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Well I had some one last night treat me like a sub making me give him head while he choked and pluged my nose and i loved it. oh and tit fucked me. No sex just abuse mmmm loving life.

I miss having that some one hold me in bed saying how much they love me and good night baby. Then the morning after waking up to a smile and a good morning beautiful. I must just be hard to love and not aprochable. I try to look good when I go out. The fact I am not dressed like a hooker guys look the other way. Sorry just venting a little and feeling alone.

I wish I could find that one who will love me for me not for what i have done or what i will become.

You no what is tortur it is your ex who you love still with all your heart comes over and you end up sleeping together knowing he will never want more then that.

I had a date last night that fucked me the way I like still sore. We first met up befor he had to go to work. Walked around a park then he was showing me this property he was going to buy a long time ago. We walked down a bit then he takes off his shirt and oh baby a 6 pack to put my tong all over then we stripped down and i have never been with some one I couldnt deep throught but dam he was huge we didnt have protecting so we four played and it was nice. He came in my mouth what a tasty treat.

Then I went to club and shook my ass all night. He picked me up and we drove to a dirty road it gave me the creeps but chills making my nipples hard. we walk up aways and he says so how bad do you want to fuck me. I said Im here aint I. I then grabbed me and kissed me almost tearing my clothes off. I then was naked the cold night air breeze teasing every inch of my body. I was shaking with his tong deep in my pussy he then pulls me down and likes my pussy and fingers my ass. I keep thinking a dream but this was so real I then sticks his long hard cock in me  pounding me his hand rubbing my body his hand wraped around my neck, my pussy squeezes his cock this is feeling amazing.He then turns me over and gets my pussy from behind then one hand around my neck and fingers in my mouth he rams me so hard my tits diging into the ground the rocks tearing at my chest this feels so good I came and came over and over.Then he pulls out and wets my ass hole and trys to stick his cock up my ass it my mind I am screaming he is so big he is going to break me he gets it in so much pain slow at first then he goes full speed telling me you want to scream his hands in my mouth. I want to scream my pussy is driping. then he pulls it out then cums on my back oh wow. I think I have a new addiction a bouncer at a club.

I would love to find some one show me where my limits are. Introduce me to new fantasys. I always tend to find people who are afraid to hurt me. I will say when it hurts I dont need some one asking ever two sec u ok