against Nature for me to be in control of my cock and sexual pleasure.

i refrained all through Masturbation Month as Mistress J- demanded.  During the month dedicated to self pleasure She denied me release--an ironic but fitting observance.  On the 31st i was allowed to cum for the first time in 37 days.  Then She abandoned me.  It goes against Nature for me to be in control of my cock and sexual pleasure.

It's only 18 days till my scheduled release.   Spending Masturbation Month in denial is so ironic.

Meanwhile, Mistress gives me tasks to keep me horny.  She wants Her cock kept hard and wanting.

It's 24 days now until the release Mistress promises.  i think i could make it if i put my needs out of my mind.  But Mistress requires that i edge, making me keenly aware of my needs which She denies me.

Thank You, Mistress for making me a slut for Your pleasure.

Mistress had just informed me that She will not permit release till the end of the month.  What a way to celebrate!  Not unexpected, and quite a challenge.  It will be such a long time.

Mistress is in full control of my sexual satisfaction.  She owns my cock and balls and every drop of cum they produce.

Mistress has decided that in honor of National Masturbation Month i may stroke to edge.  She has not allowed release.  Perhaps She will make me wait all month.

May is National Masturbation month.  i wonder what the month holds for me since Mistress has owned "my" cock for over 6 months now.  She insists on absolute control.