Phoenix24453


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	About Phoenix24453 i am on the site infrequently in order to focus on myself, my work, and my education, with summer comes some freedom to relax again. I am not much of an internet person, if there is chemistry I will want to meet. i am shy with meeting people, but outgoing in my daily and work life. Trust is the biggest priority in my life. A relationship on any level can not function unless it is built on trust. i love logic and rational arguments, but i am artistic by nature. For example, i designed my tattoo, many paintings in my house, and play music. i prefer to be outside living my life, and i absolutely hate my cellphone and have to force myself to check my email. In fact, i greatly miss the days when people had house phones and no call waiting. i always debate on if i should explain why i am on this site. It seems as though the answer would be obvious, and then i get a message that makes me realize...yes, i do need to put a little more information out there. So it is easier to see when people are wasting my time Therefore, my non-vanilla preferences, i believe in anything goes (which is not as extreme as it sounds if You understand my mentality on the subject). i say this comfortably, because if i can't trust someone there isn't anything further to come. *I need pain* No, really. i MEAN need it. i can't go long without it, i can't maintain my sense of self if i go to long without that self humiliation wrenching through my gut. It does not matter what type of pain, mental humiliation, degradation, blunt or sharp physical impacts, all that matters is that i find a release in the sensations. This seems a little absurd even to me, but some people run to relieve stress, others play videogames or read. i, however, thrive off the release that courses through my body after i let a painful sensation wash through my psyche (and personally i think runners are all masochists, because a long run gives me release too). i prefer a firm hand, but i don't always know how to obey one. This is not because i am trying to be deliberately disobedient, but more simple because i am a limit pusher. i am constantly pushing myself, and therefore my own limitations; this includes those that are placed upon me. i need someone who never stops, and enjoys a challenge. On the personal side of life, i write, teach, play music, paint, shoot guns, have a second job as a bartender, and am in my undergrad for premed with a biochemistry and english major. i am the person who will see two feet of snow on the ground grab a sled and run outside in a blizzard. *bottom line* *consistently, a work in progress :)* Please don't message me with less than a sentence, it drives me crazy. i don't know how to reply to something like that and usually won't. Allow me to prove my point: if i am walking down the street and all a stranger says is "Hi" or something equivalent i will smile politely and keep walking. Email is not much different. Insanity is trying the same thing the same way multiple times but expecting different results. Only to discover the answer was right in front of you and it was your perspective that was wrong...science or luck?

it always surprises me when the journal has become a complaint department, and then there a days like todays with emails like the last one. Those days it all makes sense. The internet does not make you an alpha male and certainly not a dominant one, anymore than it makes me Queen Elizabeth or a bright yellow minion. It is also not a wall to hide behind and write someone ranting about being disrespected because someone deletes and email, or says they are not interested. This is an expression of your own lack of character, and your deeply seated insecurities.

Move on, if someone says no, there are other people out there. Particularly if someone says no within an email or two. I don't waste peoples time, and I am busy so I expect them not to waste mine in return.

Alright that is all next post will be positive....

If your expectation is that I will call you Sir/Master or any other title of sorts within the first couple of emails you send me, Particularly the first or second email you send me, than you are out of your mind. That title is given because it is earned and I will not disgrace those who deserve it by bestowing it upon someone who thinks it is entitled to them simply because "they" believe themselves to be "dominant". This isn't the military a title of respect not an expectation in conversation. It is earned and than gifted upon you by your submissive.

Nothing will fuck you up as much as the realization that there is no real reason the alphabet has to be in any order.

Steel Painter

His hands freed steady rivers of ink

from safe glossy caverns.

He has guided many designs

ones love in roses, in portraits, in name

ones hate, in skulls laced in wire,

in gang signs that crawl up the arms

and lay across the heart.

ones for honor, one for duty

but all belong to someone else,

A painter who waits to be freed

to create his own designs,

but no one does. His thoughts

barely matter. It is

his hands they seek

His hands that use

The needles to trace the patterns

His hands persist firmly slowly

across delicate, pinkcanvassed skin.

Pushing stains into art through

rapid sets of repeated strikes. All

beneath a set of focused eyes.

Dripping dipped within stainless prison

the ink oncereleased

claims a permanent

cage

of eager flesh.

Pulsating sound fills the air

only met by a patrons anticipation

for a new piece. Here

a dragon begins to unfurl up the thigh;

his muzzle nestled in the nook

of a hip. His tail curls down around the knee

clinging tighter with each formed scale.

His canvas’s feel pain

he watches it settle over

clenched eyes This pain is part of the addiction

the suffering makes it art for them.

His green soap overs scented meditation healing

it soothes each time he uses it to wipe their raw skin.

Slayer of demons.

for the girl who got the spider tattoo

to help see past her phobia

Speaker for the dead.

for the man who lost his wife and had a portrait

done in order to carry her with him everday

Catcher of dreams.

for the girl who got the angel wings

now she could fly

He accepts all these names.

Yet he is simple

a painter

who uses steel

instead of the soft touch

of the brush

Somedays he grieves

because eventually they will bury

every piece of his art

and all that he has created

will be left in the ground

to rot

**My Poetry (like my pictures) is my own and no one else has any claim to it. It may not be used by anyone or any business for any purpose without my consent.**

Strive for the brightest star;

heated skin burning away,

through the never-ending night,

consumed by a finite need that leaves you

writhing, struggling to keep your own

light.

Desire,

the strength of the explosion.

the darkest holes in space

know the beauty of that star

I have received many inquirers about my tattoo. I figure it will be easier and less repetitive to explain it once here...

It is a piece that is 5 years in the making and not complete yet. The artwork is as large as it is going to be, and it extends down my left leg, wrapping around most of it, and stopping before it passes my knee. The work that is remaining is coloring and shading to bring more depth to the piece.

I designed the piece myself, but my artist brought it to life and made it fit me. He is a private artist and no longer works in a tattoo shop. If you are local and interested in work from him I will be more than happy to help make that happen. I will not be posting more photos of it until after we have shown it in competition, everyone loves surprises. :)

There is a great deal of meaning in the tattoo, but that is for me to share when I choose too. The centerpiece is a phoenix. The phoenix is holding a chain that is composed of all four elements. The water is behind the blue rose, fire is the center rose, wind is the bottom flower and is carrying petals down my leg (it is not clearly visible in these pictures ), and of course earth is the roses themselves. The blue and red colorings were all custom designed for my skin tone, and the final grey wash in the shading process will also be a custom color.

Thank you for all of the compliments, I can't tell you what it means to me, but more importantly to my artist who has done all the work. Realistically all I do is lay there and get stabbed.

**The use of all my photos without my consent is strictly forbidden and legal action will be the result of any unauthorized usage***

I am currently exploring and have no idea what I am doing. If you are reading this I am assuming that something about me caught your attention enough to make you look into me more. Here is a little about me...

Vanilla: I am currently still in college and working on a biochemistry degree, with the eventual goal of medical school. I play several instruments and love reading a book as much as sky diving and rock concerts.

On the other side of the token I write literotica frequently and may eventually put some of my work up in my journals. In my relationships I am extremely submissive and it is actually a problem when I try to date someone vanilla. I enjoy making my partners pleasure more than my own, and it is not something that I really understand. I have severe masochistic desires. To the point of where enjoy pain, and feeling vulnerable and exposed quite literally can get me off. This has gotten me in trouble before because I end up enjoying what was meant to be punishment. If you want to know more about me I try to answer every message and am more than willing to talk, but the type of personal life I want requires that I trust someone, especially with the level of masochist I am.

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