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A SlutMaster

Every once in a while I try to figure out what type of SlutMaster I’d want. Generally I don’t want to be owned or collared since that seems to imply some sort of monogamy. I never want to be limited to just satisfying one cock. Instead I’d want someone who wanted to control me and push me to be a bigger and bigger slut. Trained to be the ultimate free 2 use FTM faggot and slut. Extra points if he can do that in a way that I feel humiliated or degraded for being a slut.

Nipples

What if SM had me pump them regularly till they grew? And then had me wear shirts that made it obvious how big my nipples were. To have no say in how large they become. To always have them on display (legally). What would my nipples feel like? What would I feel when people would stare at them. How wonderful if some were bold enough to just reach out and grab, pinch, tweak and twist them. Then for me to be trained to not resist such attention. Not to welcome or overly encourage but also not to turn away. To react to the pain but not pull away. To never ‘get used to it’.

Edging

To find an edging regimen that I can follow. Would it increase my libido? Maybe edging for 10 minutes after I’ve been bred?

Pain and abuse

Trained to accept more abuse and not to turn away or try to avoid it. I guess that would be accepting that I have no choice or say in what happens.

Orgasm denial

For me I have to think that there is always an immediate chance that I will get to cum. Perhaps it would start with a daily chance if certain conditions are met. Then weekly. Then every other week, every third, every fourth week. I don’t think a duration of longer than a month would work. If I feel like I really don’t have a chance to earn an orgasm then I lose interest and then also lose libido. Maybe that would change with a workable edging regimen? No idea but worth considering.

The possibility of an orgasm would be the incentive and motivation in my training.

It could be used to push me to do more and more depraved things.

Suck cock or get fucked/bred (# times) at the bathhouse or bookstore

Service # of Men

Take # of loads in a certain hole

Get pissed on

Beg to be pissed on

It’s interesting that when I played an OD game where anal sex and anal loads were worth more I tried to have more anal sex. I prepped for anal more often and offered it more often.

Hook up apps

At least once a week all my interactions on the various hook up apps would be reviewed. SlutMaster would always find a few where I was not sufficiently eager in my responses. Where I didn’t work quite hard enough to hook up with the Man. It’s an ongoing fault of mine. I am supposed to say yes to any Man that wants to use me but even then I can usually find a way to wiggle out of it. I’ll find a reason why I’m not available when he is. Or say that our interests don’t match up. The weekly review would start to improve my responses as well as the number of Men I service.*

There are usually 3 types of Men I am not as eager for as I should be. Older (70+), fat and Men who just want to eat my holes.

He’s now started training me to please the Men who say they ‘just want to please you baby’. This usually means they want to eat my holes. This isn’t my thing. However I am learning that that’s not a good enough reason. (Really there are very few reasons why I shouldn’t hook up with a Man) Soon I will have to not only let them eat my holes but also praise their abilities and fake an orgasm.

*Note: In real life I did have a SM who pushed me to service Men I would usually say no to. There was one Man who was unappealing to me and I’m not sure why other than whenever I sucked him I’d end up with what appeared to be cat or dog hair in my mouth. I was instructed to hook up with him whenever he asked. The SM controlled me for just a month. After that I found it hard to come up with an excuse as to why I shouldn’t hook up with Mr. Cat Hair. He knew my schedule and that I wasn’t busy at certain times. I serviced him as he wanted for the rest of the year. After that – when I was likely getting all high and mighty – I decided I’d only hook up with guys I was really into and he didn’t make that list.

Mark was in town and we decided to meet Friday night at the bathhouse.  I don't go to the bathhouse often and rarely on a Friday night but man, I've been missing out.  Plenty of guys were there when I arrived at 9pm.  I wandered around for a bit.  Tried out the sauna but it hadn't really heated up yet.  Eventually Mark and I found each other and then spent the next hour in his room catching up with each other.  We parted and after finding the sauna too full I made my way back to my room.

I was wearing just my assless shorts. I decided to turn the lights off in the room so it was only the glow of the TV providing any light. I laid down on my stomach and started stroking my little nub.

I heard a Man enter my room. I didn't look to see who it was.  Didn't really have a chance to because he came in, closed the door and dove into my ass, eating it. It felt really good. I tried to shift just a bit once or twice so he could tell there were 2 holes down there. I'm not sure if he noticed or not.  When he was ready he pulled my hips up and took aim to fuck me. I directed his cock into my front hole. I didn't make much of an effort to find out if he'd covered up or not.  It really didn't matter. He gave me a great fucking before emptying his load into me.  As he left I could see he was Black.

I stayed on my stomach and reached down and used his cum to stroke my very hard dick at this point. I loved feeling his cum on my fingers and little nub.  I've no idea if he knows he was in my cunt or not.  I know some guys don't bother disclosing but generally I prefer guys to know exactly what is between my legs.

I decided to put one nipple clamp on and the blindfold.  It wasn't the best fitting one and so I could vaguely tell if someone was at the door looking in. A Man came in.  He played with my nips a bit and ran his hand along my torso as he let me play with his cock. He then put his hand to my throat and I moaned appreciatively.  I felt him move onto the bed and wasn't sure what was going to happen till I felt him lay down.  I found his dick and started sucking it.  He pulled me up to his nipples and pushed my head to one of them.  Then he moved me to the other.  He then pulled me off his nip and again put his hands on my throat, choking me for just a bit. Then he had me suck on his nips some more.  He reached down and smacked my ass once or twice.  I was appreciative of all of his attention.  I went back to sucking his cock.  Again he pushed me off and this time stuck his foot in my face, so I could lick it.  I declined and went back to sucking his cock.  He seemed to enjoy my mouth but wanted to hold on to his cum for a while longer so he eventually left.

Another Man entered the room and closed the door (I think).  He stood by the side of the bed and let me feel his cock while he explored my body and then bent and sucked my little nub. Soon he crawled between my legs and entered me.  Oh he gave me such a nice long fucking, sometimes laying fully on top of me.  I could feel his ass clenching as he fucked.  I noticed the coarse hair on his thighs.  What a great fuck he was.  I started begging him to fill me and he did.  Then he collapsed on top of me and lay there while he recovered.

A bit later a 4th Man came in and laid on top of me. I could feel his hard cock and hoped he'd fucked me.  He didn't though, he just  rubbed himself on me.

Mark found me and I caught him up on my activities.  We walked around a bit and at some point I sucked 2 other cocks.  Mark wanted to suck my dick thru a glory hole so we made that happen, although initially I was skeptical of the logistics.  He and I met up again in a hallway.  A Man was watching us while he grabbed his cock over his towel.  I motioned him closer and he opened his towel.  Wow he had a nice fat, fat cock.  Next thing I knew the 3 of us were in Mark's room and I was on my knees trying to suck both cocks.  Eventually Mark and the other Man sat on the bed.  I sucked the guy while he attempted to play with Mark's dick.  The Man pulled his dick from my mouth, stroked it a few times and busted his load.  I licked up a bit of it from his leg but he wouldn't let me have what was on his hand.

A little more walking around watching and exploring and I left for home.  It was a good night and better than expected.

I'd missed him earlier in the week so this I was glad we connected.  He was 15 minutes away and said it would be a quickie. When asked what he wanted he said TS porn and me bent over.  I got ready, put a fresh sheet on the bed and put the TS Seduction porn on that he likes. I got myself ready as well.  Stripped, cleaned up and freshly lubed.

I heard him come and got in place just in the nick of time.  He didn't say anything and my head was turned away from the door. I heard him rustle around for a minute then I felt him lift my leg.  Oh he wanted me kneeling on the edge of the bed.  Then he was tapping my hole with his dick. Soon enough he pushed in. I always leave a condom on the bed next to me in case he chooses to use it. After all it's the Man's choice whether he's gonna breed my cock hungry front hole or not.  His cock felt so good sliding in and out of my hole.  His hands on my hips pulling me back on him.  I like how he spreads my cheeks with his hands so he can get a good view of his cock going in and out.  He'll do that pull all the way out then shove it back in. It was hot to me to think about how he's just stopping by to use my holes. That this time he's not even bothered to let me suck his cock. He's just come in and pushed his cock into my hungry hole. It's not about me.  It's about him using my hole to get off.  All too soon he was saying he was going to cum. Then he grunted as he unloaded and dumped into my hole.  When he was done he walked to the side of the bed and tapped my shoulder.  Oh yes, he wanted cleaned. He didn't have to say anything.  It's expected.  I was quite happy to oblige him.  I sucked our juices off of his cock and got the last bit of cum.  I'm not one to stick a finger in my hole and then put it in my mouth, but I'll happily suck a cock that's been in my front hole, especially when I can get some cum from it as well.  I cleaned his cock, he got dressed and left.  I snapped a few pics after he'd left. So good.  So hot.

I came upstairs and he was laying naked on the bed. His cock already hard. I started with small licks on his balls and slowly worked my way up his cock. kissing and licking till I got to the head. Then I took him all the way into my mouth.He groaned appreciatively. I enjoyed sucking his cock. It's a nice cock and a good size. Several times I took him all the way down and fucked him with my throat.

I enjoyed his body a bit more this time. Touching and stroking it. Sucked nibbled and played with his nipples a bit as well. However the majority of my attention was on his cock. Sucking it all the way down. Licking it and his balls. Even taking each ball into my mouth and sucking on it. licking his balls all over, including up underneath them. His cock and balls received lots and lots of attention from my lips and tongue and occasionally my hand.

Sucking cock turns me on and my hole was starting to ache with need. So I moved up on the bed and sat on his cock. It was great and I don't think he expected it. I rode him. Sometimes I leaned over and fucked myself with his cock. Other time I was straight up and trying to get every last centimeter of his cock in my hole. This is when I took the time to give his cock a good squeeze. It's good to put a little effort in while riding cock (besides bouncing up and down on it).

Eventually he took me from behind (over the bed) and pounded me really good. Lube started to disappear and it was becoming a rougher fuck. I almost stopped hi a few times to add more lube but I didn't.
His hands were on my hips and his balls were slapping against me as he banged me. Finally he moaned and shoved his cock in and unloaded in me. Then he continued to fuck me some more, pounding his load deep inside me. When he was done and pulled out, I went to my knees and cleaned his cock using my mouth. I put his hands on my head so he could control my actions. He seemed to like it best when he was balls deep in my mouth. After that he cleaned up and I thanked him for his load.

Hope he stops by again.

It is always rough when Mr. Mean stops by.  He's a smoker, isn't friendly. Plenty of reasons not to keep letting him use me but he's like a drug though and I can't quit him. He messaged me while I was on vacation so I couldn't get to him. He emailed again today "on my way over now faggit"

On my knees I started sucking his cock, hoping that he'd be ok with the fact I can never seem to swallow him all the way down.  He's thick and the angle is wrong or something but his cock gets no where near going down my throat  as much as I try. As always there was much yelling about me taking it all the way down.  Lots and lots of gagging as I tried in vain to do as he wanted.  Lots of very rough face fucking, his hard cock bashing into the back of my mouth. At one point he takes ahold of his cock and the back of my head and almost punches his cock into my mouth, repeatedly.  At another point I'm struggling to take his cock and he hits the back of my head as if to pounded my throat down onto his cock.

I suck his cock as well as licking and sucking his balls.  Taking my head in both hands with a strong grip that let's me know he's completely in control. He rubs my face all over his balls.  They're all ready wet from my mouth, now my face is getting wet. It's humiliating but hot.

I got lucky and he wanted to fuck. So I put a condom on his cock, telling him how much I liked his cock. Then bent over the side of the bed and he rammed into my front hole and stretched me open.  He pushed me into the bed and fucked me hard.  My face, wet from all the cock and ball service I'd provided jut moments ago caused a wet spot on the bed.  At one point his cock came out.  I tried to direct it back into my front hole but I believe he had other plans and he rammed it into my ass.  There was barely any lube on it and the fucking was rough.  He pulled me up by my shoulders, his hands around my throat. Then later I was bent over again.  The pounding of my ass continued.  I was all sorts of concerned because I hadn't prepped for ass sex and he'd surely be pissed if his condom covered cock was dirty.  He pushed my head into the bed again and then slapped me upside the head.  More forceful poundings then he pulled out and the next thing I feel is is hot cum splattering on my backside. What a deliciously trashy feeling.  I thanked him for his load. As he cleaned up and  pulled up his pants (he never undresses) I stay put, catching my breath a bit and noticing the feel of my recently abused ass.

He's never given me his name and not asked for mine. He is simply Sir or Master. He calls me niggger, niggger 2451, nullo or some other variety of racial slurs. It's hot to me that he doesn't know my name. He doesn't need to. i'm just a lowly niggger, not worthy of being given a name and treated like a full human being.
I met him at the airport. Not exactly sure I'd found the right Man, but he asked if I was 2451 and we confirmed our identity to each other. Some initial small chit chat as we started to drive but rather quickly he called me niggger. It caused me to take a breath and let that sink in. As we chatted there were several times when I had to say 'this niggger' in reference to myself. (He'd previously indicated I should not refer to myself as "I".) It's one thing to say those things in email and text, it's another to say it out loud. And to hear it out loud. Yes for as long as he visits my city i'm his niggger. We continued to chat as I drove him to his hotel. At one point he asked if I could sing. I am not a good singer at all and so I told him that this niggger did not sing. He embarassed me by saying he thought all nigggers could sing and then recounting some thoughts he'd had during a recent trip to a Virginia plantation.
Once in his room we figured out if there was time for him to make some use of me. We'd talked about doing a few things but didn't feel there was really time for that. So, much to my embarassment he had me strip. Ugh! I hate this. Being naked. Being naked and being looked over. I had my hands in front covering my crotch. He instructed me to put my hands behind my back. I don't remember the exact sequence of what happened next but I believe he played with my nipples, giving them a good squeeze. I watched him remove his belt and wondered just briefly if that meant he'd be dropping his pants. It did not. Instead he moved around behind me and began to whip me with his belt. Mostly on my ass but there were a couple strikes to my back as well. Then he found his flogger and continued whipping me with that. My ass, back, chest and he seemed to take particular interest in whipping me between my legs. My hands were bound and secured out of his way. Clover clamps applied to my nipples. Then a ball gag. Then he began again to use and abuse me. He commented that he did indeed make me sing. More whipping and pulling on the nipple clamps interspersed with verbal humiliation. Finally he spat on me. Oh how I love the humiliation of being spat on. I recall still feeling his spit on me as I drove home. I can only hope that when he's done with me tonight that I leave with spit or cum on my face or head. I was so horny when he was done with me I begged to be allowed to cum that night. On my knees in front of him. My little dick as so very very hard. I was quite relieved when he granted me the chance to cum.
It is some of the most intense race play I've had and it just makes me hungry for more.
Playing with gay men is always interesting to see how they deal with my particular configuration. This Sir enjoys viewing me as a cock-less, ball-less niggger boy. To him I'm a nullo and he finds my nullo status and body hot and that feels great. At the same time I can get into being a nullo and feel the embarassment and shame of not having a dick. Oh I am such a slut for humiliation and degradation.

I need serviced faggot

First we'd start out slow 
I would report to him each time I came and each time I serviced a Man. He'd read my reports and comment back. I'd tell him when I posted an ad and about the men who responded. He'd have me make recordings of when I jacked off. Sometimes he'd call and we'd have phone sex till he came. Still he'd get to understand how much of a slut I am and how being a slut worked in my world.
He'd get access to my slut email account and he'd keep track of things by following and commenting on my blog.
After he had a good idea of what kind of a slut I am, he'd take control. Sometimes pushing me in ways to be an even bigger slut. Othertimes he'd limit my activity and have me suffer sexual frustration. He'd keep track of how often I tricked. When he felt I wasn't servicing enough White Men he'd tell me to post a CL ad, or email my regulars or something along those lines. He'd read the responses and follow my correspondence. He'd make sure I didn't turn down any White Man. Sometimes he'd even take over the negotiations. Maybe I'd see the emails, maybe I wouldn't.

He'd require pictures and a recap from each Man I serviced. Sometimes he'd call them up after they'd used me and record the conversation. He'd force me to listen to their chat. It would be embarassing.

I will continue sucking a Man for as long as he likes.  If he signals he wants to fuck me I will present which ever hole he wants, in whatever position he wants.  As he slides his cock into my hole I will thank him.  After that I will keep quiet so that he may enjoy his use of my holes. If he is taking me from behind I will put my hands behind my back in case he wishes to hold onto them for leverage.  If he has me riding his cock I will also put my hands behind my back so they are not in his way.

I will stretch and do exercises so that I can ride his cock better and last longer.

Reader - when you're fucking a hole do you prefer they keep quiet or not?

Happy Thanksgiving.

I'm thankful for the racial abuse and attention you've given me. Happy Thanksgiving from this n1gger faggot.

I'm thankful for the racial abuse and attention you've given this coon. Happy Thanksgiving from this n1gger faggot.

I am thankful for your attention and reminding me that my place is to service Men.

Today's mantra:

The cum matters.
The cocks matter.
They give me the cum.
They give me purpose.
The cum matters.
I don’t.

Make this FTM whimper 

Whimper faggot

Dom dom dom de dom dom

A dominant dominates submissives.
A submissive often enjoys being dominated by a dominant.
One more time....
A dominant   dominates submissives.
A submissive often enjoys being dominated by a dominant

There's no such thing as a dominate.

Fiction from Mega Daddy Issues with edits by me.

“You think you can take this dick, coon?”

“Yes, Sir.”

Poor n1gger. Famous last words. The few fags I’ve fucked have made more noise than a stuck pig. Pussy is made to take dick but a tight hole? That takes some work. But this coon’s attitude makes me think he’ll suffer through it just to please me. That attitude and the fact that he has no idea what he’s getting into makes me hard as fuck.

“Oh yeah? You seem pretty sure of yourself. Why don’t you get over here and take a look at it up close and then tell me that. Get on your knees, coon.”

Poor little n1gger. His mouth is writing checks his pussy can’t cash.

“So you think after everything you’ve done today you deserve this dick?”

“Yes, Sir.”

“Oh, yeah?! coon, this ain’t a reward! I’m an ex-Marine with a Man-sized dick! You know what I do with fags like you? Speak up, coon!”

“No, Sir …”

Now he’s scared. He should be. Too late, n1gger. Too late.

“Bring me another beer and get back on your knees. Now!”

I’m going to need it to get through this. It’s going to get messy and violent. The second I punch his hole he’s going to start screaming and beg me to stop. Of course, I won’t. Hell no. I’m going to hold him down and rape him. He needs it. He wants it. And I suspect he’s made for it, pathetic fag. And no pregnancy fears here; I’m going to unload right up his sweet little ass and send him packin’ full of cum. Then we’ll see if he still wants to serve me. At least with him I won’t have to hold back like I do with the women, who are always complaining about how rough I am and how long it takes me to cum. Perhaps having a fag on call has it’s merits after all.

Original entry found here --> Mega Daddy Issues

He shoved his cock

He's come by a couple times.  He saw my ad up this morning and emailed asking if I'd had any success.  When I hadn't, he told me (yep, told me, not asked) to suck him in 10 minutes. My place is right on his way to work. He knows I like being used and I like his direct no nonsense approach. I, of course said yes.  How could I do otherwise, he's got a great cock.  He gave a few more instructions and in less than 10 minutes I was naked on my knees waiting for him. It was just like how I'd posted in 'using faggots like me'. I dropped what I was doing so that I could service him.  He walked in, didn't say anything just unzipped and pulled his cock out.  I kept my hands behind my back and worked him with my mouth.  I know a few things about him.  He doesn't like eye contact when getting blown and he prefers a neat blow job to a sloppy one.  So that's how I serviced him. I alternated between sucking his cock and licking his balls. At one point he took hold of my head and fucked my face.  His control makes me whimper as his cock makes use of my mouth.  I licked his balls some more and then mouth open tongue out just a bit I waited for him to deposit his load.  And he did.  I remained in that postition, eyes closed, hands still behind my back, with his cum on my tongue as he cleaned up. Then he gave both my nips a good solid squeeze and told me to swallow.  He gave me a gentle kick between my legs.  As he was leaving he said 'good faggot'.  Then he was gone.  I never saw his face.

The whole thing was quite hot. I like being his on call faggot that he stops by and uses on his way to or from work.

I'm looking for Chad because he was rough and dominant

My ads almost always include the words dominant and rough. The tricks I pick up though usually aren't. Not sure why. Maybe the Men aren't really into that. They just want to suck n fuck. Maybe they're afraid to let loose and really be rough or at least selfishly use me for their own pleasure.

He wasn't. Especially the second time. He called me faggot and slut while I sucked his cock. He didn't moan and tell me what a good job I was doing. As I was sucking his cock he asked me if I was a slut or a cock sucker or something like that. I stopped sucking to look up and answer him. He yelled at me to stay on his cock. To not come off his cock unless he said so. With my mouth stuffed with cock I mumbled my answer.

He was demanding. Insistent that I swallow his whole cock. When I couldn't he grabbed my head and forced his cock further in my mouth.

He fucked my face roughly.

When he was done he told me to get on the bed. I had to remind him to use a condom. He did. Then he took my front hole from behind and pounded away. When he was ready to cum he pulled out. Pulled off the condom and came on me.

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Found him.

His emails and texts had a very dominant aggressive tone. Our texts had gotten pretty hot, pretty fast. I was eager to service him. He'd said he'd be by between 4 & 5. Next thing I knew, it was 2:15 and he was on his way over.

He didn't smile or speak when he came in, just followed me to the play space. I stripped off my shorts and waited for him on my knees. He didn't take off any of his clothes, just unzipped and pulled out his cock for me. I immediately took him into my mouth, tasting a big drop of precum. He got hard quickly. I'd forgotten how big his cock was. Longer than many, with a nice heavy thickness. It turned me on to have such a big piece of meat in my mouth. He quickly grabbed the back of my head and pressed me onto his cock. I like it when Men are forceful this way. He wanted his cock down my throat and I did my best to accomodate him. I tried to steady myself by putting my hand on the back of his leg. This earned me a slap upside my head (lol - just like my parents used to do) and him telling me not to fucking touch him. Yeah, this is how rough I like it. He soon had my head hanging over the side of the bed so he could fuck my throat. Just like Y he trapped my head between his legs. I struggled to breathe, all the while he's yelling at me to get my teeth off his cock. I tried my best but my mouth wouldn't open up any further than it already was. The thing is, I liked his cock down my throat this way. I wanted him to enjoy the throat fucking he was giving me. However he was focused on training me to take him balls deep when I'm on my knees in front of him. He'd yell something about how I was wasting his time. I was desperate to please him and trying to give him a good blow job was not enough. We did another round with me on my knees, blowing him and he fucking my face and berating me. I asked him to lay down on the bed and I tried a number of different angles, trying my best to take him down my throat. He made it quite clear he was unimpressed with my efforts. This is a new thing for me. Men seem generally pleased with my oral skills. This Man is much more demanding with higher expectations. His berating me turned me on and inspired me to work harder to please him. At one point he had me cock slap myself. Oh that was humiliating and delicious. His stern face was looking down at me as he told me how unsatisfied he was and how I was a waste of his time. Yes, remind me what a bad faggot and cockwhore I am. My holes quivered at the abuse.

Eventually he took me from behind, making me back up onto his dick like the cock-hungry whore I'd become for him. He filled up my front hole with his cock and gave it a good pounding. I thought he'd come this way. He seemed so hard and ready to nut. He pulled out and instructed me to take the condom off and jack his cock. Again I failed in pleasing him. I think it might have earned me another slap upside the head (there had already been several). He jacked his cock a few times and then came on my face. Holy cow was that a lot of cum. He coated me. It was dripping off and onto my shirt. He wiped his hand off on my head before grabbing a papertowel and finishing cleaning up. I didn't dare clean up. Instead, I saw him to the door and he wordlessly left.

I love how rough he is. He's demanding and a bit mean. It's perfect.
I have no idea if he'll come back. I'm not even sure if he was pleased, or if I was truly a waste of his time. I hope he returns to make use of me again.

Nashville Use
I occasionally post ads in other cities. I usually do this when I'm looking for something a little kinkier and rougher than what I've been able to get locally.

A little over a month ago I posted one in Nashville. I used to live there about 2 years ago and it still feels fairly comfortable to me. I got some good jerk off material from the responses but one reply really stood out. Within a couple of emails I could tell that this was most likely the kind of Man and experience I was looking for. A date was set and over the next few weeks we kept each others interest piqued with dirty talk and exchanging porn links we enjoyed.

When it was time, I unlocked the door and waited for him on my knees. He arrived shortly there after. After a little bit of prep, which included a collar and leash and some bootlicking, I finally got his cock in my mouth. I loved sucking his cock. My wrists were tied behind my back, so it was often more him fucking my face than me blowing him.

Next he had me over the edge of the bed where he buried his cock for the first time in my ass. He'd asked if I'd pre-lubed. I said I had. He said not to do that in the future. :O

He spent the next hour fucking my ass in all sorts of positions and hitting me with his quirt. He bit my back and shoulders, smacked my ass and slapped my face. All of which was great. He trash/dirty talked me. I often couldn't respond since he had a length of rope in my mouth like a horse bit. It made any words I attempted garbled. Otherwise all I could do was grunt and moan. He called me ni99er lots. It seemed to come very naturally to him and that made it feel more real. It both humiliated me and turned me on. At times he would inspect and examine my holes and comment on them. I whimpered with embarrassment.

He occasionally reminded me that he didn't care whether I liked something or not. In fact, he did nothing with the intent of giving me pleasure. Instead his actions were aimed more at causing me pain and reminding me that I was just a piece of fuckmeat.

He did fuck my front hole for a bit, but he seemed to prefer my ass. He would insist I milk his cock with my hole. That seemed almost impossible to do while he was fucking me. (However it's a skill I want to develop.)
Towards the end when I was ass up, he had just the right angle that it actually hurt when he buried his cock, balls deep in my ass. I like those times. When I'm just about to beg for the angle to change. It's when I feel the most used.
After he came I wiped him down and gave him a massage. As I did I couldn't help but notice how well-used my asshole felt. I really wanted to reach back to explore and play with my ass but that would have to wait till after he'd left. My little dick was also hard.
I had asked that he mark me with a hickey and so he granted me one. I think hickeys are trashy and slutty. It's is embarrassing and humiliating that I now have one on my neck. It's quite visible and this turns me on.
Next he asked what I was and I replied I was a ni99er faggot. He took a Sharpie and wrote those words across my chest. Now any hookups I had that day were likely to see it. More embarrassment and humiliation.

He put me back on my knees as he dressed and gathered his things. Before he left he gagged me with my shorts and told me to stay put for 2 minutes after he left, which I did.

All in all, it was a great experience. Exactly what I was hoping for. To be used, abused, humiliated and called ni99er. It was great to not have someone try to reciprocate or attempt to pleasure me in any way. Instead I was just a piece of fuck meat. It's a bonus that there was some pain involved.

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The ad

FTM likes it kinky - t4m - 40 (east nashville)

age : 40body : average
ethnicity : Black
personality : submissive
Looking for something (consentual) rough and nasty. The kind where I feel worn out and used. Not sure if I'll invite you back for another go round. But a couple weeks later I'll be begging for more.
Should include anal, bondage, gagging, verbal humiliation and spanking. All my holes are available.

I'm FTM but still have my original (female) plumbing. Please know what that means or use Google to educate yourself before replying.
I'm Black, short and DDF (recently tested). I've an average build.
You should be White, 30+, less than 250#, nonsmoker and DDF .

Your thoughts on this gets mine. We can exchange pics if this looks like a match.