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	About Piccola I am a normal average girl. I may be slave, but I don't have to answer to anyone but one man. He is Master until otherwise. It has taken me a minute to figure this out. I have been bad, by not giving him the total and complete respect that is due to him. For now, I am working on that aspect of my life. If you like to get to know me, fine. Just don't expect to own me. I am one that will not be owned by anyone other than him. Until he says I am free. Then there will be consideration as of whether or not I want to continue with in this lifestyle. If you want to meet, contact SailingMaster. He will say yes or no to meeting. Other than that...have a good day all.

Tomorrow never comes when you wait in anticipation

It never comes for that big day.

Tomorrow never comes when you have dreams

Its never around and you lose faith.

Tomorrow never comes for that special someone.

When he takes your Heart away

Tomorrow never comes for the words you long for,

When I love you baby, is just another thing.

Tomorrow never comes when you go seeking,

all you find is everything else that leads to today.

Tomorrow never comes,

and your life escapes away

I have struggled with my emotions, thoughts and feelings last few weeks or rather even months.
My Master and I had split, I had gotten married, and now here I am facing divorce, and back in my Masters home, at first I thought it was to be owned, but unsure if I could possibly be owned again. I no longer feel the love for him I used to. I am actually numb, numb from feeling, thinking, and acting. So right now I would be a dominants dream girl I suppose, although I do have my bratty moments. I go through everything like a machine, even when sex is involved I am numb no feeling. I am not gonna say its Masters fault, and I am not gonna say its mine or my husbands fault. There is just something inside of me that is changing. I feel as if I should be punished for everything that I could of possibly done wrong, in fact I was being punished for one thing and when he was done, I begged for more because I don't feel that I was punished enough, is there something truly wrong with me? In my previous blog I said someone was gonna be hurt, did I know that everyone involved would of been hurt I would of stepped away from the whole situation. I guess I am trying to figure out how to rectify a wrong, and try and make it right, but I am not sure if i can.
So that is what is going on in this slaves journey in life...it has been so bad for me that I have forgotten the forms of submission and what it truly is to submit.
Piccola.

Wow, its been a minute since I have posted in my journal. Alot of things have happened, and are life changing. Sometimes I wonder if I made the right decisions, because at the moment they are looking more and more like mistakes. I am not talking little mistakes as like mispelling a word, these are mistakes that can hurt ones feelings, or change their opinion of you. In the end result someone is bound to be hurt. I do not wish to hurt anyone. I have/had a Master, unsure where we stand, have not talked to him in a couple days. I know he is going through some tough times, but I also know I was left in a tough situation, some of which was my choice, but also some of the promises that were there was broken also. Even when apart, I still wore my collar, I never was told to take it off, never was told that I was no longer his, and I still wore it proudly. Now here I am again in the land of confusion and still somehow trying to sort it all out. I may be forgiven but, I know best that he will never forget. He never does. Its something I will probably live with the rest of my life.
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If we really want to love we must learn how to forgive~Mother Theresa

"While you have a thing it can be taken from you ... but when you give it, you have given it. No robber can take it from you. It is yours then for ever when you have given it. It will be yours always. That is to give."~joyce,james

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